Saturday, August 2, 2025

it should be blatantly obvious why muslim groups target the queer pride festival and seek to shut it down.

how are so many people so absurdly naive?
i don't identify as queer. i'm a heterosexual transgendered female. i don't have gay friends, and broadly don't like gay people.

however, it seems to me that if the queer pride movement is going to be discussing palestine at all, it ought to be drawing attention to the criminality of homosexuality in palestine. this is not a hamas thing, it's just as illegal to be gay in the west bank as it is in the gaza strip.

and people get severely punished for it. one of the punishments for "sodomy" in islamic law is being thrown off a building. it does happen.

i'm just constantly baffled by the ignorance. these people apparently don't even know that islamic law criminalizes homosexual behaviour. it's not even doublethink. it's just rank lack of understanding.


Friday, August 1, 2025

if canada puts retaliatory tariffs on auto parts and construction materials (like steel and aluminum), it's just making a bad situation worse. it's dumb.

export taxes are a far better idea, to raise revenue.
i just ate the rest of the peanut butter and the rest of the white bread, in four slices, total.
the headache started a few hours ago, which i suspect means it's mostly run it's course.

i don't know what they imagine they're doing, but what they're actually doing is making me miserable and sick.
i avoided eating last night and tried to sleep it off today and it didn't make much of a difference. i've been defecating in small amounts all day and that has made a difference.

i must be breathing something in.

i will get tested soon. i just wanted to see if not eating made any difference over the course of a day, and it didn't.

this will wear off like all of the other times, but i need to get to the blood lab at the right time to get it.
it strikes me as more likely that epstein may have been killed, but motives may not be what is obvious to most.

you know who is going to love this is the chinese.

i'm pretty well read in history, and europe has had some crazy dictators, but the idea of firing the statistician is outside of the realm of what you expect from corrupt european despots and is rather very chinese.

i want to propose that canadians should revolt against these counter-tariffs and refuse to pay them.

throw the counter-tariffs in the bay of fundy. this is bullshit.

i don't want to call it a priapasm, because it didn't quite work. in a binary, limp v erect, i was still limp. it never got air. but it lasted 15 hours, it made me exhausted and depressed and i was just unlimp enough and experiencing other symptoms enough to know it was chemical.

this is apparently a side effect of crack-cocaine use and may actually suggest i was breathing in second-hand crack cocaine from my neighbours. 

let me see how i feel over the next few hours.
this was a difficult day. the severely mentally ill religious freaks drugged me again. i was forced to sleep it off.

i have blood req #2 ready to go and i'll be out to get tested fairly soon. at least the headaches have stopped. what can i do but keep at it? as has been the case previously, the symptoms lifted when i defecated tonight, and seem to have been prolonged by the change in weather making me a little more constipated. i mean, it's nothing clinical, it's just a little slower; that seems to consistently be the factor. as soon as i shit it out, it's gone. it's almost as though somebody is sticking some kind of dissolving steroid in my ass, and the faster i shit it out, the less bad it is. what i need to do is actually catch it in the system or on the way out. i need to be able to say "look, somebody put these drugs in my body, here's proof", and then get to figuring out how they did it.

when the temperature came down last night, i decided to take a shower to wash my hair, with the plan to dye it today, but that's going to need to be put off again for a few more days. i microwaved a large piece of that frozen kfc chicken (it may have been a bucket put in a freezer bag) to eat with my meds, to start. i didn't get out of the shower until later, and didn't sit down to eat until 6:00. i fell asleep around 7:00, and they woke me up around 8:00.

it was different this time. when they have drugged me previously, they succeeded in making me erect for roughly five seconds before it dissipated. i am concluding that they drugged me with steroids on these occasions, as i am castrated and take t-blockers. this is an impossible event, unless somebody gave me enough steroids to overpower the t-blockers, at least for an hour, and replace the testosterone i can no longer produce on my own. these erections have been very short and very painful, but they have been actual erections. they've been a rush of hormones that instantly caves and have no stimulus and are not reflective of arousal or in any way sexual in nature. they really just last a few seconds and dissipate very fast, within ten seconds. a unpleasant and at times painful sensation will follow for a few hours, but i do not expect that these short experiences, as unpleasant as they are, would in any way suggest i'd be able to become erect on arousal (i voluntarily castrated myself. i don't want that to happen.), even for those five seconds. even after these events, i remained fully impotent and completely limp upon conscious awakeness, which is what i want.

what happened this morning was the opposite. i woke up around 8:00 to the need to urinate, completely limp, as i should be. there was no sign of drugging at the time. it was while i was urinating that i started to become erect and when i went back to bed that i realized something was off. this was the kind of 60% limp "erection" that you expect an impotent person to have. it never got air, but it started. i was not interested, and would never be interested, i was just tired and wanted to go back to sleep. i might have even ignored it, if it wasn't for that burning sensation. it hurt.

i ended up sitting in the shower for another hour, tried to sleep again for a few more hours, went back to sleep until around 14:00, woke up and took another shower, ate some pb & jam open bread slices and went back to sleep around 18:00. i woke up around midnight, still 30% erect and 60% limp, still no air, still disinterested. as mentioned, it was when i defecated that it passed. i feel better now.

this doesn't seem like it was steroids. it seems like somebody tried to drug me with viagra, and it wasn't enough to actually work. it was just enough to make me tired and depressed. 

food seems like a more obvious source than getting injected in my ass, even if the latter is where all of the evidence is, but that doesn't make sense to me. was something sitting in my large intestine and being absorbed, until i pushed it out? i didn't get a good look and maybe should have, but it was very much a beets poop. a beet is an ingredient in the pasta, in the guac and the quinoa, so i've been eating one beet every day for weeks. they're high in betaine, iron and b9.  i make an attempt to get a lot of betaine.

if they drugged my food, it's probably the hot sauce, and i need to catch it in the blood results, so i need to keep eating it. if they put something in my ass, i sent them an email threatening to withhold rent if it happens again.

i'm toying with the best response. do i get tested right away? if they drugged my ass, i should, but i'm having difficulty figuring out when. there was an even a few days ago where i woke up feeling swabbed, but it was humid out. if they put it in my food, it's going to get worse and i should wait until it peaks.

i need to think it through a bit over the next few hours.

i cooked the bison in a frying pan with olive oil, paprika, oregano, cayenne and cumin. the spices increased the weight back to 50 g. what i did, and what i'm going to do, is eat the 50 g of bison (raw) with a small 30 gram ish  piece of kfc chicken, and not double up like i said before.

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.
- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine
- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon
- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise
- june 20th: caesar salad without subs
- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad
- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets
- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs
- june 24th: caesar salad without subs
- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai
- june 28th: broccoli soup
- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)
- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).
- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.
- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.
- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.
- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)
- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips
- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips
- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)
- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)
- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)
- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.
- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)
- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)
- july 18th (on the 19th):  pasta with minor subs (7)
- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)
- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)
- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)
- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.
- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3
- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)
- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.
- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)
- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white broad with plum better.
- july 28th: pasta with minor subs (12)
- july 29th: guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white toast with olive oil margarine, and then two pieces of white bread with plum butter after. four more pieces of white bread, with plum butter and strawberry jam. 
- july 30th: pasta with minor subs (13), including fried chicken for salami.
- july 31st: a larger piece of fried chicken alone. pasta with minor subs (14), including a mix of buffalo and chicken for salami. six pieces of white bread for peanut butter and strawberry jam.
- aug 1st: will be quinoa with minor subs and some small adds.

