Tuesday, December 8, 2020

you're going to tell me i'm delusional, but i think my teeth are already getting better.

insofar as that's true, i may have scraped some shit off them, and demonstrated there's nothing wrong with them. but, it's just becoming more and more apparent as they clean up more and more.

i could still use some kind of strengthening one way or the other, and i'll still take the cleaning if i can get it. but that one i was worried about? doesn't seem so bad, anymore. at least half of the plaque is gone.

if that's the case, they could be in great shape for when the hydroxyapatite gets here.

if this is going to work, the teeth have to be clean. that's one of the excuses that dentists want to throw at you - you can't just remineralize, because your teeth are full of bioplaque. so, let's get the fucking bioplaque off then, eh? so, i need to keep up with the surfactants, which are what i think is making the actual difference - it is probably the cleaner teeth that is letting the toothpaste work better.

now, as to how to fix the gums? i don't have any ideas for that one.

i got an email back from palmolive telling me i was fucking bonkers, and trying to sell me some actual toothpaste. i thought about telling them to fuck off, but decided it'd be best to ignore them. so, i don't know what the ppm for these biocides actually are. if it's for use with dish soap, it can't be that different than mouth wash, though, right?

fucking patents. we gotta get rid of those...patience, friends....we will win in the end....
wow, what a complete piece of shit.

just when you think they can't sink to new lows, this guy thinks he has some kind of right to decide if somebody can kill themselves or not.

the problem is basically that this generation of liberals doesn't understand economics. at all.

they think that inflation will siphon wealth upwards, rather than lead to poverty and crime and increased social spending, and they're looking to squeeze the poor as hard as they can in order to do it.
what you will see is long lines at the food bank, and rotting food on the shelves.

but, this is what they want, and we're going to have to suffer through it.
yeah, the liberals seem to be excited about this, actually.

but, i tell ya - i'm not paying for it. nor is anybody around here.

if the price of junk food goes up, whatever. i don't eat it anyways.

but, if the price of produce goes up, it's just going to rot on the shelf, as people find ways around it.

ok, i figured it out.

calcium hydroxyapatite pills are on their way.

they come in a gelatin capsule that i'll need to break open, and i'll have to see - if i mildly wet it, will it create a topical? 

i'm going to separate the fluoride from it for now, and use it to "catch" the calcium & phosphate molecules that leach out.
why are all these sites forcing me to pick premium shipping options?

why can't i just pick the cheapest option?

i'm not paying $20 for shipping. that's stupid.
this is recent and they claim they basically figured it out.

i don't have access to the tools they do.

but it's a proof of concept. 

i repeat: this is a recent (oct, 2020), peer reviewed article claiming that they were able to rebuild cavitated teeth using hydroxyapatite and fluoride gelatin.

i got this from an indian journal trying to remove the fluoride from the water. idiots. 

it's the chemical reactions i wanted to see, in a legible form. no stupid pictures.


so, that's at about ph 4.8, and you see what happens - the enamel dissolves in acidic water into a dicalcium phosphate and a calcium hydroxide. that's without fluoride.

but, then the sodium fluoride breaks down into sodium, hydroxide and hydrofluoric acid. yikes. that would make everything worse. more acid. the hydroxyl overpowers, thankfully.

...and then the fluoride spontaneously regenerates the matrix, into fluoropatite, which gets reabsorbed by your teeth. no such regeneration of the initial hydroxypatite seems possible - what they call "remineralization" seems restricted to parts of the matrix that suffer acid erosion, in the sense that hydrogen peels off the hydroxyl, leaving behind the calcium phosphate.

so, that means that if i bathed my teeth in calcium & phosphate & fluoride, the best i could hope for is fluoropatite, because it's only the distorted matrix that gets uploaded. it won't reform hydroxyapatite. but, what if i give it hydroxyapatite, in addition to fluoride? the studies seem to suggest it works.

now, there's another article here by the cda:

...and i get the point - you can't remineralize with the building blocks. because we don't know how.

but, it doesn't address remineralizing with the finished product.

the fact is that i have nothing to lose in trying except a few bucks.
naw, i'd have to buy diammonium hydrogen phosphate, and that costs more than the hydroxyapatite pills in the first place.

sneaky abstract - the eggshells are just a source of calcium carbonate.

that said, i could recycle the eggshells like that. if i want to brave the salmonella...
eureka?

i have lots of eggshells and am constantly producing more.

so, should i find a place for bones in my diet?

it's topical - i'd have to chew them.

i dunno about that.

let's see if the capsules help, first.
osteophagy is actually fairly widespread, even in herbivores.

the article claim they're looking for phosphates to build bone matter. but, that's not really how it works, is it?

i wonder if they're not looking to suck the hydroxyapatite off the bones.
yeah, i'm going with the lattice.

i don't think this is something that can be answered clearly. i need to go on a hunch. so, don't take what i'm about to say totally seriously - yet.

it seems like the only way we know how to put these molecules - calcium, phosophate & a hydroxyl goup - together is using a specialized kind of cell called an ameloblast that disappears in early childhood. it seems like we can give our bodies as much calcium and as much phosphate as we want, but we don't really know what to do with it. we could maybe fix that with stem cells, by growing teeth in a lab and implanting them or with crispr technology - and that might not be very far in the future. but, for right now, this is a puzzle that eludes our biology. we see the pieces of the puzzle, but we can't put them together properly.

hydroxyapatite is insoluble in water, and thankfully so - otherwise our teeth would fall apart. but, solubility increases as ph decreases, because it reacts with the free hydrogen in the water. there seems to be a perception that this is reversible if you increase the ph in your mouth, but i think the point is that it isn't - that once we strip the calcium, and the phosphates, out of the lattice, we don't know how to rebuild the lattice.

but, we've figured out that the lattice seems to spontaneously rebuild in the presence of fluoride, and that we seem to uptake it quite readily once it does. for that reason, our teeth end up replaced by a different molecule - fluoropatite - that contains calcium, phosphate & fluoride. this substitution is actually beneficial, but others - such as replacing calcium with carbonate - are not.

but, we have little control over it. we don't know how to put the pieces back together, and will absorb screwy lattices when we put them back together wrong - both at our benefit and at our expense.

it follows, then, that we ought to be able to absorb a prebuilt molecule of actual hydroxyapatite, if we can find it - we can absorb it with fluoride (an improvement), and we can absorb it with carbonate (a worsening), so we should be able to absorb it the right way, too. right?

and, why don't we just fucking do it, then?

because the only natural source is animal bones, and we don't eat those anymore, or pick our teeth with them anymore, at least. some of us eat soup, perhaps. but, the molecule isn't soluble - you need to smash them up. you can't eat it either, exactly - it's topical. but, if you chomp on them long enough, you could release it.

your dog loves chewing on bones. 

maybe it's on to something...
so, i have actually purchased some 90 nm fluorite (it's a rock form of calcium + fluoride, ground into tiny bits, good stuff for your teeth), and i'm looking to get either hydroxyapatite in the form of ground cow bones or just get dicalcium phosphate instead.

this is what i need to figure out - when your teeth absorbs these minerals, does it absorb them in ionic form and put them together as hydroxyapatite, or does it absorb the hydroxyapatite in full? and, is the reason we have such a hard time rebuilding teeth actually just that we stopped eating bones?

