i rarely take any kind of medication for anything. i really hate taking drugs. they prescribed me t2s (codeine) after the surgery to remove my testicles, and i didn't even fill the rx. i bought the over the counter tylenol with caffeine in it instead, because caffeine is more my thing. i have avoided cocaine like the plague because i know i'd like it but i hate feeling dopey and stupid. i'd rather just drink coffee like it's water and keep the effect toned down. i even take those caffeine tylenols for the brutal migraines i get (aura. aphasia. they knock me out for days.), when i've been offered narcotics for them, as well. fuck opiates; rape them and send them to hell. but, i could get an rx for a dozen habit-forming drugs with a phone call, and there's something horribly wrong with that.

i have a package of 10 capsules of normal claritin (i made sure i got normal claritin, not the creepy stuff with fucking meth in it) that i bought in 2017, which expired in 2019 and which had eight capsules left, until this morning.

it's not dangerous to take expired loratadine, right? it might not work as well. that's a good thing. i hope it works enough that it stops hurting but it's been building up for a while and i am truly a little worried. i also got some rx eye drops a few weeks ago to deal with some conjunctivitis and the fact that the drops worked indicates it was bacterial. a nasty bacterial infection that gets both your eyes and ears suggests it's potentially in your brain. i did some research on the eye drops and they're apparently toxic in your ears, but i may try to swab the outside.

i don't currently have other symptoms; my eyes were gunking up for a while, i had a sore throat a while back and now my left ear is so clogged it's wired shut, which is exactly what my eyes did. there's some strep going around, but i'm inside all of the time.

rather, i suspect i'm suffering side effects of the meth lab upstairs and i just want to document it for civil reasons. i need to get out of here, but it's very hard right now.