Sunday, September 11, 2016

09/10/11-09-2016: i swear this has never happened to me before. (woke up in a stranger's car...)

review:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/09.html

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

i don't care about family entertainment. fuck your family...

i mean, you want to slap an 18+ on this? go ahead. i've actually already slapped a 30+ on it...

i think there's enough options for kids, guys. if you want to shelter them, i'm frankly in solidarity with them. you don't have the right.

there's just no pretense. and no reason there should be one.
i stopped by the emergency room this morning. there simply aren't any clinics open within walking distance of where i am. why? because it's sunday.

in 2016. no clinics open. because sunday. fuck. did i wake up in an amish country or what? wtf? weirder: most of the doctors around here are actually muslims. or come from muslim places. if your day of rest is saturday, why are you booking sunday off? isn't that supposed to be one of the benefits of being diverse about superstitions? that you can get them to stagger, so somebody is always open?

as an aside, the statement:

"i couldn't go to work today, because the bible said so."

...is just about the last thing i want to hear from a doctor.

i know. what is this the fucking spanish inquisition? well, that's my point! i hear that from a doctor and the next thing i want is a waiver indicating that i do not consent to bloodletting.

fuck...

so, i went to the emergency room instead. and, i feel i'm bloody well entitled to do it, too. i at least made sure to go at what is probably the deadest time of the day: 7:00 am on sunday morning. when the drunks are cleared out and everybody else is still asleep.

i bet you think i had a terrible wait time, right? that i was there for hours and hours and didn't even get to see the...

no. actually, i basically walked right in. i was in the hospital for less than an hour.

diagnosis: it's a bruise, not a clot. that's relieving.

see, i need you to think about this. i take the amount of estrogen in a single day that women on steady birth control will take in 2 months. 6 mg is 60x the dosage in your average birth control pill. and, they say merely taking birth control is a clot risk.

so, this is something i need to be keenly aware of at all times. and, it is the actual reason i quit smoking. note that i was smoking at the bar. hence, my concern was very well placed.

but, no. it's just a series of bruises. some of them make more sense than others.

i'm going to wait until i get the mri results before i get a test, because i could end up testing for lyme disease at the same time.
this may have something to do with being sopping wet when i came to.



it might be why i got in the car.

just a guess.
great.

and, this is especially important in immigrant communities around the 905, to ensure that the kids get western values instead of the ones their parents would pass down to them.

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/windsor/ontario-education-minister-touts-full-day-kindergarten-s-success-1.3754714
hip-hop, as we know it (meaning the definition of hip-hop that exists), is pure capitalist brainwashing, brandished as a tool of the establishment to generate the society it desires.

hip-hop will generate the master race.
am i rationalizing?

the bruise on my ass is a scary size, now. if that was from fucking, it wasn't consensual. i'm going to the clinic in the morning to get a blood test, and check for clots.

i've never really contemplated whether rape kits can be used for possible anal penetration on a genetic male.

i wouldn't necessarily press charges. that's not exactly what i'm getting at. i know what the law says, and i support it as it is - it shouldn't be legal to have sex with a blacked out person. but, i also know how i get when i'm drunk....

the reality is that there's every reason for me to conclude i was probably all over him. i don't mean in the sense that i went across the bar to get him. i mean in the sense that...

...if somebody was in the room, they may very well have thought i was the one raping him.

i know that i'm like that. when i say i got fucked hard, that doesn't necessarily mean i was on the bottom.

i'm a girl. i fuck like a girl.

so, i mean...i can't know. i don't remember. i just don't. but, the doubt is pretty reasonable in my own mind given the evidence. i wouldn't want to jump to that conclusion.

but the bruise is out of control, too. i dunno....like i say, i never really thought about it.

i don't know how i could get the proper evidence to know whether i should pursue it or not. and, to me, erring on the side of caution means upholding the presumption of innocence.
there is only one type of person in this world.

and, that type comes in an infinite number of varieties.
if my 'rave kids like hanging out in green spaces' quip doesn't make sense to you, let me remind you that i'm from the 90s. 90s rave culture does still exist, you just need to look past the candy girls and bottle services and try and find smaller venues with more real people in them. cover last night was $10.

and, no, it's not the 90s. nobody had giant pants on. but, you get the point.

i should also clarify that i'm too young for 90s rave culture. my prime dancing years were in the intellectual dearth of the late 90s early 00s, and i lived in a town that simply didn't have the kind of scene i would actually be able to associate with from a distance.

https://www.buzzfeed.com/summeranne/rave-kids-in-the-90s-vs-rave-kids-today

Saturday, September 10, 2016

my pants and shoes from last night are both demoed, like they've been over used heavily by some skate kids. for the shoes, it's the kind of thing that shoe goo fixes, although the pants are eaten right away at the cuffs. the pants were previously a little ripped, but it was nothing like that. i must have been running through a field or something. they look like they were for real cut up...

i'm not a fan of ripped jeans as a fashion statement. it's bourgeois.

i must have been with at least one other person, otherwise i would have vlogged. i refuse to vlog when i'm near people. but, as soon as i get walking..

see, if i had left the bar alone, i would have recorded it. even if i was too drunk to remember it, i would have recorded it. eventually. there's no exception to this, basically. it's routine. therefore, i left the bar with somebody.

i regained consciousness around 5:30ish. i have every reason to think i was probably at the bar until close to 4:00 - and i wouldn't have vlogged this, i would have just danced. i got my last shots in around 1:30, on closer inspection. the rain didn't get heavy until nearly 5:00, and i could not have gotten that wet otherwise, so i couldn't have been in the car long, either.

so, the idea that he picked me up makes sense: i was clearly out in the rain right before i woke back up. that means i was near gratiot & chene, no doubt wanting to walk home, some time a little after 5:00 am.

i probably got in the car to escape the rain. not smart, but i was blacked out, and it is at least rational. i can't imagine getting picked up on the street, otherwise - unless i thought i could hitchhike.

yes, i think he thought i was streetwalking.

the part of the night that needs to be reconstructed, then, is going to be from about 3:45-5:15. i left the bar with somebody. i must have taken a car from michigan to gratiot as i couldn't have walked that distance that quickly. then, what?

it seems that two things happened in some unknown order or connection.

1) i seem to have ended up in a park or a field or something. this is actually not particularly bizarre. we used to do campfires in wooded urban spaces during occupy. i've randomly followed hippie kids into the woods to do drugs. i've been to pagan dance parties. sometimes, people just have particularly overgrown backyards. somebody probably offered to smoke me, and i ended up with a group of people in an overgrown space.  raver kids are just like that. it's just the only way that the shoes get like that - they were sitting in wet grass for at least an hour.

2) it remains obvious that i had sex with somebody, at some point.
i was just checking to see where the beaches even are around detroit, and something is coming back to me: the guy in the car said i was "up near chene park." i don't see any beaches right there. there are some on belle isle...

it's beach sand. or at least sandbox sand :o.

you know....the light, grainy stuff. you don't get that from a field or something.

i can't confirm the beach. it may have been a park.

when, after trying all day to shit, you finally get it out and your shit smells like condom lubrication. that's when you know you got fucked hard last night. i know i looked good, but i didn't realize i looked that good. he really smashed me. i really don't remember, but i suspect he will for a while :).

and, that answers that question. i still need to get a blood test. but, that's the actually concerning part about the situation.

maybe i should keep the hair colour?