Thursday, July 31, 2025

canada's position on the palestine thing is not the same as the channel consensus, and it would appear to be unlikely that recognition will come from ottawa. the likelihood of the pa being able to organize elections without hamas is pretty slim, which is the point i'm making. what state is this? the polls i've seen have hamas ahead in the west bank, even.

the canadian position is very canadian, if you're canadian - it's recognition if necessary, but not necessarily recognition. 

there will be no recognition and the pm knows that, but it lets him avoid recognition while supporting it abstractly. that sounds good if you're appealing to a base, but such a base doesn't exist in canada, and both the opposition and donald trump are already chomping at the bit.

i think the united states should be strongly pushing for elections in the west bank and tying it to funding. there's actually potential for common ground here, in opposition to the europeans.
the media blames it on israel, and israel blames it on hamas.

hamas blames it on egypt. 

egypt does have a lot of responsibility, broadly.

Wednesday, July 30, 2025

there's only a few days left, but i think canada needs to find as many women as it can and put them on this trump file, because that's what he's doing to us. we thought we needed an economics whiz to cut through this. what we need is an army of high maintenance women.  

i made this mistake, too.

what trump is doing to us is not art of the deal, it's acting like a bitch and then forcing us to figure out what's wrong. he's wife-ing out on us. 

we can't even figure out what he wants. we need more women on this. quickly.

well, that's the relationship we have with the states. we're partners. we fight and make up.

right now, trump is in a mood and acting like a bitch and we need to figure out what's wrong. it's about taxes. but what does he want? get the women studying it.
it turns out that hamburger shrinks when you fry it. i didn't even realize that. it makes sense. salami doesn't shrink. i'm just not used to cooking with raw meat.

so, these 50 g cups are only going to be like 30 g after they're cooked.

there are 9 cups. let me try the lone one tonight, just to make sure i even like it, and then move to two cups, that is 100 g raw, next time. 100 g raw should be around 60 g cooked, i think.
do you know what the liberal party really needs on palestine?

a white paper.

remember those? they should bring those back.
cutting down on cross-border shopping might be the kind of thing we can take to the americans to get them what they actually want, instead of these tariffs on our goods.

if they actually hold elections, and you can actually tell me where palestine is on a map, and it actually exists, i would have little opposition to recognizing it.

but i don't think that will happen by september, or probably ever at all.

hey, i'm indigenous. i'm not wasting the fucking buffalo. i will eventually eat through this, and it will be gone, and i'm not taking responsibility for that.
i've completed splitting my ground bison into 50 g (ish) chunks. it wasn't too messy.

- i had 12 single use apple sauce containers and a number of sandwich bags. i needed 9 of each. i put these on the counter beside a food scale i use daily. the containers were about 5 g.
- the bison was in a shrink wrap package, in a sealable cumin bag, in a tupperware container, in the fridge. i took this out and put it in the sink
- i put on latex gloves
- i opened the sealable bag, took the bison out and opened it with a pair of scissors.
- i then moved over 50 g of meat into each of the containers using my gloved hands and put them aside on the counter.
- when i was done, i took the gloves off and put them in the sealable bag and put it in the freezer. that will be a garbage bag over the next few weeks.
- i put each of the apple sauce containers in a sandwich bag and put each one in the freezer, except one, which i put at the back of the fridge
- my hands were not bloody or dirty at all, but i did wash over everything with anti-bacterial soap and then lysoled the counter. i'm going to do dishes shortly.

i was going to have quinoa tonight, but i don't want to leave this in the back of the fridge, so i'm having pasta again tonight and quinoa tomorrow. i will eventually run out of quinoa and move to the lentils.

this is nine 50 gram servings, so it's going to take me a few weeks to get through it. it looks to me like i'll want to take each cup out the night before and give it around 20 hoursish to thaw.

i'm just going to fry it up like i would the salami. bison is supposed to be "lean", but i don't even know what that means. i hope it's not too chewy. it doesn't look like it would be.
in addition to raising revenue, there are also a number of items that the united states has decided it wants to manufacture itself, including some drugs and some minerals.

that, like the tax revenue, really has nothing to do with any sort of economic theory. it's an intentional attempt to drive costs up to incentivize local production for that end in itself, at the purposeful expense of profit maximization.

it will lead lead to lower consumption and higher costs, but they're doing that on purpose. they want that.

what can we say to that? we need to find a new market.

however, the americans should realize that if they're going to intentionally block imports of goods like copper, then they should accept our decision to keep their milk out because we don't like their use of hormones. they should see that as a concession.

good.

there's all kinds of important things the democrats could be focusing on right now, and all they want to do is run a tabloid attack on the president. schumer should get a column in the national enquirer.

there's not a shred of evidence tying donald trump to any sort of pedophilia. it's pure tabloid muck and specious conspiracy nonsense.
do the democrats have nothing better to do than feed into late night comedy programs?

are they trying to run the country, or are they auditioning to host the daily show?

this is the problem with the democrats in recent years. they're not a political party anymore. they're not interested in policies and platforms. they just want to get clicks on tiktok, and they think the party with the most shares wins, like some twisted sequel to the social network.

it's a ragtag group of second-rate comedians and b-list actors. they're less popular than the republicans.

they don't make it like they used to.
when i was a kid, i went to meet a guitar buddy of mine amongst a group of neighbourhood riff-raff, some of whom i went to school with, playing ball hockey on the road, as young people do in canada. i'm not a hockey fan; i have no memory of playing hockey, of any sort. i can't skate.

the kids had hit a seagull with a tennis ball extremely hard. it was bleeding profusely. it was twitching. there were brains all over the road.

they didn't know what to do.

i ripped one of the hockey sticks out of one their hands and went and sawed the head of the bird off. it stopped twitching. 

then i went and smoked and joint and played guitar in a dank basement for a few hours.
this may be true for this specific example, but i'm not going to spend time fact checking and i don't think it matters.:

i'm not here to challenge the premise that a genocide is occurring, in slow motion. i'm not here to prop up the israeli state. the genocide in slow motion is something i've been arguing for 20 years. my position in recent years, since oct 7, is that israel should speed it up to get it over with and move on, because it's inevitable that the genocide will finish and the world will be better off when it finally does. dragging this out isn't fun. it's not something to revel in or take pride over, it's just necessary because it's inevitable. you should approach it like pontius pilate, without the woo. it is primarily israel that is slowing it down and stopping it from finishing, right now. they won't do it - they won't do it under netanyahu. 

they might have done it under sharon. not bibi. he won't do it. his hands are tied. he's actually stuck.

but, while israel is the dominant factor preventing this genocide from finishing, it's not the sole or even primary cause.

