of course i want my music to have a wider exposure. who wouldn't? that's the point: i want more people to listen to it.

but, even if performing it was actually remotely plausible, it would still be the wrong way to market it. i need you to listen to it in a quiet space, through headphones, alone. you won't understand it through the atmosphere of a bar or a concert hall - and it's not designed for that kind of ambience, either. and, it's not even a question of not compromising on it, i'm just adamant that it's just the wrong way to do it.

so, i need to get the recorded music to djs, record stations, record labels, stuff like that - and then try to convince them to listen to it in the right way. i mean, there's a reason the beatles stopped touring when they hit their experimental phase; it just no longer made any sense to try and create it live. i'm not getting anywhere trying to jam over a three hundred part backing track - it's boring, and pretentious, and misses the point. those three hundred parts took a long time to make - i actually want you to hear what they sound like.

i actually got somewhere at some point by trying to market the recordings via youtube trolling, but i wasn't actually moving any units and made the choice to retreat.

is this a harder problem than trying to market a band? i'm not sure it is, anymore, even if it isn't the expected set of problems that a diy musician tends to come up with. i mean, i'm still pressing records by hand, here, i'm just trying to get you to click a link rather than trying to sit you down and listen to a song. harder is questionable, but different is certain - this is a very different challenge, and i'm going to need to use very different approaches.

as it is, i have two choices.

i could put something together, and have it sound nothing like the recording. or, i could show up to the gig and pres play, like a dj set.

my music is not reproducible by live musicians, and is not intended to be.