so, i'm making a conscious attempt to refocus. i've been stuck in a
rut and want to get back to work. so, i want to make a few notes on the
condition of the various sites i have running, here, before i shift
gears rather dramatically.
i think it's clear at this
point that i can't do all of these things at once, that i need to do one
or two at a time. attempts to do everything all at once have merely
left me unable to finish anything at all. so, what am i going to be
focusing on?
my focus for quite some time now has been
rebuilding blogs. first, it was the politics blog and the music journal,
which i had running recurrently. i spent a large amount of 2016-2017
pulling data down from the internet into a set of word documents, and
almost all of 2018 rebuilding these two blogs from those word documents.
these would grow to take in the vlog and other things that developed
over the last few years, creating a narrative of my musical output from
2013-2017 (as well as some cursory and largely unimportant political
rambling). then, i expanded these to include a review site and a travel
blog, so that i was rebuilding four blogs instead of two. as an addendum
to this, there were two alter-reality blogs put aside - one that would
end in mid-1996 and one that would start in mid-1996. but, the actual
focus - the actual thing i was doing - was building liner notes for the
music site. all of the 6 blogs i have running are essentially intended
as commentary for the music. they have no meaningful context, otherwise,
and mean nothing to me when separated from it.
i
wanted this all to converge into a period disc that i would release at
the end of 2019 (on the 20 year anniversary of the end of inri,
1996-1999) and that would include final versions of my first 37
releases, the corresponding sections of each of the six blogs (but
mostly the music journal + the two alter-reality blogs) and vlogs that
were relevant to the construction, interspersed. this would be repeated
for period 3 (the next 39 releases), to be released in mid-2023. this
would be intended as a comprehensive historical document, in the form of
an electronic journal. don't call it a memoir - i'm not important
enough for that. but, remember - as an artist, i basically die at 30.
everything since that age has been documentation. there has been and
will be no new original recordings past the year 2011. so, don't call it
a memoir....but call it one if you really want. i'm not upset about not
having a meaningful existence past the age of 30, because i never
wanted to live past 30, anyways; most people get exceedingly lame in
their 30s, and downright awful in their 40s, so i'm happy enough to
avoid becoming that.
unfortunately, a series of
necessary legal issues around the security of my housing that have
largely been outside of my control have slowed me down dramatically, and
forced me to extend the release date of the period disc by an extra ten
years. i do not currently have a clear resolution as to how to get over
this and get back to a stable recording situation, but i'll have to get
by with what i can. i really see little recourse but to try and extend
the legal battles to my eventual advantage. this will allow me the space
to build the alter-reality from 1989-1996 in real time, and then let me
click back into what has already been written for mid-2027. so, the
period one disc is now scheduled for release at the end of 2029, the
period two disc is scheduled for release at the end of 2033, the period
three disc will be scheduled for release sometime in mid 2037 and the
period four disc will be scheduled for release around 2041. if i make it
there, i'll be 60 years old. and, no - i don't plan on actually doing
much concrete over the next twenty years, except finishing the
documentation of the work (and the work itself...) that i created over
the first thirty.
i want to publish two more journals -
12/2013 and 01/2014 - and am hoping to have this completed by dec 1,
2019 at the latest. this will bring me to the end of the "first
reconstruction period", which will produce an eventual aleph (to be
unnamed and unpublished until the material from 07/2003-07/2013 is fully
completed).
at that point, i will be focusing on two primary projects:
1)
the alter-reality, starting in late 1989. i will have to get a journal
for christmas, it seems, for me to write in, and then spend the next six years typing out. this journal will include reflections of events
that i experienced over the ages of 8-15, including book reports and
music reviews. all attempts will be made to be as honest as i can. but, i
obviously can't revert to that state (if i ever grew past it...), and i
don't want to get neurotic about it. i'm going to get neurotic about
it...but i have to finally start with this.