no, hear me out, here. it's about activation energy. this is turning into a high school chemistry lecture - and i know all you arts majors didn't bother, did you?

when you split molecules apart, you need to generate energy to do it. when you put molecules together, energy is released. so, if your body splits the molecules apart and puts them back together again, that requires energy you don't want to waste - and you want to give them to your teeth in ion form so it doesn't have to break them apart. conversely, if your body wants it in complete form, you don't want to give it the pieces, because it's going to require energy to put it together, even if the end reaction generates it.

as it is, the idea i'm getting is that your enamel is dead. there's no biological activity at work - this is just pure chemistry. which is why i don't understand why it stops working when the enamel runs through. it shouldn't matter, if it's just an attended process.

but, that means it's important to get it right.

your saliva can produce calcium & phosphate ions on it's own, so it's maybe not clear what i'm adding by introducing calcium phosphate, if it's not working in the first place. i'm neither calcium nor phosphorus deficient. is it spitting on a fish?

but, if you give it the completed molecule, will it uptake it whole?

i'd like to see some verifying source before i make a choice.
here, kitty kitty kitty.

what?
...or maybe just check it in a reaction with baking soda, if i can't get any stray cats to sit still while i dump a solution on them.
yes, i'll test it on a stray cat or something before i put it in my mouth.
this doesn't appear to be sold in canada:

but, i can surely order something from detroit.

for now.

until i hear back from the engineering firm.

and, you can get finely crushed fluorite from art stores, it seems. it's used as a decorative material.
what might be even better is if i took the hydroxyapatite & fluorite and mixed it up in a blender with just a tad of water, so it's a paste - and then put it directly on, like a topical. almost like a cement.
the first thing i'm going to want to do is to test to see if the powdered fluorite burns through my table or not.

see, the calcium should balance it. how much?

Carter (1928) determined the solubility of laboratory precipitated calcium fluoride in distilled water at 25C at a pH of 6.4. He reported a calcium fluoride solubility of 0.004 grams (g) per 100 cubic centimeters (cc) of solution, or 40 mg CaF2/L.

so, it's not dangerous.

and it will probably work.

great.
raw fluorite powder is affordable, it seems.

so, what happens if i take powdered hydroxyapatite and powdered fluorite and mix it together and use it as mouth wash? don't eat this. 

i didn't tell you to fucking eat this.

but, will it stick to my teeth?
see, this is more or less what i'm trying to hack out with the hydroxyapatite & high fluoride toothpaste. and, it's close to what my teeth actually look like, too.

he's using silicon dioxide + hydrofluoric acid. that is extremely dangerous, but i get the point - these ten percent fluoride toothpastes are probably not good enough. so, while the novamin + prevident is perhaps the right idea in principle, it's too weak to actually work.

can i buy crystallized fluorite somewhere and suck on it like a lozenge, with hydroxyapatite? 

yeah.

no more red hot. no more mustard. i'll get some spices, instead, in a few days.
i want to focus more on strengthening and disinfecting but that doesn't mean i should be reckless. 

i should add a ph entry to the chart and try to deal with anything much less than 5.
however, if i replaced the frank's with cayenne pepper (that is, remove the vinegar.....and the salt), i could flip something that's acidic (ph ~ 3-4) to something that's basic (ph ~ 8.5)..

likewise, mustard powder has a ph over 6, whereas bought mustard is quite acidic.

fuck, i wish i sat down with this and worked it all out sooner.
i'm going through the inositol double check (yes, i'm still doing this), and one thing i'm thinking i should step back from is the limes. i have more options for the pasta bowl than i did for the fruit bowl.

but, i wonder.

see, i'm not drinking straight lime juice, which i agree is a bad idea. 

- i'm eating the lime whole, including the pith,
- i'm putting it in a mixture that includes soy milk & yogurt, amongst other things

i doubt it's really that bad. but, is it necessary? that's something to contemplate. i don't have to decide right now.

potential replacements:

- green beans
- artichokes
- tomato <----lycopene
- bread
- bran
- peas <----coumarin

i'm also mixing my grapefruit juice with apple juice, which is a modest improvement, and could conceivably put a teaspoon of calcium carbonate in it to try to balance it out a bit better.
william the conqueror enjoyed his male conquests at least as much as his feudal ones.

the church histories don't like to tell you about that, though.
is this eurocentric, this rejection of identity?

well, whatever i think of identity, i'm hardly going to define myself in terms of somebody else's. if i were to have an identity, it would be european. in that sense, i couldn't be anything but eurocentric, and i'm happy to embrace the concept.

i think it's at least worthwhile to dissect identity from a european perspective to understand how socialism arose in opposition to it.

while feudalism was not unique to europe - tibetan feudalism was particularly vicious, and longlasting in the form of the aristocracy around the dalai lama - the way that feudalism gave rise to the concept of the modern nation-state is somewhat unique to europe, and follows european models when it's applied to the areas affected by colonialism. and, this is important because identity, as we understand, or at least as white people understand it, was irrevocably shaped by the development and dissolution of feudalism.

all of it - language, religion, race...

so, consider the feudal-era struggles between catholicism and protestantism in the united kingdom, specifically. the divisions between english, welsh, scottish, norse, danish and irish were not the same in the year 1300 as they are today. what you had, at the time, was something more like british on one side - which included the celtic nations - and german on the other, which included the angles, saxons, jutes, danes, norse, etc. and, these two broad nations would fight both within and against each other. by the year 1300, the aristocracy, at least, had mostly been catholicized, even if wide swaths of the peasantry had resisted christianization, to the point of continuing the old ways in secret. so, this is what we really had at the dawn of the reformation in england - a broadly christian aristocracy with a broadly pagan peasantry that saw itself as either british (celtic) or english (german). while the french get a lot of credit in christian-centric histories for the reason that the norman invasion is seen as a resurgence of roman civilization in britan, the fact is that the by then long no-longer-french-speaking aristocracy was norse/german in background, and just happened to speak french for a few decades upon landing. they were only french & christian in terms of fealty; the norse had already been in control of england by that time since the fall of wessex, and the norman invasion should really be seen more in terms of the constant infighting between scandinavian warlords. this "william the conqueror was conquering for rome" thing has always been a stretch.

and, dominant billy was openly bi, btw, too.

anyways, what happens after the year 1300 is that the aristocracy begins to bicker with itself, and it's only from this aristocratic infighting that you start to see these identities begin to develop. first, the scots remained loyal to the papacy, when henry viii told the pope to fuck off; it is only from this point forwards that wales (then under english control, since the plantagenet conquest) and scotland begin to develop separate identities as more than non-english, indigenous british tribes (the scots actually being migrants from ireland....), as a consequence of religious decisions made by aristocracies on the behalf of working people. eventually, there is a reformation and a counter-reformation in scotland, with tyrannical stuarts enforcing catholicism at knife point. this is thankfully ended by elizabeth, who was then famously invaded by the catholic spaniards. it was from these decisions by queens and kings that the british, scottish, welsh and irish derive their religious and ethnic identities from today, not from grassroots movements on the ground.

so, what is membership in the church of england or church of scotland, then? it's a stamp of ownership upon you by the ruling class. it's a way for the feudal lords to identify their property.

and, yet they continue to fight over this, to this day.

