there's a reason they're reaching out to east africa, and it's because it's what the arabs are telling them to do.

and, i mean, it's true. palestinians are often quite black. they don't look like the other people from the area.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/us-israel-africa-palestinians-gaza-1.7483527

something that westerners don't understand about the palestinians is that the other countries around israel are what is actually keeping gaza locked up, because every other country in the region wants to prevent palestinian migration. i'm keying on egypt, but the saudis are notoriously brutal about this, as are the turks. why do you think the arab sunni palestinians became a proxy of the shi'ite iranians?

why is that?

1. the palestinians are a radicalized population, and the other countries don't want them to destabilize their own countries. if you think an israeli jail is bad, try an egyptian jail. these absurd chants you are repeating like useful idiots are in truth the chains that enslave gaza and prevent them from leaving.

2. the palestinians are a poor population with minimal access to education, which is why they're so radicalized. they are not ideal immigrants.

3. racism. it is widely understood that the palestinians are about 50% hebrew and 30% subsaharan african, as descendants of african slaves brought into the region from the arab slave trade. there are other groups that have occupied the region and contributed to the racial mix, including turks and greeks. they in truth have minimal arab admixture, and weren't even muslims until the collapse of the last crusades in the 15th century, when the muslim rulers decided to convert the remaining christians by force.

it's hard to make sense of the idea of deporting palestinians to sudan on first glance as anything other than a cynical joke, which i take it is what it actually is. but there's reasons why these people can't get out of this mess and resettle in the sinai, or on the red sea. the saudis have a massive port investment on the red sea. why not let palestinians migrate?

because they're not seen as arabs, they're seen as jews, or as africans.

there is some logic in resettling palestinians in yemen. that would coincide with the racial prejudices against them in the arab upper class.

i posted update 5 around 20:30 on aug 11th, with the intent to get out on the 12th. i then fell asleep around 21:00 and woke up about an hour later. 

i noted a weird event at the time, which was three damp spaces on my bed. these damp spaces were still there hours later, which is unusual. i drool a little when i sleep. i might sweat. it tends to evaporate pretty fast. this took all night to lift. there was also feces loose in my rectum, which is an odd observation.

later, on the afternoon of the 13th, i noted one of the pins on my front door seemed lose.

i am taking note of effects. there are none yet, but i may need to change my approach if any develop. if they got in here to drug my anally, i will need to get to the blood lab to measure it.

i decided to finish washing my face first and then get in the shower. i made some coffee. this took a little longer than intended, to the point where i had to stop to eat first, and then actually fell asleep. i woke up late in the morning, and went right into the shower, which didn't work out as intended. i eventually realized i'd need to do another round of hair washing before i could go anywhere. so, i got out and made some bread, and then slept a bit more. i woke up around 23:00 to make some eggs and was awake all night, but instead of washing i spent the night on the computer preparing documents for the printer. i also applied for some apartments, which i would describe as testing the market. i got a lot done and am far more ready to get to the printer than i was before.

i will note there was a large plume of marijuana consumed in the house around 7:30. i slept briefly around 10:00 and had a phone appointment at 13:00, where i got canada disability forms filled out. this will increase my income by $200/month, which is substantive when you're poor. i slept again in the afternoon.

i woke up around 16:00 and realized i need to wash my face off a bit more, as there has been further vellus hair growth and a number of weird ingrowns i had to try to scrape over. i was unusually hungry. i noticed a strange mark on my ankle, after having cramps in my foot the previous day. i had some stomach pains, so i took some tums. i also passed a large bowel movement. i feel asleep again around 21:00 and woke up mildly agitated close to 22:30.

i would not describe this as anything close to an erection, and it didn't last more than two seconds, but it created noticeable agitation that continued after urination, albeit not for very long. there are no symptoms of priapism; i am in fact totally limp, as i should be. it could be because i burned some remnant steroids in fat after not eating for over 20 hours, but the series of weird observations over the last two days needs to be documented. my feeling is that this is something more along the lines of what happens when they harass me (try to condition me when sleeping) without drugging me, which is marginal to entirely ineffective, depending on a variety of factors. my body is reacting in certain ways without demonstrating effects oof the absent testosterone.

if i am wrong, i will adjust. i am not advancing a theory. i think kant was a moron. i am trying to analyze evidence to understand what is happening, because i think empiricism and the scientific method is superior as epistemology to theory and hypothesis.

i'm going to update this before i make some pasta, and then get in the shower for another round of hair washing. if this hair washing round is successful in getting the sweat out of my hair and washing the hair through, i should be able to get out tomorrow.

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.

- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine

- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon

- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise

- june 20th: caesar salad without subs

- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad

- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets

- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs

- june 24th: caesar salad without subs

- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai

- june 28th: broccoli soup

- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)

- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).

- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.

- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.

- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.

- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)

- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips

- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips

- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)

- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)

- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)

- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.

- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)

- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)

- july 18th (on the 19th):  pasta with minor subs (7)

- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)

- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)

- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)

- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.

- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3

- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)

- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.

- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)

- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white bread with plum better.

- july 28th: pasta with minor subs (12)

- july 29th: guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white toast with olive oil margarine, and then two pieces of white bread with plum butter after. four more pieces of white bread, with plum butter and strawberry jam. 

- july 30th: pasta with minor subs (13), including fried chicken for salami.

- july 31st: a larger piece of fried chicken alone. pasta with minor subs (14), including a mix of buffalo and chicken for salami. six pieces of white bread for peanut butter and strawberry jam.

- aug 1st: four pieces of white bread and the rest of the peanut butter. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).

- aug 2nd: four marshmallows, two bananas and a chocolate bar. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).

- aug 3rd: pasta with minor subs (15), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami (on aug 4th). two pieces of toasted italian bread.

- aug 4th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 5th)

- aug 5th: pasta with minor subs (16), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami. two pieces of toasted italian bread. (on aug 6th)

- aug 6th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn (on aug 7th).

- aug 7th: monterrey jack tuna salad melt with bowl of cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 8th).

- aug 8th: pasta with minor subs (17), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (on aug 9th)

- aug 9th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn wth cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 10th).

- aug 10th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 11th)

- aug 11th: pasta with minor subs (18), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 12th)

- aug 12th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (at midnight on aug 13th)

- aug 13th: pasta with minor subs (19), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 14th)