i saw mykki blanco open for bjork a few years ago and thought it was absolutely terrible. that's not a unique reaction to what it is; i've always found something very offsetting about drag shows and the whole "female impersonation" thing. it's just very much not my scene: i'm transgendered, not a transvestite.

but, if you wonder why i'm apprehensive about the left aligning itself with religious fundamentalism...

i've had a busy few weeks, but the actual reason i've been unproductive is the headache, which is finally lifting - although the congestion is migrating from my chest to my head. every time i've sat down to do something, i've passed out...

i dunno.

when i was a kid, i was diagnosed with "chronic bronchitis" as a consequence of living in a house with a lot of second-hand smoke (my mom was a heavy smoker and largely denied the premise of second-hand smoke as a problem). that's not exactly asthma, but it's in the same neighborhood. basically, i'm not in danger of the scarier complications of asthma - i just cough a lot, sometimes. this is about the right time of the yea for it, and i know there's not anything i can do about it. this is actually one of the reasons it took me so long to quit smoking: i knew it wouldn't clear the bronchitis. it doesn't usually come with headaches or congestion, though. i mean, i might be going through a bronchial fit at the same time as something else, or several things, or something else may have even triggered it (that's something that has happened before...), but it's not the cause of this congestion that happens every time i go outside, or the headaches, or the sore throats.

i'm going to experiment with the claritin by popping a pill every time i go out. i'm putting myself at risk of a false positive for a while, but if it works then i'll stick with it. if it doesn't......i just don't know...

i think i may inquire about some antibiotics for oral thrush at the beginning of the month, or otherwise get him to look at my throat.

on top of that, it was absurdly warm here today for the time of the year, nearly 20 degrees, so my neighbour ruined it by turning the a/c on :(. if he's going to have the a/c on all week, i'm going to have to turn the heat up to 30 to compensate. that's going to make it that much drier in here. but, hopefully i can get the windows open during the day.

for right now, i've finished the editing for vlogs from jan 22-feb 15. they will render overnight, and i'll watch & upload them tomorrow. resources are going to be a little slow on the machine for the night, but the process of building the show review archive can actually even be done offline. i can work in a new window...

hey, you want my job, man, take it.

i mean, you say that like you think i want it and i'm upset about it...

it's kind of comical, really.

my concern is ensuring that social services remain at a viable level. when you bring in all of these people that need to use the system, you overwhelm it. that is how refugee resettlement bothers me.

well, that and the reality that it skews the narrative to the right, because you're bringing in a bunch of uneducated religious conservatives that you then need to fight.

but, increasing the number of taxpayers? sure. why would i oppose that?

i went to the show tonight and found it a bit of a bust. the best way to put it is that the band has a diverse discography, and they decided to focus on material that they felt was more marketable. this was actually probably predictable. the only reason it felt wrong was that the more abstract material is so much stronger, and is so heavily weighted in their discography.

had i thought it through more carefully, i should have expected what i got out of a half hour set.

the recordings are worth exploring, though:
https://pcworship.bandcamp.com/music

i need to focus on some editing over the next few days - and while i didn't undersleep this week, i'm also feeling the need to catch up on it to deal with whatever it is that my body is fighting off. i may be quiet for a few days.

the american people have to take responsibility in not holding their media outlets more accountable. there are organizations like fair that try and do this, but they often just don't win the argument.

but, there's a very special place for the media in the united states constitution. and, arguing that the media is the enemy of the people - rather than a tool necessary to hold the state accountable - is frightening, dystopic language.

"it would be a lot easier if this were a dictatorship, so long as i was the dictator" - george w. bush

but, bush was only ever half-serious.

trump is the absolutely legit, no punches pulled, holding nothing back, cup runneth over 100% full retard.