Saturday, June 18, 2016

j reacts to the media blackout on the orlando shooter's motives not being accidental

i think i should realize and articulate that the media's misconstruing of the orlando massacre as being a hate crime about sexual orientation (rather than an act of political protest about the continuing war in afghanistan) is not mere incompetence or some kind of accident. they don't want people to hear the message or have that discussion.

it's just another example of media collusion with the state.

17-06-2016: done narrating, and finally getting started on the rebuild (but baby steps...)

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

for some reason, everywhere i look this month, i see the allegory of the cave.

this is my third try to render the vlog from the 7th. it's coming. it's just...

unfortunately, i forgot to wear pants, and i seem to have forgotten that i forgot to wear pants. i've uploaded accidental crotch shots before, but this is a good solid ten minutes. it's just unworkable.

i honestly am not quite sure how i've found myself in this predicament. but, a complex series of crotch-shot removing procedures are currently carefully underway, for your eventual viewing pleasure.

j reacts to a contrived take down threat from google (and why i don't have a phone...)

well, this is comical.

Dear j,

We've determined that your posts may be in violation of our User Content and Conduct Policy.

Content that transmits viruses or contains malware or other malicious code is not permitted.

Continued violation of our policies can lead to the loss of your ability to use some or all features of Google+.

Yours sincerely,
The Google+ team

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of course, there's no viruses or malware on this page. it's just an excuse to shut me down.

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on the obviously contrived take down threat...

it might actually be more than a triviality. i have reason to think that there are organizations that believe i'm attached to some kind of foreign agency, and i think a lot of that has to do with the reality that i don't have a mobile signal. this is consistent with a big collection of coincidences. and, i "get" that i'm not remotely brainwashed. the assumption, from what i can gather, is that i don't have a mobile signal because i'm using some kind of foreign blocking software, through some kind of foreign network. there's a signal underneath, it's just being blocked.

except, it's not actually true. i've actually been really transparent about this. i actually honestly just simply don't have any mobile internet devices. i have an mp3 player without an internet connection that i believe has been hacked through the radio. i have an entry level panasonic camera without one, either. i have a very old flip phone that is technically internet capable, but i've never actually connected with it (and i haven't had service on it in over ten years).

i don't have a phone due to a combination of economics and utility. i was in school from 2008-2011, and didn't have money to spend on mobile phones. i then went through a mental breakdown in mid 2011 and didn't really come out of it until late 2012. i suppose i could have got a phone around then. but, by then, i'd lived so long without a phone (and so long with small incomes) that i didn't really want one. i still just don't want one. i'd consider it a waste of money that i could spend on things i have more interest in, like concerts.

if my monthly income doubled or something, i might think about getting one - but i'd be unlikely to get a provider. i'd probably just use a combination of voip and public wifi, and make sure i'm not doing anything private in public. it's not because i'm afraid of data collection or don't want to be followed. i actually believe it's better to avoid encryption in case of misunderstanding; i believe in open data transmission. i think i've upheld that ideal. it's just because i would consider paying for voice or data to be a waste of money when there's perfectly good free options. i'd hate to call myself a fiscal conservative, but you learn how to maximize resources when you don't have a lot of them.

but, my monthly income is not going to double. i will probably end up buying a used android for public wifi one day, but i couldn't see myself paying more than $30 for it - it's simply not worth more than $30 to me. i'll likely pick up a late 00s model some time around 2020 over kijij or something, and sit on it for most of the rest of my life.

now, you could point out that i don't have any friends, and i don't have a job, so this is a function of that. it's more like a reinforcing truth. part of the reason i lost touch with people is that i didn't see the use in buying a phone, and kind of wrote the whole mobile device thing off as a fad. in the end, i still think the mobile phone is an unstable platform with no real future - it's just hung around a lot longer than i thought it would.

so, there's not some ingenious trickery hanging around. i'm a half credit short of a programming degree, sure - but the right way to look at that is that i dropped out of a programming degree. why? because i really wasn't interested in the topic. if you were to show me the code i'm supposed to be writing, the truth is that i probably wouldn't even actually understand it.

i'm just a poor trans person in my mid 30s from canada that likes to type and happens to be relatively good at articulating myself. i'm entirely wysiwyg. there's nothing under the hood. truly.

(posted to google+)

it took me until just now to finish narrating off all this ranting, and it's left me with a rather large amount of video to edit. i think it's clear that it's going to take me quite a while before i'm able to catch up. but, i'm not going to just sit here and wait - i'm going to get to the bandcamp site and start combining. i should get a chunk into 1.1 before the end of the weekend.

as of now, this page is dead. it will slowly thin out to a bare skeleton as the posts are converted into videos. i suppose it's purpose will have been the primaries. right now, i'm focused on just getting everything together, and really don't plan on ranting about anything at all for the foreseeable future. but, when i get back to that, it will happen at a blogspot page. i've totally lost faith in social media...

i'll post the link when it comes up.

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i suppose you can expect edits to happen when i'm awake, uploads to run when i'm asleep and videos to publish when i wake up.