no, listen.

i have to be clear about this.

i have money in the bank. i have a stable income source. but, in this city, there are more people that want apartments than there are apartments available. so, i am facing stiff competition for housing, and unable to find what i want to find.

i understand that there's a surplus of new houses being built, but that is irrelevant to the discussion at hand, other than to point out the poor use of resources - neither disabled people, nor refugees, nor people working minimum wage want to buy houses in the suburbs.....

so, i'm going to have to remove myself from this market and place myself in one that has less people competing for more open spaces.

the precise cause of this sudden shift in market conditions has been the increase in immigration to this city - which now has tens of thousands of refugees living in it, and nearly that many international students. i'm simply describing the causes of the shift in market conditions...

but, the underlying problem has been a misprioritization of resources, which has led to an oversupply of new housing and an undersupply of low rent housing.

while this may balance out better elsewhere, i suspect that it's going to be a long time before we clear the refugees out of the low rent housing here in windsor.

i don't regret moving to windsor - it was a smart choice, at the time, and i did get a lot of work done, for those first few years, before the interference asserted itself.

the periods are at least cleanly broken up - i have completed periods 1 & 2 and will get back to finishing period 3 somewhere else.

but, i do acknowledge that moving from the old apartment to the new one is probably the biggest mistake i've ever made. like, ever. i've lost the summer, and exchanged it for a few dollars. i can reverse any effects to my health. none of this is catastrophic, just quite yet.

i'm just hoping to mitigate further damage, at this point.

no showings today.

i'm starting to plan for the nuclear option.

i can convert my internet plan into one of those rocket sticks at the same monthly cost. maybe they'll wave activation. i'd have to go down to 1 mbps, but that's not a substantive drawback for what i use it for, which is mostly text. i want cheap internet before i want fast internet, so i could even just stick with that when i get set back up....

if i can bring a bicycle with me, that's even better, but i might have to get to the horseshoe, first. i don't see a good way to get a bicycle from here to there. it would be cheaper to buy a new (used) one than ship one. but i figure i should have good transit options with a bicycle once i get to the broader gta.

two of my laptops have burned out screens. i was supposed to be done the rebuild by now, in which case i'd have tried to fix both of them. but, this process is taking a very long time and i'm still running on a dying hard drive....

i was thinking about getting a cheap laptop and putting this drive in it. but, could i use the 90s laptop? it would be restricted functionality, but i'd save some cash. i'm leaning against this. but i might try it, first.

disability should pay for storage costs, one way or another, so i should roughly break even over the amount of time i'm homeless. that is, i should have roughly the same amount in the bank on the day i sign the lease as i do now - i should be able to cover the costs of being homeless, including the odd stop at a hostel or air bnb.

if this works out well, i can ship the items by train. this is not a long journey. and, if i can do it for less than $2000, i think i've broken even on the mess.

another potential idea is appealing the ruling, but that would just buy me a small amount of time, as it would open me up to a forced eviction for missed rent. i'm withholding rent to recoup the money from the ruling; if i appeal the ruling, i then owe them all that money, so they can throw me out. thirty business days from july 31st is the second week of september. i'd have to file by sept 15th. it would buy me two-three months, tops. why would i think so much will change in the next three months? and i can handle leaving in october better than i can handle leaving in january...

if she writes me a check tomorrow, i might even consider leaving town a month early. i've already largely given up on windsor. sad truth.

i can do this for a while, there's no question. i can type all night in a tim horton's - and i can go days without sleeping when the sun comes up, although when i do crash in the air bnb every 7-10 days, i will need to do so fairly hard. it'll be check in at 2 pm, sleep until 8 am. i can handle that for a few weeks. maybe a few months. but, then it starts to get into your soul, and you start fading away...

there's still dozens, maybe hundreds, of rooms being advertised for students. classes are starting this week, right? i don't want one of those rooms, but maybe opening them up to general use will start to clear or thin the market out...

but, i'm resigned to what is coming. & to an extent looking forward to it.

i want out of this place immediately....

if you read the grapes of wrath - which predates the "new left" - you see an examination of the topic, when the farmer tries to get as many people to show up to pick, in order to drive down the wages.

it's directly out of marx.

and, it's not about race. it wasn't about race to marx, or to steinbeck, and it shouldn't be about trace to you, either.

again: in what way do you claim i'm right-wing?

i think i've thoroughly debunked all such nonsensical claims and, rather, demonstrated rather clearly that all of my views are easily derived from orthodox leftist principles - be they in enlightenment liberalism, or in classical anarchism, sometimes through a marxist filter. i admit i've largely skipped views adopted by the "new left", but i think i've repeatedly shown that the so-called "new left" is not left-wing at all, but often a propaganda front for capital.

an example would be unchecked immigration, which leftists have historically opposed because it creates downward pressure on wages. that is a left-wing position. a right-wing position, on the other hand, seeks to reduce wages by increasing immigration. the "new left" has essentially adopted bourgeois positions on the matter, and then presented emotionally manipulative arguments to trick workers into adopting their positions. the last step is to smear the historically left position as aligned with the right. but, you'll note that worker control over immigration levels should in no way imply unfair or cruel treatment, which, on the other hand, is the inevitable outcome of a lack of immigration control..

i'm not alt-left. i'm very orthodox.

and, chances are quite high that you are arguing with me from a right-wing position, without realizing it - because you've been told that this "new left" is what the left is, when it has always been the right.

this is the era of orwell. and, we might be living in it for a while...

actually, there's this chaldean church across the street from me that appears to have been taken over by iraqi & syrian refugees; i don't know if the church itself is changing functions or they're merely donating the space, but the parking lot has been converted into a giant islamic festival this weekend.

they're just incredibly loud. it's like they're having a concert across the street. well, it's not "like" it... it is it...

and, i don't want to hear muslim religious music any more than i want to hear gospel music. i can't understand the language, but it's no doubt highly oppressive and exceedingly intimidating. you're supposed to go in the church, guys.

last night, i went with the bad religion trilogy as a rationalist foil to their dark age ideology, and followed it up with the last record, true north. keep yourself in line - there's no design. thanks, greg. i decided to react this evening with soundtracks for the blind, followed by the classic ministry trilogy - the land of rape & honey, the mind is a terrible thing to taste & psalm 69. i didn't get through all five records before they shut down a little after midnight.

if they're back at it tomorrow, i'll have to pull out the nine inch nails.

soundtracks was intended as a tongue-in-cheek reaction - it's not explicitly anti-religious, the way my other choices are. but, it worked out in surreal ways i hadn't predicted.

"i feel like minus something"
"i'm you're property"
"...and, the children you injured will rise up, purified, and then kill your name!"

those are just a couple of the lines that got me.

and, i'm trying to avoid stuff like red mecca or life in the bush of ghosts. i'm just concerned about being misunderstood...