this morning was weird. i did not intend to sleep. i wanted to rest my legs and get up to eat. i did pass out around 7:00. they woke me up a few times, the last time around 11:00, feeling very minimally agitated.
i wouldn't even describe this as ten seconds. i'd describe this as increased blood flow, maybe even due to high progesterone. however, it hung on after i got up to urinate and, without causing any actual effects, was painful enough to prevent me from going back to sleep.
i had to roll over and think this through.
i hadn't eaten in 30+ hours. forget about food, then. i was metabolizing fat. i know that we store lots of toxins in our fat tissue, and it's a different way that carrying around extra fat, or extra muscle, or extra weight in general, is a health risk. mercury, for example, builds up in your fat deposits. so i rolled over and checked it and steroids do actually build up in your fat tissue.
it follows that if i was in ketosis due to not eating this morning, i was releasing the steroid toxins that were stored in my body fat, as i was metabolizing it. the results would be similar to eating something that had been drugged. i was being drugged by my own fat cells.
this indicates the potential problems and complications associated with drugging somebody. it's true enough that i would now have toxic testosterone molecules sitting in my my body cells, and it's going to take months or years to truly get rid of it. in the short run, i want to make sure i'm eating enough to prevent myself from burning stored tissues, until i can get to burning more of it off with cardio, which i'd hope should just excrete the toxic steroids through urine.
sure enough, i made some pasta and fell back to sleep to get the rest i missed this morning and i woke up perfectly limp, as i should. i was no longer in ketosis, i was now metabolizing the food i just ate.
i think i've got this problem figured out.