i've cut my political facebook feed off altogether, and i'm very behind on my youtube feed, which i'm just watching when i eat lunch. i'm currently watching videos from july, 2014 - almost a year ago. and, i'm becoming cognizant that my writing up until i switched my focus to music (much based around this now abolished facebook feed) had managed to generate an audience that was more influential than i'd ever expect, or even might deserve.

i've suspected this for a while, but it's a hard thing to confirm or interact with. i mean, they can't cite me. i'm a nobody ranting into a blog. and it's maybe not in one's self-interest to quote an unknown blogger, anyways. i come off as a little arrogant, but it's of course mostly a mask - and, regardless, i'm not solipsistic. these are sources i look to for information and guidance, not sources i expect to listen to me or be influenced by my perceptions.

but an interview i saw today made it too clear, and it's the kind of thing that is all or nothing, so i feel the need to post a statement on what the delay has been since this time last year and when it is that i'll get back to writing and analyzing.

please understand this: i'd actually prefer to maintain my anonymity. this is my self-interest. so, i'm not naming names. i'm typing in the dark, as i always am, and throwing it out into cyberspace for whom it comes across to. and i want my ideas listened to, so i hold no grudge or insistence on ownership; i just state that, as far as my life is concerned, i just want things to stay like they are.

my two narrowed down life goals are composition (music) and analysis (writing). i initially planned to alternate: do a record, exhaust a topic, repeat. however, this was based on the certainty of my ability to stay on disability perpetually. about a year ago, i realized i was faced with renewal and the possibility that it might be denied, imploding my financial situation.

i'll state flat out that if the disability is made permanent then i'll likely move back to the original plan. i've received several extensions since last year; with each one, i'm getting closer to a useful diagnosis. i'm currently looking at july for my submit date, which gives me until at least the end of the year. if this isn't renewed then i'm likely going to lose the space i need to set up my gear and end up back on the street. now, reading, analyzing and reviewing doesn't require any kind of gear, or space for it. so, i've been forced to reanalyze my priorities. right now, i'm in a race against time to complete my unfinished recordings - i can do the readings later, when or if i'm back on the street, if necessary.

i was making excellent time until december, when i got stuck on a track from 2002. up to december, i successfully remastered, remixed and otherwise completed over thirty hours of music written between 1996-2002. that's about half of the work. what that means is that i should expect to be done in roughly another year, if i can delay that long, but that it may be wise to plan for two.

am i wasting time? should i be building? organizing?

in a statement: no.

i've stated this before, so i'll be brief here. i think the future unfolding of the economy is crystal clear. we've switched to a retail & service based economy, but the mechanization of manufacturing is only step one. more than half of the jobs in the economy right now are service jobs: cashiers, stocking, etc. have you seen a self-serve checkout? warehouse robotics?

you're looking at half of the jobs in the existing economy wiped out by this. and, as the robotics get better, skilled jobs are next. that's maybe a bit beyond people alive today, granted.

but i think that 40-60% structural unemployment is the near future. and that it's quite certain.

we can't withstand that, socially. it's going to produce widespread squats, urban co-ops, etc. you won't have to fight the landlord, because he'll just evaporate in the absence of anything approaching a market. this is an upcoming revolution in the mode of production that has little choice but to create massive change in society...

so, what does this have to do with reclaiming unionization for the workers? with non-hierarchical management? with worker self-ownership? the truth is it makes these ideas incoherent. it leaves them in the industrial past.

the idea is to maximize freedom relative to the existing economic paradigm. liberalism did that for agrarianism, socialism for industrialism. but we're pivoting out. right out. "bye bye industrial world" out. communism? well, not exactly, obviously. it's pretty dumb to dust off 150-200 year old ideas and stick to them without updating them. but kropotkin's ideas don't seem so looney in the context of a collectively owned system of robotic manufacturing that requires essentially no labour to run. they actually almost seem inevitable.

to be clear: i think we need to talk this through.

but do i think i'm wasting time? no. in fact, i think it's imperative to wait a little.

the distinguished baby boomer (or older) academics of the world want to tell us that we're running out of time. but we're not running out of time. they are running out of time.

and, we likely need to let them pass before we can really begin to reanalyze the world in the ways we need to.

give me two years, max. this is important to me, as an individual. but i'm tying loose ends, really. i'll be back.