no showings today.

i'm starting to plan for the nuclear option.

i can convert my internet plan into one of those rocket sticks at the same monthly cost. maybe they'll wave activation. i'd have to go down to 1 mbps, but that's not a substantive drawback for what i use it for, which is mostly text. i want cheap internet before i want fast internet, so i could even just stick with that when i get set back up....

if i can bring a bicycle with me, that's even better, but i might have to get to the horseshoe, first. i don't see a good way to get a bicycle from here to there. it would be cheaper to buy a new (used) one than ship one. but i figure i should have good transit options with a bicycle once i get to the broader gta.

two of my laptops have burned out screens. i was supposed to be done the rebuild by now, in which case i'd have tried to fix both of them. but, this process is taking a very long time and i'm still running on a dying hard drive....

i was thinking about getting a cheap laptop and putting this drive in it. but, could i use the 90s laptop? it would be restricted functionality, but i'd save some cash. i'm leaning against this. but i might try it, first.

disability should pay for storage costs, one way or another, so i should roughly break even over the amount of time i'm homeless. that is, i should have roughly the same amount in the bank on the day i sign the lease as i do now - i should be able to cover the costs of being homeless, including the odd stop at a hostel or air bnb.

if this works out well, i can ship the items by train. this is not a long journey. and, if i can do it for less than $2000, i think i've broken even on the mess.

another potential idea is appealing the ruling, but that would just buy me a small amount of time, as it would open me up to a forced eviction for missed rent. i'm withholding rent to recoup the money from the ruling; if i appeal the ruling, i then owe them all that money, so they can throw me out. thirty business days from july 31st is the second week of september. i'd have to file by sept 15th. it would buy me two-three months, tops. why would i think so much will change in the next three months? and i can handle leaving in october better than i can handle leaving in january...

if she writes me a check tomorrow, i might even consider leaving town a month early. i've already largely given up on windsor. sad truth.

i can do this for a while, there's no question. i can type all night in a tim horton's - and i can go days without sleeping when the sun comes up, although when i do crash in the air bnb every 7-10 days, i will need to do so fairly hard. it'll be check in at 2 pm, sleep until 8 am. i can handle that for a few weeks. maybe a few months. but, then it starts to get into your soul, and you start fading away...

there's still dozens, maybe hundreds, of rooms being advertised for students. classes are starting this week, right? i don't want one of those rooms, but maybe opening them up to general use will start to clear or thin the market out...

but, i'm resigned to what is coming. & to an extent looking forward to it.

i want out of this place immediately....