so, i finally cleared out the overposting at the deathtokoalas blog, which i'm posting a skeleton of for 2014 as a clean-up and put-aside step. i decided to just rip out the commentary altogether.

i had decided a few days ago that maybe the deathtokoalas blog could have this existentialist narrative attached to it, but what ended up happening is that following that existentialist narrative opened up into too much of a personal story, which is not the intent of that blog. that blog is intended to focus on media criticism. so, i just cut the commentary out altogether.

that side of the narrative is explored in the other three blogs, with varying levels of continuity.

so, i'm done with this now and am ready to move on to 2015.

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/

this was the elevation going from windsor to leamington yesterday, which is maybe why the wind felt so brisk.

and, that might explain why it felt faster on the way home, as well.

it seemed flat, but i guess there was a steady incline. i guessed as much moving home, on the other side of it.

interesting.

https://dailyhive.com/vancouver/canadians-support-universal-basic-income

i strongly recall there being a lengthy writeup about my day biking to leamington posted at roughly this time, but it appears to have disappeared. while i have toyed with writing a review now, which would be far more comprehensive than this playlist, i'm ultimately not confident that i would recreate the feeling i had over this day in the same way that i did then, and any writeup at this time would consequently necessarily be lacking. so, i would prefer to leave a post here calling out the barbarism of censorship, so that google can experience the shame of facilitating the silencing of a harmless person telling a harmless story about biking to the store to locate estrogen.

it was a good day, and i'm glad i at least filmed it.

but, shame on the entity, organization and individual that deleted this post, and then didn't even have the decency and courage to tell me it was deleted. and, shame on google for allowing them to do it.

how far did i bike today?

i went there and i went back. so, that's 54.5*2 = 109 km. that's about 68 miles.

google says three hours, and maybe that might be true if literally biking at a constant rate, but i stopped repeatedly for hydration, which is a real-life adjustment. it took me about four hours in either direction.

i don't feel that this is the limit of what i could do on a bike over a day. rather, i'm sure i could do more. but, i worry about the safety of the roads. much further than leamington, and i'm going to have to take a freeway, and i don't want to.

i'm also rather sun burnt, and won't know the extent of it until tomorrow.

i got enough for 25 days. let's just hope there's a better answer in 25 days....

how do i feel after that? i think it'll hit me tomorrow...

so, what's going on with me?

yesterday, i got a little bit upset about the border being closed for another month and went to get something to eat to kind of let me head settle before i started strategizing, and i decided that i couldn't waste the solstice sitting inside complaining. so, i went and bought a quarter of what so far seems to be better quality marijuana, at a reasonable price. it worked out to $65 for the quarter after taxes, which is in line with expected costs. we'll see how i feel as the solstice contains to carry on, but i'm feeling alright for just right now.

i didn't get a thing done last night at all, i just got lost reading articles, and made a comment or two on them. but, i was more just baked and wanting to passively read. it happens, sometimes.

this afternoon, i finally started calling around about the estrace and found 100 pills in an undisclosed location that is going to require some travelling to get to tomorrow. google wants to either send me up this gravel dirt path (which is going to be awful bicycling through) or down this abandoned rural, forested road, presumably because it's the shortest path. but, i'd like to travel mostly through civilization of some sort, even if that civilization is just farmland. i'm not keen about getting eaten while bicycling to get estrace. so, i've been charting my own path through the essex back roads, to try to maximize human contact while travelling. i'm realizing that this region is far more populated than i imagined it was. i think i can do this fairly reasonably.

so, i'm off for an adventure tomorrow.

the good news is that that's another 25 days, so if i can get all of the running around i need done, hopefully i can finish that thought process i started the other day relatively quickly. i never got around to cleaning up the overposting on the deathtokoalas blog, and should get to doing that tonight, maybe.

you can put me in the category of people that think this is for the best.

i've read a few articles lamenting the turn that canada has taken since the paul martin years, in truth, which were carried through with by stephen harper, and then picked back up again by the liberals. see, i think this is the kind of major error that defines confusion over canada's failure to return to it's very liberal 20th century foreign policy after the return of the "liberals"; the truth is that it was the martin purges that initially set this forward in the first place.

there was a distinct move towards aligning canada more directly with the united states during the mulroney administration, but it was kind of wobbled against by the chretien government, without stepping too far out of line. canada made kind of a bold stand against the united states at the united nations over iraq, refusing to take part in it because it was, in fact, illegal. but, it contributed to the invasion in other ways that it didn't feel technically contravened international law. as correct a stand as that was, it created a lot of headaches for a lot of people, and his poor relationship with the bush administration is actually a key part of the reason he was asked to step down midway through a strong third mandate. when martin came in, mending things up with the americans was a top priority. this reached a peak under harper, perhaps, but only because the existing president is so unpredictably hostile to a country that spent a lot of time trying to build very close ties. the model for this government was very close collaboration with a clinton administration, remember.

under chrystia freeland, this has taken a turn towards the absurd, with canada's aggressive involvement in venezuela being particularly disappointing. this is all being done, remember, to curry american favour, as this was seen as the best way to ensure access to their markets. we've demonstrated how far we are willing to go, and it is directly into the abyss.

now, nobody wants us making security decisions, and perhaps for good reason - right at the time when our codependent relationship with the united states is meeting up with a point of self-realization, and the failure of this policy is becoming apparent.

canada needs some time to reflect on what it actually is, and where it's going in the future. and, it should take the loss as the rebuke that it is.

i don't know if a return to a 20th century model is a salvageable or desirable proposal at this point, or if canada is even important enough to save, in the grander scheme of the board. but, we're clearly stuck, and need to find ourselves, somehow - either in the form of a renaissance of canadian liberalism, or as a colony of the united states. we can't have it both ways, clearly - the rest of the world isn't buying it.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7070563/canada-united-nations-security-council-seat/

you know, dexamethasone and hydroxychloroquine are used for many of the same purposes, and the success of the former appears to be that it is succeeding in reducing those cytokine storms that identified hydroxychloroquine as a potential treatment, for extremely ill patients.

it does sometimes happen that a specific formulation of a class of drugs may be more effective in a certain scenario, but if it is the case that dexamethasone is succeeding and hydroxycholoroquine is failing then some kind of reasoning as to why that is would be useful in demonstrating the point.

as it is, i'm not sure that small scale trials for the success of this new drug should be treated much differently than small scale trials for the success of the previous one were, and i'd not be at all surprised if clinical trials for dexamethasone end rather similarly to ones for hydroxycholoroquine.

there might be some specific difference in delivery or something; i'm not discounting it. i'm just a little skeptical, given that they appear to be prescribed interchangeably for most if not all of their clinical uses.

well, we know the virus travels in sewage. and, we know that lots of countries dump their sewage into the water. if the salmon was caught not far from a dumping site, including perhaps in british columbia, then it's not entirely insane to think the virus may have entered the salmon's gills, or otherwise been stored in it's bodies, even just via osmosis, as a consequence of living near a dumping site; it's another question to speculate as to whether the salmon may have been actively infected by the virus.

however, it's easy enough to argue that somebody may have sneezed over the cutting board, as well.

so, i would hope that other possible explanations are being explored.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/health/coronavirus-outbreak-china-who-1.5612838

there's a dog across the street, and the first couple of times it saw me walk by, it modulated between incessant yelping and curious distance. but, as it has seen me walk by a few times, it's grown accustomed to me, and is now approaching me with wagging tail and sagging tongue.

see, i think it's figured out what i'm doing when i go out. i don't want to say the magic w-word, it might know and get excited, and think....but alas, no. i will walk...shit...right by every time.

central to this change in reaction, i think, is the recognition that i live across the street. the dog seems to have noticed that, specifically, and been able to abstract close living conditions with pack membership. i live in this dog's hood, so i'm therefore cool to walk with.

it remains to be seen how the dog reacts to repeated rejection, as i continue to saunter by and leave it behind. in it's dog's mind, it no doubt believes it has an equal opportunity to walking, and it damned well knows i'm going for a walk - without him. behavioural tests on dogs have shown that they understand preferential treatment, and have an intuitive concept of justice around sharing, up to the point that they are, of course, immensely competitive for resources. it's the same contradictions we have, just in a more primal and less restrained form. so, the dog is going to no doubt feel left out, at some point.

the real revolution, of course, will come when the dog takes the initiative to walk itself. only then can there be true opportunity for all to engage in equal walking; for the dog to gain the freedom of a human to walk at will, it must seize it for itself. but, there is such a high level of responsibility to self-walking, including the need to regulate defecation, to avoid biting and to just plum out not run away, that it seems questionable whether self-walking is a realistic goal for the dog population at this point. there would really need to be a social revolution in doggy behaviour, and it would no doubt need to be expressed genotypically before it could be established with any force or regularity.

but, i wonder if the friendly dog again turns vicious in the end, due to dejection.

