i'm freaked out about what happened but relieved that the board flashed.

i'm also feeling a lot better

it has been confirmed that there is somebody living upstairs, but i think it's the same people as before. i'l need to carefully adjust.

i'm awaiting a response from the hearing.

hopefully, i can get back to productivity shortly.

i also hope that i don't have to use that jumper a third time in another ten years.

the production machine is fixed. again. what happened?

after clearing the cmos, it booted normally, which tells me it must have been overclocked. 

so, i'm going to deduce that the following happened:

1) somebody came in here and overclocked the pc

2) then they tried to update the bios to have the intel me in it

3) the pc shut down and refused to boot

i had to reflash it with a bus pirate, then kickstart it with a 600w power supply (as opposed to the 550 w supply that is normally connected to this board) to get it to turn on due to the attempt to overclock it, which caused the heatsink itself to start smoking. clearing the cmos in the fixed bios then cleared the overclock and it booted up fine.

i don't know if they damaged components or not. i'll have to try one thing at a time. i'm not in the clear on this, yet.

these idiots need to fuck off.

it took me several tries, but i was able to flash the motherboard for the production pc using the bus pirate, which allowed the device to boot up, with a caveat: the motherboard started smoking.

i don't know what happened to the board. i know that i woke up and the machine was off and it looked like somebody ripped the power out of the socket.

did somebody overclock the device?

i'm going to try to clear the cmos and see what happens, but it's smoking in the heat sink (the one connected to the chipset, not the one one the cpu) without any obvious sign of actual heat, so it might be fixable.

if not, i can buy a new board, if i can get the cpu out.

however, this has just gone from very weird to very suspicious.

ten minutes later, somebody knocks on my door without notice (not allowed.) and i can hear all kinds of smashing around upstairs. it sounds like somebody is moving the appliances out.

the media has shifted the goal posts, but france doesn't generally govern with coalitions. the largest party is actually the national rally, and there's a good argument that they should be granted first chance to form government.

that would be hopeless, you claim.

well, given that the phony melanchon is going to be sent home with a nice gold watch (set to standard time, hopefully) for his decades of service to the banks rather than allowed into government, and the fake left has more in common with this so-called far right on first glance, it's worth a try.

the other option, a grand coalition, is clearly what the french bourgeoisie wants and has actually wanted for years. in a real sense, a grand coalition would neither be a failure nor an emergency but actually the idealization of macron's political vision. if he gets it, this will be a stunning victory for macron. macron might want to make the grand coalition permanent, and then dare the left or right to try to topple it.

that outcome is dangerous, but is where france is heading. the two demagogues would be best to realize it and break through what is turning into a prisoner's dilemma by co-operating with each other instead of wasting their time competing with each other. they will accomplish nothing via wasteful competition, but could be a revolutionary parliament that can pass real changes if they work together on common core issues, instead.

i don't think it's helpful for biden to tell us he's waiting for jesus to come to get him.

it suggests he knows his own days are numbered or that he's starting to hallucinate.

why isn't "i talk to god" disqualifying language in the united states? to most of the world, that's fucking psychotic.

it would appear that sean hansel is currently trying to convince law enforcement and banks that he is me by claiming his name is jessica murray.

there is nobody named jessica murray. jessica murray is a common name in real life, but it is a fake name i use on the internet. the girl in these pictures, videos etc is not actually named jessica murray.

rather, my legal name is jessica parent and that is the legal name attached to all of the media on this site. i have used the name jessica murray on the internet since ~2005 to add a layer of obfuscation to identifying me, so that people would have difficulty connecting me to my birth name, which is jason parent. as a transfemale, i did not want to be readily identified as jason parent, but i'm currently left with no option but to clarify my birth identity, because of this loser, sean hansel. i was considering changing my name to jessica murray when i got around to it, but when i legally changed my name in 2022, i changed it to jessica parent and not to jessica murray. i continue to use the name jessica murray on the internet as an obfuscating pseudonym.

i don't know how long sean has been impersonating me online for, but i am unfortunately at this point going to need to try to put sean in jail because the retard won't fuck off and go away.

i have not spoken to sean since ~2010ish, and we did not speak very frequently after ~2004ish. i have not known sean at all during the entire period i've had facebook (after 2007ish) and youtube (after 2005ish) accounts and he's had nothing to do with any of this media or any other component of my life in any abstraction or any way at all. sean was on the outside of my friend group from roughly 1998-2002ish, which was the second half of high school and the first couple of years of university. sean went to the local college, and i went to university, and we didn't stay in touch. we were never close friends.

a mutual friend named jon wanted to start a band in 2001 with himself on guitar, myself on bass and sean on vocals. i wrote a handful of demos for that project that were recorded in 2002 that i later finished as instrumental pieces, because sean's lyrics and vocals were stupid and sucked. for that reason, there are less than 10 songs in my discography with sean as a "guest vocalist". they are all currently considered to be unfinished demos, and all of them were finished as instrumental pieces. i have recently actually taken them down from my main bandcamp sites and left them only on the side project site for rabit is wolf.

