i'm behind schedule. i got drugged again this weekend by these fucking retards, who have explained that they believe god told them to drug me. 

great. some legit fucking idiots. and they won't go the fuck away.

you have to be a special kind of fucking imbecile to still believe in god in 2025. we don't have insane asylums anymore, but legitimate belief in god at this late a date in history ought to be grounds for permanent incarceration; they should lock the true believers up and throwaway the key. we need to drop the bullshit around this and just be honest about it. the expression of sincere, true belief in god should be a life sentence, with no chance of parole. there should be no tolerance for religious belief in polite or civilized society, in the 21st century. it's no longer something that should be accepted as "diversity", it's something that needs to be diagnosed and aggressively eradicated. let them pray in their rubber rooms where they can't hurt anybody. they'd probably like it better in the compound, anyways.

i was nonetheless able to buy a lot of things over the last week, mostly for the bathroom and laundry room. the bathroom is finally usable, although i will need to finish cleaning before i get in the shower, probably on thursday. i have been struggling to stay awake to finish my update post, but it's now next in the list.

i can also confirm that my cdb went through, and i have a $1200 deposit coming on dec 18th. the cohb should follow shortly after that. i currently have my rent moving via direct deposit, meaning i get $408 left over from odsp. that would make my income, after rent, as follows:

- $408 (odsp) (last day of month) + 

- $75 (trillium)  (10th) + 

- $25 (gst) (5th, as $100/quaterly)+

- $200 (cdb)  (third thursday) +

- $400 (i think) (cohb), but it might be $600 (?)

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$1100 or $1300

that is $1100/month (or $1300/month) after rent. so, i'm now officially better off than i was before i got evicted, thanks to the eviction making me eligible for specific programs, and a few programs kicking in to deal with inflation. my new apartment is also better, or will be when it's done.

if i can get by on $500/food (food is like 2x-5x what it was ten years ago), that leaves me with $600-$800/month for spending, recording, concerts and savings. most of it will go to savings.

speaking of which, i have an appointment on friday to set up an rdsp, which will open with $10,000 in it. i want my hisa to have $5000 in it, so i will avoid putting anything in the rdsp until that comes up..

i need to finish the application record before i update my documents, but i need to finish my update document, first. and, as has been the case the last several days, i'm extremely tired and having difficulty staying awake. i think my iron crashed, and i may be experiencing some intestinal bleeding. these fuckers need to go somewhere to die.

russia is not our enemy and we need to stop pretending that it is.

the enemies of the west are, in order:

- religious extremists

- arab imperialists, supremacists and nazis

- aggressive and expansionist chinese capitalists

the russians should be an ally to the west in fighting all three of these enemies, and it's just a matter of time before we get to that outcome, as there is too much historical process embedded into it to prevent it. it makes no sense for the west to fight the russians, and to have to align with groups that are fundamentally opposed to our self-interest in order to do so. there is no future in this. it's just foot-dragging.

we can have to drag it out all the way to yalta, but it's pointless and nonsensical to do so.

at some point, the french - it's mostly the french - are going to have to understand that the partition of ukraine is a consequence of militarizing eastern europe, and that you can't just point guns at someone indefinitely with no response. this is what happens when you aggressively dump weapons onto russia's borders.

this is mostly joe biden's fault.

but the europeans need to alter their policy to demilitarize, so they are not aggressively posing a threat to russia. they played with fire and they got burnt and they have to learn and adjust and adapt.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/livestory/ukraine-russia-us-diplomacy-war-pokrovsk-9.6999758

under pressure from the bloc quebecois, the liberals have woken up and are changing this law. you should let christopher make his point and listen. he's right.

you don't even have to read anything.

this is a small victory for free speech, but it's hopefully a positive signal and gesture towards larger changes.