with language, you could look at the situation in france. we're taught that french is a romance language that descended from latin and became widespread amongst the celtic peasants of gaul, but that is arguably so wrong as to be a blatant lie. in fact, french as we understand it today is an administrative language that was initially spoken only by the parisian elite. the mass of french people spoke languages such as gascon, breton, occitan, alanian (an iranian dialect) and west german. it wasn't until, again, about the thirteenth century (when philip II defeated the angevins) that the capetians and eventually their junior branch the bourbons began conquering the areas around paris, and enforcing it's own dialect amongst the people. this is a process that continued for centuries, all the way to world war one. this happened with all kinds of violence and oppression, including a crusade, the inquisition and the kind of cultural destruction we usually associate with residential schools in canada, south africa and australia. yes, the same kind of assimilation was directed at white romance and celtic speakers in fucking france.

what is "french" then? the french people - perhaps no more so than in quebec - insist it is the definition of who they are, as a nation. but, the history of the language suggests otherwise - that it was the dialect of latin spoken strictly by the elite, and that it was enforced on everybody else through extreme violence and oppression. once again, what it is is really a mark of ownership - to speak french is to broadcast that you are the property of the capetian/bourbon feudal landholding class, and little more.

and, what is a country, in europe? the treaty of westphalia notwithstanding, all a "country" ever was from the time of the dissolution of the empire (and, there were no countries when there was an empire. the emperor ruled the entire world. by definition. that was a good thing, at least in the sense that it abolished identity, as we were all romans. or, at least, all of us who were not barbarians were.) to the time of that important treaty was land held in the ownership of some family. all england ever was was the land held by the english king; all france ever was was the land held by the french king. these borders were, themselves, based loosely on roman provincial boundaries, but much more so on the area that whatever warlord was able to conquer at whatever time. so, france is really the land that clovis managed to conquer, and little else - before clovis conquered it, it was a part of the empire, not france. and, it is from this concept of feudal land ownership that different realms developed - the bourbon, the hapsburg, the hohenzollern, the romanov - that determined what a country is, and what a country is not. italy, for example, was not a country, because it was never the sum total of a feudal landowner's possessions; austria, on the other hand, became a country solely because it was the sum total of a feudal landowner's possessions.

and, so what does it mean to have a nationality? it simply means that you exist in the realm owned by this landowner, that has this religion and speaks this language.

so, it should be no surprise that the rise of socialism in europe sought to do away with all of this as a means of control, or that a strictly by-the-book leftist such as myself would have no patience for it.
rawr.

*paw*.

i'd actually rather be a tree, if i could pick. i'd rather watch over the land from a major vantage point. i'd rather have 10,000 years to think it through. imagine that kind of deep breath, that kind of exhalation.

and, some fucking human would no doubt cut me down mid treatise to build a fucking mcdonalds or something.
i will acknowledge that there may be some ignorance out there regarding what it is that these women actually did, but there shouldn't be, not if you're still here reading this.

go educate yourself on the topic and get back to me when when you're done.
"but, don't you oppose guantanamo bay?"

sure.

see, that was an indiscriminate round-up, and most of them didn't do anything - they were just kidnapped at gunpoint and paraded in front of the camera to make it seem as though the government was doing something - catching bad guys, fighting crime.

the isis wives, on the other hand, are guilty to a woman. and, the children are already indoctrinated.

do you understand yet?

"and, aren't you opposed to torture?"

absolutely. no exceptions. partly because it's horrible, and partly because it doesn't work.

one of the crimes that isis is accused of is mass torture.

"and, don't you argue in favour of prosecuting war criminals from the 2003 invasion of iraq?"

yes. 

and, you think this is an argument against holding these women to account, don't you?

see, the difference between you and i is that you see the world in terms of identity and i don't. you can't make sense of me because i don't identify with or wave the flag of any tribe. and, that's part of being an anarchist - and actually getting being an anarchist. i have no time for gender, for religion, for race or for any other dividing factor that's going to lock me down intellectually and herd me into some specific quarter, where i'm easy to dissect and analyze and control.

i'm an animal, but i'm not a fucking farm animal. 

i'm not livestock.

i'm wild. i'm free...

all i've called for is the need to hold some war criminals accountable by the terms that we generally hold them accountable, and the pushback i've gotten from that is revolting and depressing.

you all need to look yourselves in the mirror and ask yourselves who you are and what you're supporting.
listen: i've been clear for a long time.

i wouldn't ever identify as a member or supporter of the democratic party, even if i might endorse them from time to time in the face of a republican party that has, until recently, been discernibly worse. the only support i've ever articulated for this party (since the 90s, when i became old enough to have an opinion.) has been pure lesser-evilism, and it hasn't always been consistent.

i supported nader in 00. i supported kerry in 04, because he had an anti-war background (gore, on the other hand, was a hawk). i was a kucinich supporter in '08, and while i never supported mckinney, i never endorsed obama, either. i supported jill stein in 2012. i endorsed clinton in 2016, but i'm sure i would have voted for stein. and, my endorsement this year was for howard hawkins - because i suspect biden will, broadly, be worse than trump, a historic flip in which party is worse than the other.

so, don't pretend i'm a democrat, or a democrat supporter, or morally in line with the democratic party. i've spent my whole life being starkly critical of the party and i've often advocated voting against it.

broadly speaking, i've also been exceedingly critical of what identifies as "progressivism". i identify this strain of american history with racism, eugenics, the stifling of free expression and the worst type of upper-classism. this isn't some new thing, either - it's always been that way. i identify as a socialist & an anarchist, and i do so in direct opposition to "progressivism", which i consider to be a fundamentally conservative movement.

i am less critical of the canadian liberal party because it has historically been less elitist, but they are at least in a down moment, if they haven't permanently fallen into the abyss.

my opinions are articulated relatively clearly, i think, and there's a lot of them here, if you care to look. i'm happy to debate, if you'll engage. but, please be careful not to erect strawmen, or to put words into my mouth. i'll eventually just make a fool of you, if you do.

Monday, December 7, 2020

so, you may find yourself frustrated when things more or less carry on as they always did.

can't you see that all they did was change their clothes?
the actual role of almost all of these positions is to act as a front, or a spokesperson for the deep state.
this is just a reminder that, while there are always some exceptions, the vast majority of people that biden is going to pick to do this or that are going to be handed scripts written by the civil service, that does all of the actual work.

so, with notable distant exceptions, it really actually doesn't matter who he picks to do what.

...and he'd might as well just fill it with whomever he thinks looks nicest.
i want to be done with this, but i want to finish it too....