 :P
so, i'm pretty sure that what happened last night is that i had sex on a beach, due to the amount of sand i brought home with me and the enlarged size of my asshole. and i'm pretty sure it was consensual because my clothes are otherwise not ripped. but i don't have any memory of this at all. and i don't know why i woke up in a stranger's car rather than with the person i had sex with (i don't think they were the same person...)

i mean, i'd kind of like to know who i spent the night with. if they'd like to let me know. maybe see them again, in a state i can remember?

this is a still shot from last night, before i left.


i'm not the type to fuck strangers at all, let alone fuck them and run. the only thing i can seriously think of is that he was leaving immediately in the other direction...

the reason i don't think it was the guy in the car is that he was legitimately surprised by my penis. he could not have just fucked me.

but, i mean....

i'mma stay for breakfast. what you makin'? you know?

the situation is uncharacteristic. all around.

but, there is no question that i was penetrated last night. and rather vigorously, at that.

season 10 v2


i'm not joking. this is what i sobered up to.....

"i got a rubber. i can't believe you got a penis. but i still want to.."

"why am i in your car?"

"you was walking up gratiot..."

"i was on michigan last night."

"you was on gratiot."

"can you get me to the tunnel?"

"i still want to."

"listen, i don't remember getting in your car. i would normally never do that. you have to understand this."

"no, i get it. but i can't believe i still want to, even though i know you got a cock."

"how far are we?"

"it's right there...."
waking up with a bruise on your ass is a little unsettling when you have a black hole of five hours that ends in a stranger's car.

"yo. you have a penis? what the fuck?" <--- you don't want to hear that within minutes after sobering up, either.

i'm walking straight, anyways. it was maybe hard enough to leave a bruise, but not hard enough that i can't walk.

i have no memory of this.

i may have been drugged, actually.

i have no footage. last starlog is my third round of shots, about 1 am.
i don't know how i got in this guy's car, but he wasn't a bad guy. he dropped me at the tunnel, in the end. but, he was really upset that i had a penis :D

i have a black hole.....i was dancing....good time....then i'm in some dude's car, wut?
i have never woken up in a stranger's car before. honest.

i'm ok. i'm just flustered. and confused.

he says i was walking up gratiot in the rain. why was i doing that?

i'm home. safe. just confused.

Friday, September 9, 2016

communist hair, incoming.

may day! may day!
i look so much ridiculously better as a blonde. but, if i'm going out today, i'm going red.

i had a bit of a pattern: red in the fall, black in the winter, blond in the summer. i haven't been keeping up with that....

my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.

my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.

considering blackgummy

haven't gone dancing in a while.

this is more my thing. a little minimalist. but, the bro is toned down. i'm not a fan of the bro....

so, thinking about it.

https://soundcloud.com/blackgummy/sets/dancing-astronaut-the-radar-51

08-09-2016: an utterly wasted day

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

i don't get this big ass craze. guess i must be white.

no, really. i like the skinny bums. sorry.
"he's a girl, you idiot."

it doesn't bug me. i'm a realist. i just laugh. if anything, i enjoy watching people squirm.
i'm ok with a 90s revival. but, where's the smart side of it?


a sarcastic criticism of hypercapitalism would actually be really relevant, right now.

i don't photoshop, fwiw. i don't even wear much makeup. i'm rare.

https://scholarsandrogues.com/2008/04/17/even-better-than-the-real-thing/
if you find yourself amazed by how easily somebody fakes it, it should cast doubt over how real it ever was in the first place.

Thursday, September 8, 2016

season 10 cropped

season 10

i bruise in the fucking wind :\

j reacts to the iphone 7

i will get a phone one day, and i've already decided on android over apple. i have a functional boycott of apple in place. that company is more evil than average, and all the more so in the context of the advertising...

...but getting rid of headphone jacks? no.

nope.

why don't we all get rid of apple, instead?

j reacts to two specific polls about north carolina

North Carolina:
Trump vs. Clinton vs. Johnson
Quinnipiac
Clinton 42, Trump 38, Johnson 15
Clinton +4

North Carolina:
Trump vs. Clinton vs. Johnson
Suffolk
Clinton 41, Trump 44, Johnson 4
Trump +3

see what happens when johnson comes down?

clinton seems flat. the volatility is on the right.

i stopped for karaoke last night (i didn't sing on stage, but helped out a little from my seat. doors. pearl jam.) and got hit on a little at the bar....

i'm used to this. i don't get offended.

"so, i don't know....were you born a girl?"
"i was born XY"
"wow. so you have both genders?"

biology. you got it or you don't, i guess.

at one point, somebody guessed that i was a 24 year-old genetic female, and i had every right to feel complimented.

my actual age is nearly 36.

07-09-2016: a quick concert turned into a night of drinking (got a little paranoid walking home...)

concert footage:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SU_KkRzm-IM

review:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

no, listen. i'm so drunk, i can barely stand. so, fuck off.

stargazer lilies got me out of the house...but i spent the night at karoake....

do not mistake my insistence on reasonable articulation for sobriety...

i've corrected enough typos to publish a fucking book.

i can type when i'm drunk!
i'm trashed.

don't listen to me...

i went out for stargazer lillies.

it's  a strugggle to type.

i'll  be ok  in the morning.

if you're worried about me, i'm home safe. promise.

really.

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

07-09-2016: the stargazer lillies - we are the dreamers (windsor)

their music:
https://graveface.bandcamp.com/album/door-to-the-sun

review:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html

vlog for the day:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mj376Zna7RI

06-09-2016: picking up interference for the first time on the new phones (i may need to move...)

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

if you went on campus and were unable to find a nazi, would you argue there's a deficit of diversity of thought, as well?

....and perhaps the proper conclusion is that virtually anybody who's ever read a book realizes that this isn't actually a choice.

for the americans, realize this: our conservative party is actually closer, politically, to your democratic party. broadly speaking, canadian conservatives would more readily identify as democrats than republicans. that's why the democrats consistently poll around 85% in canada.

i saw one poll in the mid 00s that had george w. bush at 4%. not a campus poll. telephones. random sampling...

our liberal party is closer to your green party. not on every issue, but broadly speaking. and, we have a socialist party (in name...) that usually gets 15-20%, but sometimes flirts with actually winning.

so, don't think that everybody that she talked to was left of center. in fact, i'd guess that rona ambrose (current leader of the conservative party) would support clinton over trump, too. i'd suspect that stephen harper (former prime minister) would, as well.

does boogie have any training in the topic?

i don't know. i could look it up. i'm not going to.

it's just that, in the sense that these videos should exist, should they not be made by trained professionals? and, should that not be state funded? or at least funded by community organizations?

regarding the news, grassroots news organizations have existed forever. democracy now existed long before youtube did. that's an existing model...

there's another discussion that i think is worthwhile as well: the guaranteed minimum income. it's more applicable to the artsier side of things. things that weren't getting hits, anyways.

but, i am actually in agreement with the crux of this. the idea that you have some kind of right to make a living off of stupid youtube videos is outrageous.

this is actually the argument i've been hoping somebody puts down. but you're missing the obvious conclusion: cut out the middleman. throw away the managers. take control of the means of production. fire your boss. say it how you want, it amounts to the same thing.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

well, if you're going to listen to your loudness-wars compressed master through your 128 kbit mp3 and your software playback replay gain limiter, why not degrade the signal that much further by going wireless and introducing every kind of interference into the signal you can imagine, all while boosting the frequency at 100 hz so loud that all you can hear is the thud, anyways? no, listen. i'm a sound design artist. and i'm making a valid point. nobody cares about sound quality anymore.

www.cbc.ca/news/technology/apple-iphone-headphone-jack-1.3750086

j reacts to the usual calvinist criticism of socialism

"so what is the use of working hard and getting ahead in socialism?"

there isn't one.

that's the point.

stop jockeying for power. go outside and play.

j reacts to the implied racism in focusing exclusively on china's human rights record

i think the point is that canadians should spend more time pressuring their own government, and less time buying into deflecting tactics in an attempt to work up anti-chinese sentiment. i agree with that, actually. we have a lot of work to do in cleaning up our mining industry, too.

http://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/trudeau-hong-kong-cemetery-war-dead-1.3749280

j reacts to the idea of 2000 being predictive for 2016 (maybe...)

i pointed this out earlier in the cycle, too. but, trump isn't falling in line like bush did...and because of that there's the johnson factor....

it's still in the realm of possible outcomes. if you see johnson evaporate, after all? it could look a whole lot like 2000. right now, i just think he's stretching a little.

http://www.nytimes.com/2016/09/05/opinion/hillary-clinton-gets-gored.html?action=click&contentCollection=opinion&module=NextInCollection&region=Footer&pgtype=article&version=column&rref=collection%2Fcolumn%2Fpaul-krugman

j reacts to the idea that markets will reduce wait times (it's laughable nonsense)

"Greater choice among insurance providers would encourage more competition, which would boost efficiency and improve access, Labrie said."

this is complete nonsense, and no study anywhere has ever backed this up. it's faith-based reasoning that reduces to a mythology of free markets.

markets are not a way to create resources, they are a way to distribute them. opening up a market in health care will consequently not reduce wait times, but merely redistribute them to the less wealthy. at the end of the day, you have x resources to distribute regardless of how you distribute them.

the system does not need more competition. the system needs more funding.