jon wanted sean to sing because he thought he was fashionable. it was a marketing decision, not a musical decision. conversely, my role was intended to be as a composer/arranger/producer/musician and mostly exist in a background role, rather than be the center of attention. i would not have chosen sean as a collaborator, and the demos that exist were essentially an accident. 

jon was correct in choosing these roles as that best fitted for our personalities. sean likes being the center of attention, and i don't. while i turned out to be a pretty blonde girl when i want to be, i'm still not interested in being the focus of attention, and would have absolutely no interest in singing in a rock band; i would still prefer a production/composition role in the background.

all of the pictures and videos connected to this site on youtube, facebook, etc are of me. none of them are of sean hansel, and sean hansel is not jessica murray; jessica murray is jessica parent is jason parent, and sean hansel is somebody else. sean is not transgendered, he's a straight male that has apparently developed some kind of fetish around pretending to be me. sean has scraggly, dirty blond hair that is poorly taken care of and has never dyed it to my knowledge; i have had hair that is brown, black, orange, red, purple and sometimes blonde and i take very good care of it. my hair is currently reddish-orange and i'm planning to bleach it, soon.

sean does not actually look very much like me at all and it's actually extremely obvious that the pictures and videos are not of sean. my frequent dye jobs are just the most obvious evidence in a pile of obvious evidence. he is only fooling himself and should step away before i have to embarrass him in court.

all of the music connected to the site was written by me, none of it was written by sean. sean is not a musician. sean works in advertising/sales and is a business person.

all of the writing was written by me, none of it was written by sean. sean is an individual of below average intelligence that has few meaningful opinions and can barely spell his own name.

sean is a phony, a fraud, a fake, a liar and an imposter, and now he's also trying to be a thief. he will fail and will be punished for it.

what sean does do is play video games, a lot, and any gaming profiles with the name deathtokoalas or jessica murray may in truth be sean. they're certainly not me, ever, at all. i don't play video games and do not have profiles at gaming sites anywhere.

i do not have an in use twitter account, as i dislike the medium and interface of social media. i'd prefer to post at a blog, but i'm converting this into an offline archive and will only be publishing digests in pdf form. my only twitter account is the one on the side, with the red hair, which is intended as satire. i believe sean uses twitter, so if you're looking for an active twitter account with my identity information, it is unfortunately probably him.

i have tried to set up instagram and tiktok accounts and would like to, as i could actually use these mediums, but cannot because i don't use a mobile phone and they won't let me verify the account with my voip number. *shrug*. sean probably has accounts of these sort, and if you are looking for accounts using names attached to my identity, they are probably him. unfortunately.

the twitter, tiktok and.or instagram accounts in question would have no association with the other accounts linked to from this megasite.

i have a large number of email addresses, some with variations of the name jessica murray (or my old facebook name, jessica amber murray), and some with other names. email addresses from google or microsoft or yahoo are free and anybody can use any name they want to set up an email address. i can't tell you if sean has been using an email address with a name connected to my identity or not, but he might be. i've recently had to connect all my email addresses to my phone number to prevent attempts at identity theft and can prove which addresses are mine. somebody has been trying to steal access to my accounts, and it is a good guess that it is sean.

if you are confused about something, please contact me at death.to.koalas@gmail.com and explain it to me. i would like to better understand the situation and generate evidence to use against sean, legally.

i would call on sean to move on and stop pretending to be me before it is too late and he ends up in jail for being a fucking retard. i don't want to deal with this. at all. i want him to fuck off and go away.

the elections in iran are not free or fair, but the death of the previous hardliner president and his replacement by a less insane person are suggestive that the regime realizes that it's recent fascist crackdown on it's own people is not sustainable, and it is going to need to cave a little bit if it wants to maintain power.

it might not result in substantive policy changes in the short run, but that is a major change in the regime's direction, especially given the age of the dictator in charge, whose days are numbered.

is this the result of western pressure? i doubt it.

rather, i would suspect that the russians, who are iran's primary partner in the world, convinced the iranian leadership that it can't dominate and control forever, and it needs to find a way to allow for liberalization, in order to prevent collapse.

it's a better outcome than the alternative, but i would avoid getting excited.

as for melanchon?

i'm sure the bankers will give him something nice and shiny for his loyal servitude.

unbowed my ass. what a phony.

does the french debt matter?

kind of.

it's the eu. this is one of the components of sovereignty that eu member states gave up when the eu was created, the ability to control their own sovereign debt. it was a massive victory for the european banking class. now, you can't bail out france the way they should have just bailed out greece.

one of le pen's policies has long been to stop buying private debt and start financing public spending with public debt, instead. in most of the world, this is a hard left socialist policy, but the socialists in france won't touch it, and french media calls it right-wing. i watched the coverage on france's government youtube channel, and it was relatively clear that this policy, while never stated (never. ever.), was at the crux of the bankers' somewhat hysterical response to le pen. 

nobody mentioned that le pen actually doesn't support a "frexit", either.

french tv made it very clear that the most important issue in the next parliament is going to be the debt, which i suspect wasn't even discussed by anybody in any party as an election issue. surprise!

but, that's what you get when you vote for the bankers, kids. 

don't be like france, kids. don't make that mistake. don't repeat it over and over again.