i'm a very different person than i was fifteen years ago.

at the time, i was still looking to experiment. i thought i had a good understanding of myself, but i wasn't sure. and, i learned a lot of things about who i am and what i want.

today, i know what i want, and i know that what i want is a solitary existence. i know that i'm not interested in exploring my sexuality any further, and i know that i'm going to respond violently to anybody that pushes the point.

you can listen to me and help me find a nice, isolated place where i don't have to socialize with people....or we can do this the hard way and leave a trail of frustration, tears and carnage on the way to me getting what i want - or dying trying.