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/landmark-private-health-care-lawsuit-heads-to-court-1.3749117

this is not about reducing wait times. it's about rich people thinking they should have the privilege to jump the queue. and, i expect the court to reject the arguments.

i do at least hope that the court has learned that it should not articulate itself the way it did in the quebec ruling. the quebec ruling was not designed to allow for private health insurance. it was designed to increase funding. but, the government used it as an opportunity to open up an industry. the court was not expecting the government to interpret it that way.

in fact, if the reverse question were presented to the court in the quebec context, i would expect it to be more explicit in upholding the canada health act.

the court needs to be more careful, this time. i expect it will be.

to be clear...

you could articulate the question one of two ways.

you could argue that the ban on private insurance means you have to wait in line and this is unfair. or, you could argue that allowing private insurance increases wait times by distributing resources to the wealthy and this is unfair. on some level, both arguments are valid. the question is what is of greater priority: equality or hierarchy.

what the court can do is determine if the law is unconstitutional or not. it has not previously ruled against the law, despite the rumblings in the right-wing media. what it has done in the past is agree that wait times are too long and that the state should take steps to reduce them. the state then determined that it should offer private services, rather than increase funding.

the problem is that the premise was absurd. the court got sloppy. it was a terrible ruling. wait times in quebec have not reduced. and that piece of evidence will likely not be viewed as irrelevant.

the precise question before the court is whether the ban on private insurance is restricting access to health care. the court needs to be explicit in citing evidence that explicitly rejects this argument as specious, rather than trying to use it as an opportunity to coerce the government into increasing funding. last time, it backfired. they got sloppy. they need to not repeat that error.

in the mean time, i would call on civil liberties groups in quebec to reverse the quebec government's misinterpretation of the previous ruling.

this is the result of allowing private insurance in quebec, instead of tackling the issue at a funding level.

http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2016/06/03/quebec-wait-times_n_10278874.html

j reacts to the curious cnn poll with trump ahead

well, the cnn poll released today is a real poll, at least. wtf?

well, a few days ago, i was talking about how the way that you interpolate the undecideds is key to predicting the outcome. you'll notice something different about this poll - it adds up to 97%. most of the polls released over the last few months add up to around 90%. and, the difference went entirely to trump.

to be clear....

clinton is about flat.
johnson is about flat.
stein is about flat.
but, trump made up 6-7 points as the undecideds fell to the margins.

a few days ago, i asked the question: what does undecided actually mean? we had data indicating that both candidates were unpopular, but no way to really piece anything causal together. does it mean you hate both candidates? and will vote third party? or will stay home? so, will it distribute?

what this poll seems to suggest is that undecideds may be leaning heavily towards trump.

i find that very hard to believe, given his numbers. if you believe this poll, he's running twenty points ahead of his approval ratings.

note that the labour day weekend is always perilous to poll over and is known for producing outliers. but, we'll have to see what happens.

also note that while the nbc poll is more in line with the trendlines, the methodology is garbage and it should be ignored.

there may be a...

this idea is articulated a lot of ways. but, the idea is that you may get some bias in polling around issues of race.

given the media coverage, i would acknowledge the plausibility that a subset of people may be embarrassed to admit they plan to vote for trump. they may be defaulting to undecided.

i don't want to call that a "shy conservative effect", or a reverse anything effect. it's just people not wanting to admit it.

to suggest that this is the entire undecided vote, however, strikes me as too much.

so, even if this poll is revealing something that has to this point been hidden, i'm still more likely to point to the labour day weekend as an exaggerating factor. if trump voters are lower income and less educated, they're more likely to be home and ready to pick up the phone this weekend.

and, why did the undecideds come down this week, all of a sudden? perhaps they're more affluent.

i'm not going to make predictions. again: i don't think it's possible to predict the outcome of elections. i'm just pointing out reasons to be careful with this poll, and reasons it may end up in right field. or, may be illuminating, too.

at least note that it is a real poll.

05-09-2016: aborted attempt at listening (mp3--laptop--201s), and pushing myself to the second mri

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

this is how you have to do it. i wish there was a better way. there isn't.


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channel #1 DADADRat27
This is private land let the owners do what they want with it

Dumb hippies

jessica
this is actually a good lesson about private property: it only exists if you have the ability to protect it through force.

who lost on this day?

Mark
My ancestors were harassed, persecuted in Europe in the 1600-1700's. Their houses burned down and some executed. By your logic i have a right to take back those pieces of land they owned. Of course it is obvious this would be ridiculous, and so is the claim that the descendants of the people wronged need reimbursement.

jessica
why is it obvious that this is ridiculous? you're being too vague to make a determination.

off the top of my head, i can think of a dozen absolutely valid land claim cases in eastern europe.

depending on the circumstances, reparations may be more feasible. that doesn't make them invalid.

artifacts that were stolen during the second world war are still being returned, to this day.....
it's an outrageous conspiracy theory!

....or perhaps it is what it is.


William Gardanis
She is FINISHED   Its OVER

jessica
if she had a viable opponent, perhaps.

----

Ben Petrie
Trumps seventy and 100X fitter that that zombie.

jessica
they're about the same age and he's certainly in better health. but, his policies are moronic. you'd have to be retarded...and the country is simply not about to go full retard.

Hayabusa Dragon
Sorry lady but you and the insane people like you are full retarded. Democrats have been in charge for quite some time and they have been running us into the ground. Just because she talks about families doesnt mean a damn thing. She will sell your children into the global slavery that is a socialist government she wants! Wake up! SHE doesnt know what made America great and thats why she wants to destroy it. Communism and socialism are not what made us great! She is a liar and you and anyone voting for her are tools! So she will give you b.s. social programs that are full of false altruism and in return you sell your souls and children to her global take over! Look into the causes of all things that hurt freedom and you will find socialism and communism. Its a fact. They want you to destroy your morals and accept false emotionally charged solutions to the problems THEY create!

jessica
see, it takes a special kind of retard to call a hyper-capitalist, neo-liberal a communist. the country's just not there, as a whole.

i am a socialist. hillary clinton is not.

if hillary clinton is elected, she will almost certainly be the most right-wing president since kennedy.

she may even be more right-wing than kennedy...

Despiser Despised
Youre stupid. Move to Venezuela or Cuba then, cunt... At some point America is going to fight you nasty indoctrinated leftwits to the death.

McCarthy wasnt a verb, McCarthy was a Prophet.

jessica
see, i don't mind hearing that from you. but, what you don't understand is that she agrees with you. her record is very clear. she's by far the more pro-capitalist of the two. she's the poster woman for crony capitalism.

i was a sanders supporter, because i am a socialist. over here on the left, we really don't like her very much - because she's so blatantly corporatist, so blatantly wall street funded, so blatantly neo-liberal.

again, it takes a special kind of retard to be so disconnected from reality as to think that the most pro-capitalist candidate in decades is some kind of communist.

