i can put a sweater on if i'm cold.

dealing with the coercion of market forces is not so easy.

and, yes, i'd rather find a female landlord than a partner; i'd rather just pay rent and tell her to leave me alone.

what about buying a house, though? it would solve the problem, surely?

well, yeah - but then i'd have to go to work to pay for it. i'd rather be cold and unemployed and free than employed and warm and enslaved....

i don't need control over the thermostat, i just need somebody who has a more similar body weight to me to make those decisions.

it's just kind of a bad match.

https://news.usc.edu/157448/female-productivity-warmer-temperature/

for now, i'm freezing, and he's probably overheating at the same time.

so, i just need to find other ways to generate heat....

it's a bmi thing.

i'm an underweight transfemale; he's a fairly muscular, jockish sort of dude.

i've said this before: i need to find a female landlord, next time. living with a male is never going to work out.

to be clear - he's not withholding heat.

he just doesn't want the heat on.

i want it to be 30 degrees and humid so i can sit in my underwear; he seems to prefer 15 degrees with a breeze, which, for me, requires a winter jacket.

i wasn't sure if the rule in ontario was that you have to have the heat on until may 1st or june 1st.

it turns out it's actually june 15th.

so, i stopped this afternoon to build up the linked lists on the left side (your left, while reading it) of the music journal. i've added linked lists to records, symphonies, alephs, etc.

i tried to post that here, but it broke the formatting on this blog, so just go here to check it out:
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.com/

i fell asleep while doing it and have finished it now....

that would be a detour that spun me around a little; there were some posts at the dtk blog, as well. so, i got a little distracted. i wanted to wait to eat, but now i kind of have to. so, i'll be back to rebuilding the master document in a few hours.

something else that happened when he got home is that he turned the heat off. it was actually nice and warm in here when he was gone, but it's now freezing cold again. so, i'll need to find ways to produce heat in here, like showering more frequently.

i've been musing about finding a way out of here. maybe i'd be better off if he just sold the place....

why do people like it so cold? i don't get it.

what about the listener on my internet line?

i've been quietly checking my usage stats on a day-to-day basis all month, and they haven't been out of line. i guess my usage is a little higher just right now because of the virus - but that's the difference between 15-20 gb on a slow month, and 35-40 on a heavy month. the idea that i was going to log anything higher than 40 gb in one month was ridiculous from the start.

i checked my stats this morning, and there's no numbers for yesterday. at all...

so, in the last 12 hours, (1) my internet connection appears to have been recompromised and (2) i appear to have had somebody set up a fake kickstarter account using my email address. is it a coincidence that he just got home?

it's starting to look like i'm going to have to cut the line again, for who knows how long. i'm certainly not interested in connecting to my bank account over this line....

i was considering getting groceries today, but i'm not going anywhere until i get this figured out.

so, it seems like somebody tried to set up a fake kickstarter account using my email address under the name "marge batson".

it seems as though they were unable to verify that account.

i have since deleted it. but, i will remind you - my sites are on the side, and if i set up a new site then i'll post about it, at least, and probably add it to the side quite quickly.

this has to be china's last chance to demonstrate that it's a responsible member of the global community - before being sanctioned for refusing to be.

right now, they're best described as a bad actor.

they should take heed not to turn themselves into a rogue state.

north korea is a relatively small export market.

i don't just mean participation.

i mean enthusiastic participation.

otherwise, we should throw them out of the un and erect a total economic blockade on them, indefinitely.

we have a virus that has killed hundreds of thousands of people, and may just be getting started. nobody really questions the premise that it originated in china.

if they don't participate in an investigation as to it's origins in good faith, they should be treated as outcasts and shunned.

the chinese may cry "racism", and a lot of very stupid people may fall for it.

but, this is just another iteration of a longstanding problem, regarding their refusal to be responsible global citizens.

the premise that this is even up for debate is surreal.

also, i would call on the chinese government to pull it's head out of it's ass and realize the importance of participating in a proper investigation of the origins of the virus, with the intent of being open about accepting any recommendations that an investigation may find.

the rest of the world should have very little patience with the chinese if they resist this.

as you should expect higher per capita rates in detroit, overtaking them on that graph doesn't suggest higher levels of incidence than new york, yet - it more likely suggests higher mortality rates.

so, you can have new york well past it's peak, with detroit not quite yet there, and still have detroit with higher per capita levels.

poverty may be the root cause (well, after racism). but, the medical answer is likely diabetes.

if there are 1000 deaths in the city of detroit proper, then a .3% death rate would suggest roughly 50% of people have contracted the virus.

a .5% death rate would suggest it's more like a third.

unfortunately, this was indeed predictable.

i don't actually think that detroit has peaked yet, but it's much closer than toronto.

https://www.metrotimes.com/news-hits/archives/2020/04/29/detroit-tops-1000-coronavirus-deaths-surpasses-new-york-city-in-fatalities-per-capita

fwiw, i also drink chocolate soy in my more than a half a pot of coffee a day.

this is a little outdated.

but, my diet hasn't changed.

brace yourself.

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2017/01/also-in-long-run-ill-need-to-keep-eye.html

i don't think i've ever bought a carton of cow's milk in my life.

but, i eat a large amount of cheese.

how do i get enough c?

1) i eat a bowl of fruit daily, which includes:

- 5-6 strawberries <-----
- 20 blueberries <------
- 10 raspberries <--------
- 1 large kiwi  <--------
- 1 banana
- 1 scoop of cherry ice cream
- a bit more than the daily recommended serving of the most fortified soy milk i can find <-----

that is quite a bit of c, and i get it every single day.

2) when i make pasta, i include an entire tomato and an entire green pepper, in addition to the pasta itself. these each give me even more c. i also include a tall glass of apple juice. so, on days that i have pasta, that is in addition to the fruit bowl.

3) on days that i have eggs, my c intake would be a little lower. i heavily rely on the eggs for other nutrients, though. and, i get a lot from that bowl of fruit...

think of it like this...

your dna is elite.

it codes in c.

so, the latest round of anti-science stupidity from the fake left appears to be a denial of the efficacy of vitamin c in immune system functionality.

let's clarify a few points.

1) with the exceptions of water and glucose, vitamin c is perhaps the single most important molecule in your body. you need a lot of it.
2) your body uses vitamin c as a building block in erecting it's immune response.
3) while your body is efficient in eliminating excess amounts of it, it's almost impossible to take too much of it.

so, should you take it as a prophylactic, then? the right answer is actually yes - or, at least, sort of.

the most correct thing to say is twofold: (1) a vitamin c deficiency will certainly increase your risk of getting sick and (2) if you do get sick, you will certainly need a sufficient amount of c to successfully defeat it.

if you eat a halfways healthy diet, you get plenty of c and shouldn't worry much about it.

but, if you survive on restaurant food and pantry items, then you should strongly consider modifying your diet to get more c, for sure, and might even consider taking pills, if you can't, for whatever reason.

will it work as a treatment? i'd argue it very well might, in patients with severe deficiencies that should otherwise be able to beat it fairly easily. i'd be specifically looking at relatively young people with diseases like diabetes, which are caused by eating garbage and are known to be a major risk factor. these people are almost certainly not getting enough c, and it is almost certainly a factor in their higher levels of vulnerability. it may very well be the case, in the end, that vitamin deficiency is the reason patient a dies and patient b lives.

with c, you would have to prescribe regular doses, and you'd have to get the disease at an early enough stage that your body can still beat it on it's own. further, it should not be seen as an end-all, or a reason not to move to more advanced treatments.

i would not expect that vitamin c would help much with very old patients, or patients that are very advanced. but, i don't think anybody would expect that it would...

if prescribing vitamin c is probably a good idea, and is very low risk, why is this idea being attacked by the corporate media and it's shills on the fake left?

my best guess is that it threatens to cut into profit margins for pharmaceutical companies.

c is cheap, and it's good for you.

make sure you're getting enough of it.

so, i slept later than i wanted to again this evening, and decided i'd get the local section of the master document done first, before moving on to eat...

then, i heard somebody upstairs, and realized they were smoking. so, i took a very, very long shower...

hopefully, the air quality holds overnight, and i'm able to get some work done while it does.

he's been gone for weeks. i don't know if he was in quarantine, or what...