'cause i'm goin' for a walk. that's right. a walk. see ya doggy....

see, this is how we deal with the problem here in ontario - we pretend it doesn't exist.

windsor is one of three regions of ontario still in lockdown, because there's been a spike in cases around migrant workers. the city has called on the province to do mandatory testing, and is getting push back from the business owners, presumably because they know there's a problem. so, they're going to stop testing the migrants altogether; that way, they can get the numbers they need to open the city.

it's just the most local example of what has been clear for weeks - the numbers in ontario are useless.

but, this is what we're doing - we're pretending this doesn't exist.

https://windsor.ctvnews.ca/testing-centre-for-assessing-migrant-workers-in-windsor-area-to-shut-down-thursday-1.4987597

see, to me this brings up concerns about the virus mutating here in canada, because this hasn't happened elsewhere, and draws attention to the lack of meaningful surveillance here in ontario, due to an apparent attempt to smudge it out through delayed reporting of the data. what we don't know is the depth of it.

if we were more rigorous about collecting and analyzing samples, then we might have a better understanding of what is happening and how to stop it. as it is, it's going to be exceedingly difficult to stop an influenza-like virus from spreading amongst children, if it's been established as already having started. that was one of the major differences in the early stages of the pandemic - this didn't visibly affect children much.

if that fact has changed, then children should be added to the list of vulnerable populations, and action should of course be immediately taken to do so. we don't need this to hit daycares the way it hit the old folks homes.

listen, following the science means adjusting to the evidence. the evidence initially said it didn't hit or spread amongst kids. it's perfectly plausible that some mutation spread amongst adults quite a while before it started to spread amongst children. so, suggesting children should have been separated would be the wrong deduction, as the failure in policy came in respects to the adult population. but, now, apparently that has changed, and the policy should change along with it.

we really don't want this to hit daycares the same way it hit the longterm care facilities. let's learn something quickly. k?

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/kitchener-waterloo/increase-new-covid-19-cases-under-20s-ontario-toronto-peel-1.5612526

this is what the region needs, and the government should be aggressively pushing for it.

imagine it...

you could manufacture the machines in abandoned factories, then deploy them to all night warehouses. you'd generate good jobs creating, upgrading and maintaining the machines, which would produce produce essentially at cost. and, given that ontario's grid is able to produce so much clean energy for almost no cost, we could potentially become a major export market for things we don't already export.

but, the market won't do it on it's own, it needs help from government to do it.

get these ones out into the niagara region.

this one does tomatoes, which is key regionally.

perfect.

let's see some major government grants for this kind of shit, to turn the industry over, and pronto.

with the proper move to indoor growing, we can have year-round produce without having to import slaves to do it - and at lower overheads, and therefore cheaper prices.

on top of that, if we can get the industry building the robots in ontario, on top of the dwindled manufacturing capacity, we can restart some meaningful industry, and create a slew of spinoff jobs with multiplier effects in the mean time.

i'm sick of nineteenth century thinking. let's get beyond this. let's move forwards...

good.

cancel this, forever - it's irreformable. it's legalized slavery, and we're actually worse than the americans in how we do it.

if we're going to bring people in on temporary work visas, we should be ensuring that they get the same wages, rights and benefits as native-born workers, and we should enforce the law by inspecting the areas frequently - and sending employers that break the rules repeatedly to jail.

but, we're not going to do that. and, if we did, we would defeat the point - we bring them in so we don't have to pay them the same wages or give them the same rights and benefits of native-born workers, because it's so much more profitable to hire a slave.

do i think that canadians should do this work instead? we're often told that canadians don't want to do this, which i think is a misrepresentation of the facts - canadians may not want to work at below minimum wage in an industry with no collective bargaining, but what's the actual problem here, insofar as that's true?

but, this is the wrong question to ask at this stage in history.

the right question to ask is if we can automate this, thereby emancipating the labour involved. and, the answer is surely that we're pretty close to it.

let's hope this is the push required to finally mechanize this, and end this barbarity once and for all.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/windsor/mexico-pauses-tfw-to-canada-covid-1.5613518

click here: 1:13:40 to watch leonard susskind use abstract theoretical physics to demonstrate conservation of momentum, under the assumption that the earth is flat.

listen....

it'd be fine if this was an introduction to newtonian mechanics in a grade 12 class. but, he just spent three hours building up an extremely abstract meta theory,  to throw it all away in a bunch of backwards assumptions that should not be made in the context of doing this in such an abstract way.

the earth is not flat, and dU/dx is consequently not zero.

yes, this is a course in classical mechanics. and, yes, that's a simplifying assumption that is just fine in the context of classical mechanics. but, wasn't the point of building up the theory he just built up to work through those assumptions more rigorously? why bother if you're just going to make naive newtonian errors?

there should be a limiting process, there - and, yes, you're going to end up with zero in the limit in the end. but i came here to see that done.

for now, i'm just going to ignore this catastrophe and otherwise let him finish.

if you're keeping track, though, we've learned watching these lectures that susskind is both a conspiracy theorist and a flat-earther.

so, that's two of the last three summers that have been wasted, now.

i didn't move down here to waste my life away.

this sucks :(

this government is a nightmare.

i'm almost willing to vote conservative to get rid of them. which is saying a lot...

first things first, that means i need to figure out where i'm getting my estrogen from this month.

i was hoping i could buy it in detroit.

i'm going to have to call around. i might have to find a way to get to leamington, or something.

i mean, what do you think i'm going to do?

go drink in somebody's back yard and talk about nothing?

go have sex?

that's boring...

the upside is that if i'm not doing anything then i should be able to save $200-300/month for later.

so, when they do re-open the border, i should have a nice sum put aside to spend.

even if they re-open here in windsor, there's nothing to do in this boring city, so expect me to sit inside on the computer all summer and complaint about the air conditioner upstairs making me tired and my disgusting neighbours smoking drugs.

worst summer ever :(.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/border-covid-extension-july-1.5613854

so, why don't i go out on the streets, then?

because i can't support a movement based on identity, under any scenario. in a real sense, this frightens me. and, i'm sure i'm going to just end up in a debate with liberals or centrists on the ground.

i'll stay out of their way and let them finish, but i'm just simply not interested in participating in anything that's not explicitly rooted in class politics.

and, i realize i have to let them make that choice without cooption or coercion - or it won't work.

windsor has somewhat of a vibrant bro-rock scene, but i'm not remotely interested in it. that's one of the more disappointing things about moving down here; the house shows lean firmly on the side of metal, which is a genre that i simply don't like.

as a small, half-rural area, it also has folk & country scenes, but i don't care about those.

there's just nothing here that's of any interest to me. i moved to detroit, not to windsor....

if this is permanent, i'm going to end up moving to toronto.

so, i've got the travel side done for 2014.

https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/

i think i overposted to the dtk side, and am going to go through carefully and double check. but, it should be done within a few hours, as well.

so, i'd like to call on the leaders of the united states and canada to put aside their petty, childish egotistical squabbling over stupid bullshit that nobody cares about and open the border, already.

this isn't about stopping the spread of a virus. there's no science, whatsoever, to back up the efficacy of border closures in stopping pandemics - it's just base fallacy. what it is is trumpian logic. and, no - our collective governments haven't lost their minds, and caved into the stupidity.

this might have initially been political in nature, but it's not anymore. now, it's about bruised egos.

and, it's stupid. it needs to stop.

there are cities on both sides of the border with large tourism sectors that are going to suffer dramatically over this, and that is not fair. small businesses in windsor should not be forced to suffer because the prime minister feels that the president insulted him. nor should small businesses in the united states be forced to suffer to uphold the president's ego.

as a border citizen, let me be clear: i don't fucking care about any of that bullshit. ok? what i care about is the fact that detroit is on the verge of reopening, and the fact that my summer is going to be ruined if i'm stuck here in boringtown shitsville, instead.

open the border, already....

there's a lot of strawmen of me out there. i don't fully know where they're coming from, or where they're propagating through, but i know they're there.

it's hard to react to something that you're not really fully aware of.

so, i'll make the request i've made before - my email address is on the side. you know i like a good debate. so, let me know what's going on.

so long as i'm not fully aware of what's being said about me, all i can do is ask you to come here to the source, rather than rely on these strawmen perceptions of me - or people trying to score points by knocking those strawmen over.

i crashed early yesterday and slept long. it's the weather, and the air conditioner isn't helping. i seem to just shut down and stop working in the cold. one more cold day and then it's set to turn for the better with some humidity building up tomorrow...

i got october done, which is not enough work. at this rate, it will take months to get through this. i need longer days than this...and less sleep.....