JudgeJulieLit
Hillary (the once and always, still proclaims "proud" Goldwater Girl) is right wing; like BG avidly pro- "nuke Vietnam off the map" (no sense of radiation and other lethal blowback) and anti- passage of the landmark US Civil Rights and Voting Rights bills.

Kennedy (who in '62 Cuban missile crisis averted nuclear war, and '63 with Russia signed the Nuclear Test Ban Treaty, and who ideated the Civil Rights and Voting Rights bills) was not right wing.

jessica
kennedy was responsible for escalating vietnam and nearly starting a war over cuba, which khruschev backed off from at the last minute. if the bombs had dropped, and we had history books afterwards, kennedy would have been recorded as responsible everywhere outside of the united states.

nor was he in favour of civil rights. in fact, he slowed down the process substantially out of fear of losing votes from southern whites.

but, more to the point, he was also involved in the red scare during the 50s, working closely with mccarthy for a time.

he was the most conservative president that the united states has had in the modern (post-war) period.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/wonk/wp/2013/11/22/americans-think-john-f-kennedy-was-one-of-our-greatest-presidents-he-wasnt/

https://www.buzzfeed.com/irastoll/21-ways-jfk-was-actually-a-conservative-fjkq?utm_term=.lgkj1aAAG#.vxvkQA99D

Despiser Despised
Youre so fucking dumb Ill bet you think the NAZIs were "right wing", lol... You Socialists are the dumbest motherfuckers on Earth.

Bernie just bought his THIRD fucking house, dimwit...

jessica
yeah, i'm pretty sure the nazis were about as right-wing as you can get.

....and i don't know why how many houses sanders owns is relevant. he's a politician. he's not a religious icon. that kind of cult of personality is a right-wing thing.

i mean, he could own ten houses for all i care, so long as he pays his taxes and keeps fighting for universal health care.

DH
We need a true socialist. Sanders would have been the best. I'm thinking someone like Nicolás Maduro. Oh I get the chills just thinking about it.

jessica
maduro is not a socialist, either. what the united states needs right now, first and foremost, is a social movement to throw the republicans out of congress. it doesn't matter who the president is when the congress is run by the oil industry.

Hoodlum Priest
then move to a socialist country. But you won't because you're a coward.

jessica
the thing with socialism is that you can't do it on a country by country basis. socialism has to be global or not at all. this is actually the reason it's had such a hard time working, because we've been stuck in these situations where socialism inevitably has to do business with capitalism. and, of course it can't compete - the whole point of socialism is to abolish competition over resources in favour of the rational distribution of them.

so, venezuela has a lot of oil and not a lot of arable land. it can't have socialism under those circumstances, because it has to trade it's oil for food with a capitalist state and this forces down capitalism from above. all you end up with is yet another type of crony capitalism.

telling us to move somewhere else isn't going to work, unless that somewhere else never has to trade with the outside world. that doesn't exist. it can't exist. so, we're going to have to keep fighting it out....

....and understand that our side thinks this fight never ends.

Rat Ghost
Nazis were big government socialists, pretty much everything the American right and the old GOP absolutely stand against. Yes, the Nazis were nationalists so they were obsessed with their own Germanic identity and historical significance in the development of the German nation state and to this end, the left see Hitler and the NAZIs as right-wing. But basically, the term "NAZI" is an acronym for National sozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei -- National Socialist German Workers Party. Note the term "sozialistische" ---- meaning socialist. Note the term "workers party" -- very leftwing, even communist. There is nobody on any degree of the right in America today that supports socialism or a "workers party" in any form. These are terms used regularly by the worldwide left, not the right. The NAZIs were big government statists and while there were features of NAZISM that to leftists seem to echo ideas of American conservatism, the NAZIs were statists who put national government ahead of private enterprise. The NAZIs accepted private enterprise insofar as they could use their power to control it, tax it, regulate it, and partner with it to further the NAZI social and political goals and objectives much like today's Democrat Party.

Despiser Despised
Nazism is only "right wing" when using the European Political spectrum to measure. The American left understands this tactic very well. Just as McCarthy warned us all about 70 years ago. Americas version of "right wing" is Libertarian Individualism, limited Govt and low taxation. The TEA PARTY. The polar opposite of Democrats never ending projection. Collectivists are evil anti Americans.

I dont consider the Democrat party a Political party at all They are a crime syndicate posing as a Political Party.

Another perfect example of this tactic is with David Duke being portrayed as a Republican. He was a life long Democrat and was elected to the LA House as a Democrat. When he lost an election is when he "decided" he would join the GOP. He was never elected to ANY office or position of power as a Republican. Yet the narrative not only survives but grows stronger with each indoctrinated generation.

Another is Trent Lott at Robert Byrds 90th Birthday. Robert Byrd was a grand kleage of the KKK yet Trent Lotts tells a bad joke and is run out of the political arena altogether while Byrd was held up as a Democrat hero, and still is.

Democrats lost America's first Civil War because they enslaved Black people. Democrats are going to lose America's second Civil War because they attempted to enslave everyone else...

Not every Democrat was a KuKluxKlan member, but every KuKluxKlan member was a democrat.

jessica
socialism means that the means of production are owned by the people, not by capital. that is, socialism is the abolition of private property. the nazi system was a system of corporatism, where private property reigned supreme in the hands of a small number of cartels and workers were treated as slaves. the right refers to this as "crony capitalism", or "mercantilism", which was first designed by the conservative party in the united kingdom and is as far to the right of the spectrum as is possible.

the left/right distinction came out of the french revolution. the right were those that supported rule by the aristocracy - the bourgeoisie, the corporate class, the cartels. this is capitalism as we know it. the left were those that supported rule by the people. this included the kind of market socialism pushed by proudhon, and which has been distorted beyond recognition by the contemporary american right.

so, yes - the nazis were extremely right-wing because they were all about dominant hierarchies, private property and ruling classes.

fwiw - and i've been trying to be clear on this point - i would consider both the republicans and the democrats to be on the far right of the spectrum. but, even reagan acknowledged the value of keynesian spending. clinton may end up being the biggest fiscal conservative the country has seen since kennedy.

Despiser Despised
Communism advocates the abolition of private property; socialism advocates government ownership of the means of production (the people are not this govt). Fascism leaves that property in private hands–then shackles those hands, with every economic decision being directed by the state. The American right despises all three. The American left demands all three. My god youre scary dumb.

Your indoctrination is showing clearly. Labels are tools for Libidot Marxists who use them to confuse the easily confused, like you. Youre a "useful idiot" and too dumb to know it.

Youre either a Collectivist or an Individualist, PERIOD. America was founded upon the principles of INDIVIDUALISM (truly the first progressives) and it is clearly written into ALL of our founding documents. Collectivism is ANTI AMERICAN by its very nature you blind dumb moronic cunt.

National socialist NAZIs are only right wing while viewing from the European political spectrum, idiot. Communists on the left Fascists on teh right and Socialists ALL. America goes FAR right, almost to anarchy, comparatively speaking.

What part of "SOCIALIST" in NAZI dont you understand? Every nation has Nationalistic tendencies. Its why they are called NATIONS, dimwit.

The contemporary American Right created the Tea Party. Its goal was to reduce the size and scope of Govt, lower taxes, hold elected officials accountable all while maintaining private property rights as well as Constitutional rights. Pretty much the complete opposite of the indoctrination you received and the opposite of what modern regressive libidots have done for 50 years, dimwit.

To ANY modern dimwitted Libidiot Regressive 0bamacare is a "right" and the 2nd amendment isnt. That should be all the proof you need. But youre indoctrinated stupid like any NAZI Youth is.

