unexpectedly, i'm working on some new music this weekend. like, completely new.

i've become aware that somebody upstairs (i think my landlord) is trying to hypnotize me in order to detransition me. this is really out there, crazy stuff from my perspective, but a google search has indicated that sleep hypnosis is something that an assortment of quacks and lunatics have attempted over the years to "cure" "homosexuality". sleep hypnosis is not the only thing they're doing, but it's one of them.

they are trying to enforce a gay male identity on me. frankly, i think being transgendered is more sane than being gay and that if we are to clinicize one of these two things we ought to label homosexuality a mental illness before we label transgenderism one (after all, transgendered people generally come out of the process as straight in their preferred gender identities, and not queer), which is leading me to conclude that this person is more on the rad fem or greenwald part of the spectrum, rather than some kind of religious fundamentalist, and that is consistent with what i've been experiencing. you assume you're dealing with a christian or a muslim (a muslim is a more likely fundamentalist nowadays, in canada...) when you run into religionist bullshit, but the evidence consistently points to feminism as the religion that's driving this, rather than anything abrahamic, although there clearly have been muslims and arabs upstairs doing the actual dirty work.

i'm simply not a gay man. i've never had sex with a gay man. i've never dated a gay man. i've had kind of sort of relationships with straight men, mostly before i realized what was happening and kind of stopped myself from falling into it, but i've never had anything resembling any kind of gay encounter. i don't even have any gay friends. i am trans, but i don't call myself gay or queer and would aggressively reject being called homosexual in any sense. they're just wrong. but, they seem to think being gay is normal and acceptable and being trans is some kind of illness, when i think all evidence suggests the opposite, and that leads me to the conclusion that they would have to, themselves, be gay. my landlords were indeed presented to me as lesbians.

so, i've been recording myself sleeping to catch them, but they seem to have cameras in here (that i cannot find with an rf scanner), and stop the pseudoscience whenever i turn the recording on. it's frustrating, but if the disincentive works, it works, at least for now.

as such, i have hours worth of audio to sort through and while it's not picking their bullshit up, it is picking up sounds and other voices. as i am sorting through these sounds, i'm realizing i can get creative with this.

the rules for this project are that i'm going convert each day's worth of recordings into an industrial/ambient composition, and present the result as a series of demos to be completed when i get to 2024 in sequence, which could be quite a while. i want these to be compositions in the end, and not just soundscapes, but they will be dominantly sample collages, with the recordings as the sound sources.

this will be an entirely new project in the inri records catalog.

i want to actually get back to work, but i can't. they're constantly spying on me. they're hacking my network to try to steal my passwords and the best i can do is slow them down. they hack my camera system and break in here when i'm asleep. i can't stay online for more than a few minutes at a time. i think they want to steal all of my stuff and take over my youtube, blogger and bandcamp sites. rather than do all of things i want to do, i'm forced to fight with these losers that have no chance of actually stealing my things and that i want to just fuck off and go away. starting a new project that is a corollary of what i'm being forced to do, rather than do what i want to do (which is get back to completing the discography, in sequence), is making the best out of a horrible situation. so, let me get to it.

i don't know when this situation is going to resolve itself. these losers are actually enjoying this as they're competitive and capitalist lesbians that actually like to fight with the people around them rather than try to cooperate with them. they use references to football and also to chess. they think that evicting me and stealing my belongings is a game that they intend to win; i just want them to fuck off and go away. these are aggressive, dominant shitheads, which is a personality type i strongly dislike and go out of my way to completely avoid, but they don't get it, they just think i'm competing with them. it's exhibit a of why capitalism cannot coexist with real socialism; in a socialist society, you just simply can't tolerate losers like this, you have to send them on a one way trip to a different planet, or kill them if the technology to eject them into space doesn't exist yet. 

i will have a better understanding of the situation in the first week of june, but i don't expect anything to change until the end of the summer at the earliest.

i've listened to the injunction against israel, as delivered by the president of the icj, and i want to briefly summarize it because this is the kind of thing that goes viral all wrong, and i have the background to make sense of it properly. you've probably been misled on purpose.

the order is relatively standard legal fare and, while perhaps somewhat meddling, largely reasonable. the shortform analysis is:

1. a few months ago, the court told israel not to break international law during it's operation to dismantle hamas, but stopped short of deducing that had already happened or was imminent.

