what can i do?

i'll need to take pictures and get it to the cops.

let me do it and see.

i don't think the saudis are even smart enough to do this.

if i determine somebody put root access on this usb key remotely from a guest account on a chromebook, it's a very small list of suspects.

- americans

- israelis

- chinese

- russians

- germans

i don't have a good reason to think any of them would be after me, or any of them would pretend to be muslims in the process

it's more likely to be a rogue element working for organized crime. i think.

this happened this afternoon. i put the usb key into the device twice to log into facebook and cra and when i plugged it in a third time, it wouldn't read.

it's backed up, but i want to understand what happened, and if it can help me adjust.

what exactly do i do if i find out some rogue element in the saudi or some other arab government is stalking me to try to rape me? do i call the rcmp? do i call their embassy?

the cops are useless idiots.

i'm logged into this device as a guest.

it should be almost impossible to do this. but i'll have to see what the attributes are and react.

what do i know about these losers?

- they're muslims

- they appear to have access to unlimited wealth

- they appear to represent a government of some sort, or an organized crime network. these are basically the same thing.

the drive is fine. i pulled everything off of it - file by file - using recuva. no corruption.

i think this is what happened:

https://forums.linuxmint.com/viewtopic.php?t=119883

diskpart reads it as RAW. i can set the read-only flag to yes or no, put i can't change the current read-only state.

i'm going to boot my windows 7 laptop into gparted and see what it says. i'll then boot into arch using a recovery usb key and see if i can verify that the above is the case.

i don't know what the point of this. it's some stupid monkeys from a backwards religion trying to assert some kind of jungle logic.

it's a waste of my fucking time.

it would suggest that they have access to the root account on my chromebook, which i've suspected for a while. i would need to restore from firmware and probably flash my router, but i don't have fucking time for this. i don't want to waste my life doing this boring bullshit.

what a waste of fucking time.

i backed the device up using recovery software, but now i need to reset the permissions on a linux machine, apparently.

ugh.

fucking losers.

it looks like i should be able to recover the usb key they just mangled, but i have it backed up, regardless.

i think they put a write protection on the partition.

this is like stuxnet, or something. it's like a hardware worm. i don't have the slightest interest in this. it's a waste of my fucking time.

yeah, the hackers are back.

i don't know what they want. i'm a disabled person on welfare. i have nothing.

these are terrible fucking bullies and thugs. go prove how smart you are by beating up an impoverished disabled person, you fucking retard. fuck.

i understand what they're doing, but i have no interest in wasting my time getting modular on it. they've somehow found a way to hack my usb ports. they're breaking the file system on my usb keys, but they don't seem to be actually stealing data. the purpose is strictly destructive. they don't seem to want to steal, they just seem to want to break.

it's so senseless, so stupid.

i don't get it.

i think this is the position they should have taken from the start.

the "negotiation" should have always been to immediately release all hostages, or face complete and total destruction and annihilation. and they should have burned a few parts of gaza down to the ground to demonstrate the point.

you can't negotiate with barbarians, and you shouldn't try to. that is the lesson to learn from this sad affair.

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cjeynvp409vo

there is a surface comparison between the swiss cheese settlements in palestine and the bantustans of apartheid. it sort of looked like israel was creating bantustans in the west bank, granted. however, the comparison was strictly based on the geography, not the motives, and it was a surface deep analysis that missed the point of what israel was doing, which was occupying land in a way that isolated palestinians from each other and prevented palestine from claiming it. that has essentially no similarity to the bantustans, which were intended as segregated areas for coerced and forced labourers. 

i should clarify what i meant by "genocide in slow motion" when i started saying that roughly 20 years ago. i never meant that they intended to starve them like in the holocaust, or mass slaughter them like what happened to the armenians during world war one. i meant a cultural genocide, intended to chase them out and assimilate them over time. this would be something more like the genocide of the scots or welsh in the united kingdom, or the bretons in france.

the point i was trying to get across is that israel does not intend to enslave the arabs, it wants to get rid of them. that's a conceptual point people were confused about in using south african comparisons. in fact, when john kerry was secretary of state, he had the insight and initiative to realize that the absence of any kind of economy in the west bank essentially made statehood impossible, so he went out of his way to try to build factories that palestinians could work in, which would have almost entirely served the israeli market, and the israelis had a hissy fit because it was taking away jobs for jews and giving them to muslims. israel remains built on kibbutzes and the labour party. never forget that, and never forget where the jews escaped from. they are not likely to resort to enslaving anyone. i was seeking more descriptive language to get away from a bad analogy, mostly by following chomsky's lead. chomsky was visibly irritated by the south africa comparison and repeatedly explained why.

