another high point on the second disc:

the second record has one of the best lines in rock music history, though:

"do you have an opinion?

a mind of your own?

i thought you were special..."

she had a healthy "i'm gonna kick your ass" celtic she-mother thing about her, that's kind of disappeared from the culture.

i spent a fair amount of time with the second garbage record, but it was quite obviously a very big shift in sound and it just didn't have the aesthetic that i liked about the first one. there's some high points, but it was a pretty hard shift out of abstract electro-goth-pop and into more traditional disco-funk, with a few ballads. so, it didn't keep my interest...

i only listened to the third one a few times.

go misunderstand me over there...

(points finger in distant direction)

so, i was supposed to go to an appointment this morning, then get back to what i was doing this evening, but the appointment was cancelled and i slept all day, instead.

i'm sorry that i spent the last week reading technical studies in peer-reviewed dentistry journals rather than studying 200 year-old novels written by people with degrees in grammar (if they had degrees at all...) or trying to make sense of useless philosophical nonsense with no discernible application to my life in the real world. i guess you got me all wrong. but, do us both a favour and go get me all wrong as far away from me as you can - and don't tell me i don't read for the crime of being productive with my time. as though oral health is unimportant and post-modernism is deeply compelling. you complete fucking idiots...

anyways.

that was longer than i wanted it to be, but i should be able to get back to what i was doing for the weekend, at least.  and, i'm rewinding back to dec, 2019 and making sure everything is both still in place and correct.

....+ the extra ridiculous version with the timothy leary sample that got rejected from last rights.

i just breathed this in and out.

reznor + vrenna + thirlwell + balance.

fuck.

there were two - and only two - tapes that i listened to in my walkman so much that i actually wore them out to the point that they started to warp:

- nin's fixed

- the first garbage record

i loved that record - somewhere halfway between mbv and the smashing pumpkins, with just enough of an electro-goth sheen to get my apathy on.

i used to rewind just for this one:

but, you would have been more likely to catch me listening to ministry, dead kennedys or skinny puppy.

and, if you know the politics these bands had, that's obvious from flipping through this - i'm a punk. to my bones.

manson was never punk at all - not even a little bit.

i was a big shirley manson fan:

i'm culturally descended from an industrial/punk lineage that largely saw manson as a lame, meathead poseur from day one.

like, the guy's claim to fame was a shitty mall goth cover of an eurythmics song.

 and, then he decided he wanted to be bowie or something.

i don't think i've heard anything he's done since like 1997.

this was one of my mom's favourite songs, and i grew up listening to the original version:

i'm a transgendered woman, i'm not a drag queen.

i have never said anything good about that guy, and have barely said anything about him at all.

and, i don't think i've ever posted one of his videos - not even ironically.

i have never listened to a marilyn manson record from start to finish and have been exceedingly critical of him as an unoriginal douche bag since the mid-90s.

he's not my style. at all.

sorry.

i was hoping to get through the dental stuff quickly, and then wasted the week on it.

not much happened regarding court stuff this week, but i'm going to update.

- the karen case has two components:

a) i left a message about filing with the divisional court and have yet to hear a response. i've just left a second message, now.

b) for the human rights case, the conflict of interest (the karen was apparently a lawyer in the crown's office. lol.) has been disclosed and is very concerning. like, did this woman get direction from higher up? i filed another form 10 with a form 12 on the 23rd. i have not received a response from the police regarding the transphobic statement.

c) i have now filed with the privacy commissioner about the omitted statement.

d) the conflict of interest has been disclosed.

e) i will eventually be filing a constitutional challenge in this case.

f) i am still looking at filing criminal charges against the karen, and the results of the fippa were helpful, but i want to wait for a few things to play out, first. locating ryan myon as a real person would be helpful. the conflict of interest is extremely concerning, but it makes filing directly with the justice of questionable value. i mean, this woman seems to work for the court, and that probably explains why the audio got altered. so, i want to file with the privacy commissioner, first, to see if i can get the statement. i'm going to need a strong case - the karen is basically a cop.

- the discrimination case against the hospital has two components:

a) i am awaiting the tribunal's response to set a hearing date.

b) i am awaiting the oiprd's report..

c) i have everything from the hospital, now.

d) a foia is filed with the cops and will arrive mid-month.

e) i have filed with the privacy commissioner.

- the discrimination case against the grocery store is now filed.

so, this week i am

- i have filed just about everything i can against the cop/karen and need responses before i can figure out how to approach criminal charges. i may want to go to a justice outside windsor.

- i may get a response in the oiprd case.

- the hospital case is in waiting, strictly.

- the case against the grocery store has now been filed