2) i'm
going to get back to work on period 3, which is going to mostly involve
republishing a lot of already existing records from 2003-2007. there
will, however, also be some major projects worked on - a lost symphony
from 2003, a matlab project from 2004, an imaginary straight-up rock
record from 2005, a groundbreaking mix of electronic noise and jazz
guitar from early 2006 and some foundational new demos for early 2007,
to move into period 4. i do not want to plan past the completion of
period 3, at this point, which is defined as the period of time between
when i got back from bc in mid-2003 and when i moved into a new
apartment on bronson ave in early 2007.
period 1 is
from 05/96-12/99 (3.5 years), period 2 is from 01/00-05/03 (3.5 years)
and period 3 is from 08/03-02/07 (3.5 years). period 4 will run until
the middle of 2011, but it is not like the first three, as there were
long spaces with no recording activity at all. i was 27 in january,
2008; to an extent, period 4 is a period of slow death, even if it has
some major works in it. i will be approaching the narrative from this
perspective, as it occurs. and, given that my maximum expected lifespan
is around 60, i may be nearing my actual death, as i get there. there
was no meaningful musical activity from the middle of 2011 until the
middle of 2013; i was struggling badly with existing living
arrangements, as i was trying to figure out how to rebuild my studio.
so,
i have the rest of my life planned out, anyways. and, these are the two
things i'll be focusing on - getting the alter-realty rolling and
finishing period 3. if i get back to publishing the journals from 2014
forwards, it will be in spurts, and because i'm sick or some other such
thing. well, until i get close in 2025-2026, anyways. i'm actually fully
confident that i'll be done period 3 by then, at least.
i
don't feel the time has been wasted. i've figured out a lot of things,
and i've got a process in order. this needed to eventually be done, and
i'll need to eventually get back to it. the time i've wasted has been
wasted fighting court battles, and that's going to continue until i can
find a safe, smoke-free living arrangement. this isn't it, either.
what about all these other sites?
1)
as mentioned, the bandcamp site should see the most activity in the
next little while; that is my primary site, and always has been.
2)
the noise trade site will see decreasing levels of activity, and that
activity will be mostly related to the alter-reality, for the next long
while. expect journals from 1990-1996 to be the primary uploads for the
next several years. i hope they allow me to reorganize the front page,
soon.
3) the patreon site is still there. if you
want me to stop wasting time in court and get more productive in my
art, that's the way to do it. i have yet to receive a single donation
over patreon.
4) the music journal will pick up with increased activity at the bandcamp site.
5) j's journal will be the primary journal site, and will start in late 1989.
6) the alter-reality will stay dormant until mid-2027, when i pick up where i left off.
7)
i'm still vlogging. i haven't stopped. i have video to edit going back
to mid-2017, and will need to get to it to buiild the aleph discs. but,
the focus of the vlogs was to act as a set of ads for the bandcamp site,
which i drew attention to through trolling, and that didn't work out
(because they shadow-banned me for being an anti-american communist). i
never had any interest in vlogging for the sake of vlogging, it was
always meant as a gateway. my focus on the vlogs, moving forwards, is
going to be for the aleph discs, rather than for youtube. yes, things
will get uploaded eventually, but probably in large chunks, and it could
be a very, very long time. i wouldn't expect anything to get uploaded
here until i'm done period 3, at least - it could be after 2025.
8)
the koala central command will continue to try to bring their fugitive
to justice, but it's not clear exactly what that means. there will be
music related uploads here, as they become meaningful.
9)
i don't expect to spend a lot of time on music or book reviews in the
near future, and may never get to it at all. my focus on reviews is
mostly a 2011-2013 thing, when i had no studio to work in. so, this is
at the bottom of the list, in terms of priorities. but, review
information will come up in the alter-realty.
10) the
travel blog was mostly a joke to start with, and it's utilization will
depend on how often i'm actually posting from a distance. anything
posted to this blog will end up somewhere else, in time.
11) i'm sure i'll continue to find reasons to rant.
12) my facebook pages will continue to be useful as update lists, but little else.
13) the appspot site is not dead, but it's sleeping.
14) the viability of the soundcloud site depends on whether i can get people to let me spin or not.
15) i don't and have never used twitter. i'm not going to start.
and, let's try to get the liner notes up by the end of the day.