trump seems to have a choice in front of him, but he might not be able to make it.

- if he does nothing, he's going to get overthrown by the far right.

- or, he can aggressively rebrand in the centre and try to push some of these crazy nutcases on the right out of power.

if trump lets himself get overthrown, a more serious problem may develop, as trump is not a right-winger, and that was the reason he won the nomination in the first place. trump has been blocking the right from retaking power for years, now. if trump gets pushed out, the floodgates open up.

i think this is maybe even a job to give to vance, to kind of clean the place up a little, and push the elements that are threatening to trump out of the party, before they start causing real problems.

there's little evidence that trump will make the right choices, here. he never does. so, his days are numbered, and what's coming might be even worse.

i'm going to call it cafe glower-mofo, because nobody eats werther's except grumpy old men.

this is how i'm going to suggest doing this.

- prepare coffee maker

- put three stale crispy crunches and three marshmallows in a pretty big coffee cup

- microwave for 33 seconds

- brew coffee while microwave is going

- dump hot coffee on microwaved gooeyness

- stir marshmallow is gone and crispy crunch is reduced to hard waver

- let sit for a while, stirring occasionally, until waver is mostly melted

- add milk

i'll try again later tonight.

i said caramilk.

they're crispy crunches. the problem is that they're rock hard like, suck candy hard. it's supposed to be crispy and crunchy, but it's like a hard candy that you suck on, instead. you can't eat these things.

i took three out of the package and wrapped each in a marshmallow and put them in a plate in the microwave for 33 seconds. i wanted to eat it with a knife and fork, like a pretentious shithead. the chocolate and marshmallow melted nicely, but the wafer could not be sawed through - not even with a butcher knife.

so, i'm back to putting crispy crunches and marshmallows together in the coffee. i have three of each in a single serving cup. no milk. let's see  how this melts.

right now, it looks like it's working exactly the way you'd expect a werther's would melt.

i'm not a dessert person. excluding my taste for caffeinated pop, which i've actually replaced with coffee, i eat very little sugar. i'm more of a bag of chips person than a cake and cookies person. i prefer salt to sugar, as a vice, but i don't eat much salt, either. when i do eat sugar, i'd rather eat fruit than candy.

but i don't want to throw this stuff away.

what i don't want to do is go overboard on it. i'll want to tone it down a little and eat it in smaller portions.

i think it's better to just take a marshmellow, a bit of pb and a mini caramilk and put it in the microwave and eat one or two of them at a time, so it lasts for a few weeks, rather than mix it all up in a bowl, make some pastry and then gain weight from it. 

however, i'll look at this differently next time. if i did make some kind of cookie or desert, i could cut it up into reasonable portions and eat a little every day.

i'm just not used to having these types of ingredients in the house. the ginger bread was actually pretty good, and didn't seem very sugary actually, but it might have been better to take the ginger bread, the butter cookies, the caramilk, the protein bars, the marshmallows and the peanut butter and mix it together, in hindsight. 

i've been avoiding the expired caramilk because it's just glassed over glucose. i can't even chew it. i think i kind of have to melt this down to even eat it, so the smores become a logical solution, in context.

i should have kept those cookies. i might have made st michel butter cookie peanut butter caramilk smores. with jam.

smores, i think, are the way to do this.

yes.

smores.

</evil laugh>. i don't know why.

you know, i also have peanut butter and two types of jam in addition to the caramilk and marshmallows.

hrmmn. 

if nietzsche were alive today, he'd be railing against gay marriage and transgenderism, and warning us it will destroy society, unless we repent.

nobody should read this guy. he was a moron.

this guy was a dumbass. he should be diagnosed with autism.

he lived in post-revolutionary europe, but couldn't get his mind out of the dark ages. the core of his writings is that he hypothesized that a cultural revolution that happened in the 1600s and 1700s might maybe happen some time in the future, unless we revert back to the religion that we threw away hundreds of years previously, as some kind of warning. he was utterly out of touch with reality around him. the people that knew him thought he was an idiot, and they were right.

