http://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/2016/02/j-reacts-to-failure-of-her-own-analysis.html

http://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/2016/02/see-this-is-what-banks-want.html

http://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/2016/02/it-is-absolutely-ludicrous-to-suggest.html

http://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/2016/02/recent-polling-for-bush-seems-unusually.html

it's really an empirical question, and it's by no means a strange one.

are people born in the 80s more like people born in the 70s or more like people born in the 90s? you've been told for decades that they're more like people born in the 90s. you were told this before we were old enough to vote, and have been told it ever since.

but, it's really equally likely that people born in the 80s are going to be more like people born in the 70s, isn't it?

people are individuals; i'm talking statistics, i'm talking aggregates.

but, i'm certain that the data will tell you that the generation does not turn around 1980, it turns around 1990 - that's when the cusp really asserts itself. if you were born in 1990, you were 15 when youtube launched & in high school when facebook asserted itself. and, you actually grew up with netflix & google.

that means that these "milennials" don't actually exist - that the older ones are really just a part of gen x and the younger ones are a part of the next generation.

as always, there's a song for that.

(i've already taught you that mr. stipe is a sarcastic ass, right?

it's probably about clinton, or some abstraction of an archetype of clinton.) 

http://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/2016/02/i-just-want-to-point-out-that-it-was-at.html

like most nerds, i have in fact spent far more time watching star trek than i have spent watching star wars.

i had to eat a little early after the blood test, and then ended up crashing, but it was merely a nap. nonetheless, i've been blurry all night - i think the coffee's finally started working again.

that said, the air quality seems to be better tonight. hope i didn't waste it. let's get started...

and, i'm not a millennial.

i'm gen x.

the last gen x-er, perhaps.

but gen x, nonetheless.

it's really the catch-22 thing again.

as an unemployed person, i prefer sobriety most of the time. but, if you gave me a job tomorrow, and it involved any kind of social interaction at all, i'd probably have to get drunk to do it. then, when i inevitably get fired, i'd end up sober again.

so, it only seems like i belong on disability for the length of time i'm employed.

there is a solution, of course: i'd need to work in a cubicle away from people. i did ok in call centres. but, it's not a rewarding job, either.

so, the status quo is not likely to change: you're not likely to ever get to know my sober side. or, to put it another way, this vlog/blog combo is the closest thing that the world will ever get to coming to know me as a sober person.

i will continue to get drunk before i go out, and nurture it while i'm out.

but, i'm not an addict. because i'm just not.

i was reading an article asking the reader to self-examine whether or not they have characteristics of alcoholism, and i actually don't have any of them. i'm not an alcoholic or an addict that structures my life around inebriation; what i am is a ridiculously shy introvert that can't function in social situations unless i've been lubricated a little.

i live on disability, but i'm not diagnosed with depression. what i'm diagnosed with is social anxiety.

it's not denial. it's just not actually true.

i'm maybe a binge drinker in social situations, but it's infrequent and i'm not unhappy about it.

you might claim you'd like to get to know my sober side, but you probably don't. when i'm sober, i can't interact with people in any way. i just sit quietly. i don't interrupt people, true. but, i don't participate in conversations at all. i just sit quietly from a distance and watch the world happen without me.

empirically: people that can function well socially don't type as much as i do.

one of the questions is whether i centre my social interactions around drinking, and i'm going to claim that i actually don't. what i centre my social interactions around is music. i go to concerts, or dj sets. you'll never see me out unless i'm attending an event. so, it's not as though i go out to get drunk; i'm not a religious person, and wouldn't have any moral problem with just staying home and getting drunk. cheaper. less people. but, it never happens. no: i'm out to see the show. rather, it's the other way around: i need the inebriation to be able to deal with the people in the social situation.

so, i don't go out to get drunk; but, i need to get drunk to deal with the anxiety created by going out.

i will acknowledge that it's very possible that, if you live in the region, you may have met me a dozen times and never seen me sober.

it would therefore be reasonable to conclude that i'm some kind of drunk or some kind of addict.

but, what you don't know is that i'm almost straight edge in between trips to detroit, which are really only a few times a month. so, i'm actually completely sober for 25+ days a month. ahahaha. you don't know me at all....