Thursday, June 19, 2014
i can hear the roaches scratching around behind the barriers i put up. i guess that means they're working. but it'd be nice if they'd get the hint and go away, now.
at
23:55
Location:
Windsor, ON, Canada
this is such bullshit.
they're keeping the fisherman out because they're doing military testing, possible even testing nukes.
http://www.techtimes.com/articles/8679/20140617/pacific-ocean-tiny-island-focus-of-commercial-fishing-ban.htm
they're keeping the fisherman out because they're doing military testing, possible even testing nukes.
http://www.techtimes.com/articles/8679/20140617/pacific-ocean-tiny-island-focus-of-commercial-fishing-ban.htm
at
10:19
Location:
Windsor, ON, Canada
obviously. that's why they're supporting isis.
http://www.counterpunch.org/2014/06/19/obama-wants-maliki-out/
http://www.counterpunch.org/2014/06/19/obama-wants-maliki-out/
at
09:38
Location:
Windsor, ON, Canada
it's saudi money and american weapons. no us airstrikes are likely.
the iraqis played both sides and got burned.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/world/middle_east/iraq-urges-us-airstrikes-as-insurgents-press-offensive/2014/06/19/51b0ef07-f5cd-4eb5-8260-1ab75c2d2ee4_story.html
the iraqis played both sides and got burned.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/world/middle_east/iraq-urges-us-airstrikes-as-insurgents-press-offensive/2014/06/19/51b0ef07-f5cd-4eb5-8260-1ab75c2d2ee4_story.html
at
09:01
Location:
Windsor, ON, Canada
head cleared, decision clarified, expecting the worst, resolved to get as much music done between now and september as i can.
that means i'm not thinking about it between now and then or wasting my time with it.
i just want to get the logic down somewhere for when (if) they find the body.
1) it does not appear as though i am going to have my disability renewed.
2) therefore, i will be unable to pay rent.
3) therefore, i will lose my studio. again.
4) i have nowhere else to store my studio.
5) therefore, i will have no way to save my studio if i am unable to pay rent to house it.
6) humans need a purpose to continue to exist and whither away without one. i have categorically rejected most accepted purposes for existence as not interesting (children, "career", partner, family, etc.). the one purpose i have is recording.
7) therefore, losing my studio would also be losing my purpose to exist.
8) therefore, i would no longer have a will to exist.
9) therefore, suicide will become desirable.
note that, questions of the desirability of labour aside, the chances of me finding employment here or elsewhere are approaching zero. i haven't had a job of any sort since 2011 and i haven't had a full time job since 2008. i have also consistently been fired from every job i've had since 2008 for being unable to show up on time. i see no use in pretending that i will be able to support myself when the evidence is abundantly clear that i will not be able to.
it follows that i'm better off maximizing the recording time i have left than i am wasting my time trying and failing to find a job i'd be fired from within a few weeks, anyways.
...or neuroticizing over a way out. there isn't one.
that means i'm not thinking about it between now and then or wasting my time with it.
i just want to get the logic down somewhere for when (if) they find the body.
1) it does not appear as though i am going to have my disability renewed.
2) therefore, i will be unable to pay rent.
3) therefore, i will lose my studio. again.
4) i have nowhere else to store my studio.
5) therefore, i will have no way to save my studio if i am unable to pay rent to house it.
6) humans need a purpose to continue to exist and whither away without one. i have categorically rejected most accepted purposes for existence as not interesting (children, "career", partner, family, etc.). the one purpose i have is recording.
7) therefore, losing my studio would also be losing my purpose to exist.
8) therefore, i would no longer have a will to exist.
9) therefore, suicide will become desirable.
note that, questions of the desirability of labour aside, the chances of me finding employment here or elsewhere are approaching zero. i haven't had a job of any sort since 2011 and i haven't had a full time job since 2008. i have also consistently been fired from every job i've had since 2008 for being unable to show up on time. i see no use in pretending that i will be able to support myself when the evidence is abundantly clear that i will not be able to.
it follows that i'm better off maximizing the recording time i have left than i am wasting my time trying and failing to find a job i'd be fired from within a few weeks, anyways.
...or neuroticizing over a way out. there isn't one.
at
07:56
Location:
Windsor, ON, Canada
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