https://www.cbc.ca/radio/ideas/nietzsche-passing-by-healthy-discourse-1.7434781

it's actually relieving that norad still works.

the bs aside, norad is important.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/us-fighter-jets-bc-alleged-plane-hijacking-1.7588750

the temperature fell to 13 overnight, i have the windows open and i slept comfortably in a sheet and a bikini. this is in contrast to waking up shivering from hypothermia a few weeks ago when it was 25 and needing to warm up in a winter quilt.

i was clearly drugged.

my pasta with minor subs is updated.

pre-prep

- on a large flat plate add -  four-five mini tomatoes, one half a red pepper (diced), one avocado (diced), two cloves of garlic, one carrot, one beet, one tbsp of oregano, one tbsp of thyme, one tbsp of basil, some fresh dill (chopped). add one tbsp of processed pesto (includes italian cheeses).

- chop 150 g of fresh pineapple into small squares on a small plate. i purchased four actual pineapples at reduced price at the grocery store across the street because they were ripe, which is a good thing (who wants crunchy pineapples? it's better if they're a little soft.). i should get around 900 g 750 g of usable fruit per pineapple. i'm on pineapple 2 of 4 and they are in fact nice and soft. somebody at the store really didn't get it.

- peel and segment one lime. chop each segment in half. put on same plate.

- slice and chop up 50 g of salami into small squares (i'm using spicy genoa sold in a 600 g amount).

- fry in olive oil margarine until a little crispy. 

- chop off the top of 25 g of broccoli florets and place on a small plate. place any stems in a bowl in the freezer, which is cumulative.

- grate 100 g of marble cheese

- weigh 110 g of dry pasta, preferably fettucine, but i will not be using fettucine for the foreseeable future. i went through three days of egg noodles and four days of fusilli. day eight will be half fusilli and half penne.

- cook to al dente in a covered pot.

preparation:

- add pasta on top of vegetables, right out of the pot. flatten pasta.

- add 1 tbsp of olive oil margarine on pasta.

- add pineapple and lime on top of that. flatten fruit.

- add salami or other meat on top of that. flatten meat.

- add 1 tbsp cumin, 1 tbsp nutritional yeast, 1 tbsp paprika, 1 tbsp hemp seeds, 1 tbsp sunflower seeds (or just chomp the last one). distribute these items evenly.

- add a lot of ceasar dressing (this is the pasta sauce), and bunch it up in the middle.

- add 1 tbsp of processed pesto

- add the grated marble cheese

- microwave for 2:00

- sprinkle crushed broccoli florets

- add frank's, black pepper, a tbsp of cayenne pepper (sprinkled).

 

served with

- serve with some bread and olive oil margarine. the food bank gave me a lot of bread, including garlic cheese buns (first up), a baguette (second) and a loaf of unsliced italian bread (third). i'm currently on the baguette and using five slices with margarine.

- serve with tall glass of 25% grapefruit, 75% orange juice

i've got two packages of caramilk bars, a package of marshmallows and a pile of jello packets.

fun should be had with that, i think. 

yeah.

let me think this through.

this is unacceptable.

he should immediately resign.

https://orthodoxtimes.com/ontario-mpp-jonathan-tsao-visited-archbishop-of-canada/

i think this is exactly how police should have responded.

https://www.thewhitehatter.ca/post/why-toronto-police-didnt-lay-charges-against-a-teen-who-created-ai-generated-porn

this is like salem all over again.

https://www.ctvnews.ca/sci-tech/article/ai-generated-child-sexual-abuse-images-are-spreading-law-enforcement-is-racing-to-stop-them/

simply being gross can't be enough to criminalize.

i think male facial hair is gross, and i'm right. somebody else might think trans people taking hormones is gross, and i don't give a fuck.

