so, i started the migration to moving to the step for the night, and i decided to take a walk to get a grasp of the temperature. i came back in and realized that all of the things i'd been doing for the day to get the heat up in the unit had worked better than i thought, despite still getting that bone chilling reaction to the refrigerants. i've pointed out before that the "air conditioning effect" is very much like a windchill effect; it may say 25 on the thermostat, but it's going to feel more like 15 with the air conditioning. i ended up breaking out into another cold sweat within minutes. so, what next?

i took a shit, picked at my face a bit (at least all of the sweating is helping flush out my pores.) and noticed myself warming up a little. i suspect he turned the a/c off or down not long after i posted last, but i've also noticed something else: the fact that i was wearing shoes, meant my feet were off the cold floors. that appears to have made more of a difference than anything else i did, making me realize the extent of the problem being caused by the cold flooring.

the easy answer may be to put something over these tiles.

as the chills started coming down, i found myself mostly interested in what i've been trying to do, but can't due to the a.c: sleep. so, i napped for a few hours, and was up after midnight.

it was raining....i closed the window and knew i was in until the morning....

....and what i realized is that the other side of the apartment is much more pleasant, that this frustrating refrigeration is only happening on the side of the apartment i spend most of my time in; the air temperature on the side with the kitchen & bathroom was not being distorted by the refrigeration. it was actually almost comfortable in there.

so, i tried to force myself to finish the pasta and couldn't. i got some laundry done. and, i'm just waiting for it to warm up outside.

am i just sick? is that really what's happening?

i have no other symptoms, and a history of getting cold very easily. i'll admit that it feels a little like some kind of food poisoning, so maybe i ate something bad twice, but i don't feel i need to bring in the idea that i'm sick to explain this. i've been through violently adverse reactions to even minimal amounts of air conditioning far too many times for this. so, this seems more like the 76479th time i've been cold from air conditioning (it's admittedly extreme, but not by much) rather than the first time i caught this particular coronavirus.

it doesn't matter, really. i don't want to self-isolate, so i'm not getting tested. if i happened to pick it up at some store somewhere, i don't imagine that it'll take too long for me to clear it. but, i mean, is it possible that i picked up a virus, and that virus is exaggerating my natural aversion to indoor refrigeration? sure. but, it's just as likely that there was some bacteria in my bottle of caesar dressing, and it got me twice. or that i'm just an underweight transwoman with a bmi around 20 and i don't have the insulation required to adjust to large drops in temperature - especially not in the summer, when my diet cuts roughly in half, and especially not after long bike rides where i probably burned off upwards of 10 kg.

so, what now?

it doesn't seem like i'm going to get much done. i'm typing from my bedroom, but i can't sit in here, it's too cold. i might try to force myself to finish that pasta while watching physics lectures, until the heat comes up enough that i can get some sleep.