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i strongly recall there being a lengthy writeup about my day biking to leamington posted at roughly this time, but it appears to have disapp...

so, i've decided that i'm not going to rewrite the review that i wrote. instead, i'm going to post this playlist here and also p...

your memory is a funny thing, i actually sorted through the google history thing and it seems as though i spent most of the morning of june ...

i’ve said over and over that i have a zero tolerance policy for censorship, but: - i’ve stated repeatedly that i don’t think this is about g...

right now, i really want to get that diet document updated....

i think we should plan for daily updates for now, but intend to phase it out a little.

yes, this is going to take some getting used to, and i may even end up in dopamine withdrawal or something.

alright, then. this is the first post directly to the archive. pros: - no delays on the servers, which was starting to get a little bit anno...

now, as it is, the focus of this blog is currently mostly on archiving, so posts here may acually even lay dormant until i catch up. my imme...

it's crystal clear that my master copy needs to be local, so it's out of the reach of the police. and, the only reason i'm doing...

what i'll need to do is just create a temporary word document and leave it on the usb key, and type right into it, using the format i...

unfortunately, i can't read this external drive in xp and the chromebook can't read the codecs used by the camera. so, i can either ...

regarding the ram/board issue on the 32-bit system... i took a known good stick and tried it in all four slots, and there was one that took ...

so, what that means is that posts to this page will no longer be in real time, but will instead occur in the form of backdated posts and in ...

i am going to repeat this request to the listener, whomever they are: 1) please identify yourself 2) please give me back the data you've...

i'm going to do the write-up, now. again: i don't understand why  somebody would delete a reflective post about bicycling to leaming...

i'm not very social right now, i'll have to wait until tomorrow to make those calls.

this is also the period when i launched legal action against the hospital for refusing to treat me, and accused the doctors of being transph...

something very unfortunate happened some time after mid-june, 2020 that affected posts dated from about june 20,2020 to about july 30, 2020 ...

and, now i'm too sad to eat breakfast - i'm going to take a nap, instead.

so, i'm trying to build a file that documents the substantive research i've put into fixing any dietary deficits i've had, somet...

the only way out of this would be to start typing into a word document instead of posting it to the internet, but that defeats a lot of the ...

there's no ulterior motive. there's no angle. there's no master plan. it's just where i record what i'm thinking, with t...

....and i don't want  them to be worth anything to anybody but me.

i don't want to charge a fee to read this, because that's not what this is. these are my personal thoughts; they're not worth an...

i can't recreate the memories by staring at the screen. but, i need to plead with the person doing this: give me my posts back, so that ...

well, what else am i supposed to do to archive this? i'm emailing it to multiple inboxes and checking that every post shows up in the in...

i remember talking about how everything was wilderness in every direction, growing up in ottawa... these are just memories . they mean nothi...

i also remember talking about county road 34, and how it was a very old road.... i can't grasp why  anybody would delete these kinds of ...

please give me back the memories that you've stolen from me - in my email, at least, if not in this space. i won't ask questions. i ...

the other thing that's just baffling to me about all of this is that the things that disappear are just consistently trivial. what i...

it's one thing to delete something from public view; i may oppose it on principle, but we can debate and discuss that. it's another ...

this is my life. i want anything that is taken from here to be put back where it belongs, please.

i also remember pointing out that i made it home before dark, and also talking about the little towns on the way there. but, the write-ups f...

if i'm right that the post was deleted, it was also deleted from two separate email boxes. yes - it's hard to take that premise seri...

see, again... i'm almost certain i did a write-up for the bike ride to leamington in june, 2020. i remember talking about how it doesn...

so, what is a right-wing perspective on the encroaching islamicization of western society? well, the answer is this: read edmund burke, who ...

the formatting here is awful, but we've got up until the end of may done.

if marx (or bakunin) were alive and writing today, the media would label him a far-right extremist.

today's post is the first rabit is wolf recording with the alternate singer, sean, but it's just a tease, until it becomes my primar...

chew on this point: if you wanted to convert a godless, uncontrollable population into obedient slaves to a dominant system of religion, wou...

the leftist analysis here is not that the muslims are coming to kill all the christians and replace you with them. the leftist analysis is t...

this  is why i worry about the elite pushing islam down. it's not a right-wing position - it's a marxist analysis. and, i've bee...

so, my 32-bit recording pc (which i'm still filing, periodically) has developed some kind of ram and/or board issue that i'm also tr...

the republicans have every right to throw liz cheney out of their party if they don't think she holds their values.

so, i had what i used to call a normal but now seems like a long - 20+ hours - day yesterday, which was good. but, it meant i had to sleep a...

it's hard to abstract an idea of what the region needs, because the logical analysis is that the israelis simply wipe the palestinians o...

why would yang even post something baffling like that? because new york has a large jewish community that can swing votes. and, that's a...