why is the washington post, specifically, so insistent that we adopt fascism permanently?

democracy does, indeed, die in darkness - but that's supposed to be a stark warning, not a hopeful prediction.

i've largely avoided the bezos hate-on, but this is a paper that clearly needs more responsible ownership.

we should protect the weak, yes.

we shouldn't let their needs dominate, or define the response.

do we need a re-evaluation of morals on this continent?

we'll, i'd argue we already had one, and we're kind of in a point of flux regarding which side really wins the debate. we're in the midst of a major generational overturn, that's being muddled and confused by increasing levels of slave morality via mass immigration.

like nietszche, i'm not a nihilist. i'd rather call for the rationalization of christian morality, and would even settle for a sort of re-embrace of natural law, at least to start, than an embrace of master morality. i'm not a christian at all, but i am a secular humanist. christianity actually has a history, however flawed, of using logic and reason to uncover right from wrong, and that's actually the tradition i'd most identify as being a part of.

but, any roman emperor would consider what we're doing to be insane, and i'm certainly leaning in that direction, myself.

but, the nature of the problem means that you have to wait for the simulation to end before you can draw valid conclusions.

i think they're probably doing this better - and i have a stronger level of identification with the value system underlying their approach.

but, we'll need to wait to see.

i can follow nietszche in setting out two basic concepts of morality - a slave morality which comes from evolutionary pressures attached to the settled, agricultural areas of the middle east and a master morality which comes from evolutionary pressures attached to nomadic civilizations, like the mongolians or the indo-europeans.

in reality, cultures are mixes of these ideas. so, the romans and greeks both initially followed very dominant master moralities, before having it softened up due to the effects of being settled into agriculture, something that ended with christianization (but started with plato). sweden is not what it was 1000 years ago, but it was arguably never fully christianized, so that difference in values is still very real.

i would have identified with the franks in 476.

and, i'll identify with the swedes, now.

sorry.

"but, values are universal."

that's fucking nonsense...

but, let's be clear on the point.

i know this is a false dichotomy, but let's over-simplify, anyways.

if you think that freedom is a more important value than security, you're a liberal; if you think that security is a more important value than freedom, you're a conservative.

stated tersely: i don't think there's any meaningful evidence right now that what sweden is doing is worse from a public health standpoint, but we'll have to wait and see. it's not going to be until or if death counts in sweden start to tick up over 20,000 that grounds to second guess the approach will have any merit.

but, it's clearly been far less invasive on people's freedom.

in the end, what the more important concern is is a value judgement, and the following may be a valid deduction when this is over: swedish values are a little different than elsewhere.

so, when the who says that sweden may be a model moving forward, are they on to something?

i'd say they are - it's backing up what i said previously.

but, they should probably stay mum for a bit longer; i'm an anarchist with a blog, they're the world health organization. we have somewhat different standards, and their's at least shouldn't be met, yet.

how is sweden doing?

well, you could be naive and just divide the number of deaths by the number of cases. but, we know that's a horribly retarded analysis, at this point. rather, as deaths are a direct metric and official government case counts are basically worthless information, what you need to do is try to calculate an accurate number of cases via the number of deaths, and an estimate of the mortality rate.

a good estimate of the mortality rate right now is between 0.1-0.5%. this is somewhere between the seasonal flu and the spanish flu, but much closer to the spanish flu.

so, an off the cuff calculation would suggest they have between 500,000-2,500,000 cases.

"but, that means they're failing. look at all of the cases."

again - that's based on the idea that you can burn the virus out, which we know is a horribly retarded opinion. as the population of sweden is around 10.25 million, that would suggest that between 5%-25% of the population is now immune to the virus, at least until it mutates.

at 66% for protective immunity, i would suggest a lower bound for the death toll would be about 6800 in the end.

now, is it fair to compare sweden to new york city? well, sweden is a country, and new york city is a city. that means that sweden has varying population densities, and new york city doesn't. the north of sweden is even basically a different country. the answer is "no, not really".

what kind of numbers do you get by doing the same analysis on data from the united states? the answer is that there are probably between 12 million and 62 million cases in the united states, indicating there's between 4%-19% immunity.

"so, if america has lower immunity, then it's winning. the lockdowns are working! hooray!"

well, they don't say americans are stupid without evidence, right?

these are marginal differences, in truth. but, i'd rather get to immunity faster, meaning i'd argue that sweden is winning.

what about canada?

calculating case counts from the death toll and a reasonable mortality rate, you're looking at between 600,000 and 3,000,000 actual cases - most in the detroit-quebec city corridor. that's 2%-8% immunity. so, unfortunately, canada would be rather far behind on building immunity, right now - but immunity is probably much higher in the more populated regions, even if it lags behind in the rural areas.

note: these calculations are extremely haphazard, in that you probably shouldn't compare the entirety of sweden to the entirety of the united states or the entirety of canada, even if it's better than comparing the entirety of sweden to the city of new york.

so, the number of deaths from the flu per year in new york is fairly constant at around 4500.

it would seem that a number below 50 would be more reasonable.

so, they should have a ways to go, still.

https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/states/newyork/newyork.htm

they're only reporting deaths under 6.

a very rough takeaway from this is that they found around 1,000 cases of flu in the state of new york over the last seven days, this time last year. this was a 50% decline from the week before.

but, that number is better comparable to the number of people walking into the hospital than the number of cases, because.....you don't get tested when you get the flu, do you? they only test the worst cases...

they're getting around that walking in, daily.

i'd like to find an actual death count before i speculate.

https://www.health.ny.gov/diseases/communicable/influenza/surveillance/2018-2019/archive/2019-04-27_flu_report.pdf

how many deaths/day does new york expect to see from the flu this time of year?

i'm asking this because you should not expect deaths to reach zero, there. like, ever.

so, what is a "normal" or "acceptable" daily death rate?

50? 100? 200?

if it flattens at 300, you might have to concede to the empirical truth; that might be your answer.

and, don't say "zero". that's just wrong.

when people talk about a "second wave", they're implicitly referencing the 1918 flu outbreak.

so, realize this - the second wave was a mutation.

it is true that if the virus mutates, your antibodies will be of minimal use in protecting you. so, it's exceedingly important that these changes are carefully monitored. they consequently need as many samples as possible.

it is also true that a successful mutation would require that the vaccine process be rebooted. they'd have to start all over again...

you won't burn this virus out, so staying inside won't prevent a second wave. however, increasing testing to the absolute maximum possible might help, if they can catch it quickly.

https://www.investing.com/news/coronavirus/new-york-maps-coronavirus-genome-to-help-track-future-outbreaks-2154900

the number of cases that doug ford gives you on a daily basis is completely useless information.

it's the death rate that is meaningful, and it continues to be on an upward trajectory.

obviously, we can't wait two years for a vaccine - which means that the supposed best case scenario is for us to get to herd immunity the slow way.

"flattening the curve" is not even supposed to burn the virus out, it's just supposed to slow it down a little.

there's only two ways to burn a virus out, and they both involve the widespread presence of immunity.

no, this was thought through - after sars.

nobody did their homework.

reading their twitter feed was far easier.

apparently, people are hoarding by maxing out their credit cards.