the reality is that gaza is a developing country. it has no economy, and impossible unemployment levels. those impossible unemployment levels make the premise of statehood ridiculous. gaza is under siege by egypt, and has been for a long time, longer than the war with israel. the egyptians screen aid from coming in. the aid gets stolen by a corrupt political system. the arab family model is problematic and needs direction from family planning agencies; they have too many children, they can't support them and the weakest die. this is cultural and normal, and ancient. at least they don't sacrifice the weak ones to the harvest anymore, and they did - there's a story in the bible written to teach them not to.

the region is not very fertile. low crop yields are not unusual. there are other areas in the region reliant on food imports that have less instability and that can outcompete gaza.

this is complex. there are natural causes and artificial causes. some of the artificial causes are local, some are international. a very small amount of this can be blamed directly on israel but, as mentioned, israel is also the factor that is preventing it from being even worse.

it's easier to blame the jews, and we're conditioned to blame the jews, so we do. if the facts supported that overly simplistic analysis, i would at least acknowledge it. even if i supported it. i don't have any interest in christian morality and i'm not afraid to poke holes in the eyes of christian values. if the facts supported it, i might argue that the jews are responsible for the genocide and they should finish the job.

the facts just aren't there.

the facts are clear that the issue is complicated and that while the jews do contribute nominally, they're also the most important factor keeping palestinians alive.
this is really not acceptable and shouldn't be accepted by the rest of the world.

canadians are weird when it comes to temperature.

most places in the world think 30 degrees is a nice day and -10 is an emergency. in canada, -10 is a nice day and 30 degrees is an emergency.

the climate has already changed and we need to readjust our metrics so that they are more normal. it's been 30+ degrees here almost every day since mid june, and that's not some kind of emergency, it's just summer. yet, we send out heat warnings at 30 degrees. that's ridiculous. we should be happy we're getting nice weather like the rest of the world does when it's 30 degrees.

heat warnings should not be sent until there's three days in a row above 35 degrees.

this shift in mindset will normalize our perceptions about heat so they are more in line with the rest of the world, and re-establish a heat event as something rare, rather than just normal summer weather, which we should be enjoying, not complaining about.
the fed should be trying to stimulate the economy with a giant rate cut and not pretending it can slow down tariff-generated inflation.
yeah, i know.

that arnold palmer bit's been beaten off like a dead horse.
it's kfc. but, apparently, kfc doesn't pre-cook, so it must have been kfc off the rack.

i wish i had realized that, i wouldn't have frozen it.

it's frozen, now. so, i'll take it out in 50-75 g chunks for pasta.
i assumed this chicken was precooked because it was battered. then i googled it, and apparently that's a bad assumption. my ignorance is overwhelming. 

let me check.

(swedish chef sounds)

i have returned!

it's cooked.  i can just zap this.
Today, a staggering 87 percent of Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza believe that the PA is corrupt, 78 percent want Abbas to resign, and 62 percent believe that the PA is a liability.

the palestinian authority, like any corrupt political entity, represents it's donors.

it's donors are gulf elites. it works to advance their interests.

that's what happened yesterday, and it needs to be dismantled, not upheld.
i have a 454 g slab of bison meat that's been in the freezer since july 9th. at around 20:30 last night, i put it in a sealable plastic bag that was initially used to package ground cumin and put the bag in a tupperware container and put it in the fridge, with the intent of breaking it into nine 50 g portions, each placed in a used single use apple sauce container and a sandwich bag, and put back in the freezer.

i don't know much about this because i very rarely (like, never) cook with raw meat. the little meat i eat is always something precooked or pre-pepared, liked salami or chicken balls. they gave me this slab of what is basically bison hamburger. i'd have never have bought this. but my understanding is that i don't want to let this thaw too much, or it becomes a food poisoning risk. i want to wait until it's just soft enough to break into portions and put it right back in the freezer, then take it back out one at a time as i need it.

they also gave me a pile of chicken breast, but i shouldn't have to portion it like this, i can just take out what i need to when i need it.

unfortunately, it's still frozen harder than arnold palmer upon noticing that he's being eyed by donald trump. it's not going to thaw by 6:00 am, which is when i need to clean up, at the latest.

so, i'm going to need to put the bison meat off for a few days, then. in addition to the chicken breasts, they also gave me some pre-cooked battered chicken. it smells like kfc, and it might be, although there's a number of kfc-like competitors recently, and i couldn't tell the difference. i can't remember the last time i ate something at kfc and i don't think i've ever eaten at popeye's or any of the other more recent chicken joints.

i'm going to need to go with a couple of chopped pieces of that, instead.
the problem was that joe biden wanted to turn the clocks back to the oslo accords. biden has this problem on virtually every foreign policy file, he just wants to undo whatever happened recently and make it the way it used to be. he doesn't adjust to new facts, he doesn't adapt, he doesn't change.

macron appears to want to bring sleepy joe back.

and here we are.
it's not intellectually honest to claim that you're standing up for an oppressed group, whatever you think of that designation, and then assign representation to that group to an entity that is at war with it.

the palestinian authority is at war with it's own people and has been for almost 20 years. it does not represent the palestinian people. it is the group that is most responsible for the oppression of the palestinian people, and the entity that most needs to be ejected from the equation in order to arrive at a real solution.

if you were honest about what's in front of you, and actually concerned about what you claim you are concerned about, you would realize that and act on that.

there needs to be an election in the west bank. yesterday. that election is being postponed and has been being postponed for 16 years because the palestinian authority knows it's unpopular and will lose. it's a corrupt, fascist dictatorship. the first order of business needs to be getting rid of it, not handing it control of a state.
some religious muslims will certainly come here and look around and deduce that they don't belong here.

that's a correct deduction.

they're right - they don't.

their options are to change or to leave. the society isn't going to adjust for them.
well, i'm sorry lady, but a large percentage of canadians don't agree with you on this, so if it makes you feel like you don't belong, you'd better go ahead and fuck off back where you came from.

mr. trump,

after analyzing the situation carefully, i believe your reaction to the agreement signed yesterday should be to give the palestinian authority 30 days to schedule immediate elections, or have all funding immediately withdrawn.

jessica
i have a better idea: the entente cordiale of anglo-french-canadian colonialism in the middle east should be organizing immediate elections in the west bank, to replace the palestinian authority with a body that has democratic legitimacy and is not so corrupt that it's own people have declared war on it.
what this also is is a reformulation of the useless, failed biden foreign policy, which we got rid of and nobody wants back.

i've said this many times before: the french need to fuck off, and macron needs to sit down and shut up.
the palestinian authority has absolutely no legitimacy as a ruling body in gaza, whatsoever. it's an entirely illegitimate body.

if macron got what he wanted, the outcome would not be the end of the war in gaza, but an expansion of the war into the west bank, and a civil war in palestine.
this is extremely unhelpful and provides no clarity in generating any kind of direction forward, whether you support the concept of palestinian statehood or not (and i don't). most of the palestinians are jews that converted to islam; some of them are recent invaders from yemen, and a large percentage of them are descended from slaves that arabs imported into the region from africa after the 7th century. people just don't know the history of the region very well, and have often been mislead or misinformed. this idea doesn't make any sense. it's like splitting england into catholic and protestant regions, and doing so in a complicated web based on allegiances on the ground. that's not what most europeans think, because most europeans don't really understand the region very well, and have been confused and mislead by a lot of propaganda over a long period of time.

