Tuesday, September 15, 2020

if you had sent me to a psychiatrist every day for ten years at the age of 20, might i have eventually become comfortable enough with my body, and figure out a way to deal with some concept of masculinity, that i could deal with something like a spontaneous threesome by the time i was 30?

i dunno.

it's possible.

but, you'd have to convince me to want to do it, first.

right now, i'm 40, and i'd still cry if presented with a spontaneous threesome with somebody i cared about, i'm sure of it - but it's because i'm in the wrong body to deal with it, because i never transitioned.

i think i'd probably be a happy slut, if i had the body parts to facilitate it.

what's impossible is just approaching the issue with concepts of corrective rape and expecting me to "behave naturally" or something. that's not going to happen, i'm just going to get overwhelmed and malfunction.