i've been over this before.

the thing that makes me depressed is people. so long as i'm alone, i'm broadly happy. it's when i have to interact with other people that i got depressed, and seek some kind of escape - music, alcohol, nicotine, marijuana...

if you force me to go to work, i'll probably start smoking again, too. i quit almost three years ago. what kind of victory is that? who benefits?

it's a stupid policy.

and, i don't know if you can fix me or not - but i know it will cost a lot of money to try.