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/10/
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/10/

yesterday was kind of a weird day, in the end. i didn't push forward much...

i'm now up to the end of sept, 2014 (just the music journal) and am going to stop to eat.

1) deathtokoalas:
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/02/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/03/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/04/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/05/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/06/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/07/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/08/
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/09/

2) travel blog:
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/02
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/03
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/04
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/05
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/06
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/07
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/08
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/09

"so, wait. you would only support the blacks if they have politics you agree with? where's your solidarity?"

listen.

if you think i should support a movement based on identity politics, then i think you're what's wrong with the world.

yes, i will support you based on whether i like your politics or not, and if you think that's disagreeable, then i'll have to disagree with you.

as an anarchist of the left, i support police & prison abolition in it's most extreme and literal sense. however, i don't support "retributive justice" in any context, whatsoever; i think it's barbaric, and i think people arguing for it are barbarians.

and, i don't care about your race, your ethnicity, your religion, your gender or any other sort of identity you'd like to claim for yourself.

see, like i say - i support this. sort of. what i support is pretty much the most radical version of the abolition movement, and i'm fully cognizant that any movement to actually do this is going to probably end up working against my actual interests, for the simple reason that there's so little support for it. when you get people together in a city like minneapolis, the actual proposals are going to end up disappointingly conservative.

we're getting a little ahead of ourselves, on this. the social conditions for this kind of a change are not yet in place. and, you can call me a technological determinist if you'd like (i don't consider that to be an insult. i'd rather be a technological determinist than a historical materialist.), but it's not clear that we've made the final push past post-industrialization to eliminate the ruling class' system of worker control yet, either. but, as mentioned, this is likely imminent; if active policing is a function of industrialization, it's not clear that it ought to survive deindustrialization, or alter-industrialization, as it may actually be.

but, how much popular support is there for the retribution-first police reform movement that i admittedly initially kneejerked against, apparently partly due to bad reporting? i suspect you'd find that more people support sending the "bad apple" cops to jail, because that's how they're trained to see the issue. people, bizarrely, still seem to think the cops are there to help; they never have been, that's never been their role or function. they've always been there to protect property...

so, i know that the general reading of this is to yell that all of these white people must be racists for standing up for the cops, but i really think the truth is closer to the reality that they're brainwashed by the capitalist press into accepting the benevolence of the police state, just as 40+% of blacks seem to be.

i also need to interject a polling analysis. a poll like this is going to overweight urban & northern blacks, because they're easier to reach. they're actually not the majority of blacks, though. i would suspect that if you were more careful about sampling to ensure proper representation by rural, southern blacks, who are more conservative, then you'd mostly erase the difference, and get more or less the same result.

remember: the capitalist press will attempt to divide us by race at every possible opportunity. that is, to a major extent, it's actual function. and, it's no coincidence that the divide and conquer picks up in times of crisis.

https://abcnews.go.com/Politics/64-americans-oppose-defund-police-movement-key-goals/story?id=71202300

great. send the families to the sticks, it'll decrease rent in the cities and open up more space for artists to exist.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7062983/coronavirus-canadians-leaving-city/

and, yes, you would expect the union movement to be conservative and reactionary about this, because it always is.

stated tersely and bluntly, just about everything i've read from the union movement on this topic demonstrates a staggering level of ignorance about actual marxist economics - because these are people that organize on the ground, and have no doubt never read any marxist theory.

so, they'll say things like "we should resist a ubi in the face of automation because higher wages and good jobs are preferable", which is both total delusion and a literal negation of the entire concept of communism, which is supposed to be about the emancipation of the proletariat from menial labour. no, communists should not choose "good jobs" over freedom from capitalist expropriation! i used to call them brainwashed, but the truth is that it's worse than that; they're just ignorant, and disinterested in the theory they're supposed to represent. they don't know what they're even talking about, anymore.

so, they will no doubt resist ubi in the face of encroaching automation, just like they resisted cross-border unions and labour reforms during globalization - to their extreme detriment.

i tend to cite malatesta as having the insight that these groups will always operate in the interests of capital, because they don't know any better. they don't want communism; they want to protect their privileged positions in capitalism, and, like their capitalist masters, they don't have the foresight to see that their arguments are self-defeating - that they're just going to end up with nothing, as their boss automates their jobs.

the left is supposed to embrace technology, not move against it in reactionary or conservative ways, and detroit has a history of leading the way on embracing changes brought on by technology, in that manner.

this is the future, and we have an opportunity to push it forward right now, as we are assembled, in a time of crisis.

is a ubi actually communism?

most advocates want to tell you it's not communist, because they don't want to scare you. yet, here i am, using explicitly marxist terms in describing it. i have different motives, clearly.

the answer is that it depends how you frame it; i'm explicitly framing it as a communist idea because i'm in favour of moving to communism, but that's not exactly necessary...

the idea, as it exists in the contemporary discourse, actually comes largely from milton friedman, a right-wing liberal economist known for doing horrible things in chile, amongst other things. the way he formulated the idea was as a negative income tax, so that you'd have a minimum level of income, no matter what. under friedman's scheme, if you made $15,000 last year and the minimum income was set at $40,000 then the government would send you a $25,000 check to make up the difference, whereas if you made $80,000 then you wouldn't receive the gai, you'd just pay taxes. while i think the minimum income idea is a more implementable concept than just sending everybody a check (and would probably help stave off friedman's fear of inflationary policies, which are probably legit in context), i don't really want to frame this in terms of marginal tax rates, or progressive taxation. it is worth being clear, though, that, in friedman's formulation of the concept, capitalism can carry on as it likes - it's just an unusually generous form of welfare designed to ensure that nobody gets left behind.

rather, i want to think about it as a step towards common ownership of the means of production, in what is almost more of a fordist concept. yes, detroit - that ford. he has an ism. really. you can look up the debate between fordism and taylorism, but the shift was essentially a starkly liberalizing approach to workers' economic rights, for the end net benefit of the capitalist class. capital is always selfish, but sometimes it can be enlightened in it's selfishness - marx' claims of short-sightedness do have counterexamples, and fordism is perhaps the major one. so, what ford did was realize that his workers were also his most likely customers, and he therefore boosted their wages high enough to ensure that they could buy the products they made.

why is that important? because what's being lost in this move towards automation is that nobody is going to circulate money in an economy that doesn't have any jobs, and capital is going to end up the big loser, in the end. there's the short-sightedness; capital will automate to save costs, and then lose all of it's customers in the process, because it is too driven by greed to work it out. so, we'll end up with computers everywhere, 70% unemployment and a large underclass of people that can't afford to interact with the computers that took their jobs. the insight that keynes developed from ford was that a functioning capitalist economy requires that you give workers enough money to buy the things being made, which led to these ideas of keynesian stimulus spending, namely that to get the economy running again in bad economic times, the government increases the money supply to get people to buy things by sending it to them directly. and, it has to be the government that does it.

but, if all of the jobs are being lost permanently, we're not talking about short term stimulus spending anymore. we're no longer kickstarting the economy. instead, we're now talking about structural spending programs designed to give consumers money to spend to keep businesses running - and citizens healthy and happy.

in the very short term, this should function like a basic keynesian spending program, with multiplier effects and the whole shebang. in the long run, though, the whole thing should fizzle out, as deflation sets in - and the system of monetary exchange should end up abolished altogether, as we slowly take over actual collective ownership of production, and exchange commodities based on need, rather than due to a desire for accumulation.

so, while what i'd actually advocate today looks more like a minimum income tax, i'd rather talk about it like it's a jump to full communism, and bring in these explicitly communist terms. 'cause that's what i want, and how i want to frame the debate.

in a fully communist society, you'd have something that is more like a maximum income than a minimum income. there's this kind of misconception that everybody gets the same thing in communism, and i'm not exactly sure where it comes from; no leftist that i've ever read has ever argued for that. communism generally argues for distribution based on need. so, somebody with eight kids would get more of everything than a single person, because they need more of it. but, the general philosophy would flip over; you'd be restricting wealth, rather than eliminating poverty.