the basis of harm as necessary for a law to be enforceable is central to canadian law, which is why child pornography laws are frequently unenforceable in the court system. conservative mps keep passing laws that try to criminalize child porn because it's offensive, and the courts keep tearing them down because the issues at hand aren't generating any harm to any kids.

anything involving real kids in any way at all can't be allowed, but i can't see any harm in drawing pictures, or writing stories, or singing songs, and the court has upheld that point repeatedly. ai sounds like artistic expression and not like child exploitation, to me.

again - we'll have to see exactly what this guy actually did. but, don't be surprised if the court says something like "the court has no business in the imaginations of the nation".

i don't see the harm in generating sexually explicit computer images of kids for personal use.

you and i may agree it's gross, but who cares? we have to go back to mill on this, i think.

i would be less comfortable when a sale of the images takes place, and i would argue it shouldn't be allowed to be placed on a publicly accessible website, either.

the case law in the united states is apparently a lot stricter than r v sharpe in canada, which goes back to what i was saying about hate crime legislation not being about criminalizing speech. on most issues, i would think canada has broadly freer expression laws.

no, this needs to be thought through carefully.

for example, we could imagine a dream sequence in a film with an ai child exploitation sequence. is that pornography? it really shouldn't be. if it is, you send netflix to jail for distribution.

is this child porn?

it has to depend on what he's doing with it.

canadian jurisprudence might decide that ai child porn is free speech, if it is convincingly argued that nobody was harmed.

i think the issue is distribution.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R_v_Sharpe

there's actually a good chance that the courts in canada will drop these charges.

it depends on exactly what he did.

https://www.ctvnews.ca/calgary/article/breaking-alberta-football-coach-charged-with-using-ai-to-create-child-porn/

i'm imagining how i would react if somebody caught me at a coldplay concert.

i expected eno to be there! honest!

listen, i'm a socialist. i've always thought liberals were losers. but, this cultural flip puts us in the hardest position of all.

we used to very quietly flip elections here in canada by voting for the cultural hegemon on the capitalist left.

that's not going to work anymore if the proportions have flipped. it doesn't help us to support the bourgeois left if they're going to lose anyways, so why bother? that, however, places us in perpetual opposition, like in the united states. it's an unsettling proposition to imagine canada swinging hard to the right for the next 50 years because the kids hate liberals for taking away their fun, but we're on the brink of it.

one more time.

as mentioned, i think this is required to refocus. it will help me remember what i'm doing and what needs to be done.

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.

- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine

- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon

- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise

- june 20th: caesar salad without subs

- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad

- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets

- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs

- june 24th: caesar salad without subs

- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai

- june 28th: broccoli soup

- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)

- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).

- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.

- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.

- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.

- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)

- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips

- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips

- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)

- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)

- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)

- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.

- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)

- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)

- july 18th:  pasta with minor subs (7)

i tried the marshmallow coffee again today and while it did melt better, it didn't sweeten up the coffee very much. i guess it speaks to how strong my coffee is. it's not an espresso, but i'm taking about three ice cream scoops per 15ish oz cup.

i was going to use jello in the coffee too, because it's not food either, but now i don't know.

what else can i do with 20-30 marshmallows?

i am constantly getting spun around in circles by these disgusting losers. i need to catch up on my email and go through the narrative at the blog simultaneously. 

i've figured out what's wrong with my hair. it was just about cleaned out, and then they drugged me again. i've been going through hot flashes over the last few weeks, and sweating it out. i think it's just more pronounced this time, for some reason i don't want to guess at, but the testosterone is building up in my hair and essentially ruining it. the reason i've had such great hair for so long is that estrogen makes your hair stronger and softer.

these people are disgusting fucking retards. my great hair is of extreme importance to me; i don't give the slightest fuck about their disgusting fantasies.

i had to spend the day washing my hair, again, but it seems like it's washing through. they cannot continue to do this. it's revoltingly gross., and they're revoltingly gross people. when will they fucking learn?

i'm beyond sick of this.