....which means they're all using the machine, in line.

and, the exchange of cash would hardly be better, would it?

it's not reducible to a six foot spread, either - whether the virus is airborne or not.

people will touch their noses at some point, then use the debit machine. or, they'll go to the bank machine before they go in.

if you're lucky - lucky - you can slow it down.

but, stopping it is hopeless.

we knew that. we had documents that told us it. we ignored them.

i can't think of anything that could be more high risk than a grocery store.

everybody goes there - healthy or sick, symptomatic or not. you couldn't define a better transmission vector if you tried; if your goal was to spread a virus, you would set up grocery stores to distribute food.

i'm not saying they should have shut down the grocery stores, i'm pointing out that our own white papers and planning documents made it clear that you can't stop transmission, you have to adjust to it.

the public response to this is increasingly reflective of the definition of insanity.

but, despite the policy being designed by actuaries to minimize risk, they bet everything on it.

again: i don't want people to die. but, we had white papers that told us this wouldn't work - which we completely ignored, to listen to evan solomon, and follow the herd on social media.

it shouldn't be surprising that this isn't working - the science was crystal clear that it wouldn't.

so, all i'm really saying is that we should have followed our own policies - and that, next time, we'd better learn the lesson that we thought we learned last time.

so, they're starting to realize that social distancing really isn't working.

the solution?

more social distancing.

and, they say i'm insane.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/contracting-covid19-ontario-1.5548087

if you're new here and you like the track i posted, there's more here:

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/stuck-in-the-middle-of-an-alley-closing-in-on-all-sides

my hydro bill this month was -$16.00. and, i did a ton of laundry, too.

enwin now owes me $6.00. two months ago, i had a $60 bill that i was planning on slowly eating away at via careful conservation. now, i'm hoping to build that credit up so i can turn my gear back on relatively soon.

i don't know if things go back to normal in mid-may or not. there was an announcement by the board that they would, but ford claimed otherwise soon after. i don't see any further press releases.

so, i've been slow to get started today, after struggling with awakeness. i don't know. i haven't been smelling any drugs....

i might have just needed to catch up on some rest.

i uploaded an (i think.) unreleased midi remix of stuck in the middle of an alley closing in on all sides as the dummy track for the next journal, yesterday morning:

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/01-2014-music-journal

hopefully, i can get some work done today before nodding off.

i've been clear that i think that religion should have been the first thing cancelled, but it was always with an assumption towards voluntarism. i never suggested throwing anybody in jail...

but, this demonstrates the futility of it - a lesson that the authoritarian left failed to learn after many attempts. look at russia, for the worst example - a genuinely well placed effort to systematically eradicate religion just brought it back even stronger.

it also demonstrates the broader folly of trying to order people around.

so long as there's a demand for this product, people will continue to purchase it.

https://nypost.com/2020/04/26/louisiana-pastor-blows-social-distancing-to-hold-sunday-service/

well, they've got lots of beds all of a sudden, right?

https://nypost.com/2020/04/28/de-blasio-demands-mta-close-subways-for-homeless-clearance/

ok, they're doing it.

good.

now, we wait.

https://nypost.com/2020/04/28/antibody-tests-are-being-rolled-out-across-new-york-city/

blood curdling yet?

and, if you didn't get the quip regarding kim il-sung singing whitney houston, i'll repost this:

we will never bury the 80s.

it's 80s retro night, again.

forever.

you don't think this ends here, do you?

kiiiiiiim

will

always

love

yooooooooouuuuuuoooooouuuuooooaaaaayyyyy..

*coughing fit*

they talk like it really matters.

what they should do is create a holographic projection of kim il sung, claim he came back from the dead, infer immortality upon him and just let the military stop worrying about it.

https://nypost.com/2020/04/28/kim-jong-uns-uncle-emerges-as-possible-successor-in-north-korea/

the most recent numbers i've seen from new york city are over 25% now, with the same 3-4% margin of error, suggesting it could be higher than 30% - and getting closer to my deductions.

there was also an antibody study that suggests 30% in a small area of boston, which i'm going to agree looks a little bit shady. but, you have to understand that error works in both directions. pointing out that the sample may be unrepresentative necessarily means that it's just as likely to be an underestimate as it is to be an overestimate. so, that particular neighbourhood might have seen substantive spread through a specific grocery outlet, for example - and the true number in that region could be 40% or higher.

we need more testing...

but, don't ignore the data or write it off as "unreliable". that's bad form.

they keep testing people, and while the results are variable, the conclusions are consistent - way, way, way more people have already gotten this thing than previously realized.

https://www.sciencemag.org/news/2020/04/antibody-surveys-suggesting-vast-undercount-coronavirus-infections-may-be-unreliable

so, i guess i had covid-19 before it was cool.

what else would you expect?

we don't have heresies in science.

we have debate and discussion - and we win via persuasion, not force.

i lost my sense of smell and everything.

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/plaid-was-show-that-i-was-looking.html

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-had-to-sleep-this-afternoon.html
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-spent-morning-cleaning-and-i-ended-up.html

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-spent-little-time-on-friday-morning.html

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/so-im-sick-and-am-dealing-with-it.html
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/when-i-woke-up-on-sunday-night-around.html
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/how-am-i-doing-ive-been-up-since-i.html
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-am-feeling-better-absolutely.html

what if they stay shut down in toronto and los angeles and see a rapid ramp up, anyways?

well, that's what i think we're about to see.

and, we'll all have to learn the right lessons from that.

i'm going to repeat myself a little, to clarify the point i'm making.

this is a jpg of an earlier image i posted, scrawled over slightly in a javascript clone of microsoft's paint.

new york is bigger and more densely populated than anywhere else on this continent, so the numbers in new york will inevitably be bigger than anywhere else. so, we can scratch the numbers out, along with the dates. it's the shape of the curve you want to look at...

we have been getting mixed messages about where we are on this curve in places like toronto and los angeles, with some suggestions that we are passing the peak. that's where the green arrow points.

however, i think these suggestions are past the point of optimistic and are rather just flat out delusional. deaths are piling up in both of these places, at higher rates, not lower rates. lower case counts are probably better explained in both jurisdictions by under-testing than they are by decreasing transmission rates.

further, it would seem as though the introduction of the virus into new york was very, very early - which is why it peaked very, very early, relative to other jurisdictions. toronto is probably not days behind new york, as the green arrow would suggest, but weeks - or even months.

rather, i think we're in the part of the curve that the red arrow points to.

we'll see who is right over the next seven to ten days or so.

my track record, so far, has been pretty good...but it's your prerogative as to what you should believe and what you shouldn't. don't take me or anybody else on authority. what do you think, based on the evidence presented to you?

if toronto and los angeles are where the red arrow points, it would mean that cities like calgary and winnipeg are at an even earlier stage. they may not peak in calgary until july. i suspect that detroit and montreal are both further along, but are not at the peak quite yet. i got very sick in detroit in early december....

so, what does that mean for re-opening?

first, you have to realize that it means that much of the country shut down too early, and is now talking about reopening before they peak. is that potentially catastrophic? is it worse than staying shut down until the fall?

see, i'm not yet sold on the efficacy of any of these measures, so i'm not yet sold on the idea that any of these measures have made any difference, or that staying shut down will reduce transmission, much. it's easy to say "this is working", but we don't know that, yet.

if they ease up in toronto and see a spike in cases, they may very well blame it on easing up too early and call it a "second wave". but, i need to insist on rigour, here - there's no convincing evidence of a peak, and, rather, quite a bit of evidence to the contrary. that "second wave" may actually be the initial wave cresting.

i would favour re-opening, with specific measures taken to protect the weak. but, there's no clearly correct answer at this point, and the responses need to be strictly regional to account for it.

my reaction to the modeling update in canada is that they're still over-estimating the mortality rate by about a factor of 10, despite apparently having roughly halved it. i'm not going to repeat myself.

i'd guess around 2-3% of the population is already infected, but that is national, and a bad calculation, conceptually - it would be lower than that in areas like manitoba or saskatchewan, and higher than that in the 401 corridor. as mentioned, off the cuff calculations suggest that the gta could be nearing 20%, even as swift current is still less than 1%.

as the nature of how this disease spreads is inherently local, it's probably a bad idea to rely on federal modeling, and i'm not really going to blame the feds for bad modelling - asking them to do this is actually really the wrong approach. you don't even really want to even look at provincial models, except maybe in small provinces like pei. the six major provinces in this country are each geographically equivalent to the order of 10-15 different states, and the low population density just exacerbates the point. you really want to look specifically at cities, and metropolitan areas.

there are areas of canada that are so remote and so sparsely populated, that they might not have serious epidemics at all and, if they do, may only see first waves in the fall. even a city like thunder bay, which is a substantive population centre, is unlikely to be experiencing much through traffic of the sort that spreads disease.

it's cities like toronto, montreal, calgary and vancouver (as well as border cities like windsor and niagara falls) that are potentially moving into the upswing of the curve over this week and the next, and that you shouldn't be expecting to peak for quite a while, still.

but, the basic analysis is that when you take diverse data sets and combine them too much, you water them down, and just create a worthless mess. that's what the updated federal models are doing - but that's all they ever could do. rather, you need to separate the data very carefully and look at things hyper-locally....

so, if i tell you it's propaganda, you should realize that it's intended to be.