the reason that hamas is in control of gaza is in the first place is that the palestinian authority is extremely unpopular. it was some time ago, but the pa lost the last round of elections to hamas. hamas then took control of the assembly entirely democratically, and refused to allow for further elections. a civil war then erupted between hamas and the pa, which resulted in the pa being expelled from gaza by the people that live there.

the pa is not welcome in gaza. if they try to move back in, they'll got shot at by the civilians in the region. this is going to extend and reignite the civil war.

the problem with the palestinian authority in the eyes of a large majority of gazans is that they're decadent and corrupt. they don't represent the interest of gazans, but rather represent the interests of elites. they steal taxes, they steal foreign aid and they're often even in kahoots with "the occupation", itself. yet, despite being widely seen by gazans as an extension of israeli rule, israel will not work with the palestinian authority, because it interprets it as just as bad as hamas.

what this resolution is is essentially a power grab by gulf elites to try to force their way back into gaza, under the cover of anglo-french colonialism, which canada apparently wants to resurrect the ghost of pearson in order to sign up for. the israelis will reject this on it's face. the people of gaza will reject it as undemocratic and react violently to it if israel surprises everybody and enforces it. it indicates a level of cluelessness by the french, and a level of corrupt disinterest by the gulf elites, who are not interested in any sort of serious resolution, but are just trying to get boots on the ground before trump gets shovels in it.

the solution to hamas is not clear. a un peacekeeping force might be a good idea. a deeper israeli occupation might be what they need. the turks or egyptians might be the best force to put boots on the ground, probably via the un. or it might actually make the most sense to send the us marines in.

whatever the right answer as a temporary occupation to finish the job and restore order actually is, it is not the palestinian authority, and any serious analysis will begin with that understanding. any attempt to put the pa back in control in gaza cannot be and will not be taken seriously by serious power brokers and serious actors.

russia is such a gigantic, diverse place. the russians have a very large number of geographic regions at their disposal. 

my understanding is that kamchatka is something like the mountains in bc, and no more populated. it's about as far from moscow as you can get in russia.

it's a great place for underground nuclear testing, like the kind that was recently attacked in iran.

there's been a lot of earthquakes in kamchatka this month. it's an observation, nothing more.

earthquakes do happen in clusters. that's true. aftershocks tend to follow big earthquakes, so you might keep an eye out for that.

Tuesday, July 29, 2025

i've been saying for years that my greatest fear is that islam and christianity build a common cause and start to work together to achieve common goals.

they may be easily defeated if divided, but western society will have a serious problem on it's hands that it will need to aggressively fight if we ever wake up to a serious political alliance between christians and muslims.
if these ultra-right demagogues like marjorie taylor-greene were to be truly honest to their principles, they might even consider converting to islam, as their brand of extreme conservatism is expressed far more aggressively in contemporary islam than it is in contemporary christianity.

the muslims actually believe this shit.

what is left of christianity is, at best, a cynical ploy to control people, and it's been that way for 200 years.
i don't think that europe is offering very inspiring leadership to the world right now.

i think we should make our own choices.
and is canada going to be a follower and get in line yet again, or are we going to write one of our own policies for the first time in decades?
let's get a round of applause and a warm statement of congratulations for the uk.

it took them decades to get here - world war two, decolonization, deindustrialization, "multiculturalism", brexit and now this. this is the end.

they are now officially irrelevant.
in response to the uk's threat to israel, netanyahu should send them an official Certificate of Irrelevance, with his signature at the bottom, and suggest they frame it on the wall at 10 downing, alongside the specious war crimes indictment, with neither jurisdiction nor grounds.
jews in north america tend to be secular and liberal and lean left.

muslims do not tend to be secular or liberal, and tend to have very right-wing political positions, but the fake left keeps going after them anyways because they're brown.
the far right is a bunch of nazis and it sees an opportunity to align with right-wing palestinian extremists, which it agrees with on most issues. 

the right being pro-gaza is not surprising; that is conservatives in the west aligning with conservatives in the middle east and makes clear ideological sense.

what has never made sense is the right's phony embrace of israel, which was not the case in the goldwater or nixon years, but is something that developed out of the oil politics of the 1970s, which young people don't remember or understand well. and what doesn't make sense is the fake left's alignment with palestine as an indigenous movement, in opposition to all facts in relation to the matter.

if this is flipping back over and conservative muslims are realizing that they align more with the right than the centre, that's of benefit to the left, which is suspended in amber until it can get past this attempt to absorb an ethnic group because it's brown, in the face of their own opposition to it.

the story here isn't about the right turning on israel, it's about the conservative movement embracing islam as it's own, which it should have done 20 years ago because it is.

i'll probably use cayenne, cumin, pepper and frank's.

the internet is telling me to use oregano and paprika, too. ok.
i don't know how to cook hamburger. i would never buy this; i think it's gross. apparently, i need to let it thaw in the fridge long enough to cut it into pieces. then i guess i'm going to try frying it in olive oil and putting it in my pasta, but this is different than the salami because i actually have to cook it. it's cooked when it's brown, right?

i'm going to assume that bison is essentially the same as cow.

as this has to sit in the fridge for a while, i may not get to it until early in the morning. i've consequently just consumed four more piece of white bread, which finishes the rest of the plum butter and opens up the strawberry jam.
it turns out there's an election in november, and she was actually already removed from consideration by her own party.

she's not running because her own political party asked her to step down and already replaced her.
to the people of montreal,

you're a pretty liberal city. unfortunately, your current mayor has proven repeatedly that she does not believe in free speech, and is a serious threat to a number of groups living in the city.

please punish her sufficiently by removing her from office at the earliest opportunity in a show of popular rejection.

thanks,
jessica
they should release marwan barghouti, and assassinate him on his way out of the facility.

hamas can come get the body.
"george doesn't like tariffs"
who know who's really in hard times right now though is george costanza. the import/export business is in hard times. vandelay industries is in bankruptcy protection.

he's about to give up and go back to school to study marine biology.

almost everybody's missing the point. donald trump is trying to replace income taxes with consumption taxes, and get foreigners to pay off the united states' debt. it's hard to get your head around because it's wrong, but it is what it is. he's not failing to learn ricardian equivalence, and wouldn't know what the fuck you're talking about. this isn't a debate between free trade and protectionism, this is donald trump thinking he's got a sneaky scheme to get the united states out of debt to china by taxing europe, japan and canada. 

let's try to understand this. 

in principle, if the united states wants to tax canadian imports, it is just taxing it's own people. it's a sovereign state. canada shouldn't really care, in principle. nor should we see any logic in responding by hiking tariffs. europe was correct to accept 0% tariffs. that's a benefit for european consumers, that get access to american agricultural products at lower prices. europe will continue to tax income and other forms of wealth, like the economists tell them to. it's america's choice if it wants to tax european goods, and it doesn't really hurt europe because there's little to no direct competition.

the problem with that approach when it comes to canada is that we are competing over a lot of key items.

but, that's not what donald trump is thinking. donald trump is trying to raise tax revenue.

i think that breaking this impasse might have something to do with finding some other way for trump to generate tax revenue other than taxing canadian imports, because that's what he wants. nobody in canada wants to pay twice as much for orange juice, or thinks that hiking the price of food shipped into canada is sticking it to the yankees. that only hurts us. that's a stupid policy.

if canadian negotiators can find some other way to increase tax revenue coming into the united states from nominal canadian sources (even if americans actually pay it) that doesn't include making our goods uncompetitive in american markets, donald trump might be convinced that he's getting what he wants.

stop pretending this is an economics argument. it isn't. it's about taxation.
naw. it's not the donald that likes the phantom. 

it's just a nice memory.

he's allowed to have that.  

