for the night, i'm going to pick up where i left off this morning.

the government in ontario is going to release a report on social services tomorrow, and the leaks seem to be suggesting that they're trying to find ways to get disabled people to work. the previous government toyed with this idea, but stepped back from it repeatedly. the government before that focused on workfare, but it was struck down as unconstitutional.

i don't think that actual disability rights activists should be advocating for labour rights for disabled people. it's an orwellianism, a contradiction in terms. being disabled means you can't work. that's why you're disabled. and, if you can work, then you're not very disabled, are you? they may present it with egalitarian language, and accuse detractors of being "ableist", but it's an algorithm to unravel assistance, and that will leave most people that rely on it in a horrible situation. the newspaper article will want to make you think that the average person in a wheelchair can get a $100,000/year job in the government and doesn't need any more help than anybody else, so long as the facility is accessible. it's a delusional lie. actual advocates need to push back against this and reassert the dis in disability.

my problem is that i can't go to work. it's not the labour i can't deal with, it's the social interaction. it's the people. i don't like being around people, and they don't like being around me, either. so, what i would need would be one of the following options:

1) very substantive counselling to help me deal with people face-to-face, which is very expensive, and not likely to get a return, given i have no greater aspirations in the work force than a part time job at minimum wage. they're going to spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on counselling for me, and in the end i won't even pay taxes. i'm never going to want to work in an office.
2) if you were going to force me to go to work tomorrow, i would show up drunk, because that's the only way i'm able to deal with people. it's the same reason i get drunk at concerts. i just don't know how to exist, socially. so, you could give me a job where it's ok to be drunk all of the time. but, i'd just end up horribly depressed by it.
3) i could theoretically work from home, if forced to at gun point. i still wouldn't want a time consuming job. so, i could do online tech support part time or something.
4) just accept that the most cost-effective option is leaving me alone to do what i want.

the worse it is, the stronger my incentive to sue the police is going to be.