i mentioned yesterday that i was unexpectedly tired, and i did sleep for quite a while. i'm still less awake than i'd like to be. but, i think i'm awake, and i'm just going to get to it.

he says he was being "sarcastic", which is....listen, everybody's known for years that americans do not understand irony.

he should have used the word facetious, instead. it's at least an explanation. i'll cite occam's razor on this.

so, do you blame jim jones for the massacre? the idiots willingly drank it...

what is the opposite hypothesis - that we shouldn't question the president? that we should just shut up and do what he says, and blame him if he he's wrong?

you can keep your bacon cheeseburgers with french fries under the bun. but, that would be the end of the american revolution, wouldn't it?

he's right: you need to take responsibility for your own actions. the absurdity of the scenario is just demonstrative of the point....

yeah.

i think we need a darwin award for this one, really.

personally, i was thinking about injecting lysol, but where am i going to find a needle when everything is under lockdown?

https://www.ctvnews.ca/world/trump-said-he-takes-no-responsibility-for-any-spike-in-people-using-disinfectants-improperly-1.4914851

This marks the lowest number of patients reported in a single day since April 13, but the highest death count since the province began tracking cases daily earlier this year.

well, what does that tell you about testing loads?

we're going to end up with a 20% death rate due to undertesting...and it's not an accident....

let's hope it doesn't get too awful this week.

but, you need to brace for the reality that it probably will.

https://toronto.ctvnews.ca/ontario-confirms-57-more-deaths-sees-decrease-in-new-covid-19-cases-for-3rd-straight-day-1.4913266

so, these were the re-releases from jan, 2014 that i'm working on, now:

1) the liquify single, newly split off from inrimake (see entry 3). this is now inri031. this is dated to the summer of 1999. it was remastered in 2017.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/liquify-ep

2) the book it! single, newly split off from inridiculous (see entry 4). this is now inri034. this is dated to late 1999.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/book-it-single

3) the newly expanded and finalized inrimake, without the liquify single (entry 1), which is download only. this is a covers & remixes collection, entirely unauthorized. it's now inri032. this is dated to late 1999, but some of the material was from 1998.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrimake-covers-lp-2

4) my third official record, inridiculous, was uploaded without modification, except to strip out the last track into the book it! single (entry 2). this is now inri033. i did not even remaster this record. this is dated to late 1999, but some of the material was from as far back as 1996.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inridiculous

5) the inricycled b compilation was initially released in parallel to inricycled a as a way to salvage material from the 1997-1999 period that i thought was otherwise unworkable. when i realized in 2015 that i could actually remaster this material from tape, this compilation was deleted from my discography by appending it to the inrijected collection, inri022. i suppose the compilation dates to jan, 2014, even if the material is raided from 1996-1999.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/inricycled-b

6) the let freedom ring single, newly created from a discarded remix of a track on deny everything (see entry 11) that included martin luther king and doonesbury samples. this is now inri036. this is dated to late 1999 and early 2000. it was updated in 2017.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/let-freedom-ring-ep

7) the first ever release of the full curious george suite in it's original form, which was thought lost until it was found later in the year. this is dated to the spring of 2000. it is now inri037.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-curious-george-suite-ep

8) the ignorance is bliss single, with a comprehensive exploration of remixes of the track over the period of 2000-2014. the track was first written in 2000, but the lead track at this time was recreated from source in early 2014. it was updated with a final lead mix in 2017. this is inri038.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ignorance-is-bliss-ep-single

9) my fourth symphony, released in final standalone form as the acidosis ep, for the first time. this recording was created in the summer of 2000 and has not been modified since. this is inri039.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/acidosis-ep

10) i also had to split off a separate curious george single, as the sample version did not exist until late 2000 and neither makes sense in the context of the suite, nor in the context of the record (now without any samples). this is a comprehensive collection of remixes created after 2000. this is inri040.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/curious-george-single

11) my fourth official record, deny everything, was initially created near the end of 2000 out of material created since late 1999. this record was re-released several times between 2000 and 2014; this is the final version, void of all vocal samples, except the star trek sample in gravity's rainbow. this is inri041.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/deny-everything-lp

12) my truncated experimental guitar experiment, an ep called j's adventures in guitarland, was one of the first things i uploaded to bandcamp back in 2010. it was re-released without further modification at this time. these are renaissance guitar pieces that i recorded in 2001. this is inri045.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/js-adventures-in-guitarland-ep

...which means that i'm also finally ready to build the master document for january.

well, if i can recalibrate to understand what i was actually doing, anyways.

this is going to be tricky because i'm splitting tasks between the chromebook, which is online, and the pc, which is not. again: i don't connect my pcs to the internet at all. it's just not safe.

it's just going to mean an extra step in compiling....

so, i got a quick short list down, but there's actually nothing in it that would have been higher than 50/50. and, i think i was leaning towards mostly skipping movement this year, as well.

i'm going to work through it carefully before i do up some mock reviews at the deathtokoalas blog.

ok.

i've eaten and showered and tried to drink some coffee, but i'm oddly still sleepier than i should be. more coffee. more coffee. more....

it's getting better, i think.

i did try a few more versions of chrome on the 90s laptop as a backup, and it just spun out on me, indicating i'm missing some kind of internal files. that means that, if it turns out to be unworkable after all, i'll have to go to the next level of complexity in the image. i might be missing some directx files or something...

it's somehow the end of april already, so the next thing to do is build the list of shows that i can't go to in may - which should be shorter than usual, for obvious reasons.

the who has apparently quietly walked back it's outlandish claims that there's no evidence that the presence of antibodies suggests immunity.

expect the associated retractions to be buried on page 57 of the new york times.

maybe you might require such a retraction before you believe it. but, any political leader that fell for that should be embarrassed, and any public health expert that fell for it should resign.

if you're stressed out, you can always get a chiropractor.

or talk it through with a psychotherapist.

now is the time to be skeptical, more than ever.

they fucked up, and they're going to lie about it.

or, how about the question of transmission in the presence of antibodies?

are we going to sit here and watch the prime minister tell reporters that the germ theory of disease is alternative medicine, on his way to yoga class?

this might be the single biggest fuck up in public policy in the country's entire history.

the damage control will be intense.

it was, in fact, not very long ago that the likes of theresa tam were telling us that we should expect more than 40% infection rates within a short period of time.

it's now almost a short period of time later....

they might backtrack, but they were right the first time.

they are in some trouble, here.

they've borderline ruined the country trying to shut down a virus that's almost as contagious as the measles, and roughly as deadly as the flu.

so, they've got a major catastrophe of their own making on their hands.

what we know of this government is that they'll spin doctor everything they can until they can't get away with it anymore, so expect massive levels of face-saving bullshit for months.

and, i'll do what i can to cut through it and draw attention to what the actual science actually says.

i've said this from the start: the function of this site is to keep the fuckers honest.

i'll let you decide if it's reliable or not.

on one side, you have a slew of peer-reviewed papers and a developing scientific consensus.

on the other side, you have the government of canada, as led by a trust fund kid and a couple of truly amateur spin doctors.

which of these two options exists in an alternative reality?

the scientific consensus? or the government?

i have posted numerous peer-reviewed or pre-print studies that draw attention to the increased contagiousness and decreased mortality of the disease.

the government needs to accept this data and adjust to it, not pretend it's an "alternative theory".

i mean, alternative to what? the government models? lol.

it's the government that's in an alternative reality, but that's the status quo, isn't it?

the scientific consensus right now is that there are very high infection rates in most places (certainly much higher than reported), and this is variable on geography and connectivity. so, toronto would have much higher infection rates than moose jaw or swift current - for now.

how much higher? that's what we don't know yet.

we need to do antibody testing to put proper bounds on this, but the consensus is that it is many orders of magnitude greater than has been tested for directly, or ever could be - 50x, 80x, 100x.

certainly, 10% would be a lower bound for cities right now, based on data from sewage. but, just based on the death rate in ontario, which is about 900, infection rates around 20% are very easy to calculate with off the cuff calculations. this is the consensus opinion, and has been from the start, regardless of what your twitter feed says.

am i a reliable source?

well, it depends on what i'm citing, doesn't it?

