i think that admitting to hearing voices from god is a pretty strong disqualifier for running for dog catcher, let alone president of the united states.

listen.

i actually don't think it's implausible at all to suggest that somebody like rachel maddow is just literally a paid propagandist, on the payroll, an actual literal cia employee.

i have no evidence.

but it wouldn't remotely surprise me to find out that somebody else does, or that this kind of relationship with the intelligence establishment is actually normal amongst major news broadcasters.

i don't talk about russia. i've explained this.

my hypothesis - and it is only data driven in the sense of pointing out that the data doesn't support the official outcomes - is that the cia rigged the 2016 election, and blamed it on the russians. i will retreat to "voter suppression" if challenged, but i think the fraud was deeper than that. the russians are just being used as a decoy. the real motive was to keep hillary out of power, as she is seen by the security state as a serious threat to national sovereignty. but, the russian narrative has the added utility that it can also be used to take down trump, once hilllary is disposed of.

basically, the idea is that hillary is so off-the-wall corrupt that even the cia was afraid she was too much, and blocked her from winning. the fear was that she would just act in the interests of the highest bidders, which may be incompatible with the country's longterm strategic interests. her completely extralegal destruction of libya at the bidding of the saudi theocracy, and the outsized focus that the shadow government placed on it as a kind of terrible sin, suggests that the influence of oil money may have been a particular fear. my evidence is circumstantial, and largely inferential, and i fully accept that i wouldn't be able to defend it in court, or to get a diploma - but the premise that a smart, independent researcher could gather enough evidence working in their basement to indict the cia is fantastical thinking, on it's face. you couldn't possibly expect something better from me, or anybody like me. but, the idea is that this is the shadow government at work.

so, my hypothesis is that, contrary to the media narrative, it was trump that was the elite's actual preferred candidate, and he was put in power by the american security establishment to block clinton from winning. they then tried to cover it up by blaming it on the russians. so, why waste time getting lost in an obviously manufactured narrative?

but, this same russian narrative then has the added benefit of being useful in taking trump down from the inside, as he was hardly an ideal candidate, himself. what they really wanted was pence, and getting him installed is the end game in this take down of clinton from the inside.

it seems like pence started to be more aggressive in his disagreements with trump, especially around china, on the day after the midterms. while i don't think that trump has the faintest idea of what's happening, it would not surprise me at all if pence were aware of it.

so, it seems like the next phase of this is about to kick in - and i would expect that pence will be sworn in by the time the 2020 election happens.

i don't think i did an actual show review, but i'm pretty certain that i wrote a review about my experiences during the day - but i also vaguely recall accidentally deleting it. hrmmn.

i'm going to watch the vlog and decide whether i should write something up, now.

during this period, i would have normally written the review in the space where i uploaded footage, rather than in the vlog itself. but, i didn't upload any footage. so, i might have posted it to google+, instead - but it's gone, if i did.

i just remember taking about the rain, and the price of beer, and the kids that didn't know how to roll a joint, and then the strange experience of a seated disco concert in a bourgeois venue. the chickens. i wrote this up. but, that was over two years ago, now, and i'm not sure i'm going to recollect it so well.

i slept, so this is a new day. and i'm going to eat, first.

the weird thing about the smoke from upstairs is that he only seems to smoke when the kids are there. so, am i mistaking something else for the smoke? is it a food by product? are the kids tracking in smoke from somewhere else, and am i that sensitive? is he just letting his daughter smoke in the house? or does he find the kids that stressful, or what?

i have nothing to go on, right now, besides my sore throat and persistent cough in reaction to the stimulus of polluted air.

did i delete my review of the steve reich show in 09/2016 or just not write one?

i dunno.

i think i need a nap, and i'll work it out from there.

i've been coughing all night and i don't know what to do. i'm clearly dealing with bad air quality, but i can't pinpoint a source. so, i may have to order an air quality test to determine what it is and how to react.

he may be running a dehumidifier upstairs; i'd like to run a humidifier, or at least leave large bowls of water around the apartment. but, he's coughing, too. so, i'm left to wonder if he might think he wants dry air, but really doesn't.

or he might be smoking. or we might both be reacting to the neighbours. but, it still seems to be coming from the walls.

i have enough fights on the go right now and can't deal with another one. but i'm not sure i can deal with this, either.

ugh.

i think i need to win one of the big lawsuits and buy a condo - that's the only way i'm going to be able to get some fresh air in this society. you'd think it's the most basic human right there is, but it seems like it's a privilege for the upper class.