it's funny, though, because it'e exactly what sarah used to say.

"you make a totally nerdy woman, but you're a really hot guy. so, why don't you be a hot guy instead of a nerdy woman? i don't get it."

what she didn't get is that my personality doesn't change with my haircut. i don't transform from a nerdy woman into a hot guy by taking myself off of estrogen; rather, i convert from a nerdy woman into a nerdy guy.

because i'm a nerd whether i'm on estrogen or not.

and what's happening is that you're deluding yourself: i'm not a hot guy, i'm a nerdy woman.