*sigh*

why do i keep doing this - starting these projects i think will take a day and end up taking a year?

ugh.
the other thing is, like...

i don't want to passively brush my teeth in 10% nanohydroxyapatite and hope it works, slowly.

i want to aggressively bombard my mouth with it, with constant contact, in everything, for weeks.
so, here's what i can get when i go to the dentist:

1) i've located pure, powdered calcium carbonate in windsor. i can pick that up when i go out.
2) i cannot locate pure, powdered nanohydroxyapatite (powdered tooth enamel). there are some supplements bound to magnesium, which aren't useful for this purpose. i sent an email to an engineering company asking them to send me a baggie for a $20.
3) i looked up the ingredients for the various nanohydroxyapatite toothpastes, and every single one of them either had some kind of sugar in them or had something acidic in them :\. well, except the expensive one, apagard - that seems ok. the only one available in stores has carrageenan in it, and i went over that - that breaks down into sugar in the presence of amylase. the risewell looks like it might be ok, but it's full of all kind of weird shit like lemon peels. call me skeptical about brushing my teeth with lemon peels. so, i may need to get the powder in bulk, somehow.
for whatever reason, i never vomit. i know i'm really sick when i vomit.

it's been years and years. and years....

i push everything out the other way, instead.

like i say, i know how this works - i'm expecting a ridiculous movement that would no doubt bring tears of pride to my parents' eyes. you wouldn't believe something like that could possibly come from little me. and, yet, it's been the norm since i moved to this diet.

i think it's just too much.

but, i'll do the experiment tonight.
it's had too many chances to be random.

it's repeat, now.
relief seems to be more connected to bowel excretion, so it seems more likely that the pain is in the intestine.

and, this is a "familiar" pain - if this was a bladder attack, you'd think it would be a weird sensation i don't realize. it's not. it's just a stomach ache....

it feels like food poisoning, and maybe it is, still. but, whatever is causing it needs to be identified and removed.
the pain is sharp and it's very low in my gut. 

so, it's either in my intestine - which is what i thought at first - or in my bladder. if it's in my bladder, the beets are the most likely culprit, unfortunately, and i'll have to take them out. but, if it's in my intestine, it could be total fibre, and i'd be more likely to take the carrots out first.

i'll have to do the experiment.

it's diet-related, clearly. i'm not sick - it's what i'm eating.
i've been through this enough now that i know how it ends, anyways - it pushes through in hard, dry, fibrous feces, of fishing story proportions. and, then i'm fine.

so, it's either something specific...or it's too much fibre at once. and, that is something that happens when you eat too much fibre.

the meal has 55 g of pasta, 110 g of carrots, 82 g of beets and 175 g of red peppers. the root vegetables are particularly compact and probably the culprit, if it's fibre.

but, i don't know, really.

i should start next time by eating one component of the meal at a time and seeing how i react to each one, and stopping when or if i get sick again.
i am not aware of any allergies.

i may have found one.
i thought i was sick, i thought it was food poisoning....

no, it's the item.

it's consistent.
ok, i'm facing the facts.

there is something in my pasta meal that my stomach just does not like, and i'm going to need to isolate it and remove it.

i may even be allergic to it, in which case i may be playing with fire.

it might be the beets.
what do i think this syndrome is?

it's probably a parasite.
i would suggest that us bureaucrats wear tinfoil hats when in cuba.

what nonsense.

you know they're going to blame climate change on the russians in the end, right?

and, yes, you can get too much fluoride.

just like you can get too much sodium.

or too much calcium.
maybe it's actually that simple.

maybe cavities are a consequence of fluoride deficiency. like, for real - maybe that's how it should be viewed, clinically. maybe that should be how the disease is formulated.

maybe dentists should say "you have a fluoride deficiency" to people that come in and tell them they have toothaches.

so, people will say "fluoride isn't a nutrient, because no disease comes from it's deficiency."

but, clearly, a disease does come from it's deficiency - namely, cavitation.

we're just so lost in whiteness that we can't see it.
well, it's kind of weird that we claim that "healthy" means "most susceptible to cavities", don't you think?

what "healthy" really means is "normal from the perspective of a white person". but, that is also "normal from the perspective of people that drink water from the least fluoridated sources on the planet".

to an african, "normal" looks like fluorosis.

and, they get far less cavities, per capita, even when they eat shit.

so, who has more healthy teeth, really?

i just hope it's not too late.
maybe this is the actual truth:



so, yes - i'm aiming for fluorosis.

if i can get it.

apparently, it's hard to get fluorosis as an adult...
people with "fluorosis" might have funny white spots on their teeth, and stupid white people might think it's unattractive.

but, they don't get cavities.
what we call "fluorosis" may, in truth, just be what we evolved to produce - that might be the most healthy teeth.

and, what we call "normal" may, in truth, be a deficiency, as a result of consuming poorly mineralized water.

fucking white people, huh?
The mean fluoride level in ground water and the prevalence of dental fluorosis were pooled from eleven and nine primary studies conducted in Ethiopian Rift Valley respectively. The pooled mean level of fluoride in ground water therefore was 6.03 mg/l (95% CI; 4.72–7.72, p < 0.001) and the pooled prevalence of dental fluorosis among residents in Ethiopian rift valley was 32% (95% CI: 25, 39%, p < 0.001), 29% (95% CI: 22, 36%, p < 0.001) and 24% (95% CI: 17, 32%, p < 0.001 for mild, moderate and sever dental fluorosis respectively. The overall prevalence of dental fluorosis is 28% (95% CI, 24, 32%, p < 0.001).
it's interesting to note that the fluoride content in the natural water sources in ethiopia - where we all come from - is amongst the highest in the world.

so, it's easy to say that we don't have fluoride in our natural occurring water, so it's "unnatural" to add it.

....except that, if you go to the rift valley, where we evolved, they do have fluoride naturally occurring in their water - and at higher levels then we add it, anywhere.
so, then, if i'm going to do a fluoride treatment, i should do it in the presence of hydroxyapatite, rather than space it out. i want the fluoride to absorb with the hydroxyapatite.

for now, i should make sure that i'm mixing the high fluoride with the novamin, which has the same ions, but in a different combination.

again: i don't know why that wouldn't work, if the ph is high.
i can buy hydroxyapatite - both in powder and in toothpaste.

so, why wouldn't your body deposit this if you give it fluoride + hydroxyapatite?
i'm also realizing that crest produces a lot of fake news.

but, let's take this at face value - it's claiming that you can catch the hydroxyapatite when it dissolves, and put it back in by replacing the hydroxyl group with fluoride.

i suppose it would then follow that that won't work anymore if you don't have any hydroxyapatite to catch. that is, the efficacy of fluoride would rely on the existence of degrading enamel to work.

but, that doesn't rule out uptake, it just presents a challenge - you need to introduce hydroxyapatite somehow, and i grasp that this has eluded engineers. but, that's why we have novamin, instead.

it also opens up a lot of questions about whether a partially decayed tooth can be restored using that mechanism. in theory, it should be possible for your saliva to take dissolved hydroxyapatite from a healthy part of your tooth and uptake it into a damaged part using fluoride. in theory, it should even be possible for your saliva to take dissolved hydroxyapatite from one tooth and redeposit it in another. how would it figure any of that out?

regardless, it seems like i want to find ways to get something like hydroxyapatite in there, and i knew that already. i get a lot of calcium, a lot of phosphorus, a lot of vitamin d, etc. the only thing i was missing was fluoride, and i've addressed that.

that clarifies a little, but it doesn't resolve the contradiction.

Sunday, December 6, 2020

i'm still having trouble making sense of this, because i'm trying to work through the mechanism of it. 

The lack of exposure to fluoride or the ingestion of inadequate amounts of fluoride at any age places the individual at increased risk for dental caries.