i think i tend to base my analysis and deduction on fairly reliable evidence, but i'll leave it up to you to work that out.

you'd be daft to ever, ever believe a politician, though - they are the absolute worst source of information out there.

unreliable sources: politicians, tv personalities, celebrities, advertisements, news media, memes, social media.

reliable sources: scientific journals & academics interpreting them.

every day, more and more science is being published that debunks the ridiculous narrative put forward by our governments - a narrative that educated people knew from the start was tentative at best, and in truth clearly outlandish.

they can't continue along this path very much longer, before they fall into the realm of conspiracy theory.

we've seen the likes of chrystia freeland do this before, with counter-factual narratives about venezuela, as one example.

we need to stay vigilant, here.

we need to stay skeptical.

the science in the journals takes precedent over the narratives by the media and government, or viral memes on social media. let's not forget that, as they increasingly diverge, and our governments increasingly fall into nonsense-based delusions.

you should not turn to your political leaders, or your television set, to understand science.

please consult more reliable sources.

however, very high infection rates - over 20% - are not an "alternate theory". that's what the science actually says, and has said all along.

rather, it's this idea being spread in the media that there are very low infection rates, along with the efficacy of social distancing and "flattening the curve", that are an "alternative theory" that is not aligned with the facts or with the scientific consensus.

science is not worked out on msnbc, it's worked out in peer-reviewed journals - and the latter has not upheld the narrative in the former.

saskatchewan has not seen the kind of numbers yet that would be reflective of widespread infection and immunity.

in north america, the only place where that seems to be true at this point are a handful of major cities that include new york for certain, and potentially detroit. it is likely far more widespread in europe.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/saskatchewan/u-of-r-biology-prof-draws-ire-of-sask-scientists-1.5541748

we can talk about bell's inequality later.

but, for now just chew this through - just because a statistical analysis that models a phenomenon as random works relatively well in deriving correct answers doesn't mean that that the phenomenon is truly random.

so, i'm eating before i shower and move on, and we're back to this again, which i'm just starting over from the start.

the gravitation example of F=mg is actually quite useful, because we know that newton's cosmology does not have infinite precision at all, but is rather governed by error relating to what we call the n-body problem. in a newtonian approach to this problem, however deprecated, we need to work in the effects of perturbations from the sun, jupiter and all of the other planetary bodies in order to come up with a perfect orbit, which is not spherical or elliptical at all but, rather, a bumpy and chaotic ride through extreme turbulence.

the point i want to get across is this - in the context of newton's theory, we don't consider this to be "randomness". it's a very hard problem, certainly - unsolvable, in fact. the best we can do is make guesses using differential equations. however, if we didn't understand gravity, we could model the problem using a statistical analysis, and replace the physics that we know exists and call gravity with randomness. and, you know what? we'd get something that's startlingly accurate, if we did that.

just think that through a bit.

there's another test, the situational judgement test, which evaluates how you behave in the workplace.

i've failed this test repeatedly, and would probably fail it again if asked to write it, now.

as far as i can tell, i just fundamentally disagree with the answers in such a way that i can't actually grasp how to answer the scenarios correctly - i don't think i'm failing a judgement test, so much as i think i'm failing a values test. you'd have to send me to boot camp....

but, maybe my answers are actually correct - maybe the government is wrong.

i'm sleepy this evening and i'm not sure why, but let's try to get some coffee and wake up.

my dad was proud of his gct2 score - he thought it proved he was smart. and, it helped him with the jobs he applied for.

i don't doubt him when he said it was higher than the people he managed.

like i say - he was worried. but, he wasn't expecting that, either.

i've wondered many times since if the reason they didn't call me back was actually because the score was too high.

i think i've told you the story about the gct2 test.

the gct2 test is a basic iq test for the canadian public service, so a very large number of canadians have written it and know what it is. i don't think i ever wrote the gct1 test. i last wrote the gct2 some time around 2007 or 2008, for an entry level position with statscan, which i caved in and applied for after getting nagged about it for however long.

my father was keenly interested in the results of this test because everybody knows that you never beat your dad at chess. he projected confidence that he'd score higher, but you could tell he was worried. so, i had to deal with daily haranguing from him ("did you get the score yet?") for what seemed like months...

i'll never forget the reaction.

he wouldn't actually tell me his mark until he saw mine, he just told me i wouldn't beat it because it was higher than anybody he knew.

"did you get it? did you get it?"

it finally came in the form of a letter, and was 80/90, which is 89%. that's not that high a grade for me, so i'm initially not that impressed with myself. i knew the pass was 51/90, so i'm at least feeling good about the job, depending on the competition. so, i'm figuring he's bragging because he got somewhere in the 70s or 80s. you don't beat your dad at chess. so, i rounded up..

"yeah, it came in today. i got a 90, which i guess is not bad."

what?

"yeah, i could have maybe done a little better if i wasn't so tired, but hopefully that gets me an interview."

it's out of 90. you didn't get 90.

"no, i got 90 percent. it was 80/90."

he changed the topic very quickly, and i don't know what he actually got; he never brought it up again.

but, i get to the interview and the interviewer actually thinks it's a typo.

"that must be 80%, which is itself very high. a pass is 51. when i hire managers, they need to get over 70. i've never even heard of a score that high. we're going to get that checked..."

i didn't hear anything back from the interview, but nobody corrected the score.

i've looked this up since, and that mark is in the 99th percentile.

i had the same thing happen when we did standardized testing in elementary school, midway through the sixth grade. the teacher just did not believe the results when they came through. but, they were what they were.

are iq tests that useful? probably not, no. but, when you consistently ace them, it does tell you something.

so, i've frequently been frustrated for being misunderstood. maybe it's not your fault.

(edit - i can't find the document, so the exact numbers are from memory and they might be somewhat off. but, the scope of the story is the idea i'm trying to get across. the 99th percentile bit is precise, at least.)

i tell people i have three degrees, but it's a gloss.

i have an actual diploma for a b. mathematics, 2006. my first & second year grades were reflective of reality, i wasn't really engaged. some As, some Bs. i then ended up homeless over third year due to being thrown out of the house (my step-mother may claim otherwise, but i was thrown out for being transgendered), and found myself trying to juggle getting through the third year of an honours degree in mathematics, while living on my girlfriend's floor - my grades were reflective of the reality of the situation. but, when i finally got things back to some semblance of normality, i got very high marks in fourth year, which allowed me to graduate with a strong B+.

when you look at my transcript, it's straight Ds in third year and straight As in 4th year - unusual, and reflective of an odd underlying reality.

when i applied for grad school, i tried to get the point across - i was homeless in third year, and math is hard anyways, and especially when you're struggling to find somewhere safe to sleep. in hindsight, i wonder if those essays hindered more than helped. i didn't really have a class analysis at the time; i just assumed the school administrators were all far leftists and would see the obvious need to be empathetic. rather, what people saw was no doubt a B+ student with uneven grades, not an A student that got screwed over by a bigoted stepmother that literally told her to starve to death for being queer.

within a few years, i'd decided i was happier working part time in a call center doing surveys than i would be with a full time job, anyways. it was enough to pay the rent, and i had a lot of free time to write and record. for perhaps the first time in my life, i was actually legitimately happy, and it came via rejecting labour rather than embracing it. i really changed a lot in those years.

my father, however, was not satisfied with the scenario, and he continually badgered me to apply for government jobs that i didn't actually want. he even tried to buy me a car at one point to make me a better management candidate (which i turned down - i told him that if he wanted to throw money at me, he should pay my student debt down, which he declined. i had no interest in a vehicle, whatsoever; i didn't, and still don't, even have a driver's license. i didn't want to be anybody's boss.). i was, i think, the first person in his extended family to ever graduate from university, and he didn't seem to understand why i wasn't instantly transformed into the monopoly guy once i got my diploma - he'd been told his whole life that education was the way out of poverty, and was baffled to watch his oldest child get through school with decent grades and then end up worse off than he was, given that he never even graduated high school. my mother was an army brat and did not graduate high school, either. when i managed to convince him that an undergraduate degree in math with a B+ average isn't exactly the most impressive education, he just reacted by trying to send me to grad school. he was insistent that i'd go to school and get ahead through it.

