after sleeping it off, i'm feeling a little better. for now. this is cyclical, based on what they're doing.
i actually think i was having an allergic reaction for the last week, which is something i've noticed before. this time, it wasn't hives all over my body, but rather manifested in my face swelling up to twice it's size (i've noticed this before as well, associated it with what seemed to be forced steroid consumption and labelled it "stupid jock face syndrome", but that doesn't seem to be the issue at this time) and giant puss-filled zits developing all over it. a couple of these seem to have little eyelash sized ingrown hairs, but they're mostly just disgusting thick zits, like you tend to see in teenagers.
i have dealt with this as i have before, which is to wash it down until it bleeds and then lather over it with acne soap. this is a disgusting process that initially makes the whole thing worse, as it results in your face wrinkling up and breaking out even worse at the same time. the soap hurts, but when it's done you'll have a dozen big grease-filled bumps to break open with pimple poppers, or just pop with your fingers.
this time, the soap reached it's zenith this afternoon and i went through and broke open all the grease-filled blemishes this evening, before i went to sleep, as i tend to in the evening. when i woke back up, the swelling had come down and the zits had turned into bloody scabs. the result is that i look like a meth addict, which is frustrating given that i would never touch the stuff and would beat the shit out of anybody that tried to offer it to me (i would use shovels to smash their heads in. i would not show mercy. it would be messy. drug dealers do not deserve human rights. i don't support capital punishment for rape or pedophilia, but i would support it for drug dealers. it's a worse crime.), but also probably something approximating what my body has been going through, and something these stalkers are doing to me intentionally. it should wash off in the next day or two.
i had to go to the bank machine to get some cash on friday night for the couch, which gave the losers the opportunity to get in here. i had migraines all weekend, resulting in the swelling, which is coming down, now. they seem to have moved in upstairs.
i'm left with no option but to barricade the doors shut until i can understand what's going on.
my immediate focus is healing from the effects of the poisons i was drugged with. i'm a little groggy and i look disgusting but i think i'm ok and i'll be ok when i wash up.
the correct solution is to put these people in jail, but the canadian justice system is irrevocably broken and i've learned that i can't rely on the system to come to correct outcomes. the cliche is that the asylum is being run by the inmates, and that is very much what is really happening in canada. i will need to seek extralegal solutions, because the legal system is no longer able to succeed in arriving at correct outcomes due to a mix of systemic corruption and systemic incompetence. the judiciary in canada was recently intentionally redesigned to be hopelessly ignorant and incapable of solving or working through problems in a way that benefits anybody except the interests of capital.
i've also learned over the last few years that you cannot move away from the drug problem in canada. there are too many drug addicts, and they are distributed too widely. again, the court has created this problem via it's incompetence. citizens cannot evade it, and cannot use the system to address it, but will need to find ways to address the problem using methods outside of the legal system.
what i'm dealing with is something a little bit different than that, but i essentially need to address it the same way. i'm left with no option but to address the drug problem using vigilante methods, because the system has taken away everything else.