i went to start the day yesterday with some dishes and cleaning by sunrise and got that done effectively, but i ended up deciding to wait until my bras dried before i got into the shower yesterday morning, which resulted in sleeping until close to noon. they were still mildly damp, so i got a coffee and got a first run on filing email before eventually getting in in the afternoon.

after struggling for several hours, i did get out to let the conditioner sit and realized it was worse than i thought, until it wasn't. it's weird how that works, and i have seen it before. right when you're about to give up, it cleans out.

there is a goopy film that keeps getting in my hair and knotting it up. my hair is naturally very thin and straight; it shouldn't be knotting up like this, and it wouldn't be if this shit wasn't getting in it. i strongly suspect that the cause is second-hand marijuana smoke. this is something i had never experienced before 2023, but have experienced multiple times since, and i know it takes about a week of persistent cleaning in order to wash it out. i've also consistently noticed after i'm done cleaning it that breakage occurs on the side when it gets knotted up, making me wonder how it's getting in there and if it's still being periodically cut. is the second hand marijuana smoke actually making my hair fall out? is it that toxic, really? these despicably gross people stalking me have cut my hair previously, but the areas on the side aren't the areas i've been keeping note of, in terms of overall length. cutting my hair at these points would be a more subtle form of assault. 

i initially got out around 16:00 to let the conditioner sit, typed a little, got back in and rinsed. it was at this step that the film finally started to come out, but it's not complete. i need at least one more day.

the cleaned hair is far thinner than it was a few weeks ago and i don't have a good explanation for that.

i got out the second time closer to 19:00 with the intent of rinsing and pausing, took some pills and wanted to eat, but instead passed out with little memory of it and woke up close to 22:00 to the sounds of people talking and feet trampling, to an overwhelming smell of a heavy smoke i don't recognize and to a vicious hemiplegic migraine. i was able to wake up for long enough to slam some tylenol and make another kd + chick peas meal, but i then completely passed out until almost 6:00 am. i've been continuing to struggle with the migraine all day.

i've been trying to get my hair washed, to do some laundry and get out to the food bank all week, but it hasn't worked itself out yet. i am getting there. the kd + chick peas, with the various leftover items i documented, does work in that context, as i wouldn't use it for anything else. i had three boxes, and have now consumed all of them; i am also out of chick peas, amongst the other things i noted. i will need to get back in schedule over the next few days, but do still have out of place items, including some instant oatmeal to eat. i've decided the best way to eat the oatmeal is every few hours in containers of two. it follows that the wednesday meal was the kd and i'll be eating through the instant eatmeal, which is at least a good source of iron, all day on thursday. i'll want to add something else to that later.

i've been waiting until after 23:00 before i get in the shower again, to ensure i wait at least 24 hours between shampoo applications. 

tonight, i need to do my general monthly clean, which is a little different. i bought a desk for a sewing machine, but i won't be able to set it up for a while, so i'm going to move it into the kitchen for now. that will stop me from eating in the bedroom, and get me eating in the kitchen. that will in turn help me set up a few things in the bedroom, so it's some progress. on top of the laundry and food bank run, the thing in front of me remains email filing and legal work, and i need to get that going.

but, the point of getting rid of trudeau is that he was trying to be america's bitch, and wouldn't take no for an answer. canada's entire trade policy was based on the idea that we're america's bestest ever friend and we would love them and kiss them and never let them go.

the reason that trudeau resigned, and the reason we ditched him, and the reason we went to go find a banker from england to take his job, is that we weren't going to do that anymore, because it was embarrassing and shameful and ineffective. it didn't work!

it has taken roughly three months for carney to end up in exactly the same situation as trudeau. he should not expect different results.

the correct thing to do is call for a federal election.

i never want to see another motorcycle again.

they have no utility in today's world.

it's just completely wasteful, completely disgusting.

motorcycles should be banned. outright.

gross.

you don't thermoregulate at 21, you thermoregulate at 37.

and you evolved in a jungle.

like, wake up; 30-40 degrees is your natural habitat. you should thrive in that. 

you suffer because you're fat, you eat garbage and you don't exercise.

- 15 degrees is cold enough to need a sweater and maybe a jacket, unless you're right in the sun

- 20 degrees is enough to take the sweater off, usually, but still cold

- 25 degrees is just starting to warm up, but still uncomfortably cold.

- 30 degrees is a pleasant, comfortable temperature

- 35 degrees is hot enough to turn a fan on

- 40 degrees is hot.

if i was forced to have a window a/c by law, i would set it to 40 degrees, which is when it becomes justified to waste the energy.

the americans have been abundantly clear that they do not intend to lift the tariffs, which are permanent (for the next four years) and structural and intended to generate tax revenue.

our elected leaders are either deaf or stupid.

yeah, it's a step towards a complete collapse of sovereignty, is what it is.

it's like when a dog runs around your ankles, expecting a treat. this isn't sovereign trade policy, it's abjectly pathetic, and that's what the americans are taking note of, our complete reliance on them.

https://thelogic.co/news/canada-foreign-steel-usa-deal-leblanc/

it turns out the disgusting fat losers in the ndp want the whole world to be disgusting fat losers just like them.

i cannot think of a more right-wing policy that wastes more energy than mandating a maximum temperature of 26 degrees, which i would not adhere to.

advocates should be ashamed of themselves for pushing such a wasteful policy, which effectively cancels summer. is this the mr. burns party? why not just build a sunblocker?

26 degrees isn't even hot, it's cold.

get some exercise (lose some weight!) and wear less clothes, you fucking losers.

this is a more foolish war than iraq. ukraine has no possibility of success and has never had any possibility of success and people arguing otherwise are imbeciles operating on the delusion of faith.

it's been clear for a while that the tactic to bleed the russians was backfiring, and the americans were instead bleeding themselves. they need to cut their losses and get out.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/jul/02/us-halts-ukraine-weapons-shipments