we need regime change in saudi arabia.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/saudi-arabian-group-apologizes-for-posting-image-appearing-to-threaten-canada-with-9-11-style-attack-1.4775509

can we do that experiment?

so, how much does it cost, now, for doug ford to get so fucked up that he falls down the stairs?

an independent canadian policy on emissions standards should seek to predict more stringent future epa requirements, and get a head start on canadian productive capacities, so that firms can choose canadian production over american production in the long run.

further, american unions should see the folly in the epa rollback and seek to prevent management from what is bound to be a pointless regression, in the long run.

and, this logic is broadly applicable.

if you want investment language, canada should not be disturbed too much by short term fluctuations, and focus instead on long term predictions.

a usual, the business press has the interests of investors in mind, and not the interest of workers.

it is of course better for investors to ensure common standards, but, one way to guarantee that the auto companies have no choice but to keep jobs in canada is to create different standards here, that force them to do things differently here.

it follows - if you are interested in workers, rather than investors - that separating the standards is actually a good thing, as it will create jobs in this country.

canada is a lot smaller than the united states, but it's still a wealthy country with an important auto market. nobody is going to forfeit the canadian market.

and, the flip side is that, once the americans elect a non-idiot that returns to a sane perspective on emissions, canada will have the capacity to export.

if i was ford or chrysler, i would just go ahead with the obama-period plan, anyways - it's not going to be more than a few years before the next government brings back even tougher standards. and, that should be the thinking across the industry, in both the united states and canada.

donald trump can't actually reverse the flow of time.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/business/canada-vehicle-emissions-1.4775503

she did this kind of bullshit as health minister, too.

the ndp needs to target this woman to get her thrown out of the house of commons.

this is absolutely disgusting.

the idea that there's not enough money for funding is bullshit. regardless, why not just tax the fuckers, instead of entering them in a lottery?

it's not clever. it's utter stupidity. and, it really reflects the absurdly low value that these people place on indigenous people - and poor people, in general.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/article-trudeau-government-trying-to-expand-indigenous-housing-options-through/

it's easy to state all of this from a distance, once i've had some time to process it.

but, at the time, i'm just sitting there trying to figure out why she won't talk to me, if it's something i can do, if it's permanent, etc.

as mentioned: as far as i can tell, she kind of 'gave up' on me after i told her i was back on hormones, which seems to mean something relatively romantic - she decided i wasn't going to be a father figure, or i wasn't going to be an income source, or i wasn't going to be some abstraction of a provider.

but, it was absurd for her to have thought that, because i had made it clear to her that i was never going to be that person, as early as 2002.

i guess i didn't really believe that she actually had those delusions, so it was just a kind of kneejerk reaction, and she'd get over it. and, that makes perfect sense from my perspective - we'd been friends a long time, we'd been through a lot, and she was just mad at me, and she'd get over it.

but, the only rational way to understand the situation is that she must have actually believed i was going to end up as a provider at some point, so that the realization that i never was going to must have eliminated some use value i had for her - otherwise, why would she have bothered to talk to me and invite me over for all those years, and why was she so upset about the final conclusion?

what i'm getting at is that she wasn't over me - otherwise, my gender identity wouldn't have mattered to her.

what she wanted was to put me aside for later. she wanted to be a slut, but she didn't want to break up. she wanted to go away on weekends, but she didn't want me to move out. and, when i got up and left, she couldn't compute what was happening.

she took me for granted.

and, i walked out on her.

...and then she came crawling back, and i told her 'no' - go be a slut if you want, but i don't want to be your partner if you insist on living that type of lifestyle.

but, this is absurdly silly, and outside of the scope of any meaningful discussion: we were still going on periodic catch-up dates more than five years later, and quite a while after we stopped being physical.

again: i'm still not fully certain what happened, but it's absolutely clear that it had nothing to do with the events around the initial break-up, because we were still friends for a very long time afterwards.

i was actually happier just being her friend. it was a lot less stressful to meet her once in a while and catch-up. and, yeah, there was some lingering sex, but it actually felt more healthy when it had a bit of a distance to it.

i was not leading her on, either. i made it crystal clear that we weren't going to get back together....

i told her two months ahead of time that i was moving out, and she simply couldn't accept that she was being dumped, so instead of planning for it, she ended up homeless.

but, was i supposed to continue living with a slut? is that a real option? in what fantasy reality?

but, i didn't want to completely throw her out of my life, i just didn't want to sleep with her any more.

she can say what she wants, but the fact is that i walked out on her for cheating on me.

she got dumped for being a slut. ok?

then, she showed up at my new apartment and begged me to let her move in.

i've been over this.

i don't know what i would do with the extra money.

i can't drive.

do you want to tell me to live in a room so i can go out to fancy restaurants to eat?

this is just stupid.

i have a stable income. i have money in the bank. we can budget the thing up together, if you want.

but, people are idiots...what do you say....

i need to be clear.

i will put my things in storage and accept homelessness before i move into a room.

well, i mean, i would have no choice but to put my things into storage anyways, so why would i pay for a room?

it's not in the list of possible options. and, there's no reason for it to be. i have up to $950 that i can spend on rent.

these landlords are just being stupid about it - and they will lose money for it in the end.

that listing i applied for is still available. i could have moved in august 1st. that's at least $700 lost.

there are some units that have been sitting empty for months, and the idiots are losing thousands on them.

and, the economy here is just going to get worse, as the jobs move into the suburbs.

it's really an absolutely ridiculous place to put a hospital - a ten minute bike ride from the nearest major intersection.

i would certainly hope they're planning bus service; as it is, it would be impossible for most people to get there without calling an ambulance, and it's going to increase the travel time for ambulances five, six, seven fold.

the only logic to attach to it is the idea that the staff wants to abandon the downtown core, which is more or less what's happening - this is essentially very expensive white flight.

if it brings housing costs down in the city core, i'm ok with it. it'd just be nice if they'd hurry it up...

so, i'm arguing with somebody that just bought a complex around the corner from the hospital that is being closed. he thinks he'll rent to hospital staff. my guess is he's from toronto.

these people are delusional, and they're just going to lose money.

but, it's shitty timing for me.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/windsor/it-s-done-hospital-ceo-says-about-site-of-windsor-s-mega-hospital-1.4433241

...& that does complete november, although i still have to format that mega post to november 30th.

you could publish that thing as a socratic dialogue. it's 50 pages on office paper, so you're looking at a 100-200 page paperback.

i'm going to nap a little this morning, though. the headache is gone, but i'm zombified. hopefully, i wake up a bit more fresh...

well, that got rid of it for a while, anyways - we'll see how persistent it is.

it could be anything, really.

i could be stressed out.

i'm not getting auras, at least.

so, sleeping the headache off appears to have been unsuccessful.

it's raining. she's smoking. but, i'm also congested, so i'm wondering if it's even allergies. this is another reason why this place is impossible: i do appear to have some kind of allergies, but i can't close the window. so, i get to choose between pollen and smoke. great.

i can't be immobile right now, so let me try some aspirin.