“My favorite Broadway show is Evita by Andrew Lloyd Webber, starring Patti LuPone,” he wrote. “I saw it six times, mostly with Ivana. Evita is not on Broadway right now, but I’m hopeful that they’ll bring it back.”

when trump starts talking about cats again, it's because he misses ivanna, his first wife (and the mother of most of his kids). donald trump doesn't care about andrew lloyd webber.

it's the third anniversary of her death. they buried her in the golf course.

that might be why he's in a foul mood.

i'd give him the tiniest bit of slack. not much. just a teaspoon of empathy helps it all down.
i'm certainly not interested in getting married to jesus. fuck that.

i mean, he's dead. zombie vampire sex isn't my thing, no thank you.
this just popped up in a google search by accident, and i'm wondering if i accidentally struck gold.

these stalkers are some kind of cult. they reference islamic law, but they call themselves "the family". i thought they might be the mob.

maybe i didn't get the reference.

is this the group stalking me?

as an aside, this looks like a helluva party:

"Spirit Helpers" include angels, other religious and mythical figures, and departed humans, including celebrities; for example the goddess Aphrodite, the Snowman, Merlin, the Sphinx, Elvis, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Richard Nixon, and Winston Churchill.

i guess this christian love bullshit isn't completely out of nowhere, but it's certainly hitting me by surprise.

is this a post-pandemic thing?

it has precursors:



there are apparently a handful of casual references to eunuchs in the bible, as though it was just a part of the world that existed, and no analysis or critique of it one way or the other. there were in fact eunuchs back then, and the people that wrote the bible saw it as a fact of life not worth commenting further on.
fwiw, jewish religious law apparently recognizes seven or eight different genders, and that would have been the world that the early christians lived in, although the issue doesn't come up in the actual bible. these look to me like they're very similar to the categories recognized in indigenous law in north america as well as in hindu law in india, suggesting the recognition of multiple genders was probably quite widespread in antiquity. the idea of two genders appears to be relatively recent, and not sourced from any actual religious text, or not honestly. that doesn't seem to be something that early christians or jews were very interested in or concerned about, and they don't seem to have been that concerned about criticizing the culture, as it existed.

the gays, though, are going to hell. that's clear as day. don't listen to christians trying to 'splain that away, they're full of shit.
i mean, you can make stuff up about god loving you unconditionally all you want, but this remains the best description of christianity i'm aware of:



i'm really having difficulty understanding what the fuck these retards are thinking.

this comment is really baffling:

Dudley said her interpretation of Christianity believes God has "unconditional love for all people," while Feucht's controversial stances make the religion feel exclusive for those who agree with those beliefs. 

i do not know what textual sources dudley would use to source her claim that god has "unconditional love for all people", given that the canonical christian texts contain things like god burning down cities because there's gay people in them, god flooding the earth because people are wicked, god sending his own people into slavery for worshiping a statue, etc. the jewish (christian, islamic, mormon) god is a vindictive, cruel, piece of shit. if the question is who is adhering to actual christian values, it would appear to be the goof with the acoustic guitar; god is pretty clear that the gays are going to hell.

but, regardless, that's what free speech is. who the fuck does this bitch think she is, defining a religion for everybody else? i mean, that's a pretty christian characteristic, certainly, trying to tell everybody else what to feel and think and believe. but why does she expect anybody to give a fuck?

in a free society, where we have freedom of conscience and belief and thought, you get to make those choices yourself, you're not forced to defer to some pastor somewhere that you may or may not give the slightest fuck about.

where did this intolerant mentality that rejects free thinking come from, all of a sudden? has this authoritarian radical centre been here the whole time? it's something that the southern poverty law centre or the rcmp ought to take a closer look at it, to try to understand where this radical hippie christian sect came from, out of nowhere, as it's firebombing christian churches out of nowhere.

as a transgendered woman, i'm far more frightened of ms. dudley's intolerance than i am of sean feucht's stupidity.
i had never had or heard of plum butter before, but i'm deciding i enjoy this.

it's like a fig newton in spread.
i also think that this single state of israel should consider entering into a confederation with christian lebanon and the non-muslim parts of syria, which should be dismantled as a failed state now that the baathist regime is gone.
i want to be clear. i've said this many times before.

i support one state in israel, which includes the west bank. i think israel should annex the west bank. i also think gaza should be reappended to egypt. 

in this one state of israel, which would be called the democratic state of israel, all people should have equal rights, regardless of belief system or language. it should be a legitimate democracy, where people have equal voting rights, equal rights to own property, etc. a functioning judiciary should enforce this law equally. people should also have equal access to religious shrines.

a state of palestine could only hinder and retard the process of getting to a single country of israel where everybody is equal. the state of israel is the more pragmatic vehicle to get to that end point and the one that should be utilized.

the primary block preventing this outcome is that arabs continue to refuse to recognize the primacy and legitimacy of israel, as a functioning democracy in the region. arabs, including palestinians, need to come to terms with the existence of israel as the status quo, and israel needs to continue to be extremely aggressive and dominant with them, until or if they do.

speaking of which, israel is overdue for an election, and should really schedule one immediately.
i actually spent almost all day yesterday sleeping, took a shower late and fell back asleep in the morning. i'm well rested. i hope it takes.

this is night 4 in a row without marijuana, which looks good on it's face, but makes me wonder. i've been fighting with loser potheads for years. they don't care if they make me sick. 

what happened was i threatened to withhold the rent. it only makes sense that that worked if the potheads are the owners. otherwise, they've been told to stop 50 times already and didn't. this is verification that i'm right, i'm being stalked. it's not something i can use legally.

the kneejerk next step is to get out, but this is dwelling number three that they've followed me to, and it's clear enough that it's pointless to run. they're obviously wealthy. they can follow me; they can buy they next place, if they put down an offer. 

i have to fight them.

i had the 12th plate of pasta yesterday and used up the second jug of juice, the salami, the 2nd pineapple and almost all of the baguette. i'm having the second bowl of guac in cycle 2 tonight, with the second of two containers of white rice and a can of corn, exactly like before. i've added some white bread with margarine tonight, as it's a little expired. it will be pasta plate 13 and 14, and two bowls of quinoa, for the rest of the week. i'll post my adapted quinoa in a few days, but it will probably have a can of kidney beans in it

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.
- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine
- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon
- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise
- june 20th: caesar salad without subs
- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad
- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets
- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs
- june 24th: caesar salad without subs
- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai
- june 28th: broccoli soup
- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)
- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).
- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.
- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.
- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.
- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)
- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips
- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips
- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)
- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)
- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)
- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.
- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)
- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)
- july 18th (on the 19th):  pasta with minor subs (7)
- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)
- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)
- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)
- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.
- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3
- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)
- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.
- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)
- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white broad with plum better.
- july 28th: pasta with minor subs (12)
- july 29th: guac with white rice and caned corn. two pieces of white toast with olive oil margarine, and then two pieces of toast with plum butter after.