Leftist rhetoric consists of beautiful lies concealing ugly truths.

Dimwit, anarchy is about as "right wing" as you can get. Nobody I know has ever advocated anarchy except indoctrinated leftwits of the 1% movement BS, whom actually consider themselves Socialists believe it or not, lol. It was actually quite comical watching a hippie take a shit on a unionized BIG GOVT Police car then blame Glenn Beck...

I guess you dont know what Politics even is. The right didn't want Kensyian economic policy (ask Milton Friedman) but were forced to negotiate with liars on the left to move "Politics" forward. Reagan was called a uniter of the parties, IMO that was never a good thing.

Do you think GW Bush really wanted Part D or No child left behind?? No he was politicking for future Democrat support in Iraq... And the Democrats slapped him in the face with it afterward and laughed. Ted Kennedy, murderer leading the charge with Grand Kleagle of the KKK (Hillary's hero) Robert Byrd right on his heels.

jessica
once again: socialism is the social ownership of the means of production. most socialists reject marx as authoritarian, and historical materialism as teleological. i identify as a libertarian socialist in the tradition of bakunin, kropotkin and malatesta.

there is no american left. i've stated this repeatedly. the democrats and the republicans are almost identical in policy and both represent the extreme right of the corporatist spectrum. obamacare was designed by the heritage institute as a means to maximize profit for shareholders; it is extremely right-wing in scope and implementation.

the vision of the tea party is a society run by large property owners - the bourgeois, the cartels, the bankers, the aristocrats. it is a vision that is not dissimilar from the nazi state. remember: the layer of government is merely a means of oversight for capital.

barack obama is a conservative.

socialism is individualism because it is designed to allow for full positive freedom. markets are collectivism because they enforce the tyranny of supply and demand, converting you into a slave of consensus. you're the one that's brainwashed. i don't have the time or interest in this. you're merely demonstrating my point.

anarchism is in fact a socialist ideology. it broke with marx at the second international in the 1870s, and developed largely from the writings of bakunin. you're confusion is a consequence of your ignorance. please take the time to educate yourself on the history of anarchism as a synonym for "libertarian socialism" before you respond further.

the point i was trying to make about reagan was that the politicking was on the other side of the spectrum. he didn't cut taxes because he thought it would create jobs.

Despiser Despised
You're taking simple concepts adding a bunch of bullshit to them so you can twist it into knots to fit your narrative, just as Marx suggested many times to his useful idiots.

Socialism, in any of its nasty forms has ever worked because of HUMAN NATURE... Capitalism does in fact work and has been proven. What America has now is NOT Capitalism in any way shape or form.

Sure, 0bama is a Conservative, lol. Taking over 1/5th of our economy in the form of Healthcare Insurance is sooo Conservative, lol. Do you listen to yourself at all?.

No amount of education can overcome Liberal stupidity.

jessica
you say that like it's empirical fact. listen: i reject the idea of human nature in favour of a tabula rasa. we're blank slates. are we assholes? mostly. but, we're taught to be assholes.

again: i'm not a marxist. marxism is authoritarian; i'm a libertarian socialist - an anarchist. look up bakunin's attack on marx. it's pretty devastating.

i'm not a liberal, either. you're a liberal.

obamacare is not single payer. it is not a government take over of anything. it's a law that forces you to buy private insurance. that's a market exchange. you should support this.

joe ramone
Holy fuck!!! Your so-called mind is warped. Socialism is where the government CONTROLS AND DISTRIBUTES the means of production. But your warped definition made it seem like the "people" were actually in control of their own companies and calling the shots.

jessica
no. the system where the government controls industry is called crony capitalism. as mentioned, it was developed largely in britain by the conservative party, through the creation of crown corporations (like the east india company, or the hudson's bay company). this was essentially the model that the nazis used in their cartelization of the economy - although one could also draw comparisons to the gilded era in the united states, before the trusts were broken up.

you seem to be implying that the soviet union was a socialist state. this is false. the academic term used to describe the economy of the soviet union is state capitalism.

there is one thing that the right-wingers get right, and it is that the soviets and nazis had essentially the same economic structure. but, the reason for this is that the soviets were capitalist, not that the nazis were communist.

again: the model is toryism. it's not liberalism. it's not market theory. but, it's firmly in the capitalist realm of cronyism & mercantilism.

if you hate the soviets, i agree with you. remember: the soviets slaughtered tens of thousands of leftists in their purges. they stamped out legitimate socialist revolts with inhuman cruelty.  but, you're simply misinformed to conflate these things with the left.

Rat Ghost
Uhhh, the US Constitution pretty much prohibits the federal government from "forcing" the American citizen to buy anything. Read the Constitution and please tell me where it says the feds can tell me (or you) what product they want me to buy. It's not really private if the government is forcing you to buy it. It's more like an insidious, ill-conceived partnership between private companies and the federal government which victimizes the US citizen into obtaining something they don't want. I call it fascism. Obamacare is currently not single payer, but it hopes to be that way. The grand idea behind Obamacare was that it would break the health insurance companies financially covering many individuals with preexisting, often catastrophic health conditions.

Once the Insurance companies go broke or bow out of the system -- which is happening now, the government takes health car over from th failed insurance companies because individual health coverage is now law of the land --- Thank you justice Roberts and the SCOTUS. . And then BINGO! Obama and the liberal left/progressive/radicals/Marxists get what they have always dreamed of --- government run health care with the feds controlling your every move, all of your life, cradle to grave.

Where's the "If you like your doctor, you can keep your doctor" that Obama promised?? Where's the "If you like your health care plan, you can keep your health care plan" that Obama promised?? Where's the " $2,500 per family average yearly health care savings" Obama was promising?? Never happened. It was all bullshit right from the inception.

Obamacare is the worst and most expensive government monstrosity ever forced upon the American people. It was designed to fail. It was all lies from the very beginning and soon we will all be giving up large percentages of our income to pay for it once it becomes so-called "single payer". And Single Payer is really a big lie too because it's not the government paying for it, it's the American people who will be taxed into the poor house to pay for it. The government just "redistributes' it.

jessica
see, i think this is a lot of conspiratorial drivel with essentially no supporting evidence. the supreme court already ruled that it's constitutional because it's a tax, but i agree that this is flawed logic.

think of it like this: the government forces you to buy auto insurance and a slew of other types of insurance. are these all unconstitutional? is the car insurance industry an extension of the government?

the main flaw in your conspiracy theory is intent. why would the insurance companies, who have the democrats in their back pockets, want single payer? they'd lose money. rather, if the insurance industry could design a system themselves, it would look exactly like obamacare. and, guess what: that's the reality. obamacare was written by the insurance industry, then placed into law by bought lobbyists.

if they wanted single payer, they would have just put in single payer. but, the president wouldn't even support the public option.

obamacare was designed to prevent single payer. from it's start in the heritage institute. to it's championing by newt gingrich in the 90s. to it's implementation by mitt romney in massachusettts. to it's implementation, nationally.

worse, the debate on the left has shifted. if you listen to these dipshit democrats talk, they no longer want to fight for single-payer. they want to fight to "save obamacare".

take sanders as an example. he supported single payer. the right-wing, democratic-backed media attacked him for wanting to "repeal obamacare" - which was technically true. but, consistently taken out of context.

this then created a backlash of hillary supporters that thought sanders was a menace to society because he wanted to repeal obamacare. there were rallies to "save obamacare".

this is the new debate: repeal or maintain obamacare. single payer is out of the spectrum. and, the fucking idiots have fallen right in line.

joe ramone
You're just another lefty socialist scumbag who knows everything yet knows nothing.

CRONY Capitalism is a term used when special favors are given to certain business owners/corporations. It has NOTHING to do with the government controlling and distributing the means of production as opposed to the business' owners doing so.

