the fifth entry in the music journal series, which is the month of november, 2013 and is 132 pages long. i am not going to summarize the story, but it is available on the web over here: musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.com/2013/11/.

this is a compilation of written correspondences that occurred around me over november, 2013. it includes facebook posts, google+ posts and emails with acquaintances and family members, in an attempt to document the first reconstruction phase of rebuilding my discography, including remastering and (re)publishing inri001, inri003, inri016, inri027, ini028 and inri029. the contents of this download are the dummy track, a word doc file and a pdf file, both written in a more readable, chronological ordering. i've also added the respective files for my other three blogs, for general interest, as well as 70 separate txt documents (all html files) that are referenced in the journal. the liner notes for inri001, inri003, inri016, inri027, inri028 and inri029 are also included.

the events documented in this journal occurred in november, 2013 and were compiled into a narrative in several stages over the years 2014-2019. journal completed, released and finalized in doc and pdf format on oct 30, 2019. doc201311.

credits

released December 1, 2013

j - editing, participant

mom - participant
the initial landlord - participant
sennheiser technical support - participant

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/11-2013-music-journal

can bernie save his ass by doing a u-turn on the gays and going back to his old self?

it's true that, for me, this is personal. but, that's not really the point.

i don't actually think that bernie, as an individual, is anti-gay at all - i don't think he cares, either way. he's not the kind of person that would. what i think is that he's taken a lot of bad political advice and made a horrific miscalculation. see, but that's even worse because this isn't coming from any deep level of conviction - it's not a belief or an ideology, for him, it's a cold political calculation that demonstrates that he's entirely willing to throw what is unquestionably the most vulnerable minority on the planet under the bus.

he likes to talk about how he's willing to stand up for people.

but, when you won't stand up for the people that need to be stood up for the most, when you instead stand with those that want to hurt the people that can least defend themselves, the entire rhetorical device gets thrown away.

so, who does bernie stand with? it seems like he stands with those it is convenient to stand with.

and, then what's the point of hearing him backtrack, if you know it's just because he's realized he's losing support?

my disinterest may fade, over time. but, he can't win me back as a supporter, which, at the moment, would appear to be something he's proud of.

this is my official response.

i appear to have turned the auto-reply on last night by accident. i apologize for the first response, which was automatic.

i do understand the ruling; the court is essentially deferring to the mfippa, in an attempt to minimize it's own reach. it agrees that asking for an order is due diligence rather than an absence of it, and is willing in principle to overrule the mfippa to get the information, but not unless it feels it has to as a last resort. so, it is instructing that i do a search first and then come back and ask again if it doesn't provide the appropriate information.

i will remind the court that i did not perform this search out of fear of getting arrested for it. that fear is not unfounded, on my behalf: the allegation in the case is that i was arrested not much more than a year ago on the orders of the defendant with the purpose of intimidating me from filing a human rights case against the defendant. the veracity of this claim is what is to be determined in the case. i was in fact then charged with stalking this person, despite not knowing their real name or their address or even their actual gender, which my request for order has made abundantly clear. i was released in the context of an order not to further communicate with the individual, directly or indirectly, until the charges were dropped, and these charges were indeed quickly dropped. had i not been arrested, i wouldn't even know the name of the numbered company that had me arrested. as such, i felt my options for performing research were limited by threats of further criminal charges - something i explained to the tribunal, in writing, on three separate occasions. and, i need to be clear on the point: i have not done anything at all to determine who this person is, and will state as much under oath as many ways as you'd like me to. i have abided by the conditions of the release, well after the charges were dropped.

so, it should be clear that the reason i opted for this approach was to ensure i didn't get arrested a second time. while conducting a corporate search may not be grounds for arrest, not having valid grounds for arrest didn't (allegedly) stop them the first time. and, i'm not convinced the justice would let me out so quickly a second time, fairly or not.