i have rejected the claims that israel is starving gazans. the evidence suggests the opposite. it's just factually wrong, no matter how much you dislike the israeli government.

you can define genocide strictly as per the geneva convention and that has legal value in it's place but it's never what i meant. i meant the broader idea of eliminating a culture, a language, a religion, etc through less overt or violent methods. it's not the same thing, but if the end result is the intentional elimination of palestine, it does remain genocide in the broader sense.

https://www.newyorker.com/news/q-and-a/the-holocaust-historian-defending-israel-against-charges-of-genocide

my hair is being extremely stubborn. i spent all day fighting with it and i'm making some progress but it's extremely dehydrated and needs to sit with conditioner for hours. i can still smell the bleach in my hair, which is suggesting it might have got stuck in it and dried in it.

i have extremely straight, thin hair and it gets tangled extremely easily for that reason and is also prone to breakage for that reason, which makes the tangles worse. it tends to be fine once i can wash it out, but something like a bleach job can generate a mess. unlike the other parts of my body, i can't clear the testosterone out of my hair. estrogen produces nicer, softer hair and testosterone makes your hair coarse and gross, but those changes happen at the root level. if anything, i might find that getting the testosterone out of my system might lead to breakage, as the hair will weigh more at the ends. this will take several years to fully turn back over, and it might have been the reason, in hindsight, why i had to shave my head in the first place. 

if i realized this at the time, i wouldn't have done it. i thought it was the best way to fix the split ends, which seemed impossible. i didn't understand what was going on.

it should be another day or two, max, i think.

i still have a lot of canned and dried food, but my fridge is almost empty and i need to fill it up soon.

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.

- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine

- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon

- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise

- june 20th: caesar salad without subs

- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad

- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets

- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs

- june 24th: caesar salad without subs

- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa

- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai

- june 28th: broccoli soup

- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)

- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise

- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).

- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.

- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.

- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.

- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.

- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)

- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips

- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips

- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)

- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)

- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)

- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.

- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)

- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)

- july 18th (on the 19th):  pasta with minor subs (7)

- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)

- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)

- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)

- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.

- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3

- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)

- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.

- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)

- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white bread with plum better.

- july 28th: pasta with minor subs (12)

- july 29th: guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white toast with olive oil margarine, and then two pieces of white bread with plum butter after. four more pieces of white bread, with plum butter and strawberry jam. 

- july 30th: pasta with minor subs (13), including fried chicken for salami.

- july 31st: a larger piece of fried chicken alone. pasta with minor subs (14), including a mix of buffalo and chicken for salami. six pieces of white bread for peanut butter and strawberry jam.

- aug 1st: four pieces of white bread and the rest of the peanut butter. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).

- aug 2nd: four marshmallows, two bananas and a chocolate bar. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).

- aug 3rd: pasta with minor subs (15), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami (on aug 4th). two pieces of toasted italian bread.

- aug 4th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 5th)

- aug 5th: pasta with minor subs (16), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami. two pieces of toasted italian bread. (on aug 6th)

- aug 6th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn (on aug 7th).

- aug 7th: monterrey jack tuna salad melt with bowl of cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 8th).

- aug 8th: pasta with minor subs (17), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (on aug 9th)

- aug 9th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn wth cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 10th).

- aug 10th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 11th)

- aug 11th: pasta with minor subs (18), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 12th)

- aug 12th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (at midnight on aug 13th)

- aug 13th: pasta with minor subs (19), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 14th)

- aug 14th: potatoes with gravy, cheese, sour cream, bacon and dill (early on aug 15th). no av.

- aug 15th: onion soup + side salad (as posted) (late on aug 15th). no av.

- aug 16th: potatoes with gravy, cheese, sour cream, bacon and dill (early on aug 17th). no av.

- aug 17th: onion soup (mid day on aug 17th) and side salad (as posted) with two pieces of toast (early on aug 18th). no av.

- aug 18th: pasta with minor subs (20), including bacon for salami (early on aug 19th). no av. no juice.

- aug 19th: pasta with minor subs (21), including orange/lime for pineapple and bacon for salami (early on aug 20th). no av. no juice.

- aug 20th & 21st: cereal day 1 & 2 from cycle 4 together in one big bowl. (mid-day on aug 20th)