Monday, July 28, 2025

if this government is really insistent on budget cuts and belt-tightening, we can't be wasting money by throwing it away on palestine. there could be nothing more frivolous or more wasteful than that.
this is an actual real man-made famine that people are actually starving to death in and that you could mobilize to actually save lives in, if you weren't too busy being a fucking nazi:
if we were going to send that aid out, we should be sending it to people that deserve it, like the victims of the actual famine being enforced on sudan right now by arab colonists and slave traders. the people of gaza are getting their just reward for decades and centuries of deplorable behaviour and should be left to starve, but the jews won't let them starve. it would be doing the world a favour to slaughter them all and get rid of them, but the jews won't do.

as it is, it's easier to blame the jews for eating children, as a distraction from the real problems in front of us. it has no basis in reality. 

when we have real famines, and real problems, and real genocides, we ignore them.

we should be ashamed of ourselves. but, we're not, because we have no sense of morality and no sense of decency. we just have the legacy of catholicism, that won't die, and should be sent to the guillotine.
they're announcing funding cuts on social services in canada, and sending $40 million to feed rapists and murderers and religious conservatives in gaza.

every single dime of this money should be spent here in canada, not sent to backwards countries that still believe in god.

there was a concert worth taking note of in toronto today:

it's not as easy as buying private insurance, to the limited ability it's even allowed here, either. this isn't a right-wing argument, it's a left-wing argument; i'm not bitching about taxes, i'm concerned about central planning and resource allocation. 

the applicants that should be prioritized are the ones young enough to continue working, and who are likely to find work when they get here. even at 55 or 60, a few years contribution into the system is justification to start getting benefits when you get into your 70s.

i can think of no logical argument that justifies dumping people that lived the first 70 or 75 years of their lives in another country into canada's overburdened public health queue. these people should be accessing health care in the countries they came from.
i mean, there's no transfer system between columbia and canada. there's no way to do this accounting.

she paid however many tens of thousands of dollars into the columbian system over 70+ years and 0$ into the canadian system over that same period. if she moves to canada, she's abandoning that investment. it doesn't magically show up in canada, and there's no way to make it show up.

it's real life: taxes already paid aren't mobile. you bought into what ya bought. it's yours.
columbia has a universal health care system. the woman paid into that system and she should be served by it, not ours.
this shouldn't be a lottery process.

these walking fossils use up a lot of resources in a system that's already over-stressed, and there's little rational justification for dumping people into the system that haven't paid into it. at all. literally. it's an utterly stupid policy decision.

decisions should be made on the ability of the applicant to contribute to the system they're walking into, and the idea that this isn't and shouldn't be and can't be a free pass into a free care system needs to be gotten across at every point of the way. applicants with more resources to contribute should be chosen ahead of those with less resources to contribute.

it's not fair to tell a tax paying citizen that spent their whole life working and paying into the system that they have to stand in line behind somebody that got here from columbia last week. that's a serious problem and it needs to be taken seriously.

if you know your history, you know that roosevelt didn't go into europe to stop hitler, and that he didn't bomb japan to end the empire, but in both cases was trying to prevent endless russian expansion. up until pearl harbour, the americans were sending the nazis weapons. they were trying to create a war in eastern europe to weaken germany and russia simultaneously. that was their foreign policy - make a war in ukraine to keep europe down. we're back where we were, then. the germans were built up as a capitalist counter to the russians and set on them like killer bees, which hadn't been invented yet. in the end, the americans and british had to rush to france to stop stalin from rolling all the way to spain.

if you understand what actually happened at the time, this idea of forcing the germans to rearm almost against their will should scare the hell out of you, because it is history repeating as farce, and we might not get through it this time.
this needs to be palestine's last chance to release the hostages, before it gets wiped off the map.
there's been an apparent shift in rhetoric in western capitals, who no longer appear to think it's important to release the remaining hostages.

if it's being decided that hamas won't release the hostages, the palestinian people need to be collectively punished for it. they certainly cannot be rewarded for this with the recognition of a state. netanyahu cannot appear weak here. he needs to start saturation bombing and just clearing the corpses out.
bmw doesn't really compete much with dodge.

sorry to break your heart, al bundy.
and, is there much to criticize about the premise?

hey, you want to import that bottle of wine from italy instead of getting something from new jersey, maybe you ought to pay a luxury tax for it. that's not such a bad thing.

a big part of what gets sent to the us from the eu is medical equipment and drugs, which gets paid for by insurance, whatever it costs. maybe your premiums go up, if you still have insurance.

almost everything else being sent to the us is a luxury item, and it now has a 15% luxury tax, and maybe it should.
that logic wouldn't apply to canada-us trade, though. 
the news is keying in on the tariffs in the trump-eu deal. it's the sideshow, right? it's the main attraction.

tariffs are in truth of little importance in the kind of trade the us does with either the eu or japan. the japanese will just do everything in the us to begin with, where there are no tariffs. the eu exports items like drugs, luxury cars and specialty foods. are you going to buy the local cheese or wine instead due to the 15% markup, if you want the import from france, which you were going to pay twice as much for anyways? are you going to buy a different lifesaving medication? or a bmw copy?

these are the kinds of goods i've been telling canada to tax, and that's what a tariff is here, in context. imports into the united states from europe have low elasticity in demand, so you can tax them. that's actually smart. it doesn't matter if it's 15 or 20 or 30, it's the same demand curve. people will just shrug and pay.

so, i don't even care about this. i'm more concerned about these investment agreements.
if we have no choice but to position ourselves for a long competitive slog, we should buy in while we can, and buy tactically.

if this is how this is going, if ottawa or washington will emerge victorious, we want as much control over their manufacturing as we can get.
how much of this $750 billion dollars worth of energy being shipped to germany is sourced from canada, anyways?
canada doesn't want to buy a half trillion dollars of american capital infrastructure, unless they want to sell us the refineries. that deal makes no sense to us, even as it makes sense to japan and is a windfall for germany.

however, if it's what's on the table, canada could look at it pragmatically. we could buy up auto factories, pipelines and other infrastructure that stabilizes our investments. is that really being floated? that kind of investment could more seriously flip the 51st state rhetoric on it's head.

