my official take on the existential literature is that i haven't spent the time exploring it for the reason that it would feel like i'm reading my own thoughts.

i know that i have an exceedingly deep connection to this - to the point that i don't feel i'd learn anything from reading it.

it's basically innate to who i am; instinct, almost.

so, i'm aware that i sound like i've read mountains of camus and kierkegaard and the rest. in truth, i've only explored it at a very cursory level.

my brain is just wired to make the same deductions, independently.  

i will get to it, eventually.