i don't want to step away from the debate, though - this is absolutely a step towards communism, and we should embrace it and be excited about doing it.

but, let me say this clearly before we start.

if i can't fucking dance...

let's get this party rolling.

i was just thinking outloud while doing dishes...

when the (next) revolution comes, what will it look like? and, the answer is that it will come in the mode of production, and in changes to the mode of production; the revolution will be the adoption of a universal basic income. all of these other revolts and protests are fun and everything, but it's the changes in the mode of production that lead to systemic changes and that's where the technology is taking us. that's the future...

and, it's the near future - the very near future. 

a large percentage of the jobs that have been recently lost aren't coming back, and they're not going to mexico (at least not all of them; some of them are, sure). this started decades ago, but seems to implement itself in phases, with the last phase being ushered in by the 2008 market crash, which mechanized large numbers of labour positions. is anybody tracking the mechanization of labour during this economic crisis?

but, something that's different about this technological shift is that it might hit the service sector harder than the manufacturing sector. retail has taken over such a large percentage of the labour market, so it's being targeted by capital, who will always seek to minimize labour costs.

so, all of these retail stores have been closed for months, with many of them moving to online operations. how many of them are going to reopen without staff? how many are going to reopen store fronts at all?

but, is this so terrible, really? do we really want these jobs? or, are we better off changing how we think about work, altogether?

we may be at a pretty vicious crossroads, where we have to make a very explicit choice between communism or barbarism. the sick, twisted fact is that if capital doesn't need all of these workers to turn a profit anymore, then they become useless eaters, and can essentially be thrown in the ovens. they came to european capitals from the countryside as peasants and to north american cities as poor immigrants (some, as the descendants of slaves) in the nineteenth century, with the purpose of running the factories; they were brought in, they were put to work and they were initially treated like expendable animals, before they revolted and won concessions via the labour movement, creating an ahistorically wealthy working class. but, they're no longer needed - and capital is generally very efficient in disposing with what it no longer needs, so long as there's a river near by.

in the long run, the only serious way out is the ubi. time may be catching up to the luddites, who were never debunked so much as delayed; i cannot believe that the number of jobs creating servicing self-serve kiosks will be comparable to the number of jobs creating by servicing customers. it just doesn't add up. that breaking point may finally be upon us, and what do we do?

so, i look at what's happening, while these changes in the mode of production are occurring, and i wonder. there's a lot of poor people dying, right now. and, there's a lot of people ready to burn the world down...

again: i can't go down there and make these arguments. the movement is designed to lynch me for it. i could seriously end up getting hurt.

but, i would call on the black left to take a serious look at the place we're in in history now, and ask whether this movement isn't an opportunity for a wider revolt.

because, the revolution is coming, and soon; the change in the mode of production necessitates it.

as expected, the nasty cold snap coming through here knocked me out this morning, and i'm feeling dehydrated and depressed over it. it should be gone in a few days...

i decided yesterday to do one page at a time rather than do it by month, so i got midway through july on the music journal before i crashed.

i think i'm alert, but it's too cold to think in here right now, so i'm going to do laundry & shower before i get back to this in the afternoon, when it's hopefully warmed up in here substantively.

trying to separate these three different identities is sometimes a hard task. maybe i should clarify it a little for myself, if not for others, so i'm not freaking myself out over it.

1) initially, dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja was my general posting identity. it's just a string of random characters, strategically chosen so that d starts and a ends. it means nothing, and just came out of the annoyance of trying to find a username that didn't have a number at the end of it, as those are always eyesores. some time around 2007 or 2008, i started posting very heavily on the cbc site using variations on this theme - there were dozens of accounts set up, all eventually deleted, and in the long run eradicated by the government. they disabled them all, one by one. i was hoping to get some of these conversations for the blog, but it's unlikely i'll get much, besides what's archived over email, which isn't much. and that's a shame, truly. there were some great debates there that are now lost. no thanks to michael ignatieff...

that handle ended up converted into a facebook page, which was essentially a link dump, that ran from around 2010-2014. i have most of the facebook page in archive; the tail end of it is the beginning of this blog.

while that handle was initially for everything, it is now strictly the political side of my posting persona, although it also functions as the general blog site. over time, much of that will get doubled to the music site.

2) deathtokoalas was initially an email address that i set up to send dumpfiles home from work, when i was doing tech support for microsoft. at the time, there weren't a lot of good options for sending large files over email. that was 2006/2007ish. i didn't start posting on youtube under this moniker until early 2014, and, when i did, i used it for everything - music reviews, politics, social criticism and also to market my own tunes. i shut that moniker down in early 2016, but it lingered, and i set the blog back up in 2019, to specifically focus on music reviews & media criticism, with the political component split off to this blog, and the music journal split into it's own space, as well. deathtokoalas also has a socratic dialog component to it that began with the dstkgfutydtikguyfduyogfia concept but has largely been lost, so lengthy debates will end up there, whether they fit the general theme of the blog or not.

yet, as deathtokoalas became this overreaching youtube identity when it existed, it's sometimes hard to split ideas away from it. in my mind, i seem to still want it to be this general youtube identity so i want the blog to contain all youtube posts, and i keep having to force myself to enforce the separation...which is hard, psychologically....

so, for example, there's times when i posted my music to youtube, and i want to crosspost the memory to the deathtokoalas blog, but i have to stop myself from doing it, as the music journal takes that task over, totally. the fact that it was posted under the deathtokoalas moniker at the time does not matter; the music journal is for music, this blog is for politics and deathtokoalas is for media commentary, specifically. let's get it right, jess.

3) and then there is the music journal, which will in the end double as a broad general journal, as well. it includes notes on recording (when it is happening), cross-references to blogs about recording and posts about where to buy completed recordings. so, that means it will take over that component of the deathtokoalas identity, and i can't be upset about deathtokoalas losing it.

ok.

i think i had to type that out to clarify it for myself in my own head. great. moving on...

i will be slightly updating the february and march deathtokoalas journals to ensure i'm being consistent and complete. i went back and updated the links for the music blog, at least, after all. it will not be long before i move into april, and let's hope i can pick this up.

i'm sure he has lots of questions to ask.

for example - should we thank him for his contribution?

if you take this guy seriously at this point, you're a buffoon.

he sure has a lot of gall, though. really. this is a guy with a deeply racist history, and we're supposed to think he's doing anything besides capitalizing on the situation for his own political gain?

it's a joke. he's a joke. and, you should treat his "concern" with scorn.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/trudeau-adam-arrest-video-1.5609446

windsor is just so incredibly boring.

i'm a big city person. i didn't move from ottawa to windsor; i wouldn't move from a larger town to a smaller one. i don't want to live in a small town, i want to live in a huge city.

i moved from ottawa to detroit. really.

so, even if they were to re-open here tomorrow, i could very well just stay in for months.

when i first moved here, it took a year to get border documents and i went to a total of three concerts on this side of the border.

and, i'm not going to just aimlessly go for drinks, that's boring.

you know, there is an airport in windsor.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/business/u-s-travel-restrictions-covid-19-land-border-fly-1.5607741

this is stupid. i took a plane to florida once in the 90s; that's it. and, i'm so ideologically opposed to air travel, that i couldn't imagine myself actually getting on a plane for any reason at all. if i'm going to toronto, for example, i'd rather hitchhike.

but, it's starting to look like detroit may be reopening relatively soon. 

how much would it cost? out of curiosity?

