i've just never seen sex as this hedonistic, pornographic, self-serving sort of thing the way she did. i always saw it as an expression of emotion, and i just couldn't grapple with the reduction of it to base hormonal release.

the way our society treats sexuality just strikes me as disgusting, through and through.

so, i don't just need a couple of dates before i'll fuck you. i need weeks - months. otherwise, what's the point? the process just grosses me out.