sarah has, like no poker face.

it's what she says that matters - i'll be the first to tell you that. even if it's not what she feels, even if she's failing to hide something....she has the right to make that choice. she has the right to suppress her feelings, and it's her prerogative to be distracting, if it's what she wants, too. obviously. and, it's sad that i have to say that, explicitly.

but, it was about as obvious as could be that she was always excited and happy to see me, when i did bump into her.

one of the last times i bumped into her, she literally started skipping. like a little girl. and, so i asked her the question with the obvious answer: is this weird? is she uncomfortable? and she said yes, and i left.

i wonder if she regrets telling me that, but i had an obligation to listen, and i knew it.

but, she wasn't mad at me, she didn't hate me...she was trying to coerce me into detransitioning, or something...

i was sure she'd get over it, and i gave her years to do it, through a series of careful checks and balances.

i guess i was wrong.