the way i feel right now is anxious and weird, but i've felt like this before and i know it lifts with some sleep.

i don't want to draw conclusions.

i mean, if i had gone for a five hour bike ride without stopping last month and come back feeling sore, i would have decided i was a little out of shape. i simply don't know how much has changed over the last few months regarding my bone density, and i shouldn't give into hysteria, however easy it is.

i need to make some calls tomorrow and ask for some tests, and only react further when i actually get the results.

but, yeah - i'm kinda scared. or something. i dunno. but, i think it's understandable.