but, i repeatedly wake up drenched in sweat when i get home.
if i'm being drugged like i think i am, it's having a very negative effect on my overall physical health, which is of far greater concern to me than society's opinion about my mental health, which i mostly think is a triviality. not only is this not helping, but it's having a truly devastatingly negative effect on me.
if it was harmless and i could just shrug it off, whatever. but, it's not. it needs to stop.