Make sure to get back to me with yet another incorrect definition and example.

Oh shit. You're a sick-in-the-head TRANNY!!! Bwahahahaha. Freaks, like you, should be blackballed from society. Oh wait a second. You already are.

jessica
you're describing a symptom. so, you could consider oil subsidies as a symptom of crony capitalism. but, why do we have these oil subsidies? because the state is operated by capital: bribery, lobbyists, corruption. crony capitalism is consequently the collusion between state and capital.

you could argue the cartels are different because they're outside government, but then you're missing the point. there's a revolving door. there's regulatory capture. there's an oligarchy in the ruling class, and the lines are blurred.

i'm actually being generous in calling this "crony capitalism" and allowing you the delusions of market theory. you can't actually have a "free market". it's utopian claptrap. all capitalism is crony capitalism, is toryism, is mercantilism....

again: the economic system in nazi germany was one where a cartel system of elite bourgeois property owners controlled and operated everything. it was essentially the same system that existed in colonial britain. it had parallels in gilded era america. you can recoil against this characterization of capitalism, if you'd like. but the nazi economy had nothing to do with the abolition of private property, the elimination of the bureaucracy, democratization in production or ensuring justice in distribution.

in fact, they gassed people that wanted that. they rounded socialists, communists and even liberals up and put them in gas chambers. they killed them by the thousands. they had no such persecution directed at conservatives or capitalists.

joe ramone
Fucking TRANNY!!! Bwahahahahaaha. Do your neighborhood, your family and the world a huge favor and hang yourself.

By the way, TRANNY, perhaps you should spend as much effort developing a career as opposed to typing out 5 paragraph replies on youtube that people won't read. Maybe then you wouldn't have to worry about big daddy government holding your limp-wristed TRANNY hand through life. Then again, who the fuck would hire a freak TRANNY, like you.

jessica
this is the guy that's accusing leftists of sounding like nazis. what, you're too fiscally conservative to gas me?

joe ramone
hey TRANNY, why don't you cut and paste my comments were I compared lefties to Nazis. I want to read it. Come on, TRANNY. Let's see it.

jessica
listen: i just don't want to have a career. i'm sorry. it's a quality of life issue. i mean, you only have a certain amount of time to live on this planet. who wants to waste it at work?

joe ramone
Oh and TRANNY, I would kick the shit out of you if I ever had the chance.

jessica
would you wear a brown shirt when you're beating the shit out of me?

joe ramone
Time for my family and myself to go have a nice rib dinner at Carson's. That's one luxury people who earn money can afford. Meanwhile, you'll sit on youtube and do nothing. Enjoy!!!

jessica
well, it's a question of priorities. just remember: while you're wasting your life away as a slave, i'm at home enjoying myself. if you think that's worth a rib dinner from time to time, good for you. i'm not so easily amused.

joe ramone
Hey TRANNY, for laughs I called my wife over and told her to take a look at your youtube profile. Her reaction, "Ewwwwwww. I don't want to look at that thing.".

jessica
well, what do you want? an apology?

Monday, September 5, 2016

article 14 is somewhat of a concern to me, but it's really a debate we've been putting off too long. i might argue that this document is meaningless altogether unless indigenous peoples decide to look towards a concept of cultural synthesis and education has to be at the forefront of this movement. i mean, it's 2016. we can't be talking about turtle island, anymore. we can't be talking about great spirits. just like we can't be talking about legislating out of bibles or korans, either. it's backwards. north america is not a turtle. but that has to be a collective decision on their behalf in the first place. as such, it's not truly as dangerous as it looks. you have to assume that if you give them real education rights then they'll use that to their advantage; otherwise, it's just another worthless treaty, anyways. i went to a catholic school and took a religion class. it was a combination of philosophy, ethics, history and anthropology rather than real religious instruction. i'm probably better off for it. and, i wouldn't imagine a course in anthropology would be anything less than beneficial. again: you have to have faith in them to modernize, or the treaty is worthless to begin with.

for a similar reason, i don't really like article 24 - but have to shrug my concerns off under the faith that the concern is unnecessary. if at the end of this process, you end up with a society doing dances and drinking potions to ward off evil spirits then the document is irrelevant. those people will remain wards of the state. that has to be discarded freely. so, a right to hocus pocus becomes entirely rhetorical.

i otherwise don't see anything "unworkable" or "simplistic" about the document. to the contrary, i think it's entirely consistent with the supreme court's evolving interpretation of the constitution. s. 45 is particularly useful, there.

i support the private member's bill and hope the government reconsiders supporting the declaration. this would be a far more substantive step than continuing on with symbolic, and fully meaningless, identity politics.

http://www.un.org/esa/socdev/unpfii/documents/DRIPS_en.pdf
she's right.

instead of telling her to shut up, you should just ignore her. that may mean getting up and walking away.

rabble.ca/blogs/bloggers/views-expressed/2016/09/unlearning-anti-black-racism-101-stop-canadiansplaining
unworkable and simplistic?

i don't like this minister one bit...

rabble.ca/blogs/bloggers/brent-patterson/2016/09/lasting-ramifications-tsilhqotin-decision-on-fish-farms-pipel

Sunday, September 4, 2016

04-09-2016: passed out right when i was about to start the day (short day...)

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

things are not always as they seem...

http://aptn.ca/news/2016/08/29/hearings-into-energy-east-pipeline-shut-down-in-montreal-mohawk-leaders-will-have-to-wait-another-day/

to be clear: i actually agree that the only way to shut the pipelines down is going to be through physical confrontation and i support that. these hearings are just not the place for it, and the scenario is consequently very fishy.
i hope that trudeau listens to indigenous groups, environmentalists (including james hansen) and the people that voted for his party.

...and i hope he doesn't listen to rona ambrose. at all.

http://www.ctvnews.ca/politics/ambrose-hopes-trudeau-listens-to-china-on-pipelines-lng-1.3057576
proportional representation at work....

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/world/german-anti-immigrant-party-beats-merkels-party-in-her-home-state/article31704863/
a couple of years ago, there was a fiasco around an "art collective" (it's questionable....) called pussy riot doing a performance piece outside a church in russia. this was misreported in the news as a crackdown by putin. in fact, the members did go to jail for some time. in order to understand what actually happened with pussy riot, you should consult this story, as it appears to at least be being reported correctly.

pussy riot was never charged with pissing off putin. they were charged with the exact same thing - being offensive to the church.

the point is that, while you should be concerned about freedom of expression in russia, you need to look at the real culprit, here, which is the increasing level of power being concentrated in the hands of the orthodox church.

the church is out of control. but, the scary part is that it actually has public support.

Saturday, September 3, 2016

03-09-2016: never really got the day started

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

flashback....

"are you going to spend your whole life in the basement?"

turns out i kind of am. yeah.
there is no reason to think that allowing private health insurance will reduce wait times. rather, most studies suggest the opposite.

http://www.rcinet.ca/en/2016/09/02/canadas-universal-health-care-system-in-court-and-at-risk/
why hasn't a new justice been appointed yet?

it's astounding.
again: the ibd poll is a reason to pause, although it currently remains an outlier. what the la times is doing is not polling, but active propaganda. it remains to be seen if it works, but it's not to be taken seriously as polling.
this is just like obamacare: it was the most obvious thing in the world that if you leave space exploration to the market, it's going to be a catastrophe. can we reverse this insanity soon, please?

http://www.wired.com/2016/09/spacex-explosion-need-know/

02-09-2016: knocked on my ass by a grocery run on an empty stomach

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

no. you're not entitled to a court date. they don't have to give you a trial. this is their private property. they host your videos at their leisure. they have every right to arbitrarily demonetize you all they want.


i think it says something broader about how young people see the internet. i'm just kind of cluing into this. the internet seems to have completely destroyed any concept of market exchange. and, they see the internet not as a collection of privately owned servers but as a publicly held good.

maybe i ought to be spinning this around. after all, there's a socialist idea about property at the core of this, right?

if you think that the internet should be a publicly owned good, let's have a revolution. i'm down with that. but, you can't have it both ways.

the way people are reacting, it's like they think google is the state.