...because this is what's in front of us. we don't want to compete, but if they're forcing us to, we ought to play to win. right?

if trump is legitimately demanding we invest that kind of money, we could capitalize off his mistake. he's forcing us to take advantage of him. i mean, that's what the germans just did, even if the context is different.
you might start seeing g6 meetings without canada.
it was always obvious that trying to build a front against trump by aligning with europe wasn't very smart. why would europe take our side?

it made more sense to call mexico, but we missed that boat.

and we insist on hating the russians, when we shouldn't.

canada is finding itself kind of cut out, and our politicians are oddly all on holidays instead of working.

the reality is that we've been falling down all of these rankings for years, and we're going to land somewhere around a top 25-40 economy, not in the g7. really, it's unclear how much longer we can keep up the charade.

if the americans insist on competing with us, we might have to do it.

Sunday, July 27, 2025

he's literally tilting at windmills.

surreal is too weak a concept.

this doesn't turn the clocks back to the 1930s or the 1880s, it turns it back to the 1750s.
put another way, this agreement between the eu and the us might be mutually beneficial if it were between the eu and brazil or the eu and congo, or between the us and brazil or the us and congo, but it treats the dynamic between the countries as though the eu is a developed country and the united states is a developing one, and that is how the germans are going to look at it. 

germany finally got it's colony.

it's america.
"We're not that rich right now. We owe $36 trillion dollars. That's because we let all these nations take advantage of us," Trump said.

this is what trump is thinking.

it is absurd and ignorant and wrong, but it's what he thinks.

i actually think the germans took down the twin towers.

it is agreed by everybody that it was organized in berlin.
i am vehemently opposed to german rearmament. they still pose the single greatest threat to american hegemony on the planet, greater than russia, and certainly greater than china.
my guess is that what's driving donald trump is his misunderstanding of sovereign debt. he thinks he should pay the debt down, so he's selling off domestic assets to foreign buyers in exchange for tax revenue that he can use to "pay off the debt to china". he thinks he's leveraging friendly investments to buy the country out of a hole.

you cannot fault the germans for taking advantage of his ignorance.

but it means that the united states now has a long period in front of it where it's under the thumb of german economic colonialism. and, they're even sending them weapons to use to enforce it.

germany is not a friend or an ally, it's a vanquished and conquered enemy, and the united states is about to learn the hard way what happens when you take your boot off a country you've been holding in submission for 80 years.

it won't like what happens.

canada needs to get out of the way, but it can't. it should wait.
i have no doubt in my mind that donald trump legitimately thinks he signed a great deal for america. there's no treason, here. it's nothing sinister. he's just dumb.
you can't blame the germans for this.

the country elected the village idiot, and he walked into town and they took advantage of it.
donald trump just shifted a trillion dollars in american assets out of the country.
a good deal with europe would have included american capital buying out german firms, not german capital buying out american firms, and it would have opened europe to american agricultural exports.

the japanese will build the factories in the united states and create jobs in america. they have a history of doing that. the entire concept of a japanese car is a misnomer, as the factories are in kentucky and tennessee.

however, it looks to me like americans should start practicing german, because they're gong to be speaking it soon.

sieg heil!
yeah. this is a very bad deal for the united states, who just agreed to sell hundreds of billions of dollars of critical infrastructure to german firms.

america first? no. this is selling america by the dollar.


what the united states should be looking for in a trade agreement with europe is an export market to dump goods like corn, with minimal investment or imports in return. that's how this empire is supposed to work.

let's see if trump gets it or not.
100 people. that's pathetic.

they need to change their marketing. drop this feudalistic conservative bullshit about families, it's dragging them down. get out of the dark ages and join the enlightenment and focus more on individual rights. they sound like fucking christians. they need to sound more like liberals. liberalism sells; jesus doesn't.

in those last pictures of ozzy osbourne, he looks almost as bad as al jourgenson did 20 years ago.
the gave me a loaf a white bread, a container of peanut butter and a container of jam like before. one of the more unusual items they gave me was a jar of plum butter, ingredients: plums. as mentioned, i already ate all of the cookies and breads i might have used to do something with this. next time.

i'm just taking note of a few pieces of white bread eaten with plum butter, which tastes like jam and spreads like nutella, before i take my meds at noon. it's not bad. some quick carbs.
right now, it is abundantly clear to all thinking people that the state of palestine objectively does not exist in empirical reality and suggestions otherwise are purely in the realm of magical thought.
by recognizing palestine, macron would appear to be trying to take an issue away from his opponents. i don't expect this to work.

if the liberal party of canada, which is well to the left of macron, were to make a similar move, the opposite would happen - it would generate substantive dissent and significant fracturing on both the left and the right of the party. it would be handing the opposition a gift.

that said, if canada wants to hold to the potentiality of a two state solution one day in the future (which i maintain and insist is daft, but it's easier than coming up with an intelligent policy framework), it should make a conscious attempt to undo the blurriness of the trudeau years. the liberal party used to have very clear, defined policy positions that were smart, academic, rigorous and made sense. trudeau is none of those characteristics, so he abandoned that in favour of "emotional iq", whatever the fuck that even is. 

canada should be able to clearly outline what the conditions under which it might recognize a palestinian state are, and they should look something like this:

- the state should have a democratically elected government. that has to be at the centre of this.
- that government should have functioning levels, including a functioning judiciary
- the state should have clearly defined and internationally recognized borders. that is, we have to be able to define what palestine is before it is recognized.
- the state should not be at war with israel to start

there are other criteria to look at it, this is not exhaustive, but you get the point.

when or if palestine meets these criteria, canada should recognize it as a state. 

it should refrain from doing so until then.

and i don't think it will ever happen.
you might be reading the news thinking "the number of children starving to death in gaza should be zero and if any die at all it's israel's fault". that's what you're supposed to think, clearly. that's what you're being led to believe.

stop and think it through.

that's obviously ignorant and stupid. i didn't even calculate the statistics for egypt. it's easy to guess they're pretty bad.

yes, i have a formal education in math, so this is obvious to me, but you don't need a math degree to realize that some level of death from malnutrition in a place like gaza is unavoidable. what jumps out at me is how low the number of 80 is, not how high it is, and if you do a little napkin math, you'll realize it's so low it's clearly bullshit.

be careful what you read today, especially about israel and especially from qatar or hamas.
they probably low balled it to make it look more realistic, without understanding what a realistic number actually would be.

a realistic number, applying america as a baseline, would be:

2*(0.009/100)*(.47*2142000) = 181.2132

if less than 200 gazan children have died of malnutrition over the last two years, it would suggest gazan children are at least as well fed as american ones, which, say what you will about american inequality, still couldn't be correct.

it must be at least 10x that.
the population of gaza is a little over 2 million, and almost half of them are children.

according to hamas propaganda, a total of 80 children have died from malnutrition in the last two years. this is their number. it's in the news reports.

[100*(80/(.47*2142000))]/2 = 0.00397%.

as mentioned, the child mortality rate from malnutrition specifically in the united states is 0.27%, or 6762 fatalities. it is apparently about half that in israel, itself. there are about 72.5 million children in the united states.

