Monday, May 31, 2021

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today's post is the single for the last rabit is wolf track, la la la la la, which i had to complete without sean. so, i'm singing here, not sean - but sean actually gets a primary writing credit here. i do not expect that it would sound substantively different had sean actually sung it, which is the irony of somebody with a somewhat idiosyncratic voice insisting on a basic, generic idea. 

the track would be reworked as the first trivial group track by flipping it over backwards and starts my 8th symphony, which is where i left off in 2018. it also now ends my 6th record, finished in 2015, in initial form. so, the effect is that the 6th record ends with the track playing forwards, and the 8th symphony starts with the track playing backwards.

the single itself is consequently a sort of historical footnote. i had this track leftover from the rabit period that was never finished as a rabit song, but was finished as a trivial group track. so, i just went back and finished it as a rabit track myself, and released it as a single. the rabit version should consequently be interpreted as a remix, or even as an outtake.

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this was meant to be the last rabit is wolf track, but instead morphed into the first trivial group song. this single explores the track from various angles. 

sean wanted a song that just went "lalalala". i think his intent was to try and simplify my thought process, because what i'd been doing sounded more like FTIeikdTY7isdD7E5dk!. he was just kind of like "how about.....lalalala.". 

it got a bit of an eye roll from me, as you could imagine, but i played with it. he wasn't really that excited about what i did, and it just didn't move forward. there were no further sessions, as he became interested in working with a more conventional early 00s "emotional hardcore" (think at the drive in) style guitarist and i got very involved in a relationship. 

despite his initial suggestion, i'd consider the result to clearly be of my own doing. so, i took the core of what i did and warped it into the first track on the reflections symphony. this track has lain dormant since, comfortably completed. 

it's now 2015, and i'm completing my discography. that puts this track in a blurry space: it was completed, but not as initially intended. while there may have been a vocal part recorded, i don't have it any more. yet, the intention is clear enough - and the manipulation would have been thick enough - that i do not consider it to be invasive to complete it on my own. 

i'm releasing it as rabit because it's collaborative in the abstract, despite sean not actually existing in the track. 

this track was written in late 2002 and completed over april and may, 2015. released may 11, 2015. disc finalized on nov 20, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

the album version of the track (track 3) also appears on my sixth record, jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 (inri063): 
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2 

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2015, 2017). 

released november 15, 2002 

j - guitar, effects, bass, drum programming, soundscaping, sound design, sampling, vocals, vocoders, digital wave editing 
sean - lyrical concept

so, we're going to get today's post in at the end of the day. 

after a long day of biking on saturday, i was up early on sunday morning (the google myactivity suggests the first search was 5:29) and didn't stop cleaning until around 12:00 on monday. so, you're looking at roughly 30 hours...

in the process, i managed to get all of the plastic down in my bedroom, as well as do most of the sealing in the studio area. i ran out of sealant and had to buy some more, which i can pick up next time i'm out. at $10/can, it's going to cost me $20 to seal the whole space.

i found an ant hill connected to the wall under the window near the studio, so the sealing is justified on that basis, along with the temperature and mold issues. 

i also finally got the shower curtain scrubbed down and even got through a good chunk of stuff in the back room, so i'm the bulk of the way there. 

but, after 30 hours, i had to crash this afternoon and was out for about 11 hours, straight. i'm feeling awake, now. let's hope today is as long or longer. i like these long days....i hate sleeping...

this morning, i need to prepare for the mediation, which is this afternoon.
that's such an underrated record. there's one for his sidekick too - and this is really just about a perfect pop song. no, really. if i were to objectively evaluate the construction of this for some bourgeois competition, it would get a perfect score - and there's only a few out there that can compete with it. as i'm closing the rabit run through, i can only wish that we could have got somewhere close to this, even if sean was nowhere in this headspace at the time.



let us focus more on not repeating the mistakes of the past, and less on apologizing for the actions of our ancestors.
when you say "i'm so sorry", there's of course two interpretations.

the first is that you apologize, and mean it.

and, the second is a self-deprecating statement.

now, how do you put these things together when you repeat the line "i'm so sorry" over and over again?

i've been over this before - what exactly does it mean to apologize for something that somebody else did? is it a statement of condolence? you can't express regret when you're not responsible. and, the state cannot be personified in that manner - it is cold, impersonal bureaucracy.

so, i don't know what those words mean.

and, it's truly a sorry display, isn't it?

so sorry, indeed.
yes, of course.

i was a kid when i first heard this, but it makes a lot of sense to me as an adult. i've been in this situation more than a few times :\.

good tune.

it's a pun, though. careful with mr stipe - he's a sarcastic ass, and most people didn't seem to get it.



so, we're back to monthly cleaning rituals, at least for now, which means losing a few days at the end of the month.

i'm pretty close to be being done, but i still have a busy few days coming up...

i'm turning corners, though. for real.