today's post is inriℵ2. as with the other alephs, the front-end needs to be rebuilt before i can post it to payhip. 

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inri003: created in mid 1997. sequenced and converted to stereo in november, 2013. released on nov 9, 2013. corrected in september, 2014. finalized on july 5, 2016. 

inri008: initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed june 29, 2015. remixed july 15, 2015. released on jan 4, 2016. finalized on july 11, 2016. bonus tracks added and re-finalized on july 18, 2016. 

inri010: initially written in 1996. recreated in april, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 12, 2015. vocals added july 15, 2015. sequenced, finalized and released on july 22, 2016. 

inri017: initially written over the course of 1997. recreated and expanded over the course of 1998. lead track first sequenced in this form in feb, 1999. further remixes generated over the course of 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013, and another in late 2015. remastered in november, 2016 from various sources, 1997-2015. finalized & released on nov 17, 2016. 

inri018: initially written in 1997. recreated and reconceptualized in late 1998. salvaged somewhat at the end of 1999. remastered in 2013. compiled & released on nov 13, 2016. finalized on nov 19, 2016. final album version added as a bonus track and refinalized on dec 15, 2016. 

inri019: written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. symph002.. 

inri020: initially written in 1993. first full recording in 1996. recreated in dec, 1997 and again in jan, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed on july 2, 2015. remixed on july 15, 2015. reconceptualized & remixed repeatedly over november & december, 2016. released & finalized on dec 13, 2016. 

inri021: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1993-1999. initially constructed in this form in feb, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced over november and december, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. finalized & re-released on dec 15, 2016. lp002. 

inri023: constructed over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. released dec 27, 2013. the first two tracks were corrected to stereo in sept, 2014. the last two tracks were added for re-release as a remix lp in dec, 2016. re-released & finalized as lp003 on dec 17, 2016. 

inri026: initially written in the fall of 1997. recorded in the winter of 1999. remixed in late 2013 and again in early 2014. this track was separated from my second record in january, 2016 but the single was not completed until it was remixed one last time in sept, 2017. released & finalized on sept 10, 2017. 

originally created from 1996-1999. this compilation is dated to jan 26, 1999. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on dec 16, 2016; inri026 added on sept 11, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

released january 26, 1999 

j - guitar, effects, bass, bass synth, synthesizers, piano, vocoders, octavers, drum programming, drum kit, sequencing, found sounds, noise generators, sound design, cool edit synthesis, light-wave synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, sampling, vocals, mic noises & vocal relics, pick scrapes, tapes, digital wave editing, digital effects processing, loops, noise reduction, a broken tape deck, chance, production.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set

all i'm really going to have time to do tonight is clean.

how am i feeling?

i slept a lot today, but i'm feeling more awake than i was yesterday, at least.

i didn't get a reaction from the doctor's office, and they're closed on the weekend. i'm rather frustrated by this.

the clinic somewhat hilariously suggested i contact my doctor. no, you idiots...i need this done now...

so, i'm going to have to get to the clinic in the morning and ask for a hepcidin test. if they can't or won't give me one, i'll need to go to the hospital.

and, that's my weekend, unfortunately. again: not what i wanted to do, but i need to figure this out.

just a bit of an update on the flashpoint runthrough...

as mentioned, he's entering real history now, and he's just very quickly summarizing the outcome of a series of physical battles. he both seems like he's more in his element and like he wants to get it over with.

i don't have any particular comment, other than that i'll let him finish.

just sorting through the timeframes in the list suggests he may get more substantive in the next section.

i have a pet theory that the pope essentially used the crusades as an excuse to rid himself of the barbarians that had settled in the empire, making it a kind of population control.

the underlying problem is probably genetic, but estrogen supplementation is probably the best way to treat it.

it would follow that the best way to increase my ferritin is to get the orchidectomy, asap.

i have a first appointment on april 27th.

i'll need to test my hepcidin. but, this is my theory right now:

- my testosterone suppressors have been slowly wearing off over the last few years, and i doubled them over the summer last year, only to have to retreat because the doctors wouldn't overprescribe.

- my estradiol source switched to generic a few months ago.

together, these two changes have led to decreases in serum estrogen, which have increased my hepcidin levels. as such, i'm experiencing rapid depletion of my iron stores as my estrogen levels decrease.

ok, i think i'm feeling a little better....

i sent a lengthy email to a walk-in clinic, and let's see how they respond.

in theory, it's actually useful to have some places closed on fridays if it means they're open on sundays. everybody deserves a day off, and staggering them is useful. as a secularist, i'd actually advocate that the day of rest (which i can support as a labour activist, rather than as a religiously mandated thing) be rotated rather than mandated. i mean, something should be open on sundays, something should be open on saturdays and something should be open on fridays; having a multiculturalism that allows the different religions to pick what day they want to be closed on is a sort of brute force application of a rotating day-off, and it's useful for that reason, if not the ideal way to do it.

but, it means you need to actually have some kind of diversity.

and, the problem in this city is that that isn't happening - islam is developing a monopoly, and what's happening is that everything is closing on fridays, which is just as annoying as everything closing on sundays.

ok, i think i found something, i'm just going to send them an email to double check.

the other thing is that everything is closed on fridays in this city because it's been taken over by muslims.

i mean, it's one of the dumb parts of the lockdown, and i'm not even really blaming this on the government - walk-in clinics could stay open, but none of them actually are open.

if i have to call head to get an appointment at a clinic some time next week, i'm essentially converting the clinic into a general practice, and i already have a gp. but, a lot of people don't.

it eliminates the clinic part of the clinic and reduces my choices to er or gp.

ok.

so, as i've essentially ruled out dietary factors, i've decided that the next thing i should do is ask for a urine test for hepcidin.

and, i still don't know if i should be in emergency or not. i don't think any clinics are open for walk-in, right now, so it's either that i go to the hospital or i wait until the 21st.

google is being very frustrating tonight, in that it is giving me exactly the opposite of what i want. 

every search for iron & b12 shows up with studies about elevated b12, not low b12.

and the only hits regarding b12 storage are affirmations that the liver can indeed store b12.

what that suggests, at the least, is that if i'm having some kind of regulation issue then it's extremely obscure and it could take some time to convince a doctor that i even have it.

can i at least figure out which hormone regulates b12 storage and release?