he was delusional; that's not how our society works. rather, you're born into your place, and there's not much you can do about it. i am the offspring of poor, uneducated people. going to school and "working my way up" is no solution to that, and you'd have to be daft to actually think otherwise. my father was lucky enough to marry into the middle class, but it then predictably rejected me as unworthy. i'm exactly what i had little choice but to be...

so, the reason it didn't work was his wife's fault, in the first place. most third year students that find themselves homeless due to conflicts with their stupid parents don't end up graduating at all - i'm the exception. but, it wasn't enough. those Ds are there forever.

i actually didn't want to go to grad school anymore and, by that time, i was old enough and independent enough to tell him "no.". i had an apartment downtown that i liked, a job across the street that paid the bills and tons of free time to spend on things i actually cared about; i didn't want to move back to the suburbs to live in his basement and work towards a math degree to get a job i didn't want (and probably wouldn't get, anyways). i was legitimately happy for probably the first time, and didn't actually want things to change. i had finally defined myself in terms i was happy about, in ways that transcended the childishness of careerism.

in the middle of 2008, just before the economy crashed, he managed to talk me into it by presenting me with a bribe: if i'd only agree to go back to school, he'd pay the tuition out of his savings account and pay my rent, as well. but, i'd have to get straight As.

i decided that that was even better than things were. that was a huge mistake...

so, carleton let me back in on a qualifying year with that B+, because they at least knew me and realized i did good work most of the time. if i could get straight As in the qualifying year, as i did in 4th year, i could start the master's degree the next year. but, i got cold feet before it started.

i looked at the potential outcomes and bailed - i interpreted the outcome, a job at cra, as an absolute death sentence. i just couldn't go through with it. nor did i want to be an academic. if i was going to do this, i wanted a job in the private sector, in the end. living in ottawa, all of the private sector jobs were technology-oriented. so, i switched into an undergraduate computer science program, instead.

then, the market crashed and my father bailed on me, forcing me to take out a student loan at the last minute in order to pay my rent. he promised he'd pay it down when the economy recovered, but he never did. i've been broke without caring much ever since. that loan is now somewhere near $100,000, and he's long dead.

so, yes, i went back in 2008 and eventually got 19.5/20 credits for a computer science degree at a very high gpa (around 95%.) before deciding that i didn't want to do it anymore. i spent the last several semesters getting through the requirements of a three year sociology of law degree. i didn't graduate from either program. while i was in the computer science program, i also took enough graduate level math courses as electives to complete a master's degree, but i did not consider having that formally acknowledged. a large number of these courses would be categorized as "computer math".

rather, i was accepted into disability at the end of 2012 and realized that this is what i actually wanted out of life - financial stability, and the freedom to exist outside of the constraints of careerism. so, i essentially dropped out of school to go on odsp - because i interpreted that as a preferable path, as a way out of careerism.

so, yes - i essentially have a programming degree. but, i'm really not very techy.

it's a reality of capitalism - we need to center our labour aspirations around market demand. i didn't choose that subject out of a legitimate interest in it, i chose it because it looked like that's where the jobs were.

in the years since, i haven't kept up, but it's not because i lost interest - it's because i didn't have any interest in the first place.

if i could do it over again, i would have stayed in the part time job and told my father to fuck off.

it seems like my appointment is going to need to be rescheduled, although i cannot reach anybody at this number, and haven't been able to for years.

i was scheduling everything around the appointment. i guess i'll need to schedule it around my next estrogen pickup mid-month, instead.

and, on second thought, it seems like i'm napping...

so, this is what was happening, apparently.

and, that's a fairly recent thing.

there doesn't appear to be an active chromium-for-xp fork to use as a backup, meaning i need any alternative to chrome to both have tls 1.2 and be xp compatible, in addition to being html5 compliant. vivaldi 1.0 is the last xp version, and it's not tls 1.2 compliant. uc might be useful for xp, but i'm a little apprehensive about downloading a browser from china, still.

so, it seems like the best back up still remains chrome - spyware and all.

https://www.ghacks.net/2019/10/02/tls-1-0-and-1-1-deprecation-chrome-to-display-your-connection-is-not-fully-secure-warnings/

the javascript is indeed still somewhat of a problem, which is partly because youtube is a pig with javascript, and partly due to the age of the machine. you can't turn that off, either.

but, the choppiness issue seems to be mostly fixed...

it works, at least - and it was updated at the beginning of this month. so, this is certainly my best option, so long as it runs smoothly enough to be usable.

ok.

i'm behind on eating again, so i'm going to focus on that before i get in the shower and probably crash.

so, i would have liked to get a bit more done today, certainly. but, if this solution holds, then it's at least a major step in the right direction towards being able to do the rather normal thing of making my self something to eat and watching a youtube stream at the table while i'm eating it. if i don't have to think about that anymore, it should be a step towards greater productivity in finishing the liner notes up.

if not, i think what i've learned is that my only other real option is to hone in on the correct older version of chrome.

there's some more people talking the issue out over here:
https://www.vogons.org/viewtopic.php?t=68054

i'm very much like tricia - if i literally don't go anywhere except academic pages on youtube, there is an exceedingly low chance i'm going to run into a virus on this machine.

but, i keep my access speed very low for this reason, and the reality is that there's nothing on the machine - and i'm happy to run an automated format/reinstall if it gets dirty, through whatever accident.

my concern is malicious hacking from the outside in, not picking up random worms or viruses, and moving to windows 7 isn't going to protect me from that.

i need to point something else out, though - this isn't your average windows xp machine, it's exceedingly stripped down to nearly nothing. i've ripped out almost everything, and that means that it's probably actually safer than running a stock seven, which has all kinds of goodies for bad guys to use.

what's going to actually happen if i pick up a worm is that it's going to error out because it can't find the system files it needs to operate and replicate.

if this works, it's perfect.

chrome was working a little better for me, but it's full of spyware.

firefox is a little less invasive, but it was sputtering out on the hardware.

so, if this works as well as chrome, without the spyware...

what i want is a lightweight firefox fork that i can get to youtube with.

let's hope this works.

ok, so did this guy did the research for me.

i've never heard of mypal before, but if it's a fork of pale moon then it should be a little lighter weight than firefox.

is that my answer?

so, i'm going to try doing this in the other direction, instead. it's formatting and reinstalling. once i find the right version to boot back into, that will be frequent.

the last version with xp support is 49.

can we start there and move backwards, if it stutters or is otherwise overloaded?

they could start a blog, even?

"but, what would people do?"

they could go to school?

read a book?

make some art?

be free?

removing the ad revenue as an incentive would no doubt drastically clean up the internet of garbage.

...just as removing the profit motive, in general, would eliminate massive amounts of waste from society.

70% of the economy just shouldn't exist, anyways.

the world isn't going to end if the roman atwoods out there no longer exist, guys.

"why would people upload if they can't get ad revenue?"

if you're just uploading for ad revenue, i'm entirely certain that your content is garbage to begin with, and we'd all be better off if you didn't bother in the first place....

let's seize the means of reproduction, and turn the ads off once and for all.

"well, if you don't support the business model, how will the service continue?"

we should nationalize it.

it should be public property.

what does it cost to run some servers? i'm sure there's a few dollars in the military budget.

at 144p, fwiw.

i'm trying to watch a lecture on quantum physics.

and, guess what?

it's not even monetized.

"but, ads are our business model."

i don't fucking care about your worthless business model....

so, can we get google to realize what's important here?

the environment is important.

ads are not important.

i'd rather have an old, insecure laptop that i use strictly to access youtube than a pile of perfectly good electronics in the fucking landfill, because you're enforcing advanced encryption to watch an ad for a bunch of worthless garbage that i don't remotely care about.

this is dystopic...

"you're the one that's not concerned about security!"

well, you're right, i'm not...

what i'm concerned about is the environmental footprint around being forced to upgrade my computer to access your fucking ad servers.

