"i have purpose. i have kids."

that's pathetic. your kids rely on you. that's not purpose, it's responsibility.

"well, i have a job."

are you the boss?

"sort of..."

a middle manager is not a boss.

"ok, i'm not the boss."

so, your purpose is doing what you're told? pfft. some purpose.

"but i have religion."

religion is not a purpose, but the absence of it.

"but..."

...but nothing.

i'll tell you what you lack. individuality. you're not a person. you're a slave. and, that's what you're struggling to figure out.