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if you want to use the employment analogy, which is wrong, then think about your argument. you're suggesting that employees ought to have the right to talk to customers however the fuck they damned well please. can you imagine walking into a restaurant and having the server swear at you while taking your order, then arguing they can't get fired due to freedom of speech? that's your analogy. great analogy.

the server could and no doubt will get fired for swearing at somebody while taking their order. why is that allowed? because it damages the brand.

but, this isn't even right. uploading here is not an employment contract. ad revenue probably isn't even legally taxable income (that is legal advice, but note that you have to win the supreme court case, first, and it's going to cost you time and money). it's legally probably a gift, for the precise reason that the terms are so vague.

there's an exchange, but the terms aren't defined. and, as such, there isn't really a contract. what are you getting paid for? it's not hourly. it's not salary. it's not even commission, really - there's no defined percentages. this is not within the realm of employment law.

Friday, September 2, 2016

http://www.thecrimson.com/article/2010/9/28/women-men-ladies-nights/
i haven't dated for a while, but, last i checked, insisting on splitting the bills was actually considered feminist - and girls that insisted that they didn't have to pay their way were seen as out of touch. i don't know. maybe i'm stuck in the 90s. but this strikes me as an elaborate straw man.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29Qf42GrHlU

as a feminist, i would consider the premise that women should get free meals on dates to be backwards and patriarchal - and i'd consider dudes raging against the arrangement to be allies.

i don't know how or when expecting to be taken care of became a feminist position. frankly, i don't think it ever did. again: this is really a straw man.

it's the great irony: most mra's are really just male feminists, without realizing it. there's a few that are legit misogynists. but, most of them don't hate women, they hate patriarchy. they just can't realize it.

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jessica
no feminist would make any of these arguments. these arguments are not feminist at all. what these arguments are is patriarchal.

you wouldn't even get your average third waver in the door on a ladies night like that. they'd be the first to stand up and argue that ladies night is beyond-the-pale sexist.

the woman in this video is not a feminist.
so, the way that youtube works nowadays is that people upload idiocy in order to try to trick the site into showing advertisements that advertisers don't want shown and that everybody wants blocked. then, when the site steps in on behalf of advertisers (and viewers...), the uploaders that are just manipulating the situation for a quick dollar cry censorship. that sounds like a very successful, very sustainable business model to me.

i never vomit. i think that was the first time since moving to windsor. legit.

i bought a coffee a few hours ago, and there was a leak at the corner. i was about to walk into a grocery store when i noticed. i didn't want to trail coffee around the store, so i chugged it on a pretty empty stomach.

i'm guessing that's what came up. otherwise, i caught a bug somewhere. hope not.

extra large size.
no adult in the world watches porn. well, ok, there's a few - but they aren't mentally adults. it should be renamed to adolescent entertainment. "adult entertainment" should be synonymous with adult contemporary.

porn is for kids...

it's the same thing with strip clubs. i haven't seen statistics. but, i wouldn't be surprised to find out that upwards of 90% of people at strip clubs are there due to somebody coming of age (or are underage) or somebody getting married.

i'd actually guess at least 75% of people that have attended a strip club in the last year have done so because of somebody's 18th or 19th birthday.

it's just a disgusting transaction, all around.

to crave this and keep coming back implies some kind of psychosis....

psychotic people exist. sure. in small percentages.
no, you fucking...

i don't want socialism because i care about other people. i want socialism because i don't care about other people. explicitly. precisely.

i'm not a fucking christian.

i've been over this too often. it drives me nuts. it's just that it warps the conversation. if you could peel back the layers of brainwashing, you'd realize you're probably more of a socialist than you realize.

well, unless you're an asshole. don't get me wrong: there's lots of assholes out there that are all about dominance and competition and hierarchy. but, it's a minority.

trying to find a way to separate socialism from christianity really needs to be the primary goal of the left, at this point. it's not about christian aid work. it's not about charity. it's about positive freedom.

read this.

https://www.marxists.org/reference/archive/wilde-oscar/soul-man/

01-09-2016: updating the alter-reality

tracks worked on in this vlog:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1

Thursday, September 1, 2016

alter-reality update

i have finished the listening through the sansa, as well as the first run through the laptop. i don't see any use in updating this here because it's monotonous. it's in the vlog.

but, i'm also pushing forward with the alter-reality for the day.

1) new blog post:

sept 1, 1996

there is no code to get into enriched classes, but i wish there was one....


happy new year!

well, it's not really the new year, i guess, but it kind of feels like it. the roman calendar is heliocentric and resets when the sun reverses course and starts coming back towards us. how did we escape the victorian era without reconfiguring the calendar to the start of the school year, anyways? there are new beginnings to be found in the innocence of youth. yet, maybe such a concept of yearly rebirth was a little too pagan.

it's labour day tomorrow, which means i go back to school on tuesday. i'll be starting grade ten. it's not just a new year, though: i'm also being sent to nerd school. yuck :(. this is not consensual!

it's a little bit of my own fault, though. i tend to fool around in class. a lot. while i get almost solid As, the kids i'm distracting are not doing nearly as well. one may kneejerk into blaming the kids with the lower marks, but i've actually been fingered repeatedly as the root cause of the distractions. so, i'm a kind of an enigma. they haven't been able to figure out what to do with me; while they ought to expel me based on my behaviour, they just can't justify it because i'm an A student. what happened around the end of last year was that a cabal of teachers conspired with my parents to take me out of advanced courses and put me into enriched classes. the argument is that i'll be less bored that way, but that, more importantly, i won't be so much of a distraction to the students around me. everybody should win out...

...except that i know that the reality of it is that i'm actually going to be even more bored because i'm going to have to hang out with the nerds all of the time. the thing is that the nerds aren't really nerds. if they were legit nerds, i'd probably like them. the legit nerds are all in the advanced courses. what the enriched class "nerds" actually are are really the rich kids and they're actually mostly wannabe jocks. these are the kids that walk around in sports jerseys but can't make the school team. the only reason that most of them got separated out is because their parents demanded they get special treatment. there was no testing. there were no interviews. entry to enriched classes is dependent solely on maintaining an A average and being recommended by a teacher, which only happens with outside pressure. there are plenty of students in the advanced stream with higher grade averages.

how do i get out of this? well, i didn't have the choice. my parents would never do this to me under normal circumstances, but the cabal of teachers was absolutely insistent and they ultimately relented. the only way out of this next year is to get Bs this year. nobody's going to care, right? nobody's going to check my grade ten marks, right? i'm already thinking about a scorched earth policy...

what about the last week?

well, i picked up the new pearl jam record, no code. to be entirely honest, i'm kind of still processing it. i'm not too young to remember early pearl jam, but i'm pretty close; i was ten years old when ten was released (oddly enough...) and not really a fan of what i interacted with. i liked jeremy, but it was a distant appreciation rather than an active experience. i didn't like the other singles nearly as much. you have to understand that the headspace i was in at the time was not very open to anything that might be interpreted as "heavy metal". the reason is that i was growing up with a set of influences that saw metal as the refuge of violent drunks and uneducated losers. it took me a few years to realize that i was actually conflating an idea with it's anti-thesis and that my inability to differentiate between pearl jam and guns 'n' roses (and grunge and glam, more generally) was really just youthful ignorance on my behalf. in fact, pearl jam was exactly the kind of rock band i could get into, i just didn't realize it. i was eventually able to get into vs a little near the end of it's run, but it wasn't until vitalogy was released that i was actively converted into a fan. on some level, and notwithstanding my age, i may be a better actualization of what the band really desires as a fan. but, that itself - combined with my near violent aversion to 80s metal - makes me a very atypical listener. i actually tend to prefer their more experimental tendencies, as well as their punk sensibilities, over the cliches and muscular riffs. of their four released records, i like ten the least! but, the thing i like about pearl jam the most is actually the lyrics.

