i've mostly been sitting here since around 5:00 this morning, with the shower running almost non-stop, and the air is just only starting to clear out now.

remember..

nafta is

not
a
free
trade
agreement

i filled out an application, but i don't intend to move into that unit; it's far too small.

she's been blazing all day. again. gross.

i intend to get some work done tonight.

i don't care where the pot store is located; i'm not going to be in there very often.

my biggest concern, location wise, has always been access to downtown. i've wanted to be close to the downtown strip, and close to the tunnel - because that's how i get across.

i suppose that the tunnel is still going to often be the easiest way to cross, even after the bridge is built. it depends on where i'm going, right? and when i'm coming back.

the key thing about the bridge is that it means i won't have to wait anywhere any more - i can just bike through at 3:37 or whatever.

it's maybe the space between the bridge and the tunnel that is optimal, then. but, i should be a little less dismissive about sandwich. it might be boring as fuck for right now, but it will be nice when the bridge is built.

i'm going to take a walk around the block to see something, but it's surely far too small.

should i be looking more in the sandwich area?

there are a lot of buildings there, but i've been resisting it - it's too far from downtown, and this thing is never going to get done...

...or is it?

when this gets built, it will be my way over. there's a bike lane. i'll want to be close to it. but, if it takes another ten years...

hrmmn.

maybe i'll make some calls to see places in the area on monday.

https://windsorstar.com/news/local-news/bridging-north-america-will-build-gordie-howe-international-bridge

i was again knocked out cold by the pot this morning.

i'm 60% asleep...barely awake...what a sad excuse for an existence...

no new listings to take note of, just the big apartment buildings. i'm going to have to start a deeper search on monday, i think. that's how i got my spot in 2013 - i found something that was only listed at an obscure site.

i'm going to try to get some work done tonight, but i suspect i may end up sleeping all night.

i have no intentions of doing any partying at all, whatsoever, until i get this sorted out. life is not about the time you spend partying, it's about what happens in between.

under the misguided influence of foucault's vulgar burkeanism, will "progressives" seek to turn back the clocks on the sexual revolution? is that their backwards idea of"progress"?

perhaps.

were they ever in favour of it in the first place?

perhaps not.

i'm old enough to remember "progressives" being loudly opposed to abortion, and liberals pushing back hard on it. "progressives" have generally opposed queer rights, as well, arguing that it's a mental illness. "progressives" are generally religious, whereas liberals are generally secular. sexual freedom has generally been a strong differing point; "progressives" have had a hard time squaring their religious piety, which is otherwise so often aligned with liberalism, with secular values on sexuality. they've even tended to support eugenics, as a means to "purify" the race of "sexual deviance" - and they call that "progress".

and, this is why the liberals win elections and the ndp doesn't - because canada is not a nation of puritans like the united states is.

so, this is a point where liberals need to be clear that they are not the same thing as "progressives". and, they will face severe electoral consequence if they campaign as puritanical progressives, which they have been broadcasting so loudly.

we just saw kathleen wynne make that mistake on pot.

trudeau is in danger of making it on a strain of conservative feminism that most canadians simply do not believe in.

this captcha system that kijiji uses is impossibly ambiguous.

when they ask for street signs, do they mean just the sign? the pole? specific types of signage?

when they ask for cars, do they mean buses? trucks? vans?

it's just fucking annoying.

where does the compliant worker get her mind-numbing drugs from?

the state.

and, who tells her it is "cool" to get stoned, and non drug users are "uncool"?

the corporate media.

do you get it? because orwell got it, and huxley got it, and bakunin got it and...

i mean, you'll note that it's the employed worker that is the pothead, and the unemployed anarchist that isn't - and you'll note what the drugs are doing to this employed workers' revolutionary potential, as they likewise harm the productivity of the unemployed anarchist.

the pothead worker doesn't want to start a revolution; what the pothead worker wants is for the unemployed anarchist to get a job.

this is not some accident, it's by design. and, it's what everybody on the left (except marx.) has always seen as patently obvious.

my position has been clear for years: i reject schedules.

i don't want to live on a 24-hour clock.

some days, i want to go to sleep at 5:30 am; other days, i want to wake up at 5:30 am. and, if we can't be free to set our own schedules, what does freedom mean? is that not the definition of freedom?

so, if somebody is infringing on this ability (be they a boss, or a pothead), are they not restricting your freedom, by definition?

these are actually very basic left-wing arguments; this is not a conservative viewpoint. i'm appealing to ideas of autonomy and self-ownership, and i'm attacking those that would restrict peoples' freedom by enforcing their habits on others. that's the very centre of left-wing thought.

there's a reason why all of the dystopian literature places drug use as a central component of statist mind control. what i'm typing here should not be surprising; i'm really just living through something that every single leftist 20th century visionary saw coming from a great distance away.

waking up stoned on a saturday morning from your neighbours' early morning second-hand smoke is pretty awful. it's just kind of like "i just slept. i shouldn't be tired. that's why i slept. what's the point of sleeping, if you're just going to wake up tired?".

ugh.

i need to be up early until i can find something else, but i won't start calling until after 9:00.

because i'm a fucking polite canadian.

the tobacco has again picked up as a major problem over the last 48 hours - since i got back. i had to wash my hair this afternoon to get it out. and, right now, it's legitimately difficult to breathe in here.

she's just making her own life more difficult. i'll be gone soon, but of course the landlord is going to go after her for whatever money i get paid out. and, they should - this is really all her fault. she should be liable for every cent of this.

and, this unit is going to have a high turnover, so long as she's here...

like i say: at some point, it's going to click with the owner, and they're going to throw her out. all she ever had to do was walk downstairs...

*shrug*.

i'm getting back to work right now.