29 is better, but it's not actually working....

let's try 30, then.

and, yes: i'm being forced to download from shady places, because google won't offer secure downloads. clearly, they're not actually concerned about security, if they're forcing people with old machines to go to shady sites, are they?

this chromebook is running 60-something and seems fine....for now....

but, my computer might be too slow to run the ads on youtube - something that youtube has decided is a reason to deny access to the site, altogether.

what i'm worried about with this version of firefox is that video seems to lag behind the audio, which is kind of a shitty deal when you're watching somebody scrawl out equations on the board.

i guess the final workaround would have to be to move to a different site, like vimeo or dailymotion, but there's no guarantee that the encryption requirements are less advanced.

it does also seem as though there are more lightweight browsers for linux that are being more readily maintained.

if i could get a bit more ram in that laptop, i could probably upgrade it to vista, but that doesn't actually help me.

i'm not sure if the windows 7 setup disc would let me install to that machine, or if there might be a workaround in a version for "developing markets".

fuck, i just don't want to put a working machine in the landfill. this is stupid...

some of youtube is even using tls 1.3, apparently, which was enabled in chrome 70.

the last version with xp support is 49.

but, if i'm getting blocked due to not having tls 1.3, then firefox 52 would have to have tls 1.3, too, and that's certainly untrue.

it does, however, have tls 1.2.

i think that should be the end fix, but let's find out.

the encryption is for the ad server.

lol...

how did we get here?

i'm really bad at letting things go.

surely, somebody is still supporting xp?

k-meleon? no. but, i tried the last available version from 2015 anyways, and it wouldn't load the codec. i don't know why, but i'm not the only person with the problem.

if there's a good html5-ready firefox fork that still supports xp, i can't find it.

i think the problem i was having with chrome was that the early versions didn't have tls 1.2. that clicks in with v 29. so, let's give that a run.

actually, this is literally his father's car, for some reason that i don't think anybody else in the world understands.

and, then, there's this:

i'll let you look up comments previously made about authoritarian regimes.

the song is from 1979. it isn't about him. but, it nails him.

are we going to tip over into a famine to minimize the inconvenience on the oldest?

we haven't even done the things required to protect them.

and, are we going to wait until it's too late before we realize what's happening?

i wonder if mr. trudeau has ever heard of jello biafra...

i mean, what is the basis of our prosperity, in the first place?

if we were a poor country, how would our oldest and weakest fare?

so, let's try to think a little bit more clearly than setting up a false dichotomy between public health and the economy. leftists are supposed to think in dialectics. we can, should and must do better than a dumb argument like that.

likewise, did mao starve his people on purpose?

again - there's some evidence that he, and the people around him, took advantage of what was happening, yes.

but, that's not the important lesson of history, here.

and, those are just two of many, many examples.

did stalin starve the ukrainians on purpose? he starved some of them. the fact that stalin was a caucasian aside, there is no ethnic difference between a russian, a pole and a ukrainian, and trying to argue for a russian genocide targeted at ukranians is hard to properly define.

the reality is that, as a geopolitical entity and nation-state, ukraine didn't really exist yet, at the time. it was just southern russia. the concept of the holodomar is consequently rooted in a historical anachronism.

it is true that there was a lot of opposition to stalin in the southern regions of russia, and he does appear to have taken advantage of the famine, which was indeed brought on by his policies. that is a different idea, though, than claiming that he planned it all out from the start, like hitler did the holocaust - this wasn't something that was mapped out years earlier, and ukrainians were not specifically targeted due to their...i don't want to even use the word ethnicity. they have the same religion, even. their dialect? what identifiable characteristic do you even base the claim of difference on?

it would be like white new englanders carrying out a genocide against white southerners. you couldn't even figure out who was who, if it wasn't for the different accents.

rather, i think that obfuscating the primary point of history here, which was that the forced collectivization fucked up the farming industry, is rather unhelpful in understanding what actually happened.

and, there remain lessons here about what happens when you shut down the economy too fast, in the wrong way - millions of people starve to death.

when authoritarian states ruin their economies under whatever argument or delusion or misguided policy, famines often set in rather quickly.

"when they came for the potatoes, you said nothing."

ok, ok - and, you know, this isn't trivial, because the kind of mismanagement we're dealing with in canada right now does have serious consequences.

our government is acting like an authoritarian state, right now. there's a history of famine resulting from states that act in this manner.

so, i want you to ask the question - do you not think your health is reliant on the economy? do you really think these are separable ideas?

listen, i remember staying up all night to download smashing pumpkins bootlegs on a 14 k modem.

i'm not one of these impatient kids that's been on broadband their whole lives.

i don't mind waiting a few seconds for it to load, so long as it does load.

the streaming option is preferable on an older machine like this, but youtube doesn't want you to do it (for obvious reasons.), so you have to play cat and mouse with them, and nothing's supported anymore.

i don't see any other conclusion to draw - the next time this happens, i'm going to have to move to linux.

for now, the esr version of firefox works, and i'm going to have to suffer through the scripting errors.

ok.

so, i'm going to eat and move on.

i'm just thinking back, and i don't think i've ever bought potatoes at a grocery store.

i don't think i've bought a package of pre-cut french fries in upwards of fifteen years.

on the rare occasions that i'll buy a burger at a restaurant, i essentially never get fries.

i'd guess i might buy at most a poutine once a year, and over the last ten or so it's certainly been less frequent than that.

i'm more likely to get hash browns with a breakfast special. and, i guess i might get a small fry from time to time if i'm waiting somewhere.

but, in sum, i've probably had less than a bag of potatoes, in total, over the last 20 years.

listen: i'm sure we can find something to do with the excess product. there's lots of hungry people out there.

but, i can't think of a more high impact collective health decision than cutting potato consumption to almost nothing, permanently. it would be a godsend, for public health.

the demise of the potato industry would be an excellent opportunity to reclaim the growing space for a more useful produce.

potatoes really aren't very good for you.

so, i don't really have a lot of sympathy, here. we'd be better off if the demand for this product crashed permanently.

why don't they shift to growing more nutritious fruit and vegetables, instead?

https://globalnews.ca/news/6870689/coronavirus-canada-food-supply/

what this means is that standing two metres from each other at the grocery store is completely pointless.

https://wwwnc.cdc.gov/eid/article/26/7/20-0764_article

google,

there is absolutely no possibility at all whatsoever that i'm ever going to pay the slightest bit of attention to your stupid, worthless advertising.

deal with it.

was the file malicious?

maybe if you work for adsense, it was.

it's a video codec for remote viewing through smplayer.

what you want to do is turn this off.

i'm going to shiver for an hour in anger and outrage over this.

google chrome just blocked a download because it was "malicious".

and, i'm about to throw this piece of trash in the fucking garbage.

listen, google. you don't fucking decide that. i decide that.

fuck off.

so, smplayer seems to run fine on xp, but in order to stream from youtube, i'd need to replace mplayer with mpv, and the latter will no longer work with xp.

so, i'm basically doing the same thing with this that i was with chrome, except that i'm less confident in this working, because i suspect youtube has already banned it.

ugh.

i'm going to try it, at least...

i'm not going to adjudicate this decision from a distance without the facts.

but, i will point out that approaching the issue case-by-case is far preferable in a free society - and that a few bad apples shouldn't be allowed to ruin the situation for everybody.

i would suspect that this is probably symbolic. i don't know...

i know i'd prefer to have not seen it happen, but i don't know the facts.

https://www.france24.com/en/20200426-sweden-cracks-down-on-bars-as-crowds-flout-corona-rules

this appears to be happening in new york as well, where herd immunity in new york city is being offset (or distorted) by a rising problem in buffalo. i pointed this out looking at the italian numbers - you need to be sure that you're looking at the data in a granular enough manner, to ensure you're not misinterpreting the interference patterns.

this is going to be an expected feature of this, as things develop - very localized waves, at the city or even neighbourhood level, rather than broad waves at the state, provincial or national level.

https://www.bridgemi.com/michigan-health-watch/coronavirus-surges-grand-rapids-area-bucking-trends-rest-michigan

and, i will refuse vaccination out of spite.

i'll take a jail sentence, in protest.

i'll go underground.

you won't get that needle in my arm without a fight.

if you're a capitalist piece of shit, go find the right companies to invest in...

but, again - if your body doesn't remember the antibodies when you meet this thing in the wild, it won't remember them when you get a vaccine, either.

i keep asking the question: what's really going on?

and, the incredible levels of stupidity and ignorance coming from these bodies is strongly suggestive of what was an early hypothesis: man made or not, it seems like big pharma is driving the response to this.

you're going to be immunized at great profit margins, whether you need it or not.

the choice that we have is between dragging the process out and maximizing exposure to the weak or hurrying it up and minimizing exposure to them.

i don't need to be an epidemiologist to tell you that there's a 100% chance that we'll get to widespread immunity before a commercially available vaccine is ready, regardless of what we do.

we don't have a choice between getting to immunity and waiting for a vaccine - you can't stop an airborne virus with a half-ass quarantine.

we're already most of the way there, despite our best efforts.

https://www.latimes.com/science/story/2020-04-25/could-a-controlled-avalanche-stop-the-coronavirus-faster-and-with-fewer-death

it'll be a sad day in canada when we deduce the liberals are just as fucking retarded as the conservatives are.

but, that day of reckoning may be nigh.

you can, in theory, at least teach the ignorant.

but eventually, after so much failure, there does come a time when you have to deduce that those who you initially thought were only ignorant are, in truth, surely stupid, as well.

liberal ignorance or conservative stupidity.

pick your poison.

i'm just going to undo anything you do, so don't waste your time.

so, it seems like this post:

when is the ndp going to get rid of jagmeet singh and put a serious leadership candidate in place, already?