....and that seems to be the overwhelming consensus.

well, if the reason for that is that your body uptakes the fluoride into your enamel as an adult and stores it as hydroxyfluorapatite, what does your body do with the fluoride if your enamel is cracked or degraded?

what i can't figure out is why it does this reaction when you have unblemished enamel and doesn't when you have damaged enamel. how does your body know? that even almost sounds backwards. you'd think that there's more space for the reaction in damaged enamel.

i know, i know - i've read the consensus position. i just can't find a clearly described mechanism. maybe i need to rent a textbook from the library, or at least look it up on google books.

but, despite what they're telling me, it doesn't make any sense to me to think that a massive fluoride bombardment - in the presence of all of the other minerals - won't produce hydroxyfluorapatite, in even the most damaged teeth. for that to make sense, you'd have to demonstrate an association between remineralization and the ameloblast cells that adults lose, which, as far as i can tell, is demonstrably false...

i will let them drill, if they can find caries underneath the plaque. and, as stated, i think there is at least one.

but, i'm struggling to make sense of the mechanism underlying this.
if you left this decision up to the masses in syria, they would leave no trace - and rebuild on top of the ruins.
so, the most egregious apologists will actually be so absurd as to argue that isis is just an indigenous group following an indigenous system of law.

....and that is so far removed from reality as to be racist. it's a perfect example of orientalism. and, it's complete bullshit.

these are foreign mercenaries that showed up with guns and forced people to do what they want, or else; it's the furthest thing possible from a spontaneous uprising, and the proof of it is in the pile of dead bodies and unmarked graves left in it's wake.
and, isis is not a misguided national liberation movement, either. the kinds of critiques you may apply to the worst segments of palestinian militants simply don't apply to isis, and there's two reasons for that:

1) isis is primarily composed of foreign mercenaries, not indigenous people. these are not people that have had their land stolen and are fighting to take it back; these are people that have come from afar to steal land from the people that live there.
2) isis is incredibly unpopular in the regions it is trying to conquer. and, this is the point that westerners attacking me seem to fail to grasp - what i'm saying is the populist position in syria, in iraq and in turkey. i'm the one that's the populist, here - and you're the colonialist.
high sources of betaine including beets & wheat, especially wheat bran.
fluoride may increase the uptake of some metals accidentally consumed as a part of the manufacturing process of certain foods. the reason is that the fluoride may bind to those metals in your stomach, and your body very efficiently uptakes the fluoride - taking the metal with it.

betaine helps to clear those metals.

so, if you're ingesting fluoride, through whatever means, you should ingest betaine as well.
pangamic acid strikes again.

i mean, the probabilities are what they are for a reason.

when the odds are staggering, it means you will almost certainly fail to overcome them. that's why they're the odds.

liberals have a hard time with that, for some reason - they seem to think everybody can beat the odds.

but, then they wouldn't be the odds, would they?

again: i want to play the odds, not ignore them.
it's this liberal tendency to hope people buck the trends, to beat the probabilities.

fuck that.

i'm interested in applying the probabilities. sorry.
"you're assuming its a foregone conclusion!"

that's right, i am.

and i think you're stupid for giving them the benefit of the doubt.
you have a chance to wipe them out, now, when they're young and helpless.

why wait until they can fight?

why wait until they kill people, first?

i don't get it. really.
i just don't grasp this showing mercy to fascists thing.

it's like giving a lion a hug - you may think it's this evolved position, as chamberlain no doubt did, himself.

i just think you're fucking stupid.
it's the old cliche.

"if you could go back in time, would you kill hitler before he came to power?"

and, everybody says yes. invariably. i might introduce a caveat: i need to be given a way back to the future, or it's not worth it. i'm alive - and the past already happened.

will we ask one day if we would bomb the isis camps if we could go back in time and do it?

and, will we all agree that we should?
...and they will raise monsters.

don't delude yourself into thinking otherwise.
i'm generally in favour of international law as a rule of thumb.

but, it's silly to pretend anybody gives a fuck - or ever did. 

laws are guiding forces, they're not absolute truths, and it's ultimately the spirit of the law that is more important than the letter of it.

what that means is that bombing civilians is bad, and bombing pows is generally bad, but bombing pows that are also war criminals is perhaps acceptable, depending on the context. this is a context where it may be the only way to bring these women to justice - because they won't be held forever. they will eventually be let go.

it is the women that will repopulate and raise the next generation of monsters, not the men.
this might be the only thing i end up agreeing with biden about.

but, the thrust of my argument is that there's a lot of relativists out there that want to erect false equivalencies and pretend these people should be treated humanely.

these people are war criminals - and what we do with war criminals is we send them to the hague and execute them. that would be ideal, of course - i'd rather try them and hang them.

it is ridiculous to compare conscripted soldiers fighting against fascism to volunteers fighting for fascism. once you've done that, you've fallen entirely into nihilism, if you're not just a mouthpiece for the saudi government (and a nihilist for that reason, instead).

but, for a variety of reasons, i realize that these women will never be tried and executed like they should be. so, i'm advocating taking control of the situation and just bombing them instead.

it's not ideal, but it's the best option in front of us.
and am i aligning with trump in supporting a bombing of the isis camps?

no - trump supported releasing them, because he's in bed with the saudis.

my position is closer to obama's than trump's. and, i'm actually hoping, if nothing else, that the biden administration finishes the job - and then gets out.
we're supposed to be this public health superpower, but a substantive amount of our population doesn't even have access to fluoridated water :\.

and, we have politicians pushing for universal dental coverage. even the ford government recently expanded dental coverage for low-income seniors, because they realized that emergency room visits for toothaches were costing them a fortune. realize that: a government elected to run through the province's finances line-by-line concluded that seniors going to the emergency room for toothaches was a major public expense, and expanded dental coverage to deal with it.

the point of fluoridation is that it's a cheap way for the poor to avoid unnecessary dental visits.

it's quite baffling.

and, the people rejecting fluoridation are the same people railing against anti-vaxxers, or anti-mask advocates. you can look it up - it's almost 1:1. and, there's no irony in it.

a very simple thing the federal government could do to dramatically improve the dental health of low-income canadians would be to federally mandate fluoride in drinking water, to prevent retards on city councils from trying to save a few bucks. that is an easily enforceable first step that could be taken overnight, in the face of a universal dental system that has so many challenges in erecting that it may very well never happen.

and, while i'm concerned about public health rather than costs, no it's not an expense - it's a cost-saving mechanism. even doug ford has figured that out.
you know, growing up in ottawa, i took this for granted.

but, the list of major canadian cities that don't fluoridate at this point is actually quite shocking: montreal has never fluoridated, vancouver has never fluoridated, calgary removed it about ten years ago, and windsor (a much smaller city) removed it about ten years ago, as well.

it's kind of embarrassing, really.
i've actually updated this slightly.

this evening, i found my mouth was feeling less clean that i'd like, and it seems to be about the post-eating ritual - i was brushing gently after eating and not rinsing, after following advice that i want to maximize fluoride retention by not rinsing.

these guys indicate that this is kind of hokey advice:

ultimately, i'm driven by the empirical data of what i feel, not theoretical advice regarding what should or ought to be.

i'm going to guess that the truth is that both points are valid - you do want to rinse after you eat to wash away shit, but you also want to avoid washing off the fluoride. so, it would seem to me that the smartest thing to do, in order to react to this contradiction, is to brush away the shit first, and then apply fluoride after.

