i'm just trying to imagine what it would have been like, if i had said yes.

she probably would have had to dress me, because all i owned were tshirts. i don't think i owned a single button-up shirt until years after i graduated university. i certainly didn't have any expensive clothes to wear. i probably would have grumbled something about looking like a fascist.

i didn't have a driver's license, let alone access to a vehicle. i still don't. so, i guess she would have been driving - i probably would have bicycled down to her place to meet her, i guess.

i was straight-edge at the time, so i would have been drinking water, or pop.

and, i'm a very poor conversationalist, and wholly disinterested in the pomp, so i probably would have just cordially gone through the motions and sat quietly until the end of the night.

it's easy to call me a jerk. but, i think it's better that i turned her down.