(https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.com/2020/04/blog-post_13.html)

disappeared.

and then reappeared inside of the previous post:

as horribly ignorant as justin trudeau is, we don't need a return to conservative stupidity in this country.

what the fuck?

i've been clear with you, google - i do not tolerate deleted posts. and, i don't want you fucking with my writing.

so, fuck off.

the ndp should have won the last election, and would have if they had a serious leader.

when is the ndp going to finally get rid of jagmeet singh and put a serious leadership candidate in place, already?

as horribly ignorant as justin trudeau is, we don't need a return to conservative stupidity in this country.

https://www.google.com/search?q=%22pierre+poutine%22&rlz=1CALEAA_enCA898&oq=%22pierre+poutine%22

so, his concern is that it's disincentivizing people from working.

why is pierre poutine even being interpreted as a serious candidate?

the guy should be in jail.

lock him the fuck up.

https://globalnews.ca/news/6870332/coronavirus-freakonomics-conservative/

vlc is kind of bloated, by design.

i need something sleeker than that.

my 2009 version of vlc is clearly not cutting it.

i'm trying smplayer, first. i think it's most likely to work...

and, regarding the ads on this chromebook.

i don't watch them. if i can't skip them, i press the mute tab and multitask until they're done.

trying to force ads on people isn't going to make them more willing to engage with them.

i would imagine that youtube doesn't want you doing this.

but, this is likely to become more widespread than less so, so long as google insists on blocking such a wide variety of devices from the site.

it would be a lot easier if i could use a browser - but they won't let me.

i don't even run adblock on that machine because 99% of the videos i watch don't even monetize.

iirc, the problem i was having was with playlists, specifically. at the time, i had this giant playlist i was running through, and it just wouldn't stream right.

i'm not actually doing that, anymore; what i was doing when i switched over was watching all of the stanford videos since the beginning, in order.

so, for now, at least, i wonder if i could just try it again in the version of vlc in the image from 2009...

i want to find workarounds to make this old equipment work for as long as it can.

again: my primary concern is the environmental footprint.

i don't want to throw out good equipment that works and ruin the planet to buy more in order to make it easier to spy on me.

i had something called a tv card for a while in the 90s, which literally let me watch tv on my computer. this wasn't streaming internet - i plugged the cable line into my video card.

it worked flawlessly for years on a pIII with windows 98 and 64 mb of ram, which was a high-end machine at the time.

but, i can't event connect to youtube with a laptop that has a processor that is twice as fast and 4x as much ram?

it's ridiculous...

i think i'd rather get cable than buy netflix, frankly.

i mean, can you stream the news over netflix?

and, why don't i use netflix?

i wouldn't even want to watch anything on netflix. that's not about technology, and it's not about price, it's actually about what i'd want to watch vs what i wouldn't.

youtube has university lectures and independent documentaries and whatnot, and that's far more interesting to me than movies or tv shows. the fact that it's free is a bonus, sure, but the reality is that if you gave me an unlimited netflix account for free then i'd probably never use it - i'd rather watch youtube, anyways.

one of the things i was playing with a while back was the idea of using something like smplayer to access youtube instead of using a browser, but it wasn't there yet.

maybe it is now.

the actual problem is the ad servers. that is why you need ridiculous specs to do something you should be able to do effortlessly on a thirty year old pc, and just can't.

this shouldn't be this complicated, really.

my concern is not safety, or security - it's making the best use of perfectly good aging equipment, while minimizing the environmental effects of consumerism.

the laptop works perfectly fine. it's a pentium grade computer, with hundreds of megabytes of ram. compared to the devices that sent neil armstrong to the moon, this thing is a super computer.

but, i can't connect to youtube with it?

that's absurd.

i don't want a newer computer.

i want a lighter browser.

why don't i just use the chromebook?

the chromebook is in my bedroom, which is where it's going to need to be until i can build an image for the main laptop. i don't think there's anything wrong with the battery, but the operating system won't read it. so, the device is no longer mobile - it's in my bedroom, and it's plugged in.

i don't have any desire to buy a new battery, and i don't have time to learn how to reprogram the chip. buying laptop batteries is one of the worst things you can do for the environment. so, it's probably not going to have a battery for...for years, really. it may never get fixed...or, i may need to wait until google decides i can't use it anymore, and i have to flash the chip to turn it on, anyways.

this device was purchased for mobile use. i log in as a guest account, and i'll be turning it off as soon as everything else works properly, again.

i fundamentally dislike the chrome os, and i actually wish i'd have bought something else.

so, i've been eating in bed over the last few months as everything else has been broken or disabled, and am trying to stop doing it. that's the point of what i'm trying to do.

what i'd have to do is turn the machine off and move it into the kitchen every time i eat, which means i couldn't pause the lecture halfway through, which is what i'm trying to facilitate.

so, there's basically no way to use this device for that purpose at this time - and it's not what i want to use it for, anyways.

i don't even really understand why chrome would need to use encryption to go to youtube.

what is being encrypted, exactly?

i'm just watching lectures at stanford. i don't care if hackers steal the information, so long as they don't slow down the stream. but, i'd suggest that it would be faster if they'd just go there, themselves.

i'm going to end up moving to linux....

i have a stack of ancient pc ram, but nothing for the 90s laptop.

so, we're going to have to find a version of chrome that works, for now. youtube won't run with scripting off.

so, i woke up and googled coronavirus like i have every day for however long, now and realized something...

i don't even care anymore.

just let me know when it's over.

i started updating chrome sequentially from 4 upwards and ended up blocked from accessing youtube by the server. i'm not sure what to do next if that's not temporary.

but, i'm very close to refocusing and it's what i really want to be doing, right now.

i'm going to need to make some calls early in the morning. right now, i want to find an acceptable solution with the 90s laptop and get to work on finishing that master document for 01/14.

this really ought to be taxable, if the government is treating them as a business (which is what they actually are.)

https://globalnews.ca/news/6869703/coronavirus-wage-subsidy-parishes/

chrome 4 is fast, but it doesn't have the right encryption algorithm, it seems.

let's try a few, and work my way up.

let's hope there's a little less spyware, as well.

old versions has lots of old versions.

let's give this a try.

i mean, that's the reason that chrome is workable on this thing and firefox isn't - i can get to youtube on much older versions of chrome, and need relatively new versions of firefox.

maybe there's a plugin. but, i'm so low on ram...

it seem like chrome had h.264 support in 2009?

i wonder if i can find a version that old.

firefox 28 loads well on the 90s laptop, but youtube won't default to the webm codec, so the minimal version i have to run to get to youtube is firefox 46. with versions of 46 or higher, the html5 video works, but the javascript constantly hangs, which is probably a processor issue, rather than a ram issue.

it's still at 256 mb. i should look into ordering something from ebay, which is probably both my best and only option with a laptop that old. it's probably going to cost something like $20 for 1 gb of ram. but, i might also even have some of the right kind of ram, too. i don't even know...

the comodo fork seems to be trying to access a lot of system files that i've purposefully removed, which is worrying me a little. these look like ie files. so, i'm going to back away from this.

i'm going to try chrome again, after i check to optimize for the best version.