so, that's the update:

every day:

breakfast
- start with dish soap, soft brush  [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]. 
- wait a half hour
- put remaining spit from previous day & the morning into a liter of water & drink it. wash cup. [recover fluoride]
- eat breakfast (fruit bowl)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away  [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- apply prevident with more novamin. spit into cup. wait an hour. [fluoride treatment]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in a liter of water & drink it.  [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after breakfast coffee. [recover fluoride]

supper:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it. [recover fluoride]
- eat supper (pasta)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- apply nanohydroxyapatite gel. wait an hour. [remineralization treatment]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it. [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after supper coffee [recover fluoride]

late-night:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]
- eat late-night eggs
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- extra treatment? wait an hour, anyways,
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]

- sleep in the early morning, if i have to.

every three months:
- fluoride varnish
right. so, it seems like they're being cleared out to make room for some of ford's cronies.

they want to build condos, and it's foolish - all of those trees are fundamental to why people want to live in toronto. if you turn the city into a toxic sea of smog and pollution, you're just going to reduce property values.

now, i'd like to see reduced property values. but, not at the expense of clean air...

they just don't care - they just see land they think should be developed.

they're just too vicious, too barbaric.

no caveats.

no rationalizing. 

they need to not exist.
i've been over this a few times and tried to weigh it out and my deduction is that it doesn't matter if isis is a false flag or blowback or not - they're too evil to let exist.

it's basically the only war i've ever supported. but, i'm not backing off, now. and the more they linger, the more important it is to finish the job.
see, this is the other slant on it.

....because those who know, know. and, we know that isis is hardly a spontaneous group of random islamic radicals that arose from nowhere out of the desert, but is rather a very organized, professional group that is at least funded by the fake saudi theocracy. 

ah, the fake saudi theocracy - that sips wine between beatings for impropriety. that makes them worse - they're not crazy, they're just evil.

at least funded by the saudis - we know that, we can figure that out with minimal effort. it's when you get deeper than that that it gets messy.

how much support did isis get, or still gets, from the cia, anyways? it seems clear that it's non-zero, but the depth of it is blurry. 

so, who's interests am i advancing when i call for the bombing of isis prisoner of war camps? and, why exactly is it that i get so much pushback from curious places when i do that?

you might accuse me of standing with the military and advancing endless war, but you might be misguided in doing so.

"quraishi" means "of the tribe of muhammad". it's like an arab hapsburg, or bourbon - a member of the ruling clique. how distant is this guy from mbs, really? the answer is no doubt "not very".

and, this is the wrench in this - it's not entirely clear what's really going on, here. well...it is. but nobody wants to come out and say it...

these women are being protected by powerful people. and, my calls for justice are in direct opposition to what the elite wants for the region.

the good guys, here, are actually the russians. but, they're too soft....

i just want to close the thought on this "bombing isis camps is genocide" nonsense.

it's baffling that i need to remind people of this, but i do:

ISIS systematically committed torture, mass rapes, forced marriages, extreme acts of ethnic cleansing, mass murder, genocide, robbery, extortion, smuggling, slavery, kidnappings, and the use of child soldiers; in ISIS' implementation of strict interpretations of Sharia law which were based on ancient eighth-century methods, they carried out public "punishments" such as beheadings, crucifixions, beatings, mutilation and dismemberment, the stoning of both children and adults, and the live burning of people. ISIS committed mass rape against tens of thousands of children, mostly girls and women (mainly members of non-Sunni minority groups and families).

it's widely understood that the wives - most of whom are not from the middle east, but came to the region out of their own free will - are deeply complicit in all of this. they participated in the slavery, and the genocide and all of the rest of it. they were not passively observing - they were actively participating.

so, is calling for the bombing of isis camps the same thing as calling for a bombing of the middle east? hardly - it's essentially the opposite of that. is calling for justice equivalent to calling for genocide? these are warped arguments, true mental gymnastics. and, as stated previously, what they really expose is a level of sympathy for the islamic state, for whatever reason - perhaps some kind of ideological allegiance, and perhaps some kind of misguided ethnic identification.

let us all be clear: the biggest victims of isis were the people that live in the region - arabs, iranians, kurds, turks, jews and others alike. isis poses little threat to the west, but it poses a dramatic threat to the freedom of people in the middle east. and, while i'm generally not a strong advocate of intervention and war, there are some bad guys that are worth fighting against.

i understand that my prescription is harsh, but it's intent is to minimize violence, in the long run. these women are monsters. they need to be brought to justice. and, these children are not reformable - not except in the youngest of cases.

i'm not calling for the extermination of the isis camps because it makes me happy to do so; i'm calling for the extermination of the isis camps because i recognize the grave threat that they pose to the people in the region, and realize the need to take action, before it is too late.

you can disagree - that's ok.

but, don't call it genocide. that's just stupid.
music is in a down point right now, and son lux is one of a very small number of artists i'm still actively following. there's a new release...

i found the last one a little too sombre. i mean, i get that he's moving in that direction, but you can overdo it.

we'll see how i react to this one.

ok, if i think i'm awake and stable, maybe i can get that post done before i eat.

this was a shit week. i can only hope next week is better.
crises with my hair the last few days.

i got back from the dentist's office on the 26th and took a long shower. hair was fine - smelled nice, even. i skipped friday, and intended to shower saturday morning before i went to amherstburg, but i was running a little late. i was going to bike most of the way with a ski mask on anyways - it was nearly freezing.

this ended up being a two+ hour slog in heavy winds, which exhausted me to the point that i required drugs to make it home safely. and, i fell over when i got in.

when i woke up on sunday morning, i noticed my hair was a horrible mess, but i didn't think much of it - anybody with long hair knows that it happens, sometimes. you run a little too hard, you sit in too dry a space, etc. it's generally fixable, except in the most extreme scenarios. i was going to be out in yucky weather all day anyways, so i decided i'd wait. 

and, then i waited one more day, because i had to finish the shopping on monday afternoon, in the snowstorm. and, i think this is what produced the actual crisis.

when i was on the way back from the metro to get soy milk on monday afternoon, i got sprayed by a couple of trucks hitting puddles. i tried to schedule it so i'd be in the snow, so i'd avoid that, but the forecast failed, and i ended up biking in the rain.

i think it was the water from the puddles that left some kind of residue in there, which locked the matted hair in place. and, it took some time to come to terms with it. 98% of the time, simply applying conditioner gets the knots out, but this was different - every time it seemed like i was winning, something seemed to harden and undo the progress, and i just couldn't get whatever the residue was out.

i've had long hair for almost my whole life, and i've never had to cut a chunk of it like this out before...

i was very worried. but, it turns out it's not that bad - you can't even really tell, due to the way i wear it, behind my ears. to be clear: i lost a lot of hair, all of it in the back. but you'd have to examine me with a set of mirrors to determine it. thankfully...

i kept telling myself "it'll grow back". and, it will. three months. six months...

but, it's why you need to avoid biking in the rain - and why i almost always do.
we should be planting trees, not wasting them like this.

this is a practice that needs to stop.

