hi.
i no longer have
time to pick up a new blood test sheet and have the tests completed, so we will
have to wait until the 16th. you should not expect test results in
before then, as i will not be filing a lab that indicates concerns about a risk
factor related to recent sexual activity with women. i at no point indicated as
much. what i indicated was
1) that i have
only had one consensual sex partner, and she was female, but that this
relationship ended in 2006 or 2007. this would certainly not indicate a recent
risk factor, as it was 12-13 years ago.
2) i was concerned
about possible exposure to stds because i woke up in a man’s car after a night
of drinking in detroit,
and he was trying to convince me to have sex with him. i lost several hours
that night, which was in september of 2016 (and not spring as i erroneously
indicated, apologies for that). i also had bruises on my thighs, and a sore
anus. i could even smell the lubrication in my farts, after requiring several
hours to pass a bowel movement. while i don’t remember it happening, the
obvious conclusion is pretty obvious: i had some pretty rough anal sex that
night. i suspect that i may have been drugged at the bar. i understand that
this would legally qualify as rape, but i have no evidence to work with and
little understanding of my own projection of consent when i was blacked out. if
somebody were to present me with evidence that i was passed out during the
sexual activity (the anal sex) then i would change my mind, but i would not be
interested in pressing charges against somebody that thought they were having
consensual sex, just because i was blacked out. i apologize if anybody is upset
by that, but i think intent is important, in context.
it follows that
while i have very strong and compelling reasons to think i probably had sex
with a male that night, i have no reasons at all to think i had sex with a
female. nor do i have reason to think i’ve recently had risky sexual activity
with any other female sexual partner, or reason to think i’ve had sexual
activity with a female in the last ten plus years at all.
when i stated that
my one and only consensual partner was female and many years ago, this was
misinterpreted as a claim that i have recently had sex with a female. i need
this corrected before i have my blood taken.
i would normally
consider this to be trivial. on a purely social level, i don’t care whether
people might think i have sex with men or women, or if they think i might have
sex with both. the truth is that i don’t have sex at all, but i can’t control
the perceptions of others, and don’t tend to pre-occupy myself with it as a
concern. so, i don’t care if you think i’m gay or straight or bi, and i don’t
care what you think about gay or straight or bi people.
however, as
mentioned, i am deeply concerned that i am being harassed by the windsor police
department, who are interpreting my gender expression as some kind of evidence
of sexual deviance. there has recently been a rise of religion in north america, and a distinct rise in transphobia as a
consequence of it. religiously motivated politicians are currently routinely
using trans people as rhetorical punching bags, and this appears to have had
some effect on the conduct by the officers in the department. i am deeply
concerned that an officer may pull the file and use it as evidence that i’m
some kind of sexual deviant - that my gender expression is some kind of
nefarious ploy to gain access to women, or something. one way that religious
politicians are using this is scare-mongering about using the bathroom. this is
the existing narrative in religious communities, and the narrative i’ve been
receiving from the police.
i have recently
had poorly written health documents misinterpreted and used against me,
documents i’m apparently not able to correct, so the necessity to ensure a
higher quality in the documentation is something i need to be pro-active about.
again: the fact is
that the contents of the file were a misunderstanding between myself and my
doctor, and i have been pro-active in attempting to correct them. the lack of
response is frustrating, but we can wait until the 16th to have this
corrected if we have to.
i’m also going to
want to add a test for my cortisol levels, as a continuation of the line of
thought that led to me checking for heavy metal poisoning last year. please
remind me if i forget.
jessica parent
email: death.to.koalas@gmail.com; vm:
5199161358