it truly is a delusional statement, there's no question. i'm a realist about this: the palestinians have no path, here, besides tryi...

great! let's do it immediately. we're not going to win the war against carbon with conservative, incrementalist policies. this is ex...

today's post is the absurdly layered inri048, which i strongly suggest you listen to through a good system with full range headphones, i...

google has only ever notified me of it's intent to censor a single post in this space, and it reversed it's decision upon review. so...

again, there's this constant feeling as though posts are missing, ad though i'm reacting to thoughts that have disappeared - but if ...

if i didn't know any better, i might wonder if the colonoscopy industry successfully lobbied the government to set restrictions on fit a...

this article at harvard (which is available in google's cache) is an exact summary of everything i've posted so far. - fit tests sho...

the age of 50 is really legitimately arbitrary, it seems. people 40-49 are apparently at higher statistical risk than people aged 50-59. htt...

that wasn't how i planned to spend the afternoon, but so be it. i need to stop to eat.

$60 just seems exorbitant. the internet suggests something in the $8 range is more reasonable, and the at-home kits are in the $25 range. it...

so, i'll need to call around in the morning, but it seems like there's probably only really one option in windsor.

i should call around for the lowest price.

i may have found something in windsor, on second thought.

so, they want to charge me $59 and are suggesting i don't use the mail. the at home kits are cheaper.

so, i called the cancer check program and, after giving them shit, they gave me a number in brampton to call... i might have to pay for it. ...

it is far more important for me to get my iron stores up to correct for the obvious absorption problem than it is to check for the infinites...

all the literature just instructs me to do the other fecal test. but, i can't do the other fecal test until i go off iron, and i'm n...

again - universal healthcare sounds great, right? i can't even buy it. it's not for sale. there's no way to do it. it's ridi...

the official position from the ontario government appears to be that people under the age of 50 should get colonoscopies instead of fecal te...

so, i apparently can't order a fit test unless i'm 50 because it "may lead to delays in diagnosis". but, there's a 0% ...

i understand the need to test for this, truly. but i'm in the lowest possible risk category for colon cancer that you could abstractly i...

i eat a fibre-dominant diet and almost no meat. i couldn't be kinder to my colon, truly. but i'll do the damned test.

poop update. i skipped the salad for a few days and noticed the poop firm back up again. i had a giant salad last night for the first time i...

the irony is that ford was elected on a sort of libertarian mandate pushing for small government, with all the typical arguments about how g...

i need to be clear: what i'm saying is that you'd expect flu transmission to begin decreasing around this time of year in any other ...

science is fun. somebody tell that to the health authorities....

this is as rough and dirty as it gets because i decided many months ago that i don't have time to analyze poorly collected data, and nob...

in most of ontario, winter-like weather starts in mid-september and ends in mid-april. the null hypothesis is that the curve documenting the...

april 20, 2020 the response in ontario has been bungled on purpose. first, they don't do enough testing to pull out anything meaningful ...

as i'm working through this, what are the results of my dietary shift? - the number of migraines i've had recently is greatly reduc...

today's post is the proto-symphonic piece (it's more like a chamber work) initially known as symphony #0 and currently referred to a...

it's approved for some eye conditions, apparently. i should probably bring it up with the doctor when he calls back about the surgery. h...

so, i'm in the same quandary as i am with my teeth. if i can wait this out, converting my testicles into ovaries using gene editing is a...

the science appears to be here, but clinical applications are still at the phase where scientific illiterates and religious zealots get toge...

hrmmmmn. https://scienceblog.com/504175/male-mice-grow-ovaries-after-single-gene-tweak/

that's got me wondering, though. even better than removing my testicles would be to convert them to ovaries. how far are we from that?

the takeaway is that the chemistry facilitating sex reversal is not particularly obscure. so, it's not  immutable. deal with it. https:/...

you could potentially even do it with gene editing in a live human. https://www.nationalgeographic.com/science/article/one-gene-stops-ovarie...

fwiw. sex is not an immutable characteristic. that's where people go wrong with this - they don't understand the science properly. ...

the problem is that the server is constantly reformatting it in ways that are dumb, and there's simply no way to disable it. so, i just ...

it does mean, unfortunately, that you'll have to wait until i'm done before i can post it.

i got through may, 2020 this morning for the diet build before the machine crashed, unfortunately. the microsoft servers are unreliable for ...

i stumbled upon this randomly last night and i'm going to quietly watch and subscribe to it, as it's sort of interesting to see some...

i don't want this incarnation of the liberals to get their majority back until they actually do  something to earn it. i haven't rea...

it seems to be the conservative political groups that are pushing for online schooling, and it's easy enough to figure out that it's...

today's post is the absolutely ridiculous symphony of psilocybin induced madness. did i really write this on a mushroom trip when i was ...