Saturday, December 5, 2020

see, they always make the wrong argument. it boggles my mind how they're getting such shit legal advice.

the court doesn't even care if banning in-person services would create "irreparable harm", which is basically what it said. what the court cares about is if it's going to work or not. this is an administrative review case, not a constitutional challenge; the court needs to defer, but only to the point that it's rational.

so, does it make sense to ban drive-in churches? is that going to reduce case counts?

frankly, i actually think the drive-in thing was fairly innovative, and probably sufficient. while it's clear that religious services are one of the primary problems, and you'd have to be daft to go to a church right now if you're at all vulnerable to this, which most people that go to church regularly truly are, sitting in a parking lot is a different issue. even talking outside after is probably mostly safe.

i have no solidarity with christians. at all. but i think they would have won this if they had made the right argument.

no punk, no anarchist, no socialist, no leftist would stand with isis.

not for a second.

not even as an aborted thought.
so, go out and find these isis sympathizers.

label them as they are.

and treat them as they should be treated.
how it is that we've allowed a bunch of media savvy nazi-sympathizers to flip the situation over is beyond me, but it reveals something deeper about the population, something that needs to be seriously addressed.

if you're willing to see these women as victims, you need psychological help. and, if you don't recognize the threat that their children pose to the stability of the region, to the people in it that want freedom, than you're a fool - or worse. 

maybe, deep down, you're on their side.

it was true in the second world war that a large percentage of german-americans harbored nazi sympathies. and, it seems to be true today that a large number of americans have hidden sympathies with isis.

it's a scary realization that the enemy is here at home, as well.
and, i will say this again: if you stand with these war criminals, these nazis in kkk hoods, then that is what you are - an enabler, a sympathiser, a war criminal, yourself.
i've been over this before - i stand with the secularists in the region, the socialists, the atheists, the freethinkers, those that need to fight against religious tyranny and oppression in order to merely exist.

and, i stand with them to the end - as gruesome as it is.

they know what needs to be done.
they're a bunch of fucking nazis.

and, the only good nazi is a dead one.
maybe i should clarify a point.

i have indeed called for the bombing of isis "refugee" camps, and my attempts to defend the point have been censored and altered. i've even been accused of supporting genocide, which is a preposterous position that distorts truth and reality to absurd extremes.

to begin with, i reject the claim that these people are refugees - they are war criminals. so, we need to begin with that difference in definition. i reject the premise that they're civilians; they're combatants. i'm consequently not calling for the bombing of civilian women and children, as some would claim, but for the bombing of enemy encampments.

and, i would show them no mercy - as they would show us none. they don't deserve any mercy - they need to be wiped off the face of the planet.

second of all, i'm not calling for the extermination of an entire people, i'm calling for the elimination of a group of war criminals. and, what are the crimes of these people? in fact, these people are themselves guilty of genocide, and genocide against the people in the region. not only am i not calling for the extermination of syrian or iranian or kurdish people, but i'm calling for the extermination of a group that would exterminate them. to equate this with genocide is beyond a false equivalency, it's ridiculous.

i've continually made comparisons between fundamentalist islam and nazism, and think those comparisons are well rooted and deeply grounded. did we show mercy to the nazis? no - we obliterated them. and, did we accuse those who would wipe the nazis out of war crimes? did we accuse them of genocide? that's ridiculous.

i understand that my calls are in contravention of the geneva convention, but it is in the context of improper treatments of prisoners of war, and not in the context of improper treatment of civilians. they are not civilians, and cannot be seen as though they are - they are guilty of the most heinous crimes imaginable, and must be brought to justice by whatever means necessary.

and, the only conceivable option is to just wipe them out.

i will continue to call for the whole sale annihilation of these camps and the "people" that inhabit them, and will continue to call you a retard if you accuse me of supporting genocide over it.
this is potentially the last update to what is now a ridiculous oral care routine that i hope strengthens and reverse the decay.

every day:

breakfast
- start with dish soap, soft brush  [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]. 
- wait a half hour
- put remaining spit from previous day & the morning into a liter of water & drink it. wash cup. [recover fluoride]
- eat breakfast (fruit bowl)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away  [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- apply prevident with more novamin. spit into cup. wait an hour. [fluoride treatment]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in a liter of water & drink it.  [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after breakfast coffee. [recover fluoride]

supper:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it. [recover fluoride]
- eat supper (pasta)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- apply nanohydroxyapatite gel. wait an hour. [remineralization treatment]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it. [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after supper coffee [recover fluoride]

late-night:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]
- eat late-night eggs
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait ten minutes
- brush with soft toothbrush & no product and rinse away with water [remove food]
- brush with soft medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste & spit into cup. [remove food, apply fluoride]
- extra treatment? wait an hour, anyways,
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]

- sleep in the early morning, if i have to.

every three months:
- fluoride varnish
and, if i'm using close to a gram with the sensodyne several times a day as well, and it's .104%

1*.00104 = 1 mg.

so, i should throw that in the spit bowl as well. why not. there's nothing scary in the ingredients list there, either. 
the internet really, honestly doesn't know how much toothpaste the average american uses per brushing.

that's hilarious.
so, i may have taken a few strong doses of fluoride. 

i'm ok.

i needed it, anyways.
ok, because i can't find any useful data about how much the average amount of toothpaste that people actually use weighs (rather than the amount you're "supposed to use" weighs), let's flip the question over - how much do i need to use to get to 4 g and actually produce a usable source of fluoride to put in my drinking water?

x*.005 = .004 <---> x = .004/.005 = .8 g.

so, 800 mg. i'm going to presume this is going to fill up the brush fairly well.

there's 37 ml in the tube, and it's probably around 50 g.

i'd definitely want to sip that over the day, not down it at once. the best thing to do is partition it into the water i'm drinking, anyways. that should effectively fluoridate my water.

so,

so, what are all the things i'm looking at?

every day:

breakfast
- start with dish soap, soft brush  [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put remaining spit from previous day into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]
- eat breakfast (fruit bowl)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away  [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait a half hour
- brush with soft toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [remove food]
- apply prevident with more novamin. spit into cup & dilute with water. wait an hour. [fluoride treatment]
- put 1/8th of diluted spit in a liter of water & drink it.  [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after breakfast coffee

supper:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]
- eat supper (pasta)
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait a half hour
- brush with soft toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [remove food]
- apply nanohydroxyapatite gel. wait an hour. [remineralization treatment]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it. [recover fluoride]
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit in after supper coffee

late-night:
- start with dish soap, soft brush [anti-bacterial]
- follow with medium toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [may replace with stannous fluoride] [remove plaque]
- wait a half hour
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]
- eat late-night eggs
- swoosh with calcium carbonate right away [to increase ph of mouth]
- wait a half hour
- brush with soft toothbrush & novamin toothpaste [remove food]
- extra treatment? wait an hour, anyways,
- put 1/8th of cup of diluted spit into a liter of water & drink it [recover fluoride]

- sleep in the early morning, if i have to.

every three months:
- fluoride varnish

i think that's solved. 

if i can hold to it.
or am i using more than that?

i'm getting widely divergent estimates. if a pea-sized amount is 25 mg, i'm using roughly 50 mg, which is only .05*.005 = .00025 g, in the end - half as much as a glass of water.

but, some estimates suggest that the average person uses as much as a gram of toothpaste at a time, which would be .005 g, or 5 mg, if i swallowed it directly. that's higher than the fda's rdi and could conceivably produce a reaction, for sure.

another number i've seen is 400 mg, which is .4*.005 = 0.002 g = 2 mg.

well, why don't i just take it in two doses, to be sure, until i can get a better measurement? i'm feeling something, and should ultimately react to that more than anything else....
my scale only measures in increments of a gram. so, i'm trying to find an average amount. like most people, i don't use a "pea-sized" amount - nobody does. i fill up the brush. and, no, i'm not reducing that - i need more fluoride not less. how much is that, actually?

