see, the problem with tying intelligence to achievement is that it assumes that being smart means you want to get lots of wealth.

and, if you don't realize that this obviously isn't true, then you default yourself from the start.

listen: i've taken a difficult path through life, some of it chosen and some of it not. it's given me a unique set of experiences. but, have i accomplished what i actually wanted?

well, i'm getting there.

right now what i'm trying to accomplish is twofold. first, i'm trying to complete the liner notes & aleph-discs for the first two periods of my discography, and i am making slow progress on it - slow progress, but progress. second, i'm trying to find a healthy place to live.

neither my previous basement nor the unit i'm in now have been healthy places to live, although the first was pretty good, until the new management took over. i admit i made a mistake moving into this place, and is admitting error not a sign of intelligence? we'll see if i'm able to accomplish this task on my third try or not.

but, understand the point: you can't tell me what my goals ought to be. you can't tell me what i should want, what i should dream or how i should go about accomplishing those goals or dreams. what you can do, if you insist, is measure how well i succeed at what i want to succeed at.

right now, those goals are as aforementioned.

and, i'm going to try to get some work done tonight.