i never decided to reverse anything. rather, i made a decision to put my transition on hold in order to carry out an experiment, and then ran into financial problems when i tried to resume it.

and the experiment failed. i did not accept a male sexual role at all, but flailed against my inability to live up to the expectations of a female partner that was uninterested in accepting my femininity. and, the relationship was short-lived because i couldn't do it, and didn't want to do it.