2. some shit happened

3. now, the court thinks that there's grounds to order an injunction for israel to halt activity that might lead to an infraction of international law while it adjudicates the complaint made by south africa

4. israel will then write the icj an essay explaining why it isn't breaking international law and isn't going to, either. the court will then decide whether to lift or extend the injunction through the length of the trial.

this isn't a finding that israel has necessarily done anything wrong, it's an injunction for israel to pause while the question is adjudicated, and which gives israel a number of opportunities to demonstrate it hasn't broken any laws and shouldn't be sanctioned. in terms of legal consequences, it's kind of irrelevant, except to change the court's starting position from a general "israel needs to make sure it doesn't break international law" to a more specific "israel needs to stop what it's doing and explain to us why it hasn't broken international law and isn't going to". it is certainly not a guilty verdict in the genocide case.

if this were a real court with real jurisdiction and israel were a citizen under that jurisdiction, it would be obligated to follow the injunction and write the essay. if the court is fair, and israel is really innocent and reasonable, it should then have the injunction lifted, in a month. i might point out that these accusations are questionable, but that is what this process is about, israel proving it hasn't done anything wrong.

yet, jurisdiction is determined by a monopoly on violence, and that is not in force. israel's greater concern is the court of public opinion.

the court also briefly called for the release of the hostages, but if the icj has some theoretical jurisdiction over israel, it has none over hamas. i think they should have included this call in their order anyways just for show, but the icj has no business ordering hamas to do anything, nor would it listen to them. this is nonetheless extremely important and what israel should base it's response on.

if i were israel, i would ignore the letter of the injunction but follow the spirit of it. i would not halt my operations in rafah, but i would write the icj the essay explaining why i'm not in contravention of the law, as requested. while israel has in past years and operations blatantly ignored international law, they actually seem to be doing this correctly, this time. call it irony or karma or what you will, but i don't think it's fair to assume israel is making the mistakes it used to make, given that all evidence i can find tells me that they actually aren't, and that they are following the law the best they can, in good faith.

i would also release a statement that israel is willing to follow the injunction if it is bilateral, but not if it is unilateral. that is, i would release a statement clarifying that israel will stop the rafah campaign if hamas releases the hostages, so that both parties are following the injunction but, however, that israel cannot follow the injunction unilaterally, and that the order that they do so (in the absence of a recognized state in gaza) is not fair or balanced.

i am not sure exactly what israel could then do to try to alter the rules of the situation. the court has acknowledged that hamas is in contravention of international law, but has no jurisdiction to order them to stop. it is not fair to expect that the rule-abiding party follow the order, while the rule-denying party evades the order, and that is a systemic issue that needs to be addressed, perhaps by modifying the charter so that this kind of imbalance can not happen again. 

israel should not ignore the injunction or claim it's anti-semitic, it should follow the spirit of the injunction (but not it's letter) and respond by trying to reform the institution to undo what is really a loophole that hamas is taking advantage of. after all, israel has a very powerful ally and this is but one example of a flawed international order that is long overdue for systemic reform.

there is something i've noticed about the diet i've been constructing over the last few years, which is that it is mostly new world originating produce. this wasn't done intentionally, but it is in theory more sustainable, as these plants evolved here, so long as it's actually done that way.

examples:

peppers: paprika, cayenne, hot sauce

sunflower seeds

strawberries 

avocado

quinoa

raspberries

blackberries

blueberries

cherries

tomato

pineapple

guava

coffee

these items make up a hugely central part of the various dishes.

other items like oranges and bananas are not indigenous to the americas but are major crops in the hemisphere.

you might consequently call this the "americas diet" and note it tries to take advantage of the higher nutritional value of crops that have been domesticated most recently.