i'm finding this new record to really be pretty good on the few listens i've had over all night civ 2 sessions. it's kind of uneven, though, and i'm not sure how it's going to ultimately hold up as a result of it. vitalogy was also uneven, but it wasn't as pronounced. see, the flip of that is that some of the high points on no code are just that much stronger. the irony is that this exaggerates the weakness of the weaker tracks, which makes it less cohesive, overall. i'm still enjoying the record, mind you. i just wish they had cut a few of the slower tracks out. i don't mean the artsy ones, i mean the rural ones: off he goes & around the bend, specifically.


something, i did listen to a lot of in the early 90s, though, was REM, who were definitely my favourite band. so, i'm super hyped about the new REM album. i didn't like monster as much as their older stuff. it seemed kind of shallow, to me, in comparison. it didn't breathe or flow and kind of got boring under the monotony. but, i really really like the new single...


i don't know who the female singer is, though. is she actually singing or is she just an actress?

i've also been spending a lot of time in the recording studio in the basement. on the last update, i wondered out loud whether i should keep waiting for band members or just go ahead and start recording on my own. i've decided that i will be recording songs on my own with the intent of teaching them to other people when they're done. in fact, i have already finished my first song! in my next post, i will provide links to stream my very first song, recorded in my basement studio over the last week.

http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/there-is-no-code-to-get-into-enriched_1.html

2) second part of the blog post:

sept 1, 1996

external links to recorded music


this is my very first recording!

i initially wrote this song in the wee hours of a morning in 1995, where it was recorded for future use by notating it on loose leaf (using a mix of tablature and chord blocks). it was slowly mutated into a final form over the next few years through solitary performance, and was eventually recorded in the summer of 1996.

the dream in the song is something that actually happened, although the concept was exaggerated for the track. there is a clear underlying misanthropy. but, it's more hands-off than the term usually implies. the song is not about starting fires, it's about not interfering in fires that are burning. all young people contemplate ways they can make a difference and "save the world" - literally or figuratively. but, is the world really worth saving?



i've also set up a youtube channel...
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/

http://therealinri.blogspot.com/1996/09/external-links-to-recorded-music.html

3) the alter-reality bandcamp site is now up and running:
https://jnrj.bandcamp.com

4) the alter-reality youtube page will be up soon, too:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/

i'll be back to listening soon, too.
jessica
even a two-year old can reason that maximizing utility with toys is not portable to moralizing questions about a train wreck in real life, which he likely can't even really fathom. the only teachable moment here is that he doesn't understand the question.

fwiw, the right answer is to try and pull the train off the tracks. and, i'm not missing the point.


sm901ftw
But what about the guys in the train you just derailed?

jessica
i don't think that derailing the train decreases their chances of surviving an impact.

sm901ftw
If you're saying the right answer to the trolley problem is to forcibly derail the train while it's in motion, then the train will probably crash hard. There's a good chance some people on the train are going to die or suffer serious injury in the crash.

This of course assumes we're considering an actual train with passengers to kill.

jessica
i realize that derailing the train is going to cause it to crash hard. but, it's going to crash hard, anyways. that is a constant through all scenarios.

sm901ftw
Maybe. I don't think hitting someone would cause the train to derail. Idk but I imagine suicide/murder by train would be much less common if it also frequently derailed the trains.

Even then it still doesn't change the moral question much. The only difference in the new scenario is now you have to chose between total inaction, actively minimising the number of deaths (changing to hit the 1 person) or actively trying to save everyone but by putting the most people at risk to do so (forced derailment).

jessica
no, you're not...

the train is going to crash under all circumstances. what happens after it runs over the one person? it crashes. it's out of control. it will crash. so, derailing the train minimizes the risk of harm to only those on board, which is the best possible outcome.

i would actually argue that it doesn't matter if you pull the switch or not, because i wouldn't value six lives as more important than one. in the typical formulation of the problem, i would argue you should do nothing, say something about how shit happens and go smoke a joint. there's simply no positive course of action and you shouldn't pretend that there is. that's not rare, either.

but, if you can get the train off the tracks before it hits anybody, you're accomplishing something.

sm901ftw
Is the train definitely out of control? I've heard so many versions of this problem I can't say for sure which is the original anymore.

If you know it's out of control then you have a good point, but unless you're on the train you have no idea whether it's a runaway or the driver just hasn't seen the people on the track. Also I wasn't making any judgement on which action is best. I was just saying you seemed to be treating causing a crash as an objectively better decision than letting it hit anyone. There're moral implications no matter what you do.

Plus I think the point of the problem is to discuss whether actively causing a little harm is acceptable when the alternative is passively allowing a lot of harm to occur. In that sense derailing the train can still be regarded as actively causing harm, just to different people. Whether they're at risk regardless isn't the point so much as whether you pull the trigger. Or at least that's how I interpret it.

jessica
well, if there's a way to stop the train then there's no dilemma: you stop the train. that you can't stop the train is the basis of the problem. it follows that the crash is unavoidable, and i'm not measuring outcomes so much as minimizing harm.

i want to be clear: i'm not saying the crash is morally preferable. i'm claiming it's unavoidable. it's consequently the only way to interfere that is objectively preferable.

what you're constructing is what i'm rejecting, and why i'm not missing the point. the answer is no: it is not acceptable to play god. you are neither causing nor preventing harm. you are redistributing it. you don't have the right to make the choice to kill somebody to prevent the deaths of others. it's not up to you to make that choice. you should walk away from the situation altogether.

what i'm saying is that if you can't stop the train, you should do nothing at all. but, you should also try to stop the train, somehow.

sm901ftw
I'm not trying to drag this out, but I genuinely don't see why the crash is confirmed as unavoidable. Unless you're in the drivers seat you can't be sure the train is out of control. I was always told the problem in the sense that the train won't stop in time, but is still functional and capable of stopping at some point i.e. the train is fine but the people are around a corner and not in sight.

All you have control of at the switch is which way the train goes and supposedly a way to derail it. You have to work on the assumption that the train won't stop in time to prevent someone being run over. You aren't in a position to know whether the train is a runaway and can't be saved after it's hit someone.

jessica
you're not changing the logic of the situation. for the sake of argument, if i concede the point, even though i don't think it makes any sense, then the correct answer remains non-interference.
i've never heard a drake song, and i just learned he's an actor roughly four seconds ago. #notamillennial.

#extremelywhite
the new youtube rules are not going to bother me, because i don't upload for the cash, anyways.

but i think, in the end, that youtube may find that the family-friendly market is less lucrative than it thinks.

this is an error. it could produce a set of serious competitors.

i don't have a problem with it. people just don't get the business model.

youtube is selling advertising space, not acting as a speech platform. they give you a cut of their revenue, but they don't even have to, really. it's just an incentive for you to upload. in the end, you're just being used as a conduit.

the actual financial transaction that occurs is that youtube sells space in your videos to advertisers. it's consequently entirely up to the advertisers as to whether they want to be associated with your videos or not. i think that's in their rights. and, if the advertisers don't want to be associated with you? that's their choice.

imagine your girlfriend breaking up with you because she doesn't like your politics. is that censorship? no. you have every right to keep talking. she just doesn't want to hang out with you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gbph5or0NuM

this playlist may increase in size.

no biggie.

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLrHImg7oLm2aP4aFlcpTsPI6eSTBAlPyf