it's proving surprisingly difficult to google. you'd think it'd be an easy answer, but google just wants to push down "expert knowledge" of how a bunch of people wish the world was, rather than how it actually is.

in the meantime, i found this lovely nugget:

this is from a 2013 document by colgate.

https://pdf.hres.ca/dpd_pm/00021197.PDF
i've definitely been reacting to the fluoride, but i don't know what to think of it.

how much fluoride do i need to eat to get a basic glass of normal tap water?

at .7 ppm of 750 ml, using a 1:1 conversion ratio (it's actually a little less at room temperature), 750*0.0000007 = 0.000525 g. so, that's how much fluoride is in a cup of fluoridated water - a half a milligram. that means you'd need about 6-8 cups to get enough fluoride.

at 5000 ppm (.5%), how much fluoride do i need to get .000525 g? and the answer is

x*.005 = .000525 <---> x = .000525/.005 = .105.

that's 105 mg of high potency toothpaste just to get the amount of fluoride in a cup of water. and, while i'm having difficulty measuring how much i'm using, it's nowhere near that amount. it's maybe 50 mg - probably more like 25 mg.

why am i reacting to this, then? i'm feeling it in my eyes and in my chest. it's initially a feeling like i'm being stretched out, almost pulled apart, and then a feeling of contentment. so, am i feeling it depositing? or is it just in my head?

if it's less than tap water, am i actually reacting to a "deficiency"? will that fade over time?
it's reflective of what i've been saying for years - the democratic party is a fundamentally conservative party, and what it represents is a fundamentally conservative movement.

msnbc has long been the conservative mouthpiece of the country.

i guess it took staring an actual conservative party in the fact to see it and realize it.

i hate being tired like this all of the time and wish i knew what the culprit was so i could reverse it.

for now, i'm going to blame it on the edibles and swear off them entirely.

Friday, December 4, 2020

to suggest that all of these people - myself included - are stuck in neutral, or even reverse, because they're uneducated is simply wrong. it's the kind of thing harper would say, sure, but it's easily debunked by data.

it reflects the blind spot on both sides, though.

to the rural bumpkin, all them city folk are just a bunch of liberal elitists - and that's fine for conservative voters, who then vote for conservative elites (trump merely being the most absurd example) who think exactly that, as harper did - that if you don't succeed in life, you're just uneducated.

and, of course, this imaginary liberal elite, to the extent it exists, would say the same thing - that it knows better than the unwashed masses, who would easily climb their way up if they'd only go to school.

lost in all of this nonsense being peddled by both elitist factions is that we live in a system where people are intended to fail. this is a hierarchy - people must exist at the bottom of it. and, it's not the people born into the top. it follows that, for the vast majority of people, there's really no way out of poverty, and this is by design. grasping this is fundamental, but few get it - as proletariat, we even blame each other for "failing" in a system that is designed so that nobody wins.

the average "middle class" person nowadays is raised relatively well off, takes on massive amounts of debt to get an education and ends up working in the service sector, in the end. these are educated, urban and mostly white people that are going to feel resentment at what they correctly perceive is an unfair system of nepotism and preference, not an egalitarian system of merit. and, those that buy into it will often reject merit on it's face in favour of affirmative action, and code words like "diversity".

it puts us into a rough spot, because we want a system that's equal, but we realize that the pendulum has swung rather far, and left us out. and, we have nothing to do about it, and nobody to vote for - or not really, anyways. it's a constantly shitty calculation for a lesser evil. and, we always lose, in the end.
so, where in this dichotomy do you put the the overeducated starbucks employee, that has a phd and serves coffee, which is in truth the driver of the modern economy and the primary swing voter on the left?

these are the people that swing between the ndp and the liberals and the greens - and they're the people that determine the outcomes of elections.

it's less that what he's describing isn't real and more that it doesn't matter. that "liberal" (for they are, in truth, anything but) elite is never going to vote for the conservatives, and the rural base of the conservative party is never going to vote liberal - although they may vote ndp or green in a pinch.

this is useless data and a meaningless narrative that doesn't matter - and it's reflective of the fact that he's leading a dead movement.

the political movements of the future will be the ones that trap the energy of the overeducated and underemployed, as they are increasingly the majority.

the other thing i'm curious about is if they can just paint something on there, if they can blow away the plaque first. like, even just white-out it. no, really.
right now, it seems like it's helping - and i might even say dramatically.

but, i'll keep a very close eye on it.

any bleeding, any lesions, any discolouring, etc and i'll stop immediately; right now, it seems to be eating away at plaque and actually reversing the gum erosion, at least between the teeth. that means that, if i had a weak form of gingivitis, it might have been all i needed to do.

might.

seems.
and, if they won't do a scaling, i can get a waterpik for $50 and do it myself, too.

ok.

*sigh*.
it's somewhat reassuring that dish soap appears to be frequently recommended as a denture or retainer cleaning solution, for the explicit reason that it is milder than any other option.

and, dish soap does have a reputation for being mild.

but, it doesn't help me understand whether it'd going to fry my gums or not, which is what i'm apprehensive about.
i'm trying to kill something inside me.

and, the available science on the matter isn't helpful because it's driven by an industry that profits off of failure.
again: i know this is a balancing act.

if it's gentle enough to be 100% safe, it won't work!
there are actually a number of anti-microbial agents in the dish soap:

Ammonium Laureth Sulfate
Ammonium Lauryl Sulfate
Lauramidopropylamine Oxide <-----nitrate
Isodeceth-6 <-----alcohol
Sodium Chloride <----salt
Magnesium Sulfate    <-----magnesium is good 
Alcohol Denat
Methylisothiazolinone <----in mouthwash. biocide, cytotoxin, antifungal. safe for gums?
Benzisothiazolinone <----""
Methylchloroisothiazolinone <-----"" 


i found the following article, and i would presume the concentrations are much lower than this, but i sent an email to palmolive to ask:

see, this is what i want to see.

and, i can tell it's working.

i just worry about concentrations.

i need to halt at the earliest sign of inflammation.

it's a constant truth with me.

i'm either brilliant or retarded.

we'll find out...
yeah, i should be able to get a tall container of the stuff for $10.

ok.

that was a typo, but i'm sticking with it.
sodium bicarbonate is baking soda.

calcium carbonate is tums.

but, they put sugar in tums, so don't use it as mouthwash. i need to find it raw...
sorry, i said calcium carbonate.

i meant sodium bicarbonate - baking soda.

but, on second thought, i'd prefer calcium carbonate, in powder form, if i can find it. 
...and, flossing doesn't work. 

that's why i'm not doing it.
of course, the best thing you can do for your gums is to clear them of bacteria.

so, it's very delicate, what i'm doing. and, i'm taking a risk that will either pay off dramatically or fail terribly...
it's a trade-off.

if i'm overly concerned about my gums, i'll pick a weaker surfactant, or not pick one at all. but, that may not have strong enough anti-bacterial properties.

conversely, if i want to pick the strongest antibacterial (probably hydrogen peroxide), it could severely damage my gums.

so, i need to pick something in between - and the ingredient in the dish soap (ammonium lauryl sulfate) is the ingredient in between.

unfortunately, i won't know if it's a mistake until it's too late.

my teeth feel better. they feel strong and clean. 

but, this is an experiment in a mouth that needs shock therapy, and i don't recommend you follow along just quite yet.