i don't want to live my life like a zombie in a perpetual hangover, like i am right now. i want a clean, healthy living space free of drugs and smoke and pollution. i want sobriety.
and, i'm feeling suicidal.
the life of a drug addict isn't worth living. and, a life breathing in second-hand marijuana smoke isn't of any greater worth than a life breathing in first-hand marijuana smoke.
if this is the new normal, i don't want to live in it at all.