.....and it turns out that the airport is completely closed, unfortunately:

http://www.yqg.ca/

foiled.

well, if it was under $50, i might have thought about it, depending on the show.......?

naw.

ok, i'm not done updating the playlists, but i don't want to do that anymore. i expected that to take, like, an hour - not a week

i'm going to eat and get back to reconstructing skeletons for the two smaller blogs this afternoon.

i want to support a revolution like the one that happened in france, not a revolution like the one that happened in iran.

and, if you think that means i'm not on your side, you're probably right.

listen - i know better than to conflate media reports of street movements with the views of people on the ground. there's no uniformity of thought in these movements; it's a collection of individuals with widely varying goals, and a general aversion to the status quo. it will run the spectrum from conservatives driven by some concept of morality to left-anarchists that want to burn the churches and banks down. as you know, i am on the very far left of this spectrum, but i'm sure i could find a clique of like-minded people if i went looking for them.

but, i have no interest in involving myself in the politics of race, or in the politics of religion, for that matter. this is not a healthy direction for the protest movement - it's going to end up looking like the iranian revolution, in the end, if we continue down this path. and, these foucauldians will get what they want. i consider this to be relabeled burkeanism, and i don't support any of it.

i would expect that if i were to go down on the ground and talk to people, it would only be a vocal minority of people that i'd find myself in any kind of serious disagreement with. i'd have broad levels of agreement with most of the people about what they're angry about, even if my prescriptions are well to the left of theirs. so, we might agree that there's a problem in the behaviour of the police, and then very adamantly disagree on what the cause of the problem is, and how to fix it, although some of the messaging in the media seems encouraging - it does seem as though there are more voices calling for police and prison abolition, and less voices calling for retribution or incrementalism, than i would have thought, based on the reports i've seen. i can't know what is happening around me without directly investigating, but, as mentioned, i'm not interested in doing it - i will wait this out, and reinvolve myself when the narrative switches back towards class. and, it will; there is no revolutionary potential or political future in the politics of race. it just reinforces the status quo.

the vocal minority that i'm going to disagree with the most are the group pushing neo-liberal identity politics, that essentially want to argue for a fairer playing field so that everybody can compete against each other more efficiently. these people (who are liberals, not leftists) show up at every left-wing protest, and try and dominate and control it, and somebody always has to stand up against them, which i've done in the past, but cannot do, in context - we need black voices to do this, this time. that's the trick the capitalists are using, here. the capitalist press will present these neo-liberals as the crux of the movement, because it reinforces the neo-liberal paradigm (look! the protesters just want the same thing as the banks do! they just want it faster. so, there is no movement.), but i do know better - i realize that it's just a small percentage of self-identified "leaders", who are largely being directed by or actually are undercover cops. the vast majority of the people assembled are well to the left of that.

i just can't be the person that shows up to this and makes these arguments, because the thing is designed to attack me for doing it. the moment that i uncover the charade for what it is, i'll get targeted as a racist. the thing is erected that way, and there's no escape from it.

i've tried to point out things, like burning the police station, that are more in line with a politics i can support, as a leftist. but, this is, broadly, a step backwards from occupy, in terms of political direction. i saw this coming; i think a lot of people did. it has to run it's course...

as a (mostly) white person, i just have to stand back and let the black voices work this out on their own. when they've worked this out, and want to get back to building a broad-based leftist political movement based around class, rather than a neo-liberal movement based around race, they can let me know.

i'm still waiting for the economy to fall, myself. this is not a lumpenproletariat; it's mostly a middle class movement. and, they just want a fairer playing field, to compete on. i don't particularly disagree, but it's not revolutionary in character. it's reactionary. it's conservative...

i just had an unexpected crash, and it's so hard to reconstruct your thought process on these chrome books that don't have hard drives, so i'm going to post this here so i'm able to reconstruct my thought process later on.

- i was ultimately removing noisetrade links from my blogs & from facebook and replacing them with lulu & smashwords links instead
- note that, when i finally file all of these notes, the option to upload flac dvd isos to payhip should be seriously considered.
- i wanted to archive at some point before i swung back to period 3. so, i decided that the best way to replace the links, systematically, was to archive. i started with facebook (and have at this point archived up to the end of 2016, meaning i have 2017-2020 to go. plus the entire music site.).
- i decided i would rebuild the sept-dec, 2016 period that i stopped at, for all blogs. it was a hole that was unintentionally left open.
- but if i was going to do that i should rebuild the 2014-2019 period of the dtk & travel blogs, first.
- i got done 02-03/13.
- and then i went back to embed playlists & fix broken links.
- music wise, i was listening to dso stuff and slowly working through cancelled june listings
- there is an email with a list of tabs from the last scheduled shut down, for eventually switch back to.

you're going to tell me that biden says stupid racist things but he doesn't really mean them.

that's exactly what trump's supporters think about him, too.

it's crazy times.

really.

and, we need to be very fucking careful with our collective brains and what the fuckers are trying to do to them, right now.

i'll try not to post this every other day.

it's mostly about the part at the very end.

but, at some point, we have to clue in, we have to realize this isn't random, this isn't accidental.

they are exactly the same.

no, really...

the similarities between biden and trump are actually rather staggering, when you look at the situation in a sober light, right down to the fact that they're both senile old white men that should be in homes, are prone to saying stupid (and often racist.) things and walk around in bad fake tans.

there's a lot of people out there that don't think very clearly, though, and will want to resort to a lot of partisan blather that doesn't really add up, from either direction. if you were to be fully rigorous, and compare them carefully on an issue-by-issue basis, biden is no doubt going to come out as the more conservative candidate, of the two. but, liberals are going to yell at me for being non-committal, and blame me for re-electing him.

so what if i do? do you want to start another war in iraq, or what? like, where's your head at? pull it out of your ass and look at the facts. there's no coherent argument that biden is better in any way, including on issues of race.

we went through this in 2012, when romney ran against his own health care plan. regardless of what the polls say early on, the incumbent is going to always have a major advantage when you line him up against his mirror reflection. because this is the actual sad truth about biden - if you give people the choice between voting for trump and voting for this quasi-trump named biden, they're going to pick the real thing. romney's years of experience didn't help him against obama, and biden's years of experience are unlikely to help him much against trump, in the end.

but, then, what does this parallel discourse about "misinformation" and "fake news" really suggest, then, in terms of where the united states is in regards to the state shutting down dissent?

see, you often see this argument come up in politics at high levels that politicians or parties don't want to do specific things due to fear it'll lower the bar and ultimately backfire. so, obama wouldn't go after bush for war crimes because he didn't want to get charged with war crimes - a decision that was quite ominous in hindsight, wasn't it? that's just one iteration of this basic argument, that has all kinds of isomorphisms everywhere in politics.

it seems like trump is the counter example of this - he follows no rules, because he has no foresight, no ability to see what the consequences of his actions are. when he tries, he's delusional, because trumpian logic is about dominance and submission rather than game theory. so, he can't see a foot in front of his face when he does things.

what's happened is that we've lowered the bar, here. if trump is going to attack his opponents for "fake news" and try to shut them down with force that way, it gives the democrats the green light to attack their opponents for "spreading misinformation", and shut them down, as well. it's maybe the first concrete example of trumpism asserting itself as a norm.

if you truly oppose political repression, you need to protect your brain from partisan drudgery and realize what's actually happening. it's not ok when your side does it, just because you don't like your opponents. there are deeper principles here that we need to get back to.

otherwise, trumpism wins - even if trump loses the election.

i'm doing this because i can, now.

here's the embed to all 75 records, inri000-inri074:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3JSjmqp0cbvbF58VKPkic-68bkZZ-4pn

three later projects of unclear catalog numbers have been added to the end, as well.

note that my compromise to using youtube (without ads! ads are gross!) as a distribution mechanism is that the tracks are only available there in what is essentially radio quality. this is entirely intentional, as a push factor to take you to bandcamp to buy the files in cd quality. you might be ok about listening to an ad for socks to get "free music", you might think that's a fair exchange, as i get tossed a 1000th of a cent for it, but i find that distribution system to be revolting and want nothing to do with it. you can have it in shit quality for free - but if you want it in high quality, then please pay me for it.

exactly.

https://www.gp.org/twitter_terminates_hawkins_account

the actual truth is that you probably won't hear much from me this cycle. i have very little interest in the outcome of a biden v trump election, or think it's going to matter much who wins.

but, if you are legitimately concerned about a variety of issues on the left, please check out the following alternative voting choice:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Howie_Hawkins_2020_presidential_campaign

if you want a tweet, here it is - "social media misinformation" is exactly the same fucking thing as "fake news".

see, i look at this article:

https://www.cnn.com/2020/06/11/politics/joe-biden-facebook-open-letter/index.html

and then i look at this article:

https://www.cnn.com/2020/06/10/politics/trump-campaign-cnn-poll/index.html

...both at cnn, within a few hours of each other....

...and what i conclude is that these candidates are essentially exactly the same, they're just trying to shut down their respective opposition on the appropriate sites. biden sees his opposition as "misinformation" on facebook and wants to shut that down; trump sees his as "fake news" on cnn and wants that shut down.

but, "fake news" and "social media misinformation" are just two different ways to say the same line of bullshit.

now, i know - you're going to tell me that scientific polling is reliable, and misinformation on facebook is not. but, if you can't see that that's a partisan statement, then i don't know what to tell you.

i don't want to make a blanket statement on the polling, but my substantive mathematical opinion is that i'm absolutely sure i could pull out some reasons to question the polling, as presented by cnn. if you trust the polling done by cnn because it's cnn, you're being pretty foolish, and you can trust me on that; they routinely fuck with their polling for ratings, if not for political reasons. they'll do things like modify the demographics to include "likely voters", or present national polling in replace of local polling. they do it every fucking day; don't tell me they don't, you don't know what you're talking about.

conversely, these attacks on what the fake left calls "misinformation" can be devastating for truthseekers across the spectrum, including actual leftists, which actual leftists will tell you. they seem to think that i'm a bot; of course, they don't actually, but they're treating me like one as a way to stifle my dissent. it's a way to disappear me, to erase my opinion, to put me down the memory hole. i promise you that if they get their way they'll start shutting down bernie supporters immediately by smearing them as "bots" pushing "misinformation".

so, which side am i on?

i'm on the side of free speech, dammit. fuck them both. they're exactly the same, and they both want to take away your rights.

will this be the election where the country finally sees it?

i got a little bit distracted yesterday by this playlist embedding feature on youtube, which has tended to be broken more often than not. i just realized it works again. i'm almost caught back up...

i was feeling great yesterday in the high humidity - finally - but i woke up to chapped lips from the fucking air conditioner upstairs, and i've been groggy and unfocused since. we're going to get a mild spike, but it's nothing like yesterday and that contraption might ruin it :(. but i want to wait until the sun comes down before i shower.

i've given it a few tries, and the red peppers are an acceptable change in taste. it's a little sweeter, but, really, it's the tomato that overpowers, in the mixture. so, it's less like i'm introducing something sweet in and more like i'm losing the bitter green pepper - which i actually like, but i'm more concerned about nutrients just right now. so, i'm going to stick with them for a while and see what it does in the long run...

how about the meds? it's been a week since i doubled the t-blockers, and i haven't notice a whole lot yet. it's got me wondering, though. what if this doesn't work? what if i'm doomed to detransitioning?

i never really experimented with homosexuality. i had one girlfriend, and the way that worked was that she went after me, and i relented at a weak point; i would have normally resisted her. but, i was just starting hormones, as a virgin. she talked me into it as an experiment; it wasn't supposed to be a long term relationship. but, i got very emotionally attached in a way that seemed to confuse her...she never really grasped the whole concept of transsexuality. i would have probably otherwise gone through with this years ago.

as it is, i've turned down a lot of girls since then (i don't tend to show up properly on the gaydar of women) and have long realized that i'm just not into them and am probably never going to be. but, i've never made an actual attempt to be a gay male.

if i'm stuck with these stupid things whether i like it or not....

let's hope it works and i can get to a surgeon sooner or later, so this isn't an actual issue. but, if i end up detransitioning, maybe i can try the whole gay dude thing out for a bit, at least. maybe it's worth a try. i dunno.

that was some substantive hail that just ran through here.

i was worried about the windows, probably for the first time in my life.

if you're not from around here, you might not realize that brampton has a very high percentage of residents with a south indian background. we've got the same problem in windsor, which has recently become a destination for international students (because it used to have a surplus of cheap housing, and still has very low entry requirements).

i learned this a few years ago looking for apartments.

in windsor, it's a total cultural turnover. cheap properties get bought up by indo-canadians, who then rent them out to international students, who just import their regular living conditions. they'll cram ten people into a two bedroom apartment, because that's what they know, from where they grew up in india.

i went to one place that was advertised over kijiji as a two-bedroom. it was actually a studio apartment; they decided the living room was one bedroom, and the hallway near the kitchen was a second bedroom. and, there were six people living there, including two who slept in the kitchen.

i doubt that many canadians are really cognizant of this change that is taking place. but, in the end, we might find out that we needed a virus to get the health inspectors on it.

the problem, though, is that i don't want to split them up, or at least not without a massive increase in rental housing availability, because that'll just drive up the cost of rent. at some point we kind of have to clue in - we have an anarchy in housing production that isn't taking into account what we need, and isn't working in coordination with immigration policy. we let far too many poor people into the country, and then get confused when they fight over scarce housing; meanwhile, we have empty houses in the suburbs that nobody even wants to live in, let alone can afford to buy.

we had this under control at one point, but we forgot about it in the 80s, and we've let it get out of hand ever since. it is going to require a major, co-ordinated push by all levels of government to get a handle on it.

if a more co-ordinated housing strategy based on social need rather than profit and property rights is a side product of this catastrophe, that's at least an upside. maybe a little bit of disaster socialism is in order.

for now? i can imagine it. i've seen it. two-three kids per room, at $500/head. it's a racket, perhaps literally. it needs to change.

https://www.bramptonguardian.com/news-story/10018783-coronavirus-spreading-in-brampton-s-overcrowded-housing-a-growing-concern/

there is an exactly 0% possibility that i'm ever going to obey any sort of mask-wearing guidelines put in place by anybody, ever.

i don't care; it's a matter of principle.

and, i'll be as disobedient as you force me to be.

well, we'll see how long that lasts before a court strikes it down.

it's one thing to argue that a business has a right to make it's own policy. as a consumer, i think that would open them up to substantive amounts of litigation, but they can post whatever signs on their property that they want, even if i choose to ignore them and make a big deal out of it.

it's another thing for a government to pass a law like this that forces businesses to enforce these rules, and it is not a debatable point - they cannot.

so, what happens if a business decides they don't want to enforce this? will they be fined? shut down? and, what if a consumer just ignores it?

i look forward to the inevitable legal battles. you know what side i'm on.

if i lived in the region, i would try to get arrested over this to make a point and then sue the cops for it.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7048646/coronavirus-mandatory-face-coverings-guelph/

march is finished.

march was a little slow because i had to make some decisions about what i'm crossposting and what i'm not crossposting. it should pick up a bit for the remaining....9+ 12*4 + 3 = 60 months.

if i can get  10 done a day?

ok, it's going to take a few days. fine.

here's 03/2014:

https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/03/

https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/

i need to eat.

it seems like today is the first truly gorgeous day of the year.

i wish there was something to go out and do.

ok, but rather than be shocked and surprised by young people (who are not at risk of this disease of at all) being young people, the correct logical response, given the actual facts of the matter, is to realize that this was inevitable and that what the government did was utterly foolish, given this inevitability.

the focus from the start should have been to stop it from getting into the geriatric homes. it should have been allowed to spread in the younger population, because it was going to happen anyways.

your shock should be directed at the stupidity of your government's policies, not the perfectly rational behaviour of young people in a crisis that only affects them economically.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/article-covid-19-cases-are-on-the-rise-among-young-adults-but-health-experts/

february is done:
https://deathtokoalas.blogspot.com/2014/02/
https://jessicamurraytravelblog.blogspot.com/2014/02/

remember - this is very loose, it's just meant to build a skeleton, as it could be years before i fill in these thousands of pages of dialogues scattered through the master document.

did we elect an all grown up alex keaton?

is that what happened?

well, it was predictable that their trickle down economics scam wasn't going to work. it sounds like they're throwing a hissy-fit about it...

do you know what the first thing that needs to be done here actually is?

he needs to throw bill morneau out of cabinet, to start. the guy's a complete dumbass. i suspect he's the root cause of much of this stupidity...

then he need to just extend the cerb.

and, then he needs to raise taxes to pay for it.

even if ontario were to completely reopen tomorrow, we'd still need another several months of benefits. blaming welfare queens and pushing trickle-down economics isn't going to fool anybody. even the dumbest conservatives left that behind eons ago.

unfortunately, it seems like trudeau and his buddy morneau are using a 40 year-old instruction manual - while jason kenney and stephen harper embrace the necessity of keynesianism.

i'm starting to wonder who the lesser evil actually is.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7039015/canadians-max-out-cerb-what-happens/

they'll probably spend more money investigating these "crimes" then they will recoup, in the end. on a purely accounting level, it is probably flat out stupid. they probably know that....

rather, it appears to be red meat to throw at some kind of conservative voting base. but, who exactly does trudeau think is voting for him?

yeah, i'm with the ndp on this one. going after these people is barbaric.

if there's an overpayment, i guess they should have to pay it back, but they shouldn't be punished for it.

i don't really care much about budgets, with the caveat that i don't want the imf on our ass. i highly doubt that the dollar amounts here are going to be substantive. i mean they might find a couple dozen people...

rather, it's more the kind of thing you'd expect from a conservative government. he sounds like a demagogic racist like reagan, going after his illusory welfare cheat.

i don't get worked up about this shit either way, but tell trudeau that if he wants to go after tax cheats, he should target bankers and corporations and investors instead.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7047067/trudeau-singh-ndp-cerb-reform/

....and before i do that, i'm going to build a mock skeleton for the other two blogs.

this isn't intended to be comprehensive, in any way, it's just meant to fill in some blanks. i'm just going to be going through the two mostly published the blogs - this one and the music journal - and copying posts to the other two blogs.

i hope this is done within a day or two.

i'm also going to fill in some of the posts from sept-dec, 2016 on this blog before i put this aside for a long while.

i didn't avoid this on purpose or anything, it just got lost in all of the things i was doing to rebuild. iirc, i got up to mid sept, and doubled back around to 2013 to do the final rebuild, which included archiving all of the files on an external hard drive and rebuilding the deathtokoalas blog. i was supposed to just do it in sequence, but it didn't actually happen.

if we're putting the rebuild aside until i finish periods 3 & 4, i should plug that hole, first.

that was, of course, also the period leading up to the last election.

this is a confusing point for a lot of people, as well. what is, again, pretty basic science suggests that you have to expel the virus somehow in order to transmit - via coughing, sneezing, etc. but, the numbers don't add up, if we assume all transmission is coming from clearly sick people.

so, what is "asymptomatic transmission"?

we had a longer than normal spring here in most of canada, and people walking around outside until fairly late into may would have experienced symptoms like runny noses that they would have normally attributed to the weather. they may have come in from outside and blown their nose, without thinking about it. or they may have even brushed their faces with their hands as they took off their hats, and then touched other people. or, maybe they weren't thorough enough with the soap on the way out of the washroom, after having touching handles and doorknobs.

this happens with other mild viruses, too - all you have to do is transmit fluids. you don't have to cough or sneeze - you could blow your nose, or just touch your face. and, you might not even be fully cognizant of what you're doing.

the truth is that these people are symptomatic, but they don't realize it or they deny it. the symptoms are so mild in many cases, that you might mistake them for allergies, fatigue, a garden variety headache or a normal reaction to cold or hot weather. so, what we call "asymptomatic" should really be replaced by "weakly symptomatic". this is no doubt the cause of the confusion...

you shouldn't be able to spread any virus without symptoms, but it's a lot harder to realize that you're symptomatic than we all think is obvious. we live in polluted cities. we're all sick all of the time.

with the warm weather, the situation flips over - instead of runny noses from the cold, you'll have sweaty foreheads from the heat. so, you may come into a grocery store from outside and wipe your sweaty brow, then touch something - without even thinking about it.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7043306/coronavirus-asymptomatic-spread-who/

must have been covid-19.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/montreal/humpback-whale-st-lawrence-1.5604229

what?

i believe that the definition of the derivative of the jerk is jim carrey.

so, i finished watching that lecture series on quantum physics and i promised i'd say something about it in the end.

in truth, i don't have much to say at all.....

i have a physics background; i've seen these equations before, and the general physics isn't new to me. but, the courses i took were not as formal as this, they just skipped over this kind of kantian approach to the foundations of quantum mechanics as this kind of synthetic linear algebra and went right to the calculus and statistics. i took years worth of abstract algebra, though. so, i was actually maybe the best possible audience for the lecture series, in a sense, as i had already seen all of the math and had already seen all of the physics, and had even taken formal courses in euclidean & non-euclidean geometry, i just hadn't seen anybody put them together to explicitly lay out the theory.

as it was only the formal foundations that i hadn't seen before, it's really only the first couple of lectures that were worth commenting on, and i've already done that. i don't have any particular criticism of harmonic oscillators or the schrodinger equation, it's the underlying system of algebra that i wonder about, as it is rooted in kantian assumptions that were eventually absolutely savaged by gauss (and friends) and reversed to form the basis of relativity, by einstein (and minkowski). susskind knows that. so, what the fuck is he even doing?

i was hoping that the course would carry on long enough to bring me to a point where i could say "aha! parallelism! foiled!", but, as it is, all i can do is sort of pointlessly draw attention to deficits in the model, which i've already done. the thing is that proving that a model has flaws doesn't actually mean anything. all models have flaws, and we know that something is going to need to break before we can unify physics. i think the quantum model seems less compelling than relativity, but that's just my opinion.

i mentioned it before, so i'll just summarize it here: the biggest thing i pulled out from watching this is wondering if these minor fluctuations in the "imaginary direction" (by tiny factors of planck's constant) are not merely relics of the broken underlying geometry, and i wonder if the error terms would disappear or otherwise align themselves with the other branches if we were sure we understood the underlying geometry better.

maybe einstein had the answer right in front of him the whole time, even if he didn't quite know how to tweak it. but, i mean, that's the fields medal question, right?

he didn't mention bell's theorem, so i'll skip over it for now.

lecture series number two is classical mechanics, and i initially wondered if it was worthwhile, but, after watching the first lecture, i'm going to carry through with it. again: i've taken all the classical mechanics, but he's going at it with these weird kantianisms again, in an apparent attempt to derive newton's equations from the underlying quantum theory, and i'd like to see where he's going with it. i hope he goes full out and doesn't dumb it down, as that is something i'd like to see done explicitly, rather than merely waved off as saying "classical mechanics exists in the limit", or whatever.

the last of the previous:

and the first of the new:

actually, no.

they want a monthly user fee :(

that's a non-starter...

https://www.shopify.ca/pricing

i'm in a kind of a frustrating scenario with online sales of any sort. i would rather buy my own domain and set up my own store to avoid paying twenty transaction fees. right now, if you buy a file at bandcamp, you pay bandcamp & you pay paypal. if we could get around both of them...

the thing is that i just don't sell enough to make that feasible. i'm pretty technical; i could figure that out. but, it doesn't make any sense for me to shell out monthly fees when i'm not hardly pulling anything in.

the basic math is that i need to have more revenue than costs before i can move to any kind of paid service, and it just doesn't make sense to pay anybody hosting fees until i'm relatively confident i can recoup the costs.

so, i need to start off with the free sites, and, one day, if i build enough of an audience, i can set up my own transaction sites.

it looks like it's payhip or gumroad, and i'll have to take a closer look next week.

actually, i think what i want for the isos is this company called shopify that is located in canada.  they have a 5 gb upload limit, which is enough for a dvd. it would be nice if that could come up to 25 so i could host blu-rays, but that's a distant concern.

that should help me avoid tax problems because i'm not jumping borders.

i've never used this site before and i don't know much about it, but it's apparently kind of big.

i would expect something to come up there in the next few days.

https://help.shopify.com/en/manual/apps/apps-by-shopify/digital-downloads

stop.

the funny thing about body cams is that, while they generate gigabytes worth of data for things like facial recognition that the secret service can then utilize, they seem to somehow get turned off - almost without exception - whenever somebody wants to use them to hold the cops accountable.

they are essentially useless as an accountability proposal. but, they're great for spying on you with.

you should oppose them on civil rights grounds. i know i will.

i think i'm going to use the noise trade erasure process as an excuse to do a full archival.

yeah.

this is overdue, anyways.

i'll probably have to download the blog and copy it over to the other machine...

let's start with facebook first, that's much easier.

see, this is a perfect example of two-faced trudeau being a total racist.

do you know what body cams are actually good for? spying on minorities, in a covert manner. they can get all kinds of footage that way, they just have to send the cop in.

is anybody calling for this? would it have made any difference? is it even relevant?

or is it in truth just an excuse for this government to ram through yet another racist policy?

https://www.cp24.com/news/trudeau-vows-to-push-body-cameras-when-speaking-with-provincial-premiers-1.4974324

so, i had to make some minor edits to the deathtokoalas documents for december and january, which is now done.

and, it's time to eat, again.

i need to try to call the court this morning to see if i can get some kind of response. but, if it otherwise takes another day or two to upload these links before i file the complaint in federal court, that's fine.

there's a difference between punishing somebody, which is barbaric, and restraining somebody, which is sometimes necessary to prevent them from carrying out further harm.

as for abolishing jails...

there are some nuts out there, like jeffrey dahmer, or that guy that beheaded somebody on a bus in winnipeg. these cases are extreme, but there has to be some kind of system that deals with them.

the thing is that these are, at their core, mental health concerns, and that these people should be in hospitals, rather than jails.

so, my basic position is that what we call jails should be converted into hospitals - and that the only people in them should be people that we have no choice but to restrain for our collective safety.

i would be more likely to support a broad, class-focused movement to defund the police than buy into a moral panic demanding retribution for the stupidity of a poorly trained officer, based entirely on blinding and dividing identity politics.

i don't see what's happening right now as having much revolutionary potential; it's classic divide and conquer, and exactly when the bankers need it, too. if they split you up by race and get you at each other's throats, they don't need to worry about protecting their property.

but, as previously mentioned, going after the police is the right tactic. that's what i want to see.

so, i support calls to abolish the minneapolis police - and calls to abolish the police, everywhere else. i'm an anarchist; i don't believe in policing. this is more my style, for sure.

but, i'd like to see some proposals as to what they want to replace the police with, before i jump on board entirely. if this was local, it's the kind of thing that would get me out of the house.

are they going to rely on state police, instead? that would be terrible, clearly. but, if they just defund the city police, it's going to be state and federal forces that take over. amongst other things, that's likely to create a constitutional crisis, as federal officers need to enforce federal laws.

is it essentially amalgamation by stealth, as the article cites in camden and compton? that would just make the problem worse, as you start shipping in officers from outside the areas they police, which is what happened in ferguson.

are they going to rely on religious groups and govern the city from the back of a koran or a bible? that would be a catastrophe that i would strenuously oppose, to the point that i'd actually go so far as to support bombing minneapolis to stop them from doing it.

what i'd like to see is a move to more community-based models of decision making, along with a complete end to a "standing army" type police force. the professional police should be replaced by something like a volunteer militia that only mobilizes when required. in order for that to be feasible, there needs to be a dramatic redistribution of wealth so that property no longer needs to be protected by force. but here's the thing: people have to decide to participate. in the end, it's up to minneapolis; if they'd rather stay at home, the bureaucrats will decide for them. which i think is a reasonable projection...

so i'd support abolishing the police, yes.

but, i don't suspect that is imminent, just yet.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/minneapolis-dismantle-police-department-george-floyd-1.5602543

well, i'm skeptical.

but, supposing this is true, do they think they can keep it out of the country forever? or are they going to try to bring in forced vaccinations on yearly mutations?

new zealand has a useful geography for fighting pathogens, but it's ultimately a fool's errand to try to stamp out a virus with quarantine. they're just prolonging the inevitable.

https://www.citynews1130.com/2020/06/07/asia-today-new-zealand-succeeds-in-eradicating-coronavirus/

so, i got everything uploaded. that's step one.

the next thing is to get the links out.

it almost seemed like smashwords was off because it was sunday. fucking christians. i don't have time for this stupidity.

it sat there for hours, but you can't even unpublish a book when it's in limbo like that, you're just stuck with it.

it turns out that i think there was some kind of hiccup on the server with converting it to html, because once i unchecked that button, it went through. it still didn't correct the file for the second upload, though.

so, we're starting over again, and, so long as it works, it should be fine.

and, it's amazing how stupid the media can be in it's reporting.

first of all, they keep reporting cases instead of deaths, like that matters.

second, they have this amazing feat of logic:

"415 cases today, but 200 are from delays in reporting"

so, there's less than 400 cases today, actually, apparently.

like yesterday? no, there were delays in reporting yesterday.

but, not today, i guess.

fucking idiots.

i've been clear as day - i won't use sites that want to "moderate" me.

i'll call it what it is - censorship - and i'll go post somewhere else, and tell freeminded people to follow me.

the slaves can have their government censorship in their safe spaces and jerk off all over each other in peace. i don't want to talk to them, anyways.

it makes me sad that this even exists.

...as though we need to hire some teenager in their parent's basement to "protect us" from "dangerous speech".

we're becoming a bunch of fucking retards.

https://globalnews.ca/news/7036628/content-moderators-online-coronavirus/

ugh.

do i really want to spend the day uploading and reuploading files to this server to see if they're broken or not?

i don't.

if the purpose of the site is to allow for free dissemination of the smaller files, then this is accomplished, even if the files are somewhat broken. i just need to actually take note of it.

the server is also doing weird things, and i think i need to wait for it to finish before i upload anything else, because i might have to delete and reupload the second e-book, which is currently serving the wrong file.

so, i'm going to stop to eat and get back to this after.

the last post broadcast.

facebook post:

i'm going to need to clean this space up over the next few hours, but the story is that...

i've spent the last year and a bit converting old blogs into pdf files, which sounds like a waste of time, but is tied into the process of building liner notes for rereleases from when i first moved to windsor. i'm almost done the first phase of this, and am going to put the second phase on hold for a later time.

i've been hosting these files in two places: bandcamp (in the form of music journals that you can buy) and noise trade (which offered the files for free, and let you donate an amount, if you want).

bandcamp is very reliable, and i thank them for it. but, within hours of finishing the last major journal update, the noise trade site just up and disappeared. the account continues to exist, and i can change the password, but i can't log into it. it's very weird.

when i signed up for noise trade a few years ago, it was an independent site that allowed for free file sharing. that was my attraction to it. up until now, the only other site that i've had on the internet with a paywall has been bandcamp, which is just a necessity in this awful economic system we exist in - i have to try to sell you something, whether i like it or not. but i try to make everything freely available, as i find ways to try to navigate through the contradictions in our day-to-day lives. i want you to pay me, but i don't. it's frustrating for everybody, but it's unavoidable. i mean, the other option is that i get a job (that is, that i sell my labour, instead) and give my art away for free, but that's kind of giving up on life, in my estimation.

what i want is for you to donate. i want grants, i want benefactors - because i want artistic freedom. i have to deal with the vulgarity of market interactions, i have to reduce things to commodities, because i don't truly have the freedom not to. but, i hate that fact, and i want to find creative ways around it.

noise trade was attractive to me for that reason - it allowed me to sort of escape the commodification of the process, and let you decide if you want to throw money at me in support, or just take the end result for free. it was a good compromise, while it lasted.

shortly after i set the site up, it got bought out by paste magazine and shifted it's hosting to the increasingly dominant amazon. the amount of ads has steadily increased, since, to the point that the site is almost unusable. and, now the site has disappeared, leaving me without an option for free dissemination. i initially sought some kind of explanation before acting further, but, after some reflection, have decided that it doesn't matter - i'd rather separate my art from that kind of profit making machinery, anyways. the site has become gross, to me.

you'll note that i don't tend to post to sites that are ad-supported, facebook being the major exception because it's so ubiquitous. but, i do almost all of my posting at blogs that are ad-free. facebook is just a necessary evil. for now. noise trade snuck the ads in on me while i was distracted, and it's time to get away and burn what was and forget it ever existed.

so, i don't know why the site evaporated, but i don't care - i don't want to interact with a site that is supported by invasive ads, anyways. it's a shame, but whatever. death to paste magazine!

i've spent the last few days trying to figure out how to react and have come to the following solutions.

1) the bandcamp site is sill there, but you can't read books on bandcamp the same way you can stream music. i wish you could - that would be the best answer. you can't, for now. so, i need to put the files up somewhere else, as well.
http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com

2) i want something more interactive than the google drive share, although i'm going to keep this up for the biggest files. these are just the full blogs for the period i was reconstructing:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1NI_sEi1t9NxTeOB9Es3A2Ge8ji4iTXit?usp=sharing

3) i want a way to buy the whole thing, and don't want the overlap on bandcamp, which will hold strictly to the monthly journal format. that's going to be here, at lulu, where there are no file size restrictions:
https://www.lulu.com/search?contributor=jessica+murray

4) i'm going to use smashwords (which has strict file size and other restrictions) for free hosting of smaller files and make use of the interactive features, but i can't use it as a medium to facilitate donations, at least not until they relax their approach a little. i explain a little about this at the profile page.
https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/deathtokoalas

5) the best way to donate me money is to avoid these kinds of sites, anyways. i like bandcamp for what it is and would encourage you to support it so we don't lose it; i don't want a future of spotifies and google plays, that would kill off independent music. a site like bandcamp must continue to exist. but, if you share my aversion to market economics and want to just be a benefactor then the best thing to do is just send a donation to death.to.koalas@gmail.com, either over paypal or (even better) or interac. this is how i *really* want this to work - you send me money as a grant, and i put the thing up for free.

i will need to spend the next day or two updating these sites as replacements for the deleted noise trade site, and replacing noise trade links with lulu or smashwords links, as is appropriate.

i don't know what happened, but fuck them and their ads anyways.