100*(6762/72500000) = 0.009%

countries like canada, sweden, finland, iceland don't keep this statistic on record, or don't publish it. informed canadians know that child malnutrition is a serious problem here, and if these statistics are not being collected, they should be.

according to these numbers, gaza's actually doing pretty well on that statistic, comparably. in fact, it's doing impossibly well. whatever goebbels luminary at hamas headquarters in qatar came up with that number didn't do enough research, clearly.

to be clear: i'm sarcastically suggesting that child mortality from malnutrition is probably at least 100x that in gaza and, even so, that's still a relatively good score, internationally.
i think the bank of canada should cut interest rates by a full point in order to address the recessionary effects of the tariffs, which is something it may be able to affect.

the bank of canada will not be able to slow tariff-driven inflation via interest rate hikes, and it's going to create a mess if it tries.
make sure you're looking for those made in canada decals if you want to boycott us dairy products.

i also expect the canadian government to force us milk producers to put a sticker on their products that says "contains growth hormones", if this garbage is allowed to be sold in our stores.

there's no comparison.

it's three differences of scale.
i am supremely confident that, as a transgendered person, mobs of religious muslims chanting islamic slogans in the streets poses me an infinitely greater threat than some scraggly haired doofus from arizona singing folk songs on an acoustic guitar.

i'm 100% sure of that.
ms. plante's personal hypocrisy is despicable and utterly disgusting.

let me assure you that the fascist brown shirt idiots throwing smoke bombs at the christian musician in the catholic church in montreal do not represent me and are not standing up for my interests, as a transgendered woman.

i don't agree with the artist in question, but i support his right to perform in a venue that allows for it, on private property.
i don't think any civilized country should be recognizing the theocratic fascist thugs in syria as some kind of government in the first place. they are not a government, they're a gang of criminals.

there needs to be immediate elections in syria, and no government should be recognized until after elections take place.

until those elections occur, i support israel's right to take control of the situation, and fully agree with israeli offensives against the militia undemocratically occupying damascus without democratic legitimacy.

i agree; this is horrifically embarrassing.

i oppose public prayer in public parks or publicly held areas. i don't oppose people praying in churches or mosques, and would explicitly tell the palestinian prayer groups to stop babbling in public and go pray at a mosque as a solution to the issue.

further, ms. plante is deeply misinformed. the supreme court has been abundantly clear that hate speech is protected by the constitution of canada. 

the church will win this case if they can get it before a real judge, which may be hard, but it demonstrates extreme levels of hypocrisy and bizarre levels of fascist thinking in the canadian political establishment.

the second container of my crispy crunches were edible, so i just ate them. i'm down to just the marshmallows in the coffee, although i also have a package of instant ice lattes.

as mentioned, i'm about to enter back into the creative phase of consuming the food from the food bank. i'm going to take note of where the pasta subs are at ending #11 and going into 12 and eventually 13. i have enough basic materials built up from a few trips to the food bank to get me to 18 days of pasta this summer. this is a food bank staple - i can expect they will always give me pasta, so i'm going to get more the next time i'm there, too.

my pasta with minor subs is updated.

pre-prep
- on a large flat plate add -  one tomato (preferred) or four-five mini tomatoes or 100 g of canned tomatoes or 100 g of arrabiata pasta sauce, one half a red pepper (diced), one avocado (diced), two cloves of garlic, one carrot, one beet, one tbsp of oregano, one tbsp of thyme, one tbsp of basil, some fresh dill (chopped). add one tbsp of processed pesto (includes italian cheeses).

- chop 150 g of fresh pineapple into small squares on a small plate. i purchased four actual pineapples at reduced price at the grocery store across the street because they were ripe, which is a good thing (who wants crunchy pineapples? it's better if they're a little soft.). i should get around 900 g 750 g of usable fruit per pineapple. i'm finishing up pineapple 2 of 4 and about to go to pineapple 3 and they are in fact nice and soft. somebody at the store really didn't get it.
- peel and segment one lime. chop each segment in half. put on same plate.

- slice and chop up 50 g of salami into small squares (i'm using spicy genoa sold in a 600 g amount). i have one more salami left, after which i'll shift to some frozen meat, which includes chicken and ground bison. i may have some difficulty with this, as i do not believe i have ever cooked raw meat before, and would have never purchased it in a store or even eaten it if it wasn't given to me, but i'm not going to throw it away. the animal is dead. i'll never buy this, i'll never contribute to it's economy, but it's not helpful to waste it. i'm going to have to teach myself how to i suppose fry these items.
- fry in olive oil margarine until a little crispy. 

- chop off the top of 25 g of broccoli florets and place on a small plate. place any stems in a bowl in the freezer, which is cumulative.

- grate 100 g of marble cheese

- weigh 110 g of dry pasta, preferably fettucine, but i will not be using fettucine for the foreseeable future. i went through three days of egg noodles and four days of fusilli. day eight will be half fusilli and half penne. it's been penne since and will be for a while still.
- cook to al dente in a covered pot.

preparation:
- add pasta on top of vegetables, right out of the pot. flatten pasta.
- add 1 tbsp of olive oil margarine on pasta.
- add pineapple and lime on top of that. flatten fruit.
- add salami or other meat on top of that. flatten meat.
- add 1 tbsp cumin, 1 tbsp nutritional yeast, 1 tbsp paprika, 1 tbsp hemp seeds, 1 tbsp sunflower seeds (or just chomp the last one). distribute these items evenly.
- add a lot of ceasar dressing (this is the pasta sauce), and bunch it up in the middle.
- add 1 tbsp of processed pesto
- add the grated marble cheese

- microwave for 2:00

- sprinkle crushed broccoli florets
- add frank's, black pepper, a tbsp of cayenne pepper (sprinkled).
 
served with
- serve with some bread and olive oil margarine. the food bank gave me a lot of bread, including garlic cheese buns (first up), a baguette (second, now almost done) and a loaf of unsliced italian bread (third). i'm currently on the baguette and using five slices with margarine.
- serve with tall glass of 25% grapefruit, 75% orange juice

as mentioned, i'm on day 11 of pasta, which is 3 of 4 for cycle 3. there's enough ingredients here to get midway through cycle 6, although i'm going to be alternating for now to use some of the other food up to.

one thing coming up is a sub of lentils for quinoa, as i have a fair amount of lentils. again, i do not normally eat lentils. i'm not sure i have ever eaten lentils. they seem healthy. that could be interesting.

i hope i'm awake now, so let's try this again:

- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.
- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine
- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon
- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise
- june 20th: caesar salad without subs
- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad
- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets
- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs
- june 24th: caesar salad without subs
- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai
- june 28th: broccoli soup
- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)
- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 1st:    kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 2nd:  kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 3rd:  10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).
- july 4th:  a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.
- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 7th:  two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.
- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.
- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)
- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips
- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips
- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)
- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)
- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)
- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.
- july 16th:.  pasta with minor subs (5)
- july 17th:  pasta with minor subs (6)
- july 18th (on the 19th):  pasta with minor subs (7)
- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)
- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)
- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)
- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.
- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3
- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)
- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.
- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)
- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn