with every day, it becomes more and more clear 

trump is more clinton than clinton.

sing along.

i don't know why this is so complicated in canada.

the rental market is experiencing a market failure. when a sector has market failure, governments need to step in.

we need governments to build more apartments, not the private sector. this is obvious. the longer it takes for that to happen, the worse it will be.

the government has indicated it's moving on this, finally, and i hope it is, but it hasn't happened yet.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/business/article-rental-apartment-construction-housing-developers-riocan-fitzrovia/

our government has made it clear that it doesn't respect the right to strike.

the workers need to ignore this order and challenge the state to respond with violence, and then react if it does. 

https://www.ctvnews.ca/business/article/jobs-minister-orders-air-canada-flight-attendants-back-to-work/

unfortunately, it seems as though the hostages taken by hamas are nearing total death. while this is unfortunate, it also signals the long overdue, final end of this sordid, twisted mess.

hamas has been absurdly holding on to hostages for almost two years in the delusion that they will negotiate sovereignty out of the process. israel is not going to give them that. as a result, the hostages are going to starve to death, if there are any still alive at all.

hamas had better expect that they will have hell to pay at that point. why would israel negotiate further with them at all? 

the next step, once the hostages are confirmed to be dead, will need to be complete annihilation. it must be. the only thing preventing it has been an attempt to exchange the hostages for leniency, out of pity. when that ceases, the only thing left to do is burn the remaining city down to the ground and bulldoze it into the sea.

hamas might want to think that through.

it's probably already too late, and they will need to face justice, as they deserve it.

i think donny's looking a little....

sleepy.

there's an age where you just can't do this kind of job, and americans need to stop electing people past it.

the coffee is starting to work.

i don't understand why people are having such difficulty with this. i suspect it's disingenuous.

let me explain again.

i am all of these monikers, screen names and pseudonyms, and many others, and have a long history on the internet going back to about 1996.

- inri (1996-1999)

- deathtokoalas (2006ish-)

- dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja, and varations (2008ish-)

- jessica amber murray (2008ish-)

- jessica murray (2008ish- )

- jessica parent (2008ish-)

- jason parent (1996-2008ish)

- the trivial group (2004ish-)

- lysistra

- the koala central command (2016-)

- the koala oversight committee (2022-)

- deny everything

- jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

- j

- jaysicka

- inanna

- tetris

all of the pictures are of me; i am the photographer and the model. all of the vlogs are recorded, directed, narrated and acted out by me. all of the music is composed, performed and produced by me. all of the writing, researching, editing, analysis, debate, fact checking, debunking and typesetting is mine. the opinions expressed are solely my own and do not reflect the opinions of anybody else, except where noted. all of the web design is by me. etc.

it's

all

me.

one person.

that's it. 

there is a project, rabit is wolf, that was formed in collaboration with another person, who recorded some vocal demos. while those vocal demos are still available, the vocal contributions were not used for the final recordings, and the individual was removed from the project in the end, which is now also composed, performed, produced and engineered strictly by me.

this is not complicated at all. it's easy, peazy.

it's me. all of it.

that is all.

i have been waking up fully limp recently, which is positive and indicates the drugs are out of my system. i'm also extremely exhausted, which i'm hoping is a good sign.

i meant to get out and do a number of things last week but couldn't get out anywhere because my hair is a mess and because it's taking longer than i thought to get the documents in order. i lost yesterday altogether due to sleeping, spent friday morning applying for apartments, slept a lot on thuesday morning after eating and after talking to my doctor on wednesday afternoon, spent wednesday morning organizing documents and spent tuesday in the shower, which didn't have the result i wanted.

i need to spend the morning in the shower so that i'm ready to get out to a showing today. i intend to get out to do things tomorrow, meaning i need to finish getting these documents in order.

it follows that this "5% welsh" is a difficult thing to connect to anywhere in the absence of clear genealogical direction. it makes sense to me that the original parent migrant to perce was probably a welsh or basque fisherman brought to the region by the fishing company, and their origins in europe are probably extremely humble, humble enough that they were content to marry the mikmaq woman.

there are medieval texts written by christian monks that document the migration of celtic speakers from spain to the british isles centuries before the romans arrived there and even further document the indo-european migration into spain itself, by documenting the original origin point of the celts as from scythia (ukraine). the celts of ireland and britain knew where they came from, but the christian monks vandalized and destroyed their indigenous history by filling it up with nonsense about adam and eve and noah's ark.

the modern dna evidence actually pretty convincingly demonstrates that the celts had a long concept of history and that the "pagan myths" kept as vandalized fairy tales by christian monks were actually startlingly accurate.

unfortunately, the romans thoroughly destroyed the celtic writing system (which we know now did in fact exist) during the celtic genocide, and they lost their history, their culture and their language and instead started speaking latin (to evolve into french, spanish and portugese) and then eventually germanic (in the form of english, dutch and dialects of german). only the welsh and irish (who migrated to scotland and separated into scottish in the historical period) survived. in later years, christians began disseminating the myth that there was no celtic history, and the celts never even developed writing, but the texts that were partially preserved by the christian monks, albeit in a vandalized state, clearly demonstrate the opposite.

i had unexpected east slavic ancestry pop up in my dna test. it was only 2%, but there's a large error bar and it could be a lot higher. i initially put the 2% east slavic and 3% jewish together to deduce that my dad might have had some ashkenazi jewish ancestry, which is something that seems intuitive because he does have some noticeable sicilian (1% in the test) and my grandfather was fairly dark skinned, but i couldn't find it in the genealogical records, which i found were fairly detailed. according to the genealogy, the parent family i'm from can be traced from ottawa to eastern ontario (from ottawa to montebello to hawkesbury and the farms around rigaud. i have genetic mutations that developed recently in that region.) to the island of montreal and up the st lawerence river to the gaspe peninsula and the town of perce, where there is a documented marriage between the first parent on record with a mikmaq female on a small island off the gaspe peninsula called bonadventure island, which is now a wildlife sanctuary. the house they lived in is actually still there and is a heritage site. these parents were fishermen for generations and seem to have had some relation with a large british empire corporate entity from the channel islands between britain and france that rented out locals to fish for them in order to take control of the catch from them. it was the channel islands corporation that owned the boats and rented them out for subsistence wages, and the employees had to hand everything over. this is a shitty existence. it is unknown where this parent came from, which indicates they were probably either a military person of navy ancestry or some kind of basque or welsh fisherman that showed up undocumented, and was maybe even imported by the channel islands entity. there is a larger 5% welsh ancestry that i also cannot clearly pinpoint, which is similar to basque ancestry. i believe i am challenging academic consensus by pointing out that the welsh origin myths indicate they migrated from spain, as a celtic speaking population, with apparent basque admixture, rather than the "continuation model" that anthropologists keep holding to, despite the dna continually proving it wrong, and won't let go of. it's apparently difficult to genetically distinguish the welsh from the basque. conversely, there were parents that migrated to canada from the united states after the american revolution, there were parents in the acadian region and there were parents in the british navy, including ones of high rank that held positions in india. in the 18th century, there were a large number of parents living in britain that were of original francophone ancestry, and there were still parents in france, but it was actually mostly a franco-norman british surname and not a french surname, at that time. the r1b mutation i have does trace back to austrian celts in the halstatt about 3000 years ago, but it likely came to me directly from welsh or basque ancestry, probably via spain in the distant past.

while this is what the geneaology says, i couldn't connect my dna to any other parents in the ancestry.com database. rather, my dna test indicated i'm related to a trudeau family from the montreal area, and presented all kinds of connections to all kinds of family members nobody in my immediate family had ever heard of. i looked into it a little further, and there may have been an adoption a few generations back around the area of montebello that was kept hush hush and not properly documented. the adopted individual was my paternal great grandfather, who seems to have been descended from the parents on the female side and not on the male side. the person that my paternal great grandfather called his father was probably actually his uncle, while his real mother was his uncle's sister, who died young, and his genetic father isn't documented.

i did pick up substantive clovis ancestry, and that does seem to be the answer to my grandfather's skin tone and curly hair, not something middle eastern. this could be explained by the linkage to perce through the female side.