the order, here, is clear enough: i have been granted authority by the tribunal to determine this person's identity by conducting the appropriate searches, and i should not fear extra-legal or otherwise  retributive action by the windsor police for doing so. as such, i do not expect to be contacted by the windsor police about it when i do so, and will have the information available for the tribunal (or a second request for order, if it is not available) by the middle of next week at the very latest.

j

...so, if they try to arrest me over this (again.), i've got the order to cover my ass, now.

it's not the easiest or most rational approach, but whatever. it's still a step forwards.

to put it another way.

what i said to the tribunal was "maybe i could do a search, but these guys might arrest me if i do, so let's just get the information directly from the cops, instead, so they can clearly see what i'm doing and don't twist it around into further charges."

...and what the tribunal has said is "you should not be fearful of extra-legal behaviour by the windsor police. do the search.".

so, i got my order in the mail, and what they're telling me is that i have to do a corporate search before i can ask the cops. they also said that if i can't find the information then i can put in a second order, and they'll grant it. so, it's a question of process.

they're essentially deferring to the mfippa, here. they don't have to do that - they could have ordered the cops to hand over the information, that is, they could have overruled the act. but, the position they're taking is that i have to look for the information elsewhere, first, before they do that. so, they're deferring to the act to try to minimize their own authority here. ok. that's a reasonable judicial position - they would, otherwise, be overruling a statute, and what they're saying is that they are prepared to do that but they'd rather not do that if they don't have to.

the thing is that i was charged with harassing this person. the reason i did this was that i was concerned that doing that kind of research could open me up to charges - the cops could argue that i was snooping around online to try to figure out who she was. if you think that is a stretch, i'll remind you that i spent a night in jail for far less than that.

so, i'm going to interpret the ruling as providing me with the positive right to find information about this person, which is in truth still a step forwards. if the cops get on my ass about it, i'll point to the order.

and, if i can't find the information, i'll present a second order, as is appropriate.

it's going to cost me something like $30 to run a search, which isn't fair, but nobody ever claimed that the system was fair...

so, buttigieg is getting a huge bump, apparently from sanders supporters. and, it's not hard to figure out why - sanders has taken some exceedingly backwards, bigoted positions on queer issues recently. he seems perfectly happy, all of a sudden, to align himself with groups and ideologies that simply don't believe in the idea of human rights, and he seems willing to do it under the misguided belief that it is politically expedient to do so.

.....because it's increasingly clear that bernie sanders, as an individual, is an idiot. he's a dumb person, and a dumb politician. he's taken a really stupid position here, one that is uncharacteristic of his past views but increasingly characteristic of his low intelligence level, and it's starting to hurt him.

predictably, actually.

so, this is less about being pro-buttigieg. don't confuse yourself - his soft-right positions are not all of a sudden popular in the base. this is a backlash against sanders. and, stop pretending it isn't.

it remains to see if it will last, because the reality is that buttigieg is a terrible candidate. he's barely old enough to run, and he's clearly to the right of obama. his healthcare plan is something margaret thatcher would have come up with; the conservative party in canada would consider it to be too right-wing. so, if you're jumping on the buttigieg bandwagon because you're pissed off at bernie for expressing bigoted opinions about queer folks, and aligning with bigots on the issue, i'm certainly in solidarity with your outrage (which is well placed) and your scorn (which is well deserved), but you might want to think twice about what you're doing with it.

i can't support sanders anymore, but, i don't support buttigieg, either.

the primary is a disaster. i'm not going to be paying close attention; i haven't even watched the last several debates. but, i'll chime in with stuff like this from time to time...

it's a sympathy bump. and, he maybe doesn't deserve it. but, the candidates should listen to what it's saying - in 2019, democratic voters have a lot of solidarity with the gays, and not much patience or tolerance for groups or ideologies that want to go after them.

and, if you're going to run a completely out-of-touch 80 year-old that wants to run like it's 1985, don't be surprised when he sounds and acts and behaves like exactly what he is.