i was rather able to tie the 3% jewish to an apparent sephardic ancestor on my mother's side that migrated from spain to philadephia in the 18th century, moved to new orleans and married a french woman, then ran away to california to join the gold rush and eventually ended up in the gold rush in the yukon and bc. there may be other jewish ancestors picked up along the path from philadelphia to vancouver, but the one is abundantly clear, as there's actually a jewish legal opinion against him for treating his wife poorly. my mother is very scandinavian on both sides, but looks pretty jewish for a scandinavian. she's dark haired, but her sisters are blonde; both her and her sisters have these gigantic noses, which are noticeable and stand out in what are otherwise very good looking swedish women. they had no idea, and would probably not accept it, but that seems to be where the 3% actually comes from. i don't have dna from my mother, but i have dna from her half-sister that my maternal grandfather fathered out of wedlock, and it is about 20% jewish, apparently mostly or entirely from my maternal grandfather, who may have been as much as half to a quarter jewish. i'd suspect my mother would test at least 10% jewish, but the error bars on these test are very wide and the results cannot be determined with clear accuracy. they will give you a percent, but you should read it in binary computer logic - as yes or no.

so, if the 3% jewish is sephardic, what about the 2% east slavic? the answer is i don't know. it's not clear.

my mother has finnish ancestry, but it's from the part of finland that was developed as a swedish colony. she doesn't have continental finnish or russian ancestry. my mostly finnish grandmother actually looked startlingly like ursula von der leyen, who wears her hair the same way my grandmother did. it's uncanny. trying to establish some kind of russian ancestry there is tentative and probably dubious.

rather, my father's grandfather's name was stanislav parent. i don't know if he liked chopin, but that is a name common in the franco-polish community. it seems more likely that my east slavic comes from the poorly documented adoption and that stanislav's undocumented father seems to be where the links to the montreal area trudeau family originate and the link to the russian or east slavic ancestor.

i did not see any connections to the canadian political dynasty and do not know if there's any relation, but  doubt it. i actually don't think justin trudeau is descended from pierre trudeau anyways. i actually suspect his real father was the british aga khan that died this year.

all of this is to say that i'm not russian and am not quite a russophile. i'm perhaps a pseudo-russophile. it is more accurate to state i am a pan-slavist, and that i recognize that moscow is the most logical vehicle to implement pan-slavism.

i find the premise of both polish and ukrainian nationalism to be petty and trivial and wouldn't have a lot of patience for it if i were a citizen of eastern europe. i wouldn't see where that gets anybody.

i remember trying to explain to people around 2002ish, and still moving into about 2005 or 2006ish, that the cold war was a charade and we've been allied with the nazis in trying to wipe out the slavs the whole time. absolutely no attention has been paid in the west to the fact that ukraine is being run by a non-slavic cabal killing slavs by the thousand per day. zelensky doesn't seem to be concerned about the genocide against ethnic slavic ukrainians that he's carrying out in world war one style trench warfare slaughter, and only the russian state media, which our western governments have censored, has drawn any attention to the fact that this slavic genocide is directly from nazi government policy. it's the ukrainians that are dying, on the order of their own government.

now, the europeans want to occupy the region that they're in the process of depopulating and putin is supposed to say "ok".

exactly.

do you know what people told me at the time, in the 00s, when i told them that we were on the brink of a war with russia? they told me that the propaganda in western media would have to ramp up to impossible levels to get us to hate russia again. they told me communism was over and we'd never go back to the cold war.

exactly.

after being trained to for years by movies and tv and print, how much do you hate russia now in 2025?

i don't know what's coming after trump, but it's clear he's an anomaly. the russians need to try to change the narrative while they can.

what do i think happened today in alaska?

listen to the longer remarks by putin. he talked about times when the russians and americans were allied, drawing particular attention to lend-lease during world war two. putin was always an enthusiastic participant in world war two memorials. he always understood and valued america's role in helping russia defeat nazism, and he was always vocal about it.

i think that they didn't talk much about ukraine at all. i think that the meeting was more about increased trade between russia and america, as carried out over the bering strait. i suspect they may have discussed technology transfers and weapons sales.

trump doesn't speak for ukraine and doesn't want to speak for ukraine. he's not at war with russia and doesn't want to be at war with russia. he wants to get better trade deals for the united states, including a better trade deal with russia.

the belligerent approach by the europeans is strongly reminiscent of nazi expansionism and it dispenses with the ideological divisions of the cold war as illusory. what the europeans really wanted during the cold war was lebensraum